Dreamscape
21st November 2014, 11:54 PM
Hi Robert,
I'm a young woman who had a 'spontaneous kundalini awakening' around four years ago and I'm having some trouble integrating and understanding this energy despite being an energy practioner/teacher myself.
I've done extensive research online about this but I've thus far not come across anyone in real life with my specific experiences, symptoms. I don't view myself as more or less special than anyone else going through this and understand each experiences Kundalini in a different way. Please let me point out that I have issues labelling this energy as Kundalini, mainly due to the immense amount of 'belief system' orientated thought forms that surround it.
So my question is what can I do to work with and integrate this energy so that I can have Conscious OBE's and take my learning to the next level? I have been in resistance for the longest time but it has dawned on me that this energy is going to stay with me and I might as well surrender to it, but it's not always so easy. I'm really at a loss at present with no-one I can share my experiences with openly. Intuitively I feel my Higher Self/Guides activated it so that my life may turn onto a new direction (which is has) but I'm feeling incredibly lonely and frustrated that I've not been able to take this energy/experiences to it's natural progression... I have been seeking teachers all of whom I felt deeply disappointed in and ended up expressing their feelings for me! As such become somewhat mistrustful. I'm just not sure what I'm meant to do with this Energy, I know what is possible with it but it doesn't seem as though I'm progressing... which makes me feel like why is it happening if I'm not moving to the next step.
Some of what is happening/happened to me:
*Four years ago laying in bed and suddenly hearing high pitch noise from nowehere following by what seemed like a lightening rod of electricity course through out my body.
*Since that time feeling energy in my body constantly 24/7, no switch off button. During the day time the energy is more subtle at night it becomes very intense, feels like electric currents travelling through my body in waves.
*Energy becomes almost unbearable at night time especially if I lay on my back making it almost impossible to Astral Project. Inside my ear begins to vibrate, along the jaw bone, feels like my energy body is moving away from my physical.
*Chakras sometimes open and begin to beat like drums, everything builds to a crescendo but unable to Astral project! Energy is far too distracting! Left feeling very frustrated and confused.
*During the day time soles of feet and hands are the most active, tingling and vibrating with subtle energy.
*Despite feeling so much energy in my body, still have pain in various parts of body particularly lower back area.
*Spontaneous Conscious OBE's in the past but not experienced a 'conscious' one for quite some time. Also Lucid Dreams which seem to automatically transition into OBE's with lots of energy activity.
*Mind becomes distracted and fearful because it does not feel in control, feels asthough Kundalini is in control of me.
*During meditation energy intensifies, energy affects my breathing, fear begins to set in. Pull myself out of meditation many times.
*At night when I close my eyes white flickering light, sometimes other colours, feels like room is spinning, muscle spasms, twitching
*During night time can feel the Kundalini moving around my organs, especially the heart organ
*Sometimes feel energy at the base of spine, turns in a circular motion
*Some senses have become hyper sensitive, touch, taste, sound, hearing [not sight as far as I'm aware, I wear lenses!]
*6 months after awakening entered into a particularly toxic relationship that caused intense trauma and PTSD (feeling that this experience may have stopped the Kundalini completing what it set out to do??)
Thanks Robert, really appreciate any insights you may have.
I'm a young woman who had a 'spontaneous kundalini awakening' around four years ago and I'm having some trouble integrating and understanding this energy despite being an energy practioner/teacher myself.
I've done extensive research online about this but I've thus far not come across anyone in real life with my specific experiences, symptoms. I don't view myself as more or less special than anyone else going through this and understand each experiences Kundalini in a different way. Please let me point out that I have issues labelling this energy as Kundalini, mainly due to the immense amount of 'belief system' orientated thought forms that surround it.
So my question is what can I do to work with and integrate this energy so that I can have Conscious OBE's and take my learning to the next level? I have been in resistance for the longest time but it has dawned on me that this energy is going to stay with me and I might as well surrender to it, but it's not always so easy. I'm really at a loss at present with no-one I can share my experiences with openly. Intuitively I feel my Higher Self/Guides activated it so that my life may turn onto a new direction (which is has) but I'm feeling incredibly lonely and frustrated that I've not been able to take this energy/experiences to it's natural progression... I have been seeking teachers all of whom I felt deeply disappointed in and ended up expressing their feelings for me! As such become somewhat mistrustful. I'm just not sure what I'm meant to do with this Energy, I know what is possible with it but it doesn't seem as though I'm progressing... which makes me feel like why is it happening if I'm not moving to the next step.
Some of what is happening/happened to me:
*Four years ago laying in bed and suddenly hearing high pitch noise from nowehere following by what seemed like a lightening rod of electricity course through out my body.
*Since that time feeling energy in my body constantly 24/7, no switch off button. During the day time the energy is more subtle at night it becomes very intense, feels like electric currents travelling through my body in waves.
*Energy becomes almost unbearable at night time especially if I lay on my back making it almost impossible to Astral Project. Inside my ear begins to vibrate, along the jaw bone, feels like my energy body is moving away from my physical.
*Chakras sometimes open and begin to beat like drums, everything builds to a crescendo but unable to Astral project! Energy is far too distracting! Left feeling very frustrated and confused.
*During the day time soles of feet and hands are the most active, tingling and vibrating with subtle energy.
*Despite feeling so much energy in my body, still have pain in various parts of body particularly lower back area.
*Spontaneous Conscious OBE's in the past but not experienced a 'conscious' one for quite some time. Also Lucid Dreams which seem to automatically transition into OBE's with lots of energy activity.
*Mind becomes distracted and fearful because it does not feel in control, feels asthough Kundalini is in control of me.
*During meditation energy intensifies, energy affects my breathing, fear begins to set in. Pull myself out of meditation many times.
*At night when I close my eyes white flickering light, sometimes other colours, feels like room is spinning, muscle spasms, twitching
*During night time can feel the Kundalini moving around my organs, especially the heart organ
*Sometimes feel energy at the base of spine, turns in a circular motion
*Some senses have become hyper sensitive, touch, taste, sound, hearing [not sight as far as I'm aware, I wear lenses!]
*6 months after awakening entered into a particularly toxic relationship that caused intense trauma and PTSD (feeling that this experience may have stopped the Kundalini completing what it set out to do??)
Thanks Robert, really appreciate any insights you may have.