DarkChylde
9th July 2013, 04:03 PM
ok so let let me share an example of how i (think) i might be jinxing probably good outcomes.
after ages i get a good date , most days i have a very short list of check marks to swipe ; healthy, sane , intelligent, no criminal intent,no visible birth defects,clean breath, no obvious signs of lechery or deviant thinking , not living in parent's basement (you get the picture), by the time we seat ourselves to start conversation all my check marks are met and around the same time "husband-vision" mode goes off with the alarm blaring full throttle and i'm wondering how persuasive the person would be to asian house keeping ( a japanese house with sliding doors and no furniture or clutter) , by the middle of the meeting i end in the bathroom to "de-jinx" , by running a few thoughts in my head , like :
"calm down"
"practice emotional detachment"
"don't pre-determine outcomes"
"don't set goals , let the situation progress naturally"
blah blah blah , list goes on , again (you get the idea)
If nothing good comes out of this date (and others like it) , i can't help but wonder if I'm jinxing things by thinking too much and meddling in the natural progression of things? like i'm poking my nose way too much in the creative manifestation of things and putting the cart before the horse so to speak , it's like when you're making eggs , standing at the stove puttin them on the pan and you get a bad one , like with a small crack or a hole in it and you think that "if all these eggs were incubated , the bad one just wouldn't have turned into a healthy little yellow chick while the rest of the batch would have" , yes i think like this sometimes , please don't judge me.
Similarly , someone else was telling me the other day she too had this problem , then she told me how she had a really good situation going but thought way too much about it everyday "picked , poked and fidgeted with the situation in her mind" and attached a lot of expectation and excitement to it and ended up jinxing it.
I asked her if she (like me) avoided telling certain people certain things , who might not possibly have the best intentions for you and their malice could possibly "contaminate" what we had going? so that our unexpectedly sweet situation turns sour?
She said yes.
I totally do the same thing , you can pick the jealous , envious or unhealthy vibe from someone (whom you would suspect wouldn't want good things to happen to you) so that their malice tamper or ill-intent wouldn't hinder your future happiness.
Also when i was young i read a manual that said , manifestation is a process where you plant the seed and wait a while for the seed to turn into a sapling and then go onto full bloom (achieve fruition).
After planting the seed you don't "turn the earth over , or pick or prod at it to see how the seed was doing" , trust the universe and give it time to let it do it's thing.
So similarly setting good intent and affirmation or manifestation in process ongoing , is jinxed by thinking about it and not giving your seed a good chance to grow.
It's like having a scab after a while you get to curious and your end up scraping it off to see what's going on underneath , "am i healthy? is my skin healing properly? will it leave a mark?" , you know you shouldn't do that but you still do?
I'm not sure if any of this is making sense now , because i'm naturally prone to "thought loops" and "repetitive thinking" and such type of OCD , as it is :-(
after ages i get a good date , most days i have a very short list of check marks to swipe ; healthy, sane , intelligent, no criminal intent,no visible birth defects,clean breath, no obvious signs of lechery or deviant thinking , not living in parent's basement (you get the picture), by the time we seat ourselves to start conversation all my check marks are met and around the same time "husband-vision" mode goes off with the alarm blaring full throttle and i'm wondering how persuasive the person would be to asian house keeping ( a japanese house with sliding doors and no furniture or clutter) , by the middle of the meeting i end in the bathroom to "de-jinx" , by running a few thoughts in my head , like :
"calm down"
"practice emotional detachment"
"don't pre-determine outcomes"
"don't set goals , let the situation progress naturally"
blah blah blah , list goes on , again (you get the idea)
If nothing good comes out of this date (and others like it) , i can't help but wonder if I'm jinxing things by thinking too much and meddling in the natural progression of things? like i'm poking my nose way too much in the creative manifestation of things and putting the cart before the horse so to speak , it's like when you're making eggs , standing at the stove puttin them on the pan and you get a bad one , like with a small crack or a hole in it and you think that "if all these eggs were incubated , the bad one just wouldn't have turned into a healthy little yellow chick while the rest of the batch would have" , yes i think like this sometimes , please don't judge me.
Similarly , someone else was telling me the other day she too had this problem , then she told me how she had a really good situation going but thought way too much about it everyday "picked , poked and fidgeted with the situation in her mind" and attached a lot of expectation and excitement to it and ended up jinxing it.
I asked her if she (like me) avoided telling certain people certain things , who might not possibly have the best intentions for you and their malice could possibly "contaminate" what we had going? so that our unexpectedly sweet situation turns sour?
She said yes.
I totally do the same thing , you can pick the jealous , envious or unhealthy vibe from someone (whom you would suspect wouldn't want good things to happen to you) so that their malice tamper or ill-intent wouldn't hinder your future happiness.
Also when i was young i read a manual that said , manifestation is a process where you plant the seed and wait a while for the seed to turn into a sapling and then go onto full bloom (achieve fruition).
After planting the seed you don't "turn the earth over , or pick or prod at it to see how the seed was doing" , trust the universe and give it time to let it do it's thing.
So similarly setting good intent and affirmation or manifestation in process ongoing , is jinxed by thinking about it and not giving your seed a good chance to grow.
It's like having a scab after a while you get to curious and your end up scraping it off to see what's going on underneath , "am i healthy? is my skin healing properly? will it leave a mark?" , you know you shouldn't do that but you still do?
I'm not sure if any of this is making sense now , because i'm naturally prone to "thought loops" and "repetitive thinking" and such type of OCD , as it is :-(