TheSingular
4th January 2014, 07:45 PM
This is my journal, it contains various memories from my life and in those, the ones that are important to me and being about spirituality. I've decided to start writing this two days ago, and I thought "I'll eventually share it with someone" but when I found this section in this forum, I've decided to share it with everyone around here. I'll post more stuff as I have more important events in my life which involves spirituality. I've copied this text from the word document I've been writing into. As I add more text, I'll save those to the document as well. I'm also open to the questions you may ask and the advices you may give. And now the journal:
MY SPIRITUALITY JOURNAL
By Batuhan “Doruk” ÇİMŞİT
The Past
Hi, I’m Batuhan. This is my journal that keeps track of my own spiritual development. I’ll start by what happened in my early, late childhood and puberty that made me want to develop my spirituality, and then develop this journal more to keep track of my more recent progress.
The first event has happened when I was at the age of four. I don’t remember this, but I can tell what my parents know about this.
According to my parents, I was able to read at age two. They say that I was able to understand words and sentences that are written. Naturally, I don’t remember these times, but I do know that I was able to read at the time of the first bits of memory that managed to be carved into my head in my early childhood. I was at age four then, but it was later than the event I’m going to talk about. Yeah, I was able to read, but I wasn’t able to properly speak! As time passed I hit age three, and then age four. My parents got worried about me, because I was way past the age that most children should start to speak properly. So they have started to look for ways to make me start speaking, I don’t know what else they tried but the last one did work and that was probably my first spiritual experience, even though I don’t remember. They took me and went to a hoca, (pronounced as hodja-we can simply call him master though) told him about my problems, and he performed a ritual, generally what we Turkish people call okutma. It is generally that the hoca starts to say things in Arabic language, often religious stuff included, to send spiritual energy to someone else for good purposes (like healing, protection or empowering) and blowing air to the subject through his mouth at times. According to my parents, right after that he finished doing this, I’ve started to speak properly.
After this, I’ve lived a normal life, away from spirituality, as there was no one that could talk to me about. As I’ve lived my childhood, I’ve read many books, though the books that affected me the most were written by Gülten DAYIOĞLU, all being children novels, some of them involved spirituality, as the main theme. In all of that type of novels, there was a race of humans or different animals that evolved into a higher spiritual beings in time or that were created as highly spiritual beings a long time ago to reveal themselves at a certain time and transform the humans’ lives to better, making them spiritual, and full of love. They had many fantasy in them, but the main message was always clear: The humanity is not as good as the best it can be, and they have a high potential to become higher beings. I grew up with that dream, but without knowing that it was possible to make it real, I’ve spent many years, my entire childhood actually.
In high school, things got a bit different for me. I got access to the internet, and through it, I discovered that the psychokinesis was possible. I never got ahead the most basic parts of it though, like bending(folding) money without using my hands and something called psi-wheel, (Take a pin, a rubber and a piece of paper that is square shaped. Than stick the top part of the pin into the rubber, leaving the sharp part out, fold the paper in a plus shape (take two corners of the paper to one of their neighboring corners, fold, than unfold and take those corners to the other neighboring corners, fold, unfold) or cross shaped, (take two opposite corners of the paper, bring them together, fold, unfold, and do the same for the other two corners) than put the paper on the pin, the middle of the paper that have been folded twice in different directions will exactly be on the sharp point of the pin. After that, hold hands on both sides of the paper and imagine the paper rotating. Also use BATI for increased efficiency. If you need to, you also can rotate your hands to visualize it in a better way.) but I had good times playing with the basic skills. At that time, I was probably most known person of my grade, so everything “different” I was doing was making them curious. Soon, I teached how to do this to some people in my classroom, the quickly started to do it. I even was playing with them by sending my energy to make it stay still. I also was feeling energy in my hands, rotating in my hands it to rotate the paper, and when I was doing it for a longer time, e.g. at least 30 minutes, my hands were starting to feel a bit weird, as if it was calcified and it was harder than normal to move my fingers. That was my first conscious experience with spiritual and psychic energy. I was successful to learn how to “crawl”. After that, I tried to run without learning how to walk, by trying to levitate stuff. Obviously it didn’t work, and soon after I got kind of frustrated with it and stopped doing it. This whole thing took a few months in my life.
After that though, I’ve thought about how I can develop myself and learn how to walk. I’ve come up with the idea of aerokinesis, as I found myself close to the element “air” at that time. I’ve decided to train myself about that. With some practice, I was able to do that up to a limit, I was able to direct the wind, increase or decrease its speed, stop it, or create one when there was none. (When I needed to do that was to cool myself because it was hot at these times, and it also was the hardest one to do, also the resulting wind was a pretty slow one)
Time passed, I graduated from high school and went to Blacksea Technical University, to study medicals. On the first grade, there was many new things to me, and I forgot about spirituality. I started practicing spirituality again at the end of the first grade though, this time, I was trying to get an OBE exit. So far, I didn't make a conscious OBE exit, but I've came close to it a few times. I’ve learned various things about myself and the energy body, started to work on my chakras directly. But that caused bad things in my life, not because I was doing spirituality work, but I had a neg attached to me and disguising itself as the brow center and stealing the energy I was trying to give my brow center. The results was terrible: I felt worse and worse every day, I was becoming bored more and more, causing me to sleep during lessons in university, staying awake had become a real fight for me. And when I was at home, I was playing video games instead of studying, because not doing so was causing incredible boredom on me, also reducing the effectiveness of my studying. I was studying one slide, and when I pass to the next slide, I had forgotten all I’ve learned from the previous one, Until I’ve read it more than three times, I was having a hard time to remember the information within one slide. And there were too many slides for that. I eventually felt myself horrible, even trying to suicide, and getting frustrated when I couldn’t do it. I was having trouble every day. After I’ve started practicing spirituality, I’ve stopped practicing spirituality again after six months, and after 3 months from that, I’ve decided to quit studying medicals, and later it seemed like the neg had been weakened by this.
I eventually failed the class, but I didn’t go back there to study next year. I’ve started preparing for the university exams once again. I was having a good time while studying and learning. Then I met a Reiki Master (not physically), and got many attunements and activations from her. They affected me in a very good way, I started feeling better, and gradually, even better. This increased my success in physical life too, making me prepared better for the upcoming exams. Than I’ve started to work on my chakras again, which has started to have a bad effect on me again, because the neg was still there, doing this was making it stronger. I’ve started to learn more about spirituality, and that day, I found out about the neg inside me. And banished it finally. This solved many problems I’ve had beforehand, and I was finally able to work on my brow chakra and the crown chakra especially. This happened three days ago, on 1 January 2014, so we can say that finding out and banishing the neg was the new year present from my Higher Self for 2014 ;) Today, it’s 4 January 2014, Saturday. I’ve started writing this journal two days ago, on 2 January 2014. That means I didn’t take the university exams yet and that also means the important events after this date will be much more detailed as I will write them freshly.
The Present
(The events in it are in the Future for me now, but they will become The Past for me when I write them)
This section is empty because I've completed writing the first section, "The Past" today and I haven't had important events since then. I'll add them as replies to this thread.
With the hope of sharing information with you, learning from and teaching to you.
And of course, with Love; :heart:
TheSingular
MY SPIRITUALITY JOURNAL
By Batuhan “Doruk” ÇİMŞİT
The Past
Hi, I’m Batuhan. This is my journal that keeps track of my own spiritual development. I’ll start by what happened in my early, late childhood and puberty that made me want to develop my spirituality, and then develop this journal more to keep track of my more recent progress.
The first event has happened when I was at the age of four. I don’t remember this, but I can tell what my parents know about this.
According to my parents, I was able to read at age two. They say that I was able to understand words and sentences that are written. Naturally, I don’t remember these times, but I do know that I was able to read at the time of the first bits of memory that managed to be carved into my head in my early childhood. I was at age four then, but it was later than the event I’m going to talk about. Yeah, I was able to read, but I wasn’t able to properly speak! As time passed I hit age three, and then age four. My parents got worried about me, because I was way past the age that most children should start to speak properly. So they have started to look for ways to make me start speaking, I don’t know what else they tried but the last one did work and that was probably my first spiritual experience, even though I don’t remember. They took me and went to a hoca, (pronounced as hodja-we can simply call him master though) told him about my problems, and he performed a ritual, generally what we Turkish people call okutma. It is generally that the hoca starts to say things in Arabic language, often religious stuff included, to send spiritual energy to someone else for good purposes (like healing, protection or empowering) and blowing air to the subject through his mouth at times. According to my parents, right after that he finished doing this, I’ve started to speak properly.
After this, I’ve lived a normal life, away from spirituality, as there was no one that could talk to me about. As I’ve lived my childhood, I’ve read many books, though the books that affected me the most were written by Gülten DAYIOĞLU, all being children novels, some of them involved spirituality, as the main theme. In all of that type of novels, there was a race of humans or different animals that evolved into a higher spiritual beings in time or that were created as highly spiritual beings a long time ago to reveal themselves at a certain time and transform the humans’ lives to better, making them spiritual, and full of love. They had many fantasy in them, but the main message was always clear: The humanity is not as good as the best it can be, and they have a high potential to become higher beings. I grew up with that dream, but without knowing that it was possible to make it real, I’ve spent many years, my entire childhood actually.
In high school, things got a bit different for me. I got access to the internet, and through it, I discovered that the psychokinesis was possible. I never got ahead the most basic parts of it though, like bending(folding) money without using my hands and something called psi-wheel, (Take a pin, a rubber and a piece of paper that is square shaped. Than stick the top part of the pin into the rubber, leaving the sharp part out, fold the paper in a plus shape (take two corners of the paper to one of their neighboring corners, fold, than unfold and take those corners to the other neighboring corners, fold, unfold) or cross shaped, (take two opposite corners of the paper, bring them together, fold, unfold, and do the same for the other two corners) than put the paper on the pin, the middle of the paper that have been folded twice in different directions will exactly be on the sharp point of the pin. After that, hold hands on both sides of the paper and imagine the paper rotating. Also use BATI for increased efficiency. If you need to, you also can rotate your hands to visualize it in a better way.) but I had good times playing with the basic skills. At that time, I was probably most known person of my grade, so everything “different” I was doing was making them curious. Soon, I teached how to do this to some people in my classroom, the quickly started to do it. I even was playing with them by sending my energy to make it stay still. I also was feeling energy in my hands, rotating in my hands it to rotate the paper, and when I was doing it for a longer time, e.g. at least 30 minutes, my hands were starting to feel a bit weird, as if it was calcified and it was harder than normal to move my fingers. That was my first conscious experience with spiritual and psychic energy. I was successful to learn how to “crawl”. After that, I tried to run without learning how to walk, by trying to levitate stuff. Obviously it didn’t work, and soon after I got kind of frustrated with it and stopped doing it. This whole thing took a few months in my life.
After that though, I’ve thought about how I can develop myself and learn how to walk. I’ve come up with the idea of aerokinesis, as I found myself close to the element “air” at that time. I’ve decided to train myself about that. With some practice, I was able to do that up to a limit, I was able to direct the wind, increase or decrease its speed, stop it, or create one when there was none. (When I needed to do that was to cool myself because it was hot at these times, and it also was the hardest one to do, also the resulting wind was a pretty slow one)
Time passed, I graduated from high school and went to Blacksea Technical University, to study medicals. On the first grade, there was many new things to me, and I forgot about spirituality. I started practicing spirituality again at the end of the first grade though, this time, I was trying to get an OBE exit. So far, I didn't make a conscious OBE exit, but I've came close to it a few times. I’ve learned various things about myself and the energy body, started to work on my chakras directly. But that caused bad things in my life, not because I was doing spirituality work, but I had a neg attached to me and disguising itself as the brow center and stealing the energy I was trying to give my brow center. The results was terrible: I felt worse and worse every day, I was becoming bored more and more, causing me to sleep during lessons in university, staying awake had become a real fight for me. And when I was at home, I was playing video games instead of studying, because not doing so was causing incredible boredom on me, also reducing the effectiveness of my studying. I was studying one slide, and when I pass to the next slide, I had forgotten all I’ve learned from the previous one, Until I’ve read it more than three times, I was having a hard time to remember the information within one slide. And there were too many slides for that. I eventually felt myself horrible, even trying to suicide, and getting frustrated when I couldn’t do it. I was having trouble every day. After I’ve started practicing spirituality, I’ve stopped practicing spirituality again after six months, and after 3 months from that, I’ve decided to quit studying medicals, and later it seemed like the neg had been weakened by this.
I eventually failed the class, but I didn’t go back there to study next year. I’ve started preparing for the university exams once again. I was having a good time while studying and learning. Then I met a Reiki Master (not physically), and got many attunements and activations from her. They affected me in a very good way, I started feeling better, and gradually, even better. This increased my success in physical life too, making me prepared better for the upcoming exams. Than I’ve started to work on my chakras again, which has started to have a bad effect on me again, because the neg was still there, doing this was making it stronger. I’ve started to learn more about spirituality, and that day, I found out about the neg inside me. And banished it finally. This solved many problems I’ve had beforehand, and I was finally able to work on my brow chakra and the crown chakra especially. This happened three days ago, on 1 January 2014, so we can say that finding out and banishing the neg was the new year present from my Higher Self for 2014 ;) Today, it’s 4 January 2014, Saturday. I’ve started writing this journal two days ago, on 2 January 2014. That means I didn’t take the university exams yet and that also means the important events after this date will be much more detailed as I will write them freshly.
The Present
(The events in it are in the Future for me now, but they will become The Past for me when I write them)
This section is empty because I've completed writing the first section, "The Past" today and I haven't had important events since then. I'll add them as replies to this thread.
With the hope of sharing information with you, learning from and teaching to you.
And of course, with Love; :heart:
TheSingular