Saturn
4th February 2015, 06:00 AM
I am beginning to notice something about myself.
I seem to have trouble relaxing.
I realized this the other day when I was at the dentist. The dentist put one of those breathing devices over my nose. He said it was to help me relax, and it worked a little bit, but I suddenly became very aware of my anxiety, and I was also very curious as to how the various tools the dentist was using worked because I'm always curious about that stuff like that.
Also I have trouble falling asleep in a moving vehicle now. For some reason I feel like if I'm awake that the person driving wont crash or is less likely to crash because I can see whats happening. When I was a child I never had this problem.
In fact I feel like I spent most of my childhood in a trance. I was always getting in trouble for daydreaming. Sometimes I'd just sit there staring out the window and I could see tiny little lights moving around in random directions and velocities in the sunlight. I don't even know what those lights are but I still see them just by simply looking into the sky during the daytime.
So now that I've been starting to meditate I can feel my arms and legs relaxing just fine but my chest and head stay alert. I cant even take naps, I can only fall asleep during bed time. I pretty much have energy for the whole day, especially if I am doing some kind of physical labor and then I get tired at bedtime. If I do manage to take a nap, I feel terrible when I wake up.
I think this is a good goal for me to start with. Learning how to relax again. I'm just not entirely sure what the source of the problem is.
I seem to have trouble relaxing.
I realized this the other day when I was at the dentist. The dentist put one of those breathing devices over my nose. He said it was to help me relax, and it worked a little bit, but I suddenly became very aware of my anxiety, and I was also very curious as to how the various tools the dentist was using worked because I'm always curious about that stuff like that.
Also I have trouble falling asleep in a moving vehicle now. For some reason I feel like if I'm awake that the person driving wont crash or is less likely to crash because I can see whats happening. When I was a child I never had this problem.
In fact I feel like I spent most of my childhood in a trance. I was always getting in trouble for daydreaming. Sometimes I'd just sit there staring out the window and I could see tiny little lights moving around in random directions and velocities in the sunlight. I don't even know what those lights are but I still see them just by simply looking into the sky during the daytime.
So now that I've been starting to meditate I can feel my arms and legs relaxing just fine but my chest and head stay alert. I cant even take naps, I can only fall asleep during bed time. I pretty much have energy for the whole day, especially if I am doing some kind of physical labor and then I get tired at bedtime. If I do manage to take a nap, I feel terrible when I wake up.
I think this is a good goal for me to start with. Learning how to relax again. I'm just not entirely sure what the source of the problem is.