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susan

14th May 2014, 08:33 PM

Been doing bit of homework on Kurt Leland's perception and understanding of different types of dreams and where we are in dream .
( Dreaming research forum)
The problem I have is becoming lucid in the dream . So many OBEs and remembered dreams that may have had no relevance to anything going on in my physical life , but I think the most convincing recalled dream where I think spirit were encouraging me to wake up was the other nights dream.
Dream.
Standing at a bus stop and someone approaches me and tells me to wait at this stop as a bus is coming this way soon.
He waits with me.
Bus arrives and the bus driver tells me I don't have to pay. But the driver had the ugliest face heavily painted in green.( this was the first time I saw a witch type face. ) It was so ugly it was funny. In the dream as I go to my seat I think. " why does he look he's in fancy dress" his face turns and watches me as I take my seat.
All the occupants of the bus arrive at this building after the bus takes a very fast sharp corner.
Everyone gets off and goes into the building but I'm not allowed in. I haven't got a ticket. I hear a young girl just inside upset because she doesn't know her father. Friends console her and one says " I have a picture of my brother you can have it."
( I can understand that bit due to a previous experience recorded here. )
As I sit outside the scenery turns to snow that I hadn't noticed before and from the building comes.........
ROUND BALLS the size of humans. They were laughing and bouncing down hill in the snow. as soon as I saw them I got an image of young boys rolling out of a pub just having a laugh. Next someone fully kitted in a space suit comes hopping along in the snow.( I perceived him as another one of the young happy drunks. They all shout to me as they roll down the hill laughing and tell me I should join them. I remember sitting on the bench thinking that they were having so much fun and I seemed to be working out at the time that I was meant to perceive them as they were just for a bit of fun.( but this was all remembered as a dream . )
I feel sure this was an attempt to help me wake up. Just didn't work but lovely to recall. Quite happy when woke up.

This dream seems to resemble what Kurt Leland describes as ' After the Fact lucidity'
Also at the beginning of the dream when I was walking to the bus stop this was my physical home setting ( which he suggests may be your own dream space) When we arrived at the destination on the bus after a sharp corner the setting changed to new territory unknown to me .( this may have been the switch from my own space to the astral) ....................or not.

susan

15th May 2014, 05:02 PM

Got a shock this am .
Woke 4 am. No recall of dream. Little energy raising but soon fell asleep.
Dreamt was walking onto my conservatory in real life and could see my neighbour in his garden . I sat down with a paper and looked up from it , when my neighbour is sitting right in front of me smiling. My recalled thoughts were that he shouldn't be there, he was in his garden a second ago. This gave me such a shock that I woke up with a start and felt the electric shock tingle right through my body.

susan

20th May 2014, 08:58 PM

I need to understand more about our selves. I feel I need to read more . I can not get enough reading but there are not enough hours in the day for that and work and energy work. Everything in physical is as I would want it . Would not want to change a thing ( apart from maybe living on a beach with my greenhouse at the side) .
So why aren't I content? Why am I frustrated at the lack of time to understand more.
All my astral travel experiences visiting other realities were experienced well before this journal started. Everything in the last two years has seemed to be planned rather than explored by me.
One vision that I didn't record still has me thinking .( approx 6 weeks ago)
One morning with no recall of dream saw upon wakening ,
The singer Madonna in a black trouser suite. Behind her were two young children . One was a girl of about 4 years of age and the other was a boy of the same age and they were wearing the same trouser suite. They were holding hands and smiling and were going to kiss but they both had what appeared like white paper stuffed in their mouths so they couldn't. ( maybe they couldn't talk) . I just don't know .

susan

21st May 2014, 08:13 PM

Can only remember the last part to a dream and think it's related to what I posted above but will record for journal.
Dream
I was in a class where someone was struggling.( well that's not a surprise) .
We went into another room where the bed was not made. She dropped to the floor as if no energy.( aha light bulb moment whilst writing this) I picked her up from the floor and supported her. We went to the window where people had come to sing Christmas carols. She collapsed again to the floor. I picked her up and she was so floppy. We were up a level and were looking down on them through the window. She didn't have the energy to go down to the door to answer it in time so they left. I could hear them singing.
I was holding her and told her that I wouldn't leave her. I will always be with her. In the dream as I woke up I could feel the cuddle I gave her .
Woke up approx 5 am from this did little energy work but really cozy.... Just sleep......
Woke up to seeing a picture of pastel colours, then another picture of same colours but took different shape. Then another picture with same colours but different pattern. Now I hear the click from a camera many times and I see one picture that has all the pictures made up to the one picture. I was being asked a question . What do you see? In my mind I replied " all the pictures made into one."

Now I'm not stupid this is relevant to what is going on with me in my thoughts . But there is an inner intelligence that does not show through in physical that seems to be speaking to me in my dreams.

susan

29th May 2014, 09:41 PM

Wow, well had another experience that I can not forget. Not sure how to describe this.
OBE. Lucid dream? Simulation? I don't know but what I can say is that all day I have been going over and over it in my mind and I can not forget it until I write it down. If this was just a dream then why does it leave such an impact on me .
Will record the lead up this ,then the experience .
But I need to do some homework on this one as there are similarities appearing and Kurt's writing may guide me into understanding more so will at a later date add to this post my feelings .
( feel I've been here before with the space station in space)
Here goes.

Lead up to this.
Sunday morning woke up to " it isn't Wednesday yet"
Monday morning remembered a dream where I'm on a beach on holiday and there's only two days left till I go home.
Wednesday morning remembered a dream similar to others recorded here about entering a plane at the back. Was told it was full so I could try the middle section for a seat but the partition was closed so I had to leave the plane to get to the middle seating area. The doors closed I couldn't get back on.
But on recalling this dream it seemed to be a tease. As if I was being teased about flying or not.

Wednesday night settled down to nights sleep after a days work , one glass of wine with dinner , early night. Slept till 2.35.
Little energy work when feet and legs started to tingle. Could feel the energy travelling up to my knees. Carried on till energy got stronger and legs got lighter and lighter and now I'm up and above body. No astral noise, no vibrations.raising high. No vision at this stage but could feel movement along and to the right.
I knew an OBE was in progress and could now see as if I'm flitting fast through a dimly lit ground floor of a department store.
Next thing I'm floating to the ground and someone is behind me.
This is like a really large cafeteria. Full of people, so many standing and sitting round large round tables , but the first thing I noticed were the people at the front at the food section. They were not earth humans. Almost like something out of Star Trek.( had this before) We went over to the middle of the room where there was a large table with empty seats and a few people sitting round it. As we approached a woman at the table showed me where to sit and says. " So you wanted to meet us. You've arrived". A lady in her early 30s approached to talk to her and as she did I was assessing the situation, that I'd OBEd and was here in a room with people who looked like me and people who took on different non human like features.this lady was petite, human form but her facial features were different in that her chin was much longer which seemed strange.
A suggestion was made that we went over to the end of the room where there was a massive window. I did and this was the incredible thing . It was like looking down onto a massive stadium full of people and we were above this. Next thing we are down in the crowd and it's massive. Nothing like I've experienced before , thousands of people. They were having a great time. As I followed who I was with I noticed they were walking so I wondered why , so decided to skim the floor and float. Yes this worked. ( so why did they walk when they could have floated? ) Was thinking this at the time and wondered if this was protocol they followed ( remembered previous obe)
As we were going on to the massive stage with thousands of people on ( there was an entertainer in the middle doing the music people were dancing to) ...............things faded and I must have gone to sleep.
Woke up trying to make sense of this. It was 5.30 am. Asked for assistance here in understanding what this had been, a dream of no relevance? An OBE, to where? A simulation for my attention , but meaning what? ( needed help here before I analysed in day time. )

Picked up me taking things out of a locker in a changing room, talking to a girl who was just arriving and she was stuffing things into a locker. She tells me the teacher is lovely with everyone. Felt this was a changing room.
Had similar before.
Must do some homework on this one as there are similarities from previous experiences but a complete surprise. Certainly nothing to do with anything like this on my mind at the time.

All day I've felt frustrated. Something lovely there that I would like to revisit and be part of again.

susan

31st May 2014, 05:28 PM

I need now to attempt to understand what the above post was about, but first,

Similarities.

1) Floating through a dimly lit department store.
2) Prior hints to an event about to take place.
3) floating down to the ground and floating instead of walking.
4) The locker room/ changing room and both times a reference to a teacher. ( Harry potter type dream. Page 12, (9/9/13) )
and the beautiful feathered sky which I felt was protection at the end .( page 22 '( 29/01/14)
All three involving locker rooms and leaving me with the same amazement.
5) the massive window/glass wall and looking down/out at amazement at what was below. ( Harry potter)
6) Losing consciousness just shortly after arriving down below. ( Harry potter).
7) Non human form characters looking like star trek characters.

So reading some of Kurts beliefs.

A) everything you see is an image your mind has supplied for an energy perceived on the astral plane.
B) all environments in non physical reality are made of consciousness/ energy/ information.
C) aliens perceived are conscious beings ( robots) of a simulation that can report back to teacher. ( a good sign that the inner senses are working)

From this I strongly feel that the previous post was a simulation due to the star trek characters. I had been given prior hints that an event was approaching. The story to the event took me to think that I had finally been taken to meet a guide as I have sent many requests to do.The problem here is that I am starting to use my senses more and when I've experienced shadowy figures , fun balls,or fun space men, i have sensed how they wanted to be perceived male presence or female. I've felt either fun from them or a fondness from them and towards them. Even when I perceived a space station and met with the alien type men the main person came across as a male and I felt much fondness from him. ( he was a genuine I'm sure) If this woman posted above was a guide I felt nothing.
So I have to think what was this for.?
I think the large window was the exit out of the simulation into the astral plane.( kurt gives a similar example)
I believe what I experienced once leaving the simulation was astral and boy were they having fun. The same I believe happened with the harry potter event and once again they were having so much fun down below.

End of dream this morning I'm going to the telephone and have to make two calls to two Nuns.

susan

2nd June 2014, 08:29 PM

Bit more homework on Kurt's advice on the chakra systems and developing inner senses has opened my eyes to just how much help we get guiding us through the learning and development process.
I know I've had a few OBEs that could have frightened me if I had let them but luckily I knew these had to be tests. The one that had me plummeting to and through the ground was a corker . I hope the fear issue is maybe dealt with.

A year ago I experienced a contact with a shadowy energy during an OBE which was in the corner of the room whilst the characters were talking to me in a doctors room.
( I had a condition that I thought was more serious than it was at the time, and during this OBE the characters talked to me telling me the doctor didn't want to see me yet, it was hormonal and my blood was diamond.) At the end of their chat this shadowy figure came up and sat next to me and opened a book and told me to look. I felt much warmth from him and fondness and sympathy. It then ended.
Due to Kurt's writing on inner senses coming into play I've done a recap of journal to see when some of these senses were starting to show.

24/3/13 elderly lady who had died but was perceived by me at first as she may have been thought of by people in physical.

7/4/13. Mushroom. This grew in size and as I put my ear to it it was singings with a beautiful soft voice and I just knew it was for teaching young geography. ( could young refer to souls training in school like conditions?)

21/4/13 sensing these were friends.

16/8/13 OBE working out at the time that the person who looked like my mother wasnt

17/9/13. Moses basket, shadowy figure but knew it was a woman.
Within this same story the book that told a story, feelings of emotion.

22/10/13 Recalled as a dream but described a smoky grey cloud coming towards me which I knew was a truck.

6/4/14. OBE. Perceived a shadow in what I took to be my bedroom ( thought to be RTZ by me) . The shadow gave me a thought
that he wanted to see me.

14/5/14. Seen as big round balls but got the thought and impression of young men rolling out of a pub just having a laugh.( I saw
them as balls first then saw how I felt they wanted me to also see them )

29/5/14. Finally the last OBE seeing the Star Trek like characters ( aliens)

susan

5th June 2014, 03:28 PM

During this review of the journal something else has got my attention.

4/3/14
I seemed to be getting instructions on spinning chakras.

18/4/14
Much celebration at an airport terminal with a famous celebrity and I was given a special green coat.( every one else was given
black.)
22/4/14
During the semi wake stage deciding to do some NEWS saw a square take shape with 4 inside
Also picked up " the heart chakra is now open".

Could this last one have been letting me know that the heart chakra (4th) ) was now open because I just didn't get it the first
time when given a green coat 4 days previously ?

Yesterday morning picked up upon wakening " your Peter Pan, that I am " this sounded a lovely gentle voice.

The wording is I think to get me thinking .

1) Your Peter Pan .........could suggest this person is taking ME out and about

2) """""""""""""""" ..........could suggest I AM Peter Pan.

3) """""""""""""""". ........ could suggest This Person and Me are the same.

I go with 3. Especially after the OBE where the hand was wearing my old wedding ring.

There is such a lovely mystery to knowing there are parts of you you don't know ( at present) and this person has a lovely way
of surprising me. I just love it.
There is a very distinct difference between another communication that comes through that called itself " My Infinate
Father"
This morning this person came through and had a stronger more masculine tone almost. Advice was given in symbols
which was very relevant to physical ( been over spending a bit and feeling a bit guilty,) saw a tiny white purse and heard
" Treasures are found in here" I knew what it meant and thought it through when I heard " Another time" and immediately
saw the front of my I pad with a red square flash up in the right hand corner saying Congratulations Your a Winner.
I just knew this meant that I was right in my interpretation.

Something I forgot to record just incase it links in to anything in the future .
I saw me standing at a table with different sheets of drawings and gave them to a man. He gave me one back and asked me to look at it and tell him what I see. ( I knew that I hadn't drawn it)
It was a hedgehog being held so you could see the underneath of it. But instead of the body of a hedgehog it was a man.
( don't think there was anymore to that)

All that's coming to mind at the moment is a man with thorns on him( his head) Jesus.
Previously, I had to call two nuns,
In the past I've picked up a man looking like Jesus with his hands in the prayer position sitting at a table.
The beautiful Christmas tags with loving religious faces on them.
I think we are constantly being encouraged to raise our thoughts to a higher level.

susan

8th June 2014, 03:41 PM

Done bit more homework on Kurt Leland's understanding of developing Relational Senses. This maybe useful for me to have here to see where I am or not with these to save opening his book for future experiences.
But first up to now.

RELATIONAL SENSES.
These senses will allow projectors to the astral planes and higher to interact with the beings we
encounter providing us with non physical social skills which in turn helps us to know who are friends are.

1st). Co- operation.
When this is worked on and understood it enables us to meet and communicate with non physical entities .
He notes that FEAR must be overcome in the non physical reality,pointing out that many projectors enter with fear of
the unknown and entities they encounter ( not being able to distinguish between friend or foe) therefore as thought
creates experience travellers often create their own chaotic terrifying realities.

2nd). Vibration.
( one of the most important inner senses for astral travellers)
Our consciousness reaches out to others. Vibrational senses allows us to register and translate the information
about the consciousness we have encountered, pointing out that Munroe calls this process receiving Indents and
Leadbeater calls this Mystic Cords.

3rd) Communication.
This he writes allows us to converse telepathically with non physical entities .However our level of spiritual development
determines what we can understand from them, noting that if this skill is not working the message may come across as
** garbled and unintelligible .

4th). Information.
Seth describes this as the ability to understand and appreciate information in its entirety all at once.
( thought being information)
** Development of this allows us to recognise thought forms as conscious entities allowing us to receive
messages between communicators.

5th) Permeation
This is described as completely merging with another being so every aspect of consciousness blends with the
other being, experiencing the world from that beings perspective without loosing you own identity.

************************************************** **********

Thoughts.

Co- operation.
So once again pointing out that fear has to be addressed and it has been by me. I wondered at times why the yellow flies kept cropping up but that explains why. Done with.....forget...( I hope) I didn't instigate these flies as I wasn't frightened at the time so this shows we are being helped from the other side.

Vibration.
I think these are coming into play slowly . Examples of shadows and knowing what they are and are telling me is starting to show through.

Communication.
*** I think the bathroom 6/4/14, where the shadow I perceived conveyed a message that he wanted to see me in the bathroom and then I saw as clear as I can see in physical now two people.The man spoke rubbish, garbled. The woman I picked up what she was telling me by thought. I believe I still have a long way to go with this but am working on it in non physical.

Information.
*** If I have understood this as written under this heading above, then could this man have been a thought form relaying the message from( the shadow) ( guide) that I am working on and needing to develop these abilities.
But then I have to think to myself why didn't he just let me know because I picked up thoughts from the female ( thought form) and from him? Maybe I just had to work it out myself, like I have just now. ( or not)
A reminder to myself that Kurt says Never be afraid to get it wrong. As time goes on if I come to a different conclusion I'll just ad an edit.

Permeation.
Definately not there yet.

Just need to note that whenever I've recalled OBEs I have never recorded me speaking to them , but then apart from feeling someone was behind me and the space station then it does seem that they are getting closer. ( was told this)

susan

8th June 2014, 08:19 PM

Just want to add here something that I didn't record because I found it embarrassing and thought people would think I had a problem on physical , but I've always noted that I want spirit to understand I'm using the Betty Bethard's interpretation to dreams incase I have problems interpreting. I feel by now I should be interpreting my self but sometimes I have to look up something which seems strange.
The day after spending a full day ( Sunday ) attempting to understand the chakra system and inner senses , that night I dreamt.
............I'm in a dormitory at the far end with two friends at the other side. At the side of them was a famous personality sitting upright on his bed.
( here goes.... He was talking to his Penis. I didn't hear what he said just that he was talking to this part of him. )
He got up and left. By now I've gone over to my two friends where they tell me I couldn't have done my job whilst he was doing that.
As I watch him leaving the dormitory My attention goes to the back of his shorts. ( am thinking " I like his shorts")
End of memory of dream
Now through the day I had been having a problem with snails eating the leaves to my young cucumber plants and through the day had found two snails that appeared to be connecting with each other. I was wondering if this was them mating.
Looked up Betty Bethard's interpretation of my dream and one sticks out as .." Impregnation of ideas."
So the heavy thinking I spent that day trying to work out meaning and understanding could imply that If I had been working I couldn't have spent the time working on this.
I'd recently cut a little work to give me more spare time.( it's called getting older and not wanting to work so much)
Back to the shorts. For some reason my attention was drawn to the back view of his shorts to comment that I liked his shorts.
I think I was to note that they were clean . ( I was getting it and understanding the messages)
The reason I say this is because a dream I didn't record here had a famous personality walk away and from his back view his coat had widened and was soiled.( contamination) (I'm not getting the message ! )
......this is harder than doing a degree course.!!

IA56

9th June 2014, 06:44 AM

Hi Susan,
I just want to say that the feelings you get from your dreams are the pointers what to work on inside of you...as you say here, you did not want to record because of the imbarresment of the dream and what may the people think...shame and guilt, and you want to be accepted therefore you do not dare to be truthful, you rather lie or not tell all or the truth to be accepted or not to be rejected...so these are the common thems in everyones inner...fear of all kind of things. We just want to be accepted and included...so it is hard to free us from these bonds, but if we do it in love then I am sure it will not harm anyone, I have done it the most awful way you can imagen...said to my family to leave me alone...because they just do not listen, and I am too fragile and need so much peace and alone time...and when I want to bond now they do not, and I can´t blame anyone but me...but I do understand why I have done as I have done...so I hope I do not offend you with my right forward words...I just do not know how to say it more diplomaticly...

So more about how you can get more knowing from your dreams...it is to know your better...like the snails for example..snails are in the soile (ground) furtilising the soile, and very needed ones for making the ground soile more fertile so to speak...this is one example...so do you like gardening?? if you do then it is very clear example how you get your symbols, because all symbols we get is very personal, and just coming for our understanding so to speak, and therefore for others is more hard to help to uncode someones dreams, but some help it is others point of views can get one pointed in right direction so to speak.

Love
ia

susan

9th June 2014, 05:14 PM

IA56

9th June 2014, 05:41 PM

Hi, IA, thanks for your input. I just want to clear up a couple of points from your post.
Yes I did feel embarrassed with the dream, even at my age . The problem was at the time I didn't understand it's meaning. I often think of the implications of a post before writing incase I receive a hurtful response. I don't need to be liked, I just don't want to be hurt. I am very sensitive but that isn't a problem for me because I just stay away from any situation that may upset the peace.
I don't post all my experiences. Only the ones I need to think through or feel could be important to remember or just want to remember. Sometimes it's so obvious as to the meaning so it's....Okay , yes I get it. Not worth posting. For me when things get a little ...Wow...OMG.. it helps when I go back a few years into people's journals and see similarities when they had a lot going on being recorded. Outofbodydude 's journal ( I read some of it today ) and it's really good. It helped to read one where he was aware someone was behind him when travelling and saw the arm. ( had similar) also he later suggested that this may have been his higher self.
So what I'm experiencing at the moment , looking back at the older journals , most have been there done it got the tee shirt.( really don' t like that expression)
By the way, the snails weren't in my dream. They were on my patio in the back garden.
Always appreciate your input IA.

Hi Susan,
Yes I understand, no-one want to be hurt, but sometime there is no alternative as far as I understand, and I am therefore very sorry if my blunt straight forward does hurt, I just do not know how to say things gently...I want to learn, because I do not ever want to hurt anyone, but I do it often because I do not know how to communicate gently.
Oh was the snails on your pation, that is really a straight forward manifestation...wow...
But that fear you have we all have, and I do often think...how can we communicate and say just as things are, and happens...yet we tend to not say it all, and we do twist and swirle them so I get dizzy in my head and feel like I am in a merry go around :-)
I hope I do not scare you away and make you write less, if I am that enoying I am ready to stop writing or responding to your writing, I want you to feel secure and free in your expressions.

Love
ia

susan

9th June 2014, 06:21 PM

IA56

9th June 2014, 07:00 PM

IA, please you have not offended me in any way and I don't think you ever will because I know that what you write Is written from the heart and with such sincerity.
But you've got me laughing. The snails! They were two live snails I was watching in physical life on my patio. The fact that they ( I think ) were mating had me wonder if me having been watching them had anything to do with the dream until I got the true meaning.

Now I am laughing, becasue the word snail I thought it to be a worm...haha....did my misstake help you at all?? but snail now when I know what it is...the worms who live in soil...they do not mate...it was that what made me to look up the word...sorry.

Snail mating...making more deley??...are you??

Love
ia

susan

9th June 2014, 07:45 PM

IA, you've got me creased up with laughter. Cann't remember when I laughed so much. We have to solve this . Does anyone out there know if snails mate, oh frig what does it matter it wasn't a dream .

IA56

9th June 2014, 07:49 PM

CFTraveler

9th June 2014, 09:37 PM

Y'all gave me the weirdest mental picture.... lol.

IA56

11th June 2014, 10:34 AM

IA, you've got me creased up with laughter. Cann't remember when I laughed so much. We have to solve this . Does anyone out there know if snails mate, oh frig what does it matter it wasn't a dream .

Hi Susan,
Both snails and worms are hermafordits. As far as I understand that...they do mate...and they do change the gender to be able to mate, like an agreament who is who...haha :-)

Love
ia

susan

12th June 2014, 04:09 PM

OBE this morning.
But first , had cut down a bit on energy work or visualisation practice and been trying to learn more from multidimensional human.( Kurt Leland) Felt the need to use daytime to practice what he suggests for developing inner senses. Also to try to analyse more the meaning or purpose of past experiences, rather than just forging ahead and wanting more and more.No contact for few days and strangely no dream recall .
oh, just one small one....had been travelling in a long compartment( bus or train) but no one else was with me when it stops and I get off. My sister meets me and tells me that her brother ( we don't have one) is to drive me to London Today.
I felt disappointed having to go but she insisted that the police wanted to interview me about a murder that I had witnessed Today.
Now the emphasis was on the word Today. End of dream.
So got ready for work and went out to greenhouse to open window when I saw a big snail. It had eaten the slug pellets covering the soil to keep them away. It was frothing and bubbling, obviously dying. Unfortunately when arrived back home hours later it was still dying but alive. Took hours to die . Not nice. Sometimes I find messages can have double meanings but pellets will be taken off tomorrow.

However OBE

Slept well. No dream recall. 7.15am.
Decided just little energy work, then visualisation practice using nice coloured flowers as I thought of them. Settled when fairly soon I sensed my arms were floating. This stopped, moved onto my side when I was thinking the same thing. Then felt I was sinking.knew this was a good sign. Started to sink and sink when next thing I'm travelling up, no noise or vibration heading in a fairly straight angle of about 45 degrees. I didn't think I was lacking vision, it was just that there was nothing at this stage to see .
Then I see a silver spark, then another one, then more and I seemed to curve to the left now when the silver increased and I could see silver Christmas trees. Then gold sparks, more and more. These were gold Christmas trees. I'm now floating around looking at beautiful sparkling silver and gold Christmas trees . I zoomed closer to the gold trees and saw my golden snowflakes hanging on them. ( I was just going wherever I was going, did not attempt to alter direction ) to the right I saw my conservatory chairs and this gave me the feeling of a garden centre when you are in the outside area of it.
Then it ended abruptly.
Checked the clock. 7.45
I have to analyse this.
1) I had no perception of my body.
2) As beautiful as they were , this was as if viewing with a fine muslin cloth over . The sparkles were there but the true beauty wasn't.
I even got the impression of a transparent white cloth between my viewing and the trees.
So this had to be for my attention to work out.
Thoughts.
1) I had been wanting to utilise day time for practice and I Love my gardening and greenhouse. Could this be that by focusing on my gardening that I love this would help me . Eg) the beauty of watching the growth of a leaf originating from a tiny seed, or the near dead young plant that slowly grows and opens out and strengthens.
2) could the veil between me and the beauty I want to see in astral be thinning.?
I 'm going for 1) at the moment.

I just need to add to this just incase it has relevance in the future.

I was going to be interviewed previously.
The taxi driver was going to interview me to tell me how many people he had lost.
The witch type face was suspected of being an imposter. I saw the back of her being interviewed and there was a very vivid long black wig hanging up on the wall behind her.
This is maybe going to confuse the original meaning but will keep in the back burner just for future reference. ( it's just that she was in a police station being interviewed)

susan

14th June 2014, 08:54 PM

This morning upon wakening. I saw a container being closed with something in it and got " put those chocolate treats away" .
I very rarely buy chocolate but today my sister arrived unexpectedly with a gift of chocolates brought from Austria.

Morning time about 2 months ago ( didn't record) I woke up to remembering in a dream see some very acrobatic type moves by male and females when they disappeared from view . As if behind the board at the bottom of the bed and I heard some giggling. ( this was sweet) A hand appeared holding a box of breakfast cereal. ( this type is advertised for people wanting to loose weight.)
Went to work that morning ,in a hurry as usual. Came back late afternoon feeling very weak and wanting to drop. I hadn't had any breakfast.

I've been warned before about needing sugar and lacking energy the day it happened.

Also this morning I picked up that I should take my glasses.
This morning went to my first Tai Chi class and regretted not taking them as I couldn't see clearly the hand movements from the instructor.

What I'm trying to show myself here is that often we can dismiss what is picked up before wakening but many times for me it has been relevant for me to take notice.

I just need to tidy up the end of the last post in the hope there may be some sense of it.

3/5/14. Conversation with very strong male presence suggesting it was my 'INFINATE FATHER'. ( good short contact but left me feeling exhausted rest of day) Kept options open to the fact that this could have been an imposter.
8/5/14. Taxi driver ( previously could have been my ' Yer TACHI Man ') waiting to interview ME. To tell me how many puppies he had lost. I saw a zip opening and puppies getting out.
9/5/14. Cartoon witch type face being interviewed in a police station with a long black wig hanging on the wall.suspected of being an imposter.
14/5/14. Bus driver is the witch,( contents of the dream had me feel they were helping me)
12/6/14. The police wanted to interview ME.

To sum up
Infinate father suspected of being imposter.
The witch was being interviewed suspected of being an imposter
The bus driver is the witch
I am going to be interviewed by the taxi driver.
The police want to interview me.

Could this person claiming to be infinate father, be the taxi driver and the bus driver taking me and helping me,and at the same time be me ?
I had to write this but I have a feeling there will be no conclusion to this , just confusion so no more attempt will be made to make any sense of this unless......

susan

17th June 2014, 09:20 PM

Dream. / failed OBE / Dream.
Very unusual dream which seemed to take on a different direction. Nothing relevant to previous posts.
I had previously picked up that my mother was disappointed and could I meet up with her on Sunday?
So , Sunday evening had had a very heavy full meal late in evening ( which I try to avoid) Early hours of Monday morning when awake I recalled a dream of a police woman telling me that my car had failed Its MOT.
Whilst awake I feel so disappointed with myself to have had such a heavy meal, feeling I had failed myself in the possibility of experiencing something.
Taking this as ' get back to sleep your not going to experience anything' , I just accepted and decided there's always another chance another day.
Visit to bathroom, little water , settled to token gesture of energy raising then settled for sleep when jelly feeling , wobbling and I knew that this was a good sign. Focused on brow area , could feel movement but here was nothing fast about this. This was in one direction and steadily in one direction. As I focused I decided to just experiment with vision as I had nothing.decided to open astral/ etheric eyes and they opened. Thinking how good this was that I hadn't opened physical !!!! Stupid! End of , back to body .
So once again in one evening I'm disappointed.
Back to sleep wake up next morning. Recalled dream .
This will seem stupid to readers but here goes.
I'm in a large area where I'm waiting and flying around and practicing keeping up off the ground when someone of importance comes in . I just see a pair of trousers but see nothing from above. They give me a book. This is thick and heavy and as I open it the first page shows a 2x human bodies at the top, at the bottom was an animal of some sort and a baby and I got this is how we evolved to humans.
Woke up again and thinking how vivid this was and in fact (a bit in your face .), visited the bathroom and slept .
Woke up later in morning to dream recall .
I saw a statue representing my mother ( I thought at the time)
I' m sitting opposite someone who is advising me .
The statue comes next to me . Next thing it is a giant plant , like an anemone from the sea.
This was / is my mother.
I touch this /her as I ask questions.
Can you hear me? The flow from her is a yes.
Can you see me ? The flow from her is yes ,
Can you feel me ? The flow from her is yes .
Can you talk to me ? The flow goes in the opposite direction.
End of dream .
When I woke up, this had such a impact and got me thinking deeper than I have .
Thinking of the evolution of plants .
Can plants communicate to other higher intelligence? Animals can to humans . Humans can to higher beings in spirit ??
Oh just a dream but food for thought .
I am no biologist and this is just a dream . For my own way of thinking for this journal anyone reading this just think of this as a dream that Susan had ,
For me ?

( I know we don't have eyes within the astral body but the thought of opening eyes was more like requesting vision)

Add on .
I felt the need to do a search on Sea Anemones and was showing my ignorance when describing this as a plant.

***Although often known as the Flower of the Sea it is in fact a Water Dwelling Meat Eating Animal.
***It has a primitive nervous system.
***Has an Intelligence Within. Some form relationships with green algae receiving oxygen and sugar as the bi- product of the algae's photosynthesis.
Upon reflection I think the sea anemone was an excellent example for me to be shown. From the page in the book I would have expected within a dream to be shown an animal that I knew definetely as an animal.
This animal , previously thought by me as a plant highlights the intelligence within anything living from aquatic animals to terrestrial animals to amphibians. Then of course there are the plants.
Conclusion. This last dream was for my attention .

susan

21st June 2014, 02:06 PM

Babies are back// locker room is back// the man character I didn't understand is back.

20/06/14
2 short dreams.

1) I'm with 2 friends ( no idea who they were) in what looked like an airport shopping mall. We are going to meet one of my friend's parents. I run up ahead of them up the parents who are waiting in the distance. I tell the woman that I am her daughter's friend.
At first she doesn't understand me. Then she does and turns to her husband to explain what I said. He replies but I couldn't understand what he said.
( It's the same man during an OBE that I concluded was being used as a character , to relay a message from the ( shadow/ spirit/ guidance/ teacher) that I perceived during the same event.) the woman was different. Very elegant.
They walk towards their daughter who lights up a cigarette.
( I don't smoke)
The mother takes the cigarette from her daughters hand and stumps it out and throws it aside, telling her that she cann't smoke if she's pregnant.

Thoughts.
I think inner senses still being worked on as I still couldn't understand what the man said and although I don't smoke I think cleansing the body may be the suggestion here .Also my liking of nice things and wanting to spend a little more than I really should.( shops within airport) This may be necessary for me to advance further.
I believe these characters were used to get a message across.

2nd dream same night.
I'm with people who take me to my locker to collect my things.Im told I cann't go to the care home I want to go to. I was taken to the one that was not so nice. I'm standing whimpering , crying silently feeling so sad. I'm told I'll soon get used to it.

Thoughts.
I feel sure again that I have to curb my spending and be content with the simpler things in life if I want to progress.
Previously I had had disturbing face changes within message dreams pointing out to clean up my thoughts and words.( not to judge anyone till I've walked in their shoes.)

Today.
Dream
I'm with a friend again ( don't know who she is) in what seems to be a mobile home. A man comes in and I really liked him. He was nice. I felt much warmth from him. He takes my friend outside to talk to . I wake up.
I felt much warmth and peace when wakening up this morning.

Note)
Already noted 18/4 celebration at airport terminal and given a green coat. ( green, heart chakra, 4th Chakra)
""""""""""""""". 22/4.picked up Heart Chakra is now open.
I've been noting myself in journal recently that I'm starting to sense real spirits from characters where I feel nothing at all from the characters.
Just read some of Kurt Leland's work within the dream research forum where he writes ,

" the Fourth Chakra of all bodies is the one that allows us to tell the difference between non physical entities."
( just love it when things fall into place)

Good to hear from you Richard.

eyeoneblack

21st June 2014, 03:58 PM

The parting of the Red Sea, Susan. The Kundalini is stirring and necessarily throws this to the right and that to the left. You're dream of the gold and silver Christmas trees has been with me for days. Your presents are unified in the coming together of the Sun and the Moon - the marriage at the crown which completes the circuit and forever divides the World from the Spirit. It is so nice to see this awakening in a gentle way.

Even if I'm 'gone', I love to read your journal.

Richard

susan

21st June 2014, 08:41 PM

You will always be my internet mentor Richard , as you have a deeper understanding of symbolism than I currently have.

susan

23rd June 2014, 08:48 PM

I just want to add something as a point for me to notice about the previous dream recorded above concerning the locker room and not being able to go to the care home that I wanted to go to .I have thought before that sometimes I can touch on more than one possible meaning and this week I have 2 care homes to visit. The first , ( visited today) is a lovely new build and most there are able to have a conversation with you. Loved the day . No big challenge.
Tomorrow is the Dimentia care home that mostly leaves me feeling exhausted but at the same time I feel so rewarded at the end by that chance contact with the eyes, and the warm touch of their hands or the cuddle and kiss. The words that come out are of the past
and make sense to the patient but maybe not to me. Look into their eyes and they speak.
When we meet our partners we fall in love with them and their/ our eyes have that sparkle ,
These people unfortunately are not able to put into words what they used to be able to . But just look into their eyes and the understanding is there. Inside I feel they are crying out because they know something isn't right.
I've ranted on a bit but feel its important for anyone reading this to remember.
One day one of your relatives may have Dimentia . Make physical contact with them and look them in the eyes. You will feel that connection that science says you have lost.
Okay I've ranted on but I think I've proven to myself the benefit of working with what can seem to be more tiring and more effort required but at the end of the day is more rewarding spiritually.

susan

24th June 2014, 07:27 AM

Woke up from a short nap after my main sleep hearing just two lines to a song being sung.
" No two children should be the same.
Look in Your eyes and I see Mine."
Recalled short dream.
Dream.

I'm boarding a plane with a friend ( don't know who she was) . But this time we are the crew and this is our first flight. Our full uniform hasn't arrived yet. Only the coats missing. Two very smart experienced cabin crew arrive for the flight as well. I note how smart they look with their navy coats on.I step forward to ask her a question. As I do I see a small pile of rubbish on the floor at the side with a credit card on top. She dismisses the pile as okay.
End of dream. I forgot what I asked her in the dream!!

susan

26th June 2014, 08:09 PM

2 x dreams this morning.
First was after main sleep and going back to sleep again.

Dream1 )
I'm with my old nursing tutor from the past in physical. She is asking me why I haven't done what I said I would. This helped me recall a previous dream just recently about slowing down . This is obviously what I'm trying to do and have written about, and work has been either really quiet or too much like this week and next week. . I cann't seem to get a happy balance .
Thoughts.
This is what I know I need to sort out so nothing out of the ordinary for a dream . Because I already know this.

Dream 2)
This was quite a funny one and I was the observer.
I had tried a little energy work for a short time but now I get no energy sensations. This makes me feel I'm wasting my time. I know I'm not , and I know energy sensations can diminish but when you feel energy surges up your body you just know that you've activated something.
Decided to just go to sleep. Needed to be up sharp.
Woke up 30 minutes later than planned but recalled the whole dream.

I'm watching someone on a big boat being chased by another big boat. The guy looked like Hulk Hogan . He steers the boat in time onto the beach weaving amongst the sun worshippers lying down. The boat by now has turned into a sand bearing hovercraft.
He takes it up to a building just off the beach and runs in for safety.
This was like watching Miami Vice. This was a modern police station.
He's safe now. The people from the other boat ran in . They were police also and wanted to talk to him but he was safe now as the chasing police were out of their designated area.
This is the interesting bit.
He's sitting at the end of a long table being interviewed by the new police. He explains. ( Once again I'm the observer within this dream)
He says. " They've got it wrong. It wasn't me. It's like this . You know when you just take a pen and paper and draw squiggles like this.." )
His left side of his moustache now slips. He sorts it.
He now picks up a piece of paper and pen and starts to draw lines.
He continues. " I just do this and this happens"
At this stage I see his face change to a fatter face ( face changing) and I hear .
" I just want to take over your life" .
End of dream .
***** forgot to write that whilst talking his forehead had a large red circle throbbing as if he'd been hit with something .
( third eye)

Thoughts.
Right throughout my experiences I find memorable experiences may come across quite strong to stay ' MEMORABLE'.
They have to be strong to get your attention. Once again I have no reason to believe this was anything menacing.In fact it was quite funny like watching an old TV series.
I wondered about this after dream recall and wondered if this was anything to do with automatic writing.however now that I've written about it I'll probably be proved wrong but still an interesting dream.
( also I picked up ... I'll tell you when ....
Also just to not I've noticed a pattern forming .
I play on line scrabble with my sister and so often after coming in from doing something I have really enjoyed and feel happy about I sit down switch the scrabble on with a cup of tea and think of a word immediately that very often has been between 50-60 points. 4 times I didn't even know the words existed.

susan

27th June 2014, 07:03 PM

Symbol seen this morning very fast.

A man holding a small lamb under his arm with a large wooden cross through the lamb's body.

I have never pretended to belong to any religion, but respect people who do . The message this gives out is that they want to be guided to be a better person. How can this be wrong? It's not. I just don't need to pick a religion.
But the cross made me think of Jesus and what he represented.
This in turn had me notice within the journal .
5th June .....symbol shown of a hedgehog turned upside down with a mans body underneath.
Thought at the time of Jesus with thorns on his head. This could be showing a connection between man and animals.
12th June......dreamt of being told I had witnessed a murder today. The slug I had given a slow death because of the pellets.
17th June......shown a book and told it would show me how we evolved from animals. Then the sea anenome which was to represent
my mother.
I feel sure now that this business of me eating meat is an issue. Of course it wouldn't prevent anyone from experiencing OBEs , as anyone putting the practice in can, but spiritualy maybe understanding the connection between man and animal is important.
We can see the adventure of leaving our body and exploring the other sides, as 'I've seen this and I've done this and I've felt this ( not meaning me personally but you as a person) but at the end of the day do you feel you are getting anywhere? Other than experiences? Surely these experiences have to lead to a meaning of what waits for us on the other side and how we can maybe help ourselves to evolve further.

susan

2nd July 2014, 09:17 PM

For the last few days have abolished eating red meat. But still feel I could eat this. Cooked lamb chops for HBnd but fish for myself.
I feel I'm not there yet and this may take some time. I need to convince myself or to be convinced that this is wrong.i suppose this is like going on a diet when teachers will tell you this is right or wrong for you but it takes time to experience the benefit to believe, only this is slightly different as I believe it is not just to benefit the body but for spiritual advancement.
Will try this but am looking for other explanations for the above post for the lamb as for a reason to start eating it again.
Maybe this will be something I will fail in. ( have to add this ... Or maybe this is just the beginning of the understanding and the reasons may follow within time to make the choice easier.)?
Eating red meat for all of my life is not something that is going to be overcome and changed because of a very vivid symbol suggesting otherwise.
I have to believe with all my heart that this is wrong
.If you think about the intelligence within animals and the love we feel towards them and from them which can be compared to physical human friendships then if the love of God permeates within all creatures great and small ( meaning us as well) I suppose we are killing , sacrificing something that he is part .
I'm still not there but interestingly for the last month my thoughts are going ...towards Jesus...sacrifice....thorns...animals..connection
I promise myself to be totally honest within this journal to inform as soon as I eat red meat again!

susan

3rd July 2014, 08:36 PM

IA, thank you .
2nd February 2014' post. ( page 23)
. Food for thought
. I can not dismiss this way of thinking.

Posted by IA56

As I see this animal turning into a man...you was shown the transformation...but still that man (human) hunt´s animals because he still are so much animal inside of him...not yet a real human. A real human does know that animals also has soul.

( I have just copied and pasted for the first time ever . I can AP , receive symbolic messages, and now I can ' copy and paste' . )
But why doesn't it come with the blue balloon?

IA56

4th July 2014, 07:52 AM

IA, thank you .
2nd February 2014' post. ( page 23)
. Food for thought
. I can not dismiss this way of thinking.

Thank you to you too Dear Susan :-)

Love
ia

susan

5th July 2014, 09:51 PM

Dream

In a war zone , in a plane with others ( didn't have the feeling this time that they were my friends , just that I was with them )looking out seeing other planes in the sky just bursting into flames. Looking down and seeing ships and helicopters being fired at and bursting into flames. Was on a beach and looking to dig a hole on the sand to hide from the enemy.
Woke up felt no emotion.
Thoughts.
Could this be my battle with giving up meat? ( well red to start with) .

2nd dream
I'm in a class room with others that I don't know.
A teacher comes in and I'm standing amongst others but I'm holding 3 sheets of tissue paper . 2x white and one red . She comes straight over to me and tells us she is not sure if she is looking forwards to teaching ME. Two other teachers are in the background.
Thoughts
The tissue paper could be myself remembering the view of the OBE Christmas trees. Maybe subconsciously thinking of having a new teacher. I'll leave this open for interpretation.
In and out of short sleeps before alarm went off with much chatter going on . The last was ... To stay silent, stay still, ....to learn the roles of the universe.
6.am . Two hours left before getting up so went over everything I could remember then thought to do just little brow work . Decided to settle down. Tai Chi class at ten.
Was just dozing off when I picked up
..Remember when you nearly got drowned 3 times? Well the man in trousers . He is real.
Felt the Jelly, wobbly feeling.
I felt I was going under so decided to focus on the brow area. It was black but like water marks within the black so decided to focus on a particular point within this black and it came closer and closer. Knew something was happening so just focused. Now I seem to be turning left but travelling along sideways. I could see an outline of a face. It then turns into a blonde mans face wearing glasses. He's looking at me but as I'm travelling sideways he is soon out of view. End of. Woke up.
Thoughts.
I know what I experienced . Why? I'm not sure.
The reference to the man in trousers had me think of the times I've recorded something I felt was important.

At the beginning of my journey a man I viewed in a river from the trousers downwards holding a baby under water. ( I couldn't understand why I got this. it wasnt nice, but there was nothing frightening about it.
The same night I saw a repeat of this but the finger was put down the babies throat.I decided this was a message about death of some kind but nothing to fear.
The other night prior to me having the mother statue figure which turned into a sea anenome I recorded men coming into a room where I was but I only viewed from the trousers downwards.
I leave this nights event open to possible previous thoughts brought forwards into a dream but feel it's still important to record just incase.
I was to miss this last one out but remembered IA56 once noting the importance of being honest and not just choosing what to report.
Before this journal started and after I was given a picture of . . my guide , that I had apparently shared lives with ( well considering the thoughts that a guide could be a future self of you or a teacher from a higher level than you but with loving reasons to want to help you . )
I once picked up a very vivid picture of a lovely beach with a girl on a board skating the waves but behind me was a man and all I could see was from the trousers down..
We all have imagination that creates our dreams but all I'm noting here is the " man from the trousers down"
And 3 is cropping up.

To note , today 18/7/14,Malaysian aircraft brought down with missile fire.

IA56

6th July 2014, 08:07 AM

Hi Susan,
I am urged to write this to you....We always want teachers of "higher" realms but do fear the "lower" realms of teachers and they are mostly the one who can really help us out of our fear.
I hope you do not misunderstand what I am trying to tell.
All changes we are making the ego will start a war...so keep this in mind...ego and body is not real...they do want to keep us in re-incarnation wheel to be sure of theire own survival...
Remember we are indestructuble and eternal.

Love
ia

susan

6th July 2014, 08:15 PM

The mind is brilliant!
Sitting just now in conservatory. Rubbish on telly so thinking more of everything going on. Spent all day in garden chopping down woody bushes. Got such plans for garden but will take a lot of hard work but worth it in the end. On a high, did a lot.
When I'm so grounded and enjoying what I'm doing I reflect at times and think the experiences cann't be real because everything is so real Here in the Now.
I think deep down I know it's true but ....

So just now going over the last post I did the sun was facing me head on just after a thunder storm( not really relevant, just saying)
So to enjoy this heat and shine I closed my eyes just to let it beam through.
Well of course you get blue shapes which without looking up on the internet I'm sure will be a medical reason with the eyes.
No surprise to this but the top half of the blue turned into a HEART! I was looking at a blue heart which stayed for5-6 seconds.
This was a very defined heart. If eventually faded and turned smaller and smaller and eventually left, but before it disappeared I tried so hard with thought to bring it back but couldn't.
I know what I saw but just expected to feel the rays through my eyes.

susan

8th July 2014, 08:33 PM

Tonight I've just put the sun and my eyes through a test . Sitting in conservatory right now. Sun is at the same level as the other night. Just setting But still above my hedge. Closed eyes 5-6 times. Each time wished with all my heart for a heart to appear.
I saw the blue take shape but mostly long stick shapes. Then faded. I couldn't with all my wishful thinking shape this into a heart.
So I have to think about a short dream I had the previous night before the heart. ( didn't record , simply because I get so much and have to be aware that much may be my own wishful thinking . ) I really only want to record what I feel may be something to work on.

Dream the night before the event.

This is like a game show with a host. A contestant walks on but instead of looking directly at the host she is looking up to the sky.
She does her bit then the next one comes on.
This is the funny one because she has a lot of make-up on . ( okay I don't like to go out without make up on but I certainly don't pile it on with all the blusher. ( hint.. ( this gets my attention when recalling the dream ) ) she is looking up at the same angle rather than looking at the host of the show. Then says " well then let's go for it"
So just a dream but the emphasis was on why were they looking up at an angle to the sky rather than the host in front of them ?
Was I meant to look up to the sun the next day?
I just feel I want to finish this post with ..
The spirit world can reach you through religious symbolism if that is something that will really get your attention.
Or just in your face humour .... But just a way to get your attention .. And they are there to help you in the best way they can .
Still haven't eaten red meat yet .

susan

9th July 2014, 08:31 PM

This last post has reminded me of something I experienced once that I thought at the time was the most memorising awesome place to have visited. ( I think this was recorded quite far back on this site somewhere.
Dream .
I'm on a large boat and go to my cabin. My son is asleep on my bed and someone wants me to come up to the deck.
I do and as I stand next to this person I witness the most silent peaceful magical scene. The boat I was on was travelling slowly through pure snow. There was no noise, no colour except white snow. The fields were covered in snow. The fences were made of snow. White horses stood, some on their hind legs and it was as if they were made of snow. TIME STOOD STILL.
As I stand on the deck with this person I look up to the sky and amongst the grey the colours of the rainbow shone through as if an entrance to a different world to this one.

W hen we meditate to get to that feeling of love to start off the meditation I would use the feeling I had of witnessing this beauty.
Kurt suggests thinking of something that brings you much happiness and love.
As months went on I would ask repeatedly to visit this place again.
I would have experiences that were memorable but never a visitation back to this place.

So one night I dreamt I was in a shop ( desires) next to a window.( entrance to astral) . An old fashioned till was by the window and I saw what looked like a receipt that should come out from the till, the till roll just rolled and rolled out a long string of paper never ending and went through the window covering the ground below but shredding as it covered the ground outside until it was completely covered in white and it was shredded up into bits outside the window, giving the impression of snow covering the ground. ( the astral plane I desired)
So what we had here was the illusion of snow on the ground. BUT it was just an illusion.
I think the message had to be made to me that this wasn't a real astral plane but was an illusion. Created for me to get a message across at the time. ( I felt so sad that I could never visit this place again)
I feel they stepped in to let me know .

Today I spoke for the first time to a lady who has experiences. She told me that many years ago in her youth she was besotted by her boyfriend and didn't believe the rumours she was hearing about his infidelity. One night she had a vivid dream where she was told it just wasn't going to happen( she thought they would end up marrying)
She was shown a scene where he was kneeling at an alter with a different woman. All though the dream wasn't what she wanted to see, it was true.
So , just showing how much the spirit world are working with us to help, and sometimes we need that little extra guidance to put us back on the right path

susan

10th July 2014, 09:23 PM

20th march /14.(page 24)
The link between humans and animals may have been relevant here also.
Swimming under water comfortably ( not needing to breath) with a pregnant otter and the otter lays on a pillow to rest and so do I and a man swims up to us and gives me a kiss and rests his head on the pillow under water also .
( I am following and lay down with the otter and the man follows and lays down with(me) the human.
I seemed to be between animal and human. Just a thought .

susan

13th July 2014, 12:55 PM

12/7/14
Projection this am but very disappointed in how I handled it. Somehow in physical we can understand that in a certain situation we should do this or that , but when experiencing it in non physical you forget all that.
Woke up early am from a dream. Quick recall.
A small cat comes in to be fed. A man is standing at a doorway holding the most ridiculous looking bigger cat with long spiky hair and tells us ( a few of us in a room) that this is our new commander . This was to be in charge of us. I remember thinking that he is silently telling us to have faith and trust in the cat.
( Didnt attempt to analyse any of this as I had to be up early am for Tai chi)

OBE

Settled down and became aware of being in the perfect relaxed / awake stage so silenced mind and just stared into brow.
Tried hard to zoom in closer to what I was looking at when I saw movement and now felt I was following the movement. ( pleased at this stage because I knew I'd got out. Moving along to the right and I can see a shape take form. This was like a sketching of the head of my late mother looking a lot younger. ( thinking at the time this was either symbolic of a mother figure or something to forget. I wasn't picking up any feelings from this)
Now it goes and everything is black. Then a coloured light, then more and more. I'm surrounded by lights . Red, blue ,orange ,green and more( No gold or silver this time) . Now I'm looking down and underneath me is this massive glass ( see through ) building full to the brim with the same coloured lights. This reminded me of Christmas time and Christmas lights. ( like most times I was aware but just went with where ever I went, ) I didn't feel the same excitement as previous times, almost sensing something at this stage.
Headed down through the roof amongst the colours when speeded up, going down fast. Knew I had reason not to get excited this time.Just knew I was to go under ground again. Blocked off vision.( Last time I was excited and thought I would be brave enough to keep vision open if it happened again) Very quickly I've stopped so vision back and I seem to be in a basement. Almost cave like roof,a large area but very dark. Apprehension sets in and I want to just leave as I had the feeling something was coming.I sensed or saw a few ' something's' don't know what they were but wasn't going to wait to find out.
Flew away still in darkness 360 vision. The last thing I saw was me in blackness and quite a few ' something's' quite a distance behind. They stopped . I was away.
End of OBE
Thoughts.
Right from the start of this experience I didn't have the same excitement as I've had with previous. Although the colours were beautiful I still didn't seem to be in awe as previously. Did the dream prior to this condition my mind to something? In the dream I was to have trust in the leader. ( silly looking cat)
I've OBEd before where I've entered a dark cave like setting and heard voices coming towards me and didn't run. In fact as I'm recording this the cave / basement like setting seemed similar.this was recorded page 14. 9/10/13. This one resulted in three men coming out with horses heads. I found this funny rather than frightening and remember picking up. " what ever you record don't forget these are your friends" . I never came up with any sound understanding for that one.
........ Just thinking here but maybe if I hadn't legged it this time but remembered the advice from the previous experience and treated them as my friends It may have ended differently.

Back to sleep for the last hour when I woke up to seeing and hearing someone playing the drums loudly. Wondered if this was my wake-up call. Checked clock, alarm went off.

Just an after thought but the senses here may have been the topic. Sensing danger.
Or another after thought . I failed a test on fear. Whatever it was I feel bad and therefore feel I failed.

susan

15th July 2014, 06:01 PM

This morning I just became lucid in the dream when I had to go ( to wake up) . I've felt in a lovely mood all day. The part where I became lucid had me shown to a round table to sit at with a friend.( don't know who it was) . An old boss of mine is sitting at the table ahead of all of us and facing us. I notice I don't have a table setting. The others do. My chair starts to roll backwards towards the wall as if the ground was tilted. I pushed it back to the table, we all laughed at this when my friend announced to everyone that ' Susan has to go home now' .With that my chair started rolling back again, this time off the edge. I'm now in what is like a noddy car travelling downhill with others looking over the side smiling. I noticed my brow area had that snowy speckled flickering look to it. I tried to focus to get vision back but either just after or just prior to this ( cann't remember which) I felt re- entry with a bit of a bump.
I recalled rest of dream straight away feeling I've been laughing a lot.
The dream was I believe just my own thoughts being acted out but in three different occasions where I'm talking to someone ( dream character) I have been aware of someone in the background just watching . On the last occasion he came closer and in the dream I felt such kindness and warmth from him.
Even though as I said I feel this was a dream of my own creation the feeling of warmth and fun has stayed with me all day.

Something I forgot to note for journal happened just after the mother statue/ sea anenomie experience.
This only lasted a few seconds but twice someone gives me a big key. I'm now in a large room with large statues of different heights . They were like people, animals , figures. All white. Now I see myself outside watching someone closing the door. ( looked a bit like a spaceman) but he didn't lock it. He left and I saw that the door was ajar. Next thing I'm inside and the statues have come to life and slowly start to move. End.
I'm wondering if this could have been some kind of library with history as it happened around the same time I was given the big heavy book that was to show me the link between animals and humans and the mother figure statue was the same type of statue in the room?

susan

17th July 2014, 08:57 PM

Something so strange but lovely has just happened.
Was writing a post on the mysticism forum about a post ( 2005) from an established member on Astral Pulse,
who suggested that planes of existance was an old fashioned way of thinking and it should be levels of perception instead. As I was writing a post on this forum about this as I checked what I had written I had written the word AKEO within the words with absolutely no thought at all within this time frame of this name. ( AKEO is a name mentioned for quite a period further back in the journal )
( also the name was the only word written in capital letters.)
Like many people I think, we tend to write fast and only check what we have written after so many words
( I Just love it ) simple mistakes ??

Missile Attack.
just want to add have just seen the news about another Malaysian airline brought down . All lives lost. Thought to have been a missile involved. Few days ago (5/7/14) wrote about a war scene where I was in an aircraft but other air crafts were being fired upon and bursting into flames. This was a war zone. I just wonder if it may have been this. At the time I could only think of my battle with giving up eating meat but I also felt that this was a little over dramatised for giving up meat.

Found good description of phasing which seems to be what is happening recently.( focusing on the blackness when eyes closed) and leaving through a particular focus point)

susan

19th July 2014, 08:24 PM

I feel I can now draw a conclusion to this last event with AKEO and the writing but first for my own benefit for the journal I need to see the bigger picture of the last 18 months within the journal .
I need to take time over this so will be posted as time allows.

1st) TEACHERS.
( will emphasise here that these are not my most desired personalities so it wasn't wishful thinking)
LEARNT.
When I see a famous personality appearing in a short dream or just a quick flash of a picture ( symbol) this is a teacher telling me something. The reason I conclude this is at the beginning I needed help and sent out a thought that I would use the Betty Berthards book to interpret anything I found difficult. After the first I had to look up the rest just followed over time.
Examples
A) Had been wondering whether or not to drop the NEWS for a bit .
Saw BURT RENALD in the grounds of a castle having cannon balls firing through his chest . 2 seconds flash.
Message interpretation. Continue NEWS.

B) WARREN BEATTY pops his head around a corner of a door . Turns around and from the back his coat widens and is soiled.
Message interpretation. I'm not understanding clearly ( according to Kurt Leland's interpretation) this was after I started again to read ' the multi dimensional human' .

C) STING on the bed in a dormitory talking to his penis.
Message interpretation. Impregnation of ideas.( day after heavy day of reading and thinking) ( Betty Berthard.)
Was told I couldn't have done that if I had been working.

D) GEORGE CLOONY on the train where a young child was being taken to meet him and I was the observer. The mother figure stood
up with her hands in the prayer position and looked up to the sky as if she was talking to someone I couldn't see.
Message interpretation. I was on a journey and would get my wish eventually of meeting my teacher.

E) BOB GELDOF at the airport celebrating with a group of people singing and coats were given out. Mine was a green coat. Picked
up Heart chakra was now open.
Message Interpretation. Ability to discriminate dream characters from non physical entities. ( this was whilst reading Kurt's work)

Conclusion . My conclusions which to me make sense seem to be from what I am reading at the time.

Next will be symbols thrown at me.

susan

20th July 2014, 02:25 PM

Symbols.
Symbols perceived very quickly often have nothing to do with what is currently in my thoughts prior to achieving the correct state to receive. They seem to have a much deeper universal meaning, more mystical.

Ankh symbol( thousands of them with a white background)
3 Pyramids ( beautiful different coloured)
Human looking eye.
Flame burning.

Then the ones that need a bit of thought to work out.

The hedgehog with a mans body.
The animal turning into man and killing another animal .
The man with the lamb under his shoulder and a wooden cross through its body.

Projection
Of course we project all the time but just haven't been aware of it so this is consciously attempted.

Started NEWS.
Slowly leave body. Explore the house. Did the card trick.( although whilst looking at the card where I had put it I saw my etheric hands trying to touch it to turn over as I couldn't see the picture. Gave up and the next day wondered what it was. Correctly guessed at Jack of Spades. So my astral vision at the time did not perceive but I could see reality fluctuations within house. Wrong flooring, fireplace taken out.)
Soon started just shooting upwards fast away from body after a very memorable bit of help that frightened me at first.
Got out one day and slowly floated onto the landing when something grabbed me by the legs and flung me in the air out through the window and I'm outside confused thinking what the bleep was that. Back to body. Of course this was the best way to learn even if it was startling at the time.
Still have RTZ when I am to learn something, but the difference now there is contact that I can see and interact with.
Astral body now consciously in use.
More recently had been encouraged to look into the brow. Had my first exit from the brow where I felt I literally flew out through the brow. Now it's slightly different . I don't get the feeling of leaving out through , rather just focus on a specific spot and move into it, along with it. I think this is ' phasing' .

Now the big Question. WHO AM I?
I have no answer. I still don't know. Last night I thought I knew. This morning I'm not sure now.
This started with me requesting to be taught to help with retrievals. Was told ' Theres no time for that . Do I understand? '
Was encouraged to Talk, Listen, and Look.
Really started last March.
Eggs/ babies/ children/ past lives/
Then I woke up to holding a new born baby who says. ' WHO AM I? Very next day AKEO is brought to me ( p7, 25/5/13) I knew this was a name I had to remember. So I've been thinking that AKEO was a past life personality.
Fast forward now to present time and the the mystery seems to becoming a tease almost but so impelling that I have to find out.
The times recorded with the witch type face and theme of imposter and being interviewed at the police station.
The strange dream where he was being interviewed in the police station and at the end he says he just picks up a pen and this just happens. He wanted to take over your life. So I wondered if maybe automatic writing may be the hint here for the future.

But the other day it happened when I was writing a post. AKEO came up in capital letters when I thought I was typing a different word in small letters then stopped to notice.
I think this whole mystery of Who I Am? has been leading up through different stages , still with teasing and mystery but for me to work out my name in spirit. AKEO.
( Michael Newton s book of past life regressions clearly has the participants when in trance and back in the spirit world all recalling spirit names they are known as rather then in the physical)
So that being sorted but I still don't know who I am. All I have is a name. So who's helping me? AKEO ? But that's me ?
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA AAAAAAAAAAAAAAh
Going out now to do some chopping of the hedge and watering of plants. Stay grounded. Too early for the wine.

susan

22nd July 2014, 09:28 PM

Just to update how things are.
Still have not eaten any red meat. Surprised how there are so many other alternatives, and in fact just as enjoyable. Loosing weight also ( part of this I believe is cutting down on bread also)

Sorry but today have decided to delete the rest of this post.
Reason.... I need to stay focused , positive and grounded.

susan

24th July 2014, 08:52 PM

I had an experience early this morning that I had decided not to record on the journal. This was a very important event for me but had me thinking just how far do we go before the warning signs start that have us wondering if we are are hallucinating . Everything has been so exciting and ' other dimensional' and in fact linking up. I believe everything so far that I have written , because what seemed weird to someone who read for the first time would actually make sense eventually to complete some kind of story.
So , before writing this I will remind myself of the time standing in someone's room where her placemats were mystical with someone sitting on top of a fish and flying in the air. This helped me feel that what I was experiencing may not be the same but was just as crazy. ( but the mats are sold world wide and acceptable)
Am I going crazy ? No! Throughout the day I hold down a very respectable caring self employed profession which gives me the opportunity to interact with many beautiful minded people.
Am I hallucinating? I don't know! If I am when did it start because my experiences have linked to a story which could take days or a few months to link in to a greater meaning.
IA, this is because you feel we should not censor what we get.

OBE.
After the last OBE and feeling I had failed in running away at the hint of a challenge the next couple of days I felt so abandoned. I seem to now know when spirit are around.Normal dreams to do with family life ( the above deleted ) Early hours I picked up " all I can do is lift you and the rest is up to you. '23rd ' and I saw this written in metallic blue.
Early this morning, rested, bathroom, little energy work but had set the alarm for 7.30 for work. Feet, could feel the tingling. Little brow work , silenced, trance, now the engine noise, not too loud . Pleased at this so focused on noise( I don't think I was specially focusing on the brow area) Raised up with astral engine type noise.after so far I remember the rest is up to me, so I tried to zoom up with force to get to the stars but if anything I carried along in the same direction which was sideways.
It gets lighter and now in front of me I see 3 giant chairs facing a wall. These were dentist chairs. Now I'm in one of these dentist chairs and I just know this is a test of fear.I can still hear the loud astral engine type noise but now I can hear the dentists drill. My chair is turned round with absolutely no request of mine but I was prepared .
"I said as it turned " okay okay, I know you cann't hurt me so just go away" . As I said that I saw a giant spaceman with a helmet on and a massive drill . He disappeared . Back to body. End of.
Back to sleep picked up
A post man delivering me a parcel.
Being told I had stayed till the end and only one left to do .
Saw a double decker bus and a famous personality ( Jeremy clarkson and his other half) on the top of an open double decker bus as it goes down a 180degree angle and they show all you have to do is crawl down like this as they crawl down the front of the bus. 26th)
So what I'm posting here is something I would have rather not. But have just read Robert's Catch Basket link' and we have to leave behind our beliefs and go with what we experience.
so I experienced this!
I feel if I had posted that I had had a battle with a devil and a sword fight with a warrior this may be more accepted as mystical.
I feel I need to finish with one last thought.
What we experience is related to our believes.
If you follow the mystical pathway and fairies, angels , dragons, etc etc, than when being tested you may encounter an experience involving these types of figures, and see this as a mystical challenge .
As I don't go down that route my challenge has been of ordinary everyday life. ( the dentist chair, the double decker bus)
But I still finish with at what point do I realise I may be hallucinating? Simply because this isn't like mystical tests but real life tests but not during normal physical wakening consciousness.

susan

25th July 2014, 08:40 PM

Dream this am
I wake up to the song ....' The sun always shines in rainbow valley'.
I see myself propping up the washing line with the prop whilst two people pass me to go into the house.
I think this was a different dream.
I'm collecting young children and take them to a big house. A friend is with me and she has done the same.
There's something about my sandals and they are causing me to take my time in reaching the house. Difficulty in walking in them . As I'm now thereI ask where the rest of the family is . I'm told they have gone to the park. Do I want to go there? "

eyeoneblack

25th July 2014, 11:01 PM

Imagination is ground central in the astral plane. It is what we imagine that, with enough investment, precipitates into the material world of our daily experience. Robert Bruce, among others, is a shepherd of our imaginations and can have good and productive influence on the underground aspirations of our imaginations. And so, imagination, by virtue of its binding connection with our subconscious, brings the worldly unseen and unknowable to our consciousness and enlightens our world view often to the benefit of our peace of mind and well-being.

The lucid dreamer is always awake, always interpreting - and- like you, Susan, encountering possibilities and that only imagination can present. You imagine and you create. It's not just a good idea, it's the Law. :)

susan

27th July 2014, 02:17 PM

Woke up to " I'VE GOT MY EYES ON YOU".
recalled dream.
I take a seat at the front of the class and the teacher gives me a thin newspaper. I have to answer two questions but I have to read the paper to find the questions.
( this person had no identity to remember. Just female, therefor I don't associate this with a teacher as I've done in the past so may have been just my dream mind.)
However I started to wonder why I picked up the first bit about the eyes. Decided to look into brow and silence mind. Nothing.so back to sleep.
Between 6.30-9.30 in and out of consciousness each time waking up to hearing a song being sung. Feel as though I've had a lot of different topics covered. One was seeing my hand being handcuffed. ( been over spending again and promised myself I would cut down, specially after the symbol of the tiny white purse flashed up as a symbol and was told treasures are found within a few weeks ago.( Infinate Father) ) also I picked up again that I have to re-read the paper to find the questions.
The last song I woke up to was ,
" CANNT TAKE MY EYES OFF YOU, YOUR LIKE HEAVEN TO TOUCH....bla bla bla....
As I heard this I wondered what time it was as I could hear traffic outside. Decided I was out of time to try anything, time to get up when I picked up ". BUT I AM TIME".

So having written this all down I'm drawn towards the beginning and end. Both the song ,and the first bit is about being watched.
Cann't take my eyes off you and I've got my eye on you.
I think these two comments were the answer to my thoughts.
Yesterday was thinking of having a barbecue and it was very tempting the idea of having some lamb or steak. Going on holiday soon and my thoughts went to the temptation ahead also with the meat. I actually wondered if I did have just a little bit if it would be noticed. Whether I would get away with it ( stupid I know) and wondered if spirit would acknowledge this possible failure. My overspending also could refer to this.
Definitely feel everything remembered had a female presence so the words of the song at the end are irrelevant I think.

susan

28th July 2014, 03:37 PM

3 different experiences within 1 hour. I'm trying to stay cool about this but so much in such a short time.

1) Remote viewing.
2) OBE.
3) Picture ( past life again I think)

Yesterday through day did just 45 mins meditation. During this time decided not to do any music , just silence mind and making my ratatouille. Hadn't done for a while but there is plenty of colour practice here.
Slept till 4am . Back to sleep. No dream recall at this stage.

Picture.
Woke up quite suddenly from a dream but before I had time to recall it a picture flashed up so quickly. This was a young man about 16-18 years old in black and white period costume with beautiful long curly,blonde hair falling onto the shoulders.This was like a picture as he was posing. I recognised him straight away as the same boy I wrote about ( page 4, 19/3/13) previously but back then he was only about 10-11 years old and previously I viewed this after leaving body and like a hologram looking down a long tunnel.
I know this was him by the beautiful long curly hair. The difference here was that this looked like his own hair. I felt this looked a little thinner and softer and more natural but still long and curly. This was round the time I was getting past lives.
Have just done a google search and around the 1780 time the younger men were starting to powder their own hair and do away with wigs.

Remote viewing.
Checked clock. 6.30 am. After the thoughts about this settled to just stare into the brow and silence mind. After short period of time could see clouds swirling around tried to focus hard and saw an outline of my face. Focused and waited then suddenly colour.
I was looking at the top of someone's head. Full colour. I saw little black bits and knew exactly what I was looking at.
My son who lives abroad had had a hair transplant done about 5months ago as he lost his hair early in life and I'd seen what it looked like on Skype. I was able to view all around the head and see how the hair was slowly coming. I could see down as far as just above the eyebrows but couldn't go further down even though I tried. Ended abruptly. Awake.
I had no feeling of having left body this time andI think this may be the first time I have Remote Viewed ( viewing but still being aware of being in physical body) unless I've forgotten a previous. I put no thought prior to this of visiting him. To be honest I feel a little uncomfortable that I have invaded his privacy. I think he was asleep in bed.

OBE.
Settled really happy at what had happened, turned in bed and settled down. Tried to stare into brow and silence mind when very quickly I'm now floating above body. Knew I was out this time with no vibrations and no astral noise. Rose up slightly then to the right then downwards slowly. Everything was light but nothing to see. I'm still travelling sideways then realise now I'm floating sideways submerged in water. I could hear the ripple of water .I knew straight away this was testing my reaction. Everything was clean looking , and could see images of tiny bubbles( I know there wouldn't really be air ) I just went with the flow still travelling sideways. For a second I decided to play with this and just see what it would be like to try to breath under water. I pretended to breath and it worked. ( once again I know we don't breath in astral but I made a game of it. )
Suddenly the water is gone and full colour sets in .
I'm standing behind a very small aircraft with a door open. In front of this was a bright red double decker bus parked right at the end of a HARBOUR. I felt myself moving forwards. I was up for it but suddenly my time was up and back to body and awake.

I was really up for this and so disappointed it ended but so thrilled at everything within such a short period of time.
Is the bus next? I don't know.
So far I've had
1) falling fast from the sky
2) plummeting underground.
3) submerged under water. ( had previous dreams recorded where I'm submerged under a puddle and friends pull me out but I was comfortable with this as I was under the mud).
4) the giant spaceman with the giant drill.
Am I going to be facing challenges of possible astral fears as well as astral challenges of physical life fears? Looks like it.

Last point I want to record is why is a spaceman ( space woman?) making appearances, wearing a space helmet ?

Recorded 3x.
1) the time when I sensed the big round balls as young lads rolling out of the pub and then the spaceman comes out by himself hopping and felt I was being encouraged to join them in having fun.
2) the more serious time when I felt I may have been viewing a library with statues coming alive as I entered because a spaceman had left the door unlocked.
3) the giant spaceman with the giant drill .
Could this be someone assisting me or maybe just representing something ?

Reflecting on this I wonder if I experienced all 3 different events because of the recent post that I hadn't wanted to write as it just seemed so crazy.
Taking away any negative doubts which is important?

After thoughts.
When I remote viewed I could only see as far as just above the eyebrows. Even though I felt afterwards a bit guilty that I had invaded his privacy and that he was asleep I think this was just an assumption due to the time factor .

susan

31st July 2014, 07:00 PM

Another OBE this morning with assistance and I know this was once again specifically for me rather than just landing in the middle of a busy astral. So I'll label it again as a simulation.
First, very disappointed when went to bed. Why was I urged to open up to my husband? I wish I hadn't told him a thing. He pushed me into why had I given up meat so I took this opportunity and told him of a few things where I think he felt sorry for me and just said that people dream and when they read things and go on the Internet they think it's all real. He's not ready yet but I think he feels sorry for me. Once again I wish I had kept this to myself.
Damage done so went to bed wondering if this was true. Why not put it to the test? Carry on with energy work but don't send out requests, don't hope for anything, try to Not Believe. It's all a load of made up dreams!
Didn't last long, OBE with assistance.
Approximately 5am. Little feet circling settled focused looking into brow.didn't send out any requests, just stayed still and silent and looked. Eventually felt lighter and slightly above body but still not fully out. If anything I would have expected something to appear in the third eye but nothing. Tried to pull up when I felt a hand on my ankle. I knew I was being pulled out. At the same time I was remembering having read a topic on this site about being pulled out . I've had arms try to lift me before,been grabbed by the ankles and thrown away from my body before once out, but was this a co-incidence? that I'm experiencing this days after reading this?
My feet could feel the astral arm and it had bangles on. I'm thinking at the time " she's wearing jewellery" , she has a bangle on.Someone is helping me out and they have jewellery on. ( I still didn't click at that stage) .Im travelling upwards slowly, no astral noise, no vibrations when lightness sets in. Bit fuzzy at first then slowly I'm just above the ground in a light large area but it leads to another area ( room) but with no doors. The ceiling is low and as I turn around to look I'm saying to myself " nothing will harm me! Nothing will harm me! I expected some kind of test, and was prepared but it wasn't. A girl appeared and came up to me and said " hello" I heard the voice speak to me. She left and another girl came up to me and said hello. As she smiled she seemed similar to the girl I saw in my bathroom who spoke to me. She was wearing black again and was petite. They left and as I looked around I felt this looked a bit like a cave but a bright one this time.
( I recalled whilst standing my memory of the cave where the men came out with horses heads that I couldn't understand and was told at the time not to forget that these were my friends. Then of course there was the cave recently with the colourful lights where I went through them underground into a cave and fled with fear. )
No one was around now so I moved towards an exit without a door but I realised I wasn't going to be tested or chased and this was my chance to explore . As I got to the entrance another girl came up and called me by my name. She seemed nice. I felt warmth from her. She asked if I was any good at roundabouts, ? Junctions? It was something to do with roads but cann't at this stage remember exactly which it was. She asks me if I would like to wait over there and shows me to some chairs in the corner of the room . I felt I was to wait for something/ someone. There was a double row of flat heavily jewelled hats. ( Arabic? Indian?)
That was it. Ended. Once again I didn't think of body, was just waiting and it ended.

Thoughts.
......I didn't seem to speak to anyone. They spoke to me.
.....The cave is certainly a meeting point for a few meetings. Harry potter type dream plus the ones just mentioned.
.... I don't know if these were spirit or just created for this experience as they were friendly enough but the only feeling I
got of warmth was from the girl at the end, but I just don't know about this.
..... I expected something of a challenge and was prepared but did not create anything with my mind.
..... The experience was not at all as I would have expected. If anything I would have expected to see a red double decker
bus.

THE BANGLE.
It has taken me a few hours at work till I think I got it.
I am currently wearing a Pandora Bracelet which I have had for a while but only recently took charms off and have turned it into my MYSTICAL EXPERIENCES bangle. I have a snowflake charm, a gold and silver Christmas tree,a small purse. As I experience events if there is a charm related I intend to add it so I will never forget my experiences as long as I wear this bracelet. I have it on every day.
This reminds me of the OBE where I saw an astral hand holding my arm wearing my old wedding ring. At the time I was sure and still am that this was a way of letting me know this was part of what I belong to helping me and now I think this is why I felt the bangle on the wrist by my astral foot as it was being helped out.
So my husband put doubt in my mind about all of this. Thank you. I think once again this event was important to re- establish faith.

susan

1st August 2014, 09:15 PM

Struggling a bit with the concepts as to the fact that I don't believe in God as a person therefore for a few weeks I'd been thinking that if god is in all of us but it isn't a person but just an energy of love , then why the flip shouldn't I eat meat..
Tonight I'm thinking in the direction of evolution.
Read a short chapter today from Robert Munroes book that discussed the animal and man.
Looking at this from a different perspective.
If we did evolve from animal brain to human brain then experiences on earth plane here was the training school.We may believe we are here to experience therefore to evolve. So we should also believe that any living organism should also be here to experience and evolve. ( don't authors write that everything in spirit is energy including plants? And I experienced it with a mushroom once in astral ..)
Therefore your not killing or eating a part of god but cutting short the experience that this animal has to help with its evolution.
So I make this choice as I would wish to help my neighbour.( chickens have further to go so am still eating them)
I know it's obvious here what I'm doing but I need to understand the ' why' without the God as a person.

susan

3rd August 2014, 10:08 AM

Woke up to singing again, very fast and jazzy, went something like " what's the matter with your own home here ?"
A couple of dreams just to do with physical life and my wishes but in one it's the colour that was beautiful on the bird.
Dream.
I'm walking along a long beach with someone which is lined by a very high sandy cliff. People are trying to crawl up to the top but keep sliding down. This is happening all along the stretch of the coast by many people but there are very large birds( the size of chickens) that are managing to run up in front of the people and make it to the top.
One of these birds is now in front of me and whoever I was with at the bottom. I notice a small area on the front of the bird and the colours are beautiful. They were like colours from a peacock but just in a small area. Beautiful, almost metallic.
Thoughts.
I see this as attempting to reach/ experience higher realms and the wish to perceive the beauty I've witnessed in the past but on very rare occasions.
Back to sleep. Upon wakening saw another beautiful coloured bird on top of my garden swing flash up quickly. Once again the beauty of the colour. Bright red covering the whole of it's back.

Having read the previous posts above I'm a little alarmed just how many times I'm using the term ' I know'. Could lead to following wrong assumptions, it's just that at the time I just feel ' I know' so must try to loose this and leave room for other possibilities.

susan

5th August 2014, 08:11 PM

Unfortunately all day at work I've been thinking of the position of the beautiful metallic colours on that small area of the bird that looked like a chicken.
Just done a google search and unfortunately the beautiful colours were in the position of the chicken' s heart area.
There has mostly been good humour in whatever I pick up but .NO NO NO !

susan

9th August 2014, 07:50 PM

WOW! Woke up wanting to shout this out loud. Had just entered a page of a book and was in the page.

Prior to this.
Very grounded through day. Much chopping of bushes . Very productive day and happy with it so early hours of the morning when woke up did little energy work but my heart wasn't in it. Kept stopping and mind wandered to the work in physical . Feeling good about plans for the coming week.
I just had this feeling I may be on a rest period ( I always get this feeling when I get nothing for a couple of days) silly but that's the way it is.
Before going to sleep was just thinking to myself that I want to re-read Robert Monroe's ' Ultimate Journey.' I don't need any new books , I need to re-read books to get a better understanding. I want to get back out there in amongst the stars. So much seems planned ( which is great) but I was feeling I would love to be back up there just flying around seeing the beauty.
As I dozed off I thought I picked up .... ' RENDEZVOUS' .
Woke up after a decent sleep with the 'WOW.
The only recall I have is I'm sitting down with a book on my lap ( but my lap didn't necessarily look solid physical)
The book is open and the pages are splayed out like the top of an opened fan. However the pages were not paper but were like solid plastic. It stops to show two pages ( just like an opened book) . On the right hand side I see my son when he was younger in a Newcastle United football shirt with a football ( I have this photo when he was about 11)
On the left page as I look it's a field and it gets bigger and bigger taking up my whole vision and suddenly It's real and I'm standing in the field as a football is kicked ,from my right, high up into the sky and suddenly I've taken off and am following the ball into the sky. I was thinking at the time WOW!! I recall the feeling of zooming so high, fast behind the ball.
Woke up. This was a feeling of going up rather than the drop when entering back in body.

THOUGHTS.

Yes , going up to the stars is what I wanted but this wasn't reaching the stars. I've had a football kicked before where I strongly felt that this for me was a goal to reach. As I understand our interpretations are individual and personal then I understand this to mean that this is my goal, to aim for.
Back to the book....
Previously( page 13, 17/9/13) during I believe to be relating to past life I was given a book where I opened it and it just told a story. I was prompted to open and the story would continue.
This was different in the sense that it was a book that opened and I entered it with my goal.

( I've read about books in the astral by an author but cann't remember who by).

susan

11th August 2014, 08:11 AM

Didn't try anything through the night or morning but woke up watching a spinning disc in the forehead again. This time it seemed to take ages to stop almost like a fan slowing down, but my dream .
Dream.
I had 2 separate dreams about queen Elizabeth and a dog. In one dream I was in the grounds walking with her when a dog ( she loves her corgis) came running past. I went to catch it, I grabbed the collar which came off so the dog came back running up to me . It was beautiful and big. I loved this dog. There was so much love coming from the dogs eyes. I just felt a strong connection to it.
1 more dream with the the queen and a boy who was her son

susan

12th August 2014, 08:06 PM

Today something has happened that has upset me and I just want to record it even though it isn't OBE but part of my journal in a spiritual way.
Spent the day working in my usual Dimentia care home where a loyal visiting husband, brought his wife for treatment to my room.
She had not been in a good mood today but he had got round her and she agreed to come. As he waited at the doorway he could hear what I was saying as I was facing him but NOT what she was saying.
He passed a quiet comment suggesting that he was reaching the final point where he felt he was going to crack and couldn't take much more.
She couldn't hear this.
A few minutes after having a conversation with her in French to the best of my ability ( as for some reason she was in the French mode today, apparently she used to be sent over there as an ambassador ) she had , I believe , focused so much in the translating her thoughts from English to French that she was able to control what she said in English.
She said... " I love my husband so much you know. Sometimes I think I love him too much" .
He didn't hear that.
I asked her if she had told him that and she said "no". I asked her why not and she just shook her head and said " No, well I don't like to". As I gave her a goodbye hug I suggested he might want to hear this and it would be a nice thing to tell him. She nodded.
I saw them walk away and I heard their conversation . She didn't tell him. He left a few minutes later with his head down .
I should have told him.
I've written before about making that chance contact with the eyes, well today it was having her concentrate on a language enough that she had a few moments of lucidity with complete openness but the person who needed to hear this didn't.
I wish now I had told him.

LPCF

13th August 2014, 11:37 AM

Oh, Susan, how difficult! To share (without permission) or not to share? I suppose your professional ethics told you that a confidence should not be passed on, even if it is a good one. But probably your conscience said otherwise....

Maybe it is not too late to tell him, perhaps next time he comes? But you know the situation and must do what your inner conscience tells you is right.

As for the lady not telling her husband, she may have forgotten straight away, given her condition, or perhaps the British "stiff upper lip" about not discussing deep love just got in the way.....

susan

16th August 2014, 08:42 PM

For the last 3 mornings when recallng dreams they have been of the sort I would feel embarrassed to write about but nothing to do with male/ female intimacy . In fact I was pleased to read on a post where one member told of times where he was directed not to reveal what he had experienced.. I got this message 3 times over a period of certain dreams. Could this be an advance suggestion to suggest that what I posted could sound and be interpreted differently to what the true nature of its purpose was.?
What I will add for the journal though is that this morning in between sleep I picked up a view of a sheet of writing .
On the top was a heading ....... LOVE
On the bottom where you would sign your name it read ........YOUR ALWAYS WELCOME.

( I think I've subconsciously decided that I'm on a rest overindulgence till after my holidays

OMG OMG it's happened again!!!! This is brilliant I just love it!!!!
I should have written just then " I'm on a rest period till after my holidays" !!!""
How the heck did the word overindulgence get written by mistake??? The thing is I know exactly what it means.
I cann't believe what I've just written. This is the second time something like this has happened.
To any one reading this if you think this is made up please just stop reading . For me.... Love you spirit world, please keep working with me.
I have to go over this and ' rest period ' is definitely what I keyed in. There is no way the locality of the keys for' overindulgence ' are anywhere near rest period. The thing is I decided to have one extra small glass of wine tonight and I've had company and had a lot of pastry . Everything today has been overindulgence and I knew it.

I really thought there would be no-more connection till after holidays ( 6 weeks) after a dream where this period was mentioned and I have to admit that when I feel any doubt of being connected I am re-assured. Just love it!
What I wrote was what my subconscious was thinking but what I thought at the time of writing was what my conscious thoughts were. My subconscious took over my conscious .
Remembering a previous ... I want to take over your ...
Just love the connection

susan

17th August 2014, 12:35 PM

Dream.
First I woke up to a tinny kind of voice speaking but I wasn't lucid enough to take in what was said. I only remembered the last bit where it said " I'm sure you can handle it" .So will forget that bit.

Short dream,
I'm bathing a baby with a sponge and soap and water lying on it's back with its legs and arms splayed out as they do.
Next thing I'm feeding it pieces of chicken. Not much chicken left just a small leg but as I go to feed it the baby has turned into a small chicken but I'm not surprised at this and as I put the raw piece of chicken to the baby chicken's mouth I realise the chicken's shape has turned into the same shape of the piece of leg I'm feeding it. In the dream I stop to think about this.I am feeding it one of its own species.

Thoughts
This is connected with my reluctance to give up eating chicken. Not ready for this yet.

Dream.
I'm sitting on a chair in an empty room. All the furniture has been taken away. Someone speaks and once again I wake up just when the speaking is going on and it was something like. " as the body is emptied the house is cleared and moves on."
Another short dream.
I'm in a hotel where a really handsome man in a suit is standing behind a counter leading to the ladies toilet. I decide he's a boss of some sort and is waiting for someone to come and assist him with something so take it upon myself to go over to him to assist. He wants to inspect the toilets. I suggest I check to see there are no women in first. There aren't so as we go in he looks around and seems satisfied so I follow him out where he talks about changes to be made over the corridor.by now I'm listening to what he's saying and he's pointing to the rest area and the canteen. He's talking about plans to take the canteen away. This surprised me and he rushes ahead of me to leave and changes into a short frumpy old woman. Still in the dream this has surprised me , his change in appearance, and tell my friends what had just happened and that they were going to loose the canteen.

Thoughts.
I really seem to be having an internal battle starting with chicken now, but in physical I'm NOT ready yet and have no intention of giving this up.

Final dream.
I'm standing around a circular table in a hotel again with friends around. The table has just one box in the middle of the table. Someone opens the box and an announcement comes from it and it seems to be loud and heard by everyone .
My full name Susan ... ...... is announced and I am formerly invited to a weekend retreat to a FARM! ( I felt my friends had clubbed together to send me away for a surprise birthday present) . The announcement continued as the full list of christian and surnames were read out. At this point I woke up still listening to the list of names.
Then as I am aware I've woken up and listening to names I see a symbol of a burning flame.

Thoughts.
1) Am I causing my own internal battle with eating chicken because in physical I don't currently have a probelm with it but in the dream state I seem to ?
2) the names that just reeled off. I wish I could remember even one of them. ( over the last year or so I have been feeling the need to know Who Am I.? The many episodes with the heavily painted witch type face that came to a conclusion of AKEO. Since that conclusion there have been no more episodes with the witch. Message understood- move on?
Since then I've now been wishing I could remember just something from the past . Were these names of importance? If so I've forgotten all.
3) There seems to be a subtle Invitation being suggested.
25/7/14. Being asked if I wanted to join the rest of the family in the park.
The sheet of paper signed with 'Your always welcome'
Or just wishful thinking.

susan

20th August 2014, 01:38 PM

In dreams I'm still aware of someone in the distance observing.
Also a tinny sounding voice is coming through, almost mechanical.

Dream.

A very short scene where I'm standing with a friend( someone I know in physical,) who is standing on the edge of a slight drop down to a stream. She is holding a baby. I warn her to be careful she may drop the baby. She doesn't listen to me and drops the baby by accident. As she retrieves the baby I feel annoyance that she didn't listen to what I told her. She starts to show her frustration at my reaction but immediately my thoughts change direction and the anger has gone and I feel how she must be feeling. I tell her " no I'm not angry with you . I can understand how you must be feeling. You must be feeling awful."
So immediately my thoughts went from annoyance to understanding and sympathy.
I was aware the whole time of someone a short distance away on the other side of the stream just observing .
( I wonder if he/she?( had trousers on) put the thoughts into my dreaming mind so I would see the correct way to react to situations?)
Compassion seems to be the thought here.
2nd Dream.
I'm with a group of people( didn't get the feeling of friends this time) behind a gate. There's a crowd of people on the other side of the gate and one man stands out from the crowd and holds out his arm as I approach. He gives me a bundle of small objects I can hold in the palm of my hand. He says " Here's your honey". As I walk away from him there is a small container the size of a big key ring and I tilt my head backwards raising the container in the air above my open mouth and let the contents flow into my mouth.
End of dream.
Thoughts.
I cann't find anything on the Internet with reference to drinking honey in this manner. The reason I searched was because I believe I was taken back (earlier in the journal ) to a storage room with steps leading up to the hot dessert where jars of honey were stored hanging on hooks on the wall. Was told then how it would last for thousands of years. ( later found this last part to be true. Page 11 17/8/13. )This was the time I was getting pyramids and dessert and the river Nile, and having a strong feeling of being banished from the land and leaving a woman I loved behind.

Yesterday so many short dreams with group of friends. Just before wakening up I heard a tinny voice again, almost a computerised ,mechanical type voice.I heard it announce ." Enough has been shown. Stop now." Immediately my whole vision is taken up with a bright orange / red circle.

Looking at this first one again I wonder if this could be to do with my stubbornness to give up chicken, to listen. I hope not.

susan

21st August 2014, 08:41 PM

I feel a little silly writing this but how many times have I written something that I felt would be laughed at . However for the last week or two I have memories of short flashes of seeing my hand with my fingers chopped off. I didn't write about this but was trying to work out what it could mean . It was repeated so knew I didn't get it. I find I'm getting overly sensitive to responses to anything that involves my input. Even after posting on this site I feel a dread when logging in just incase. Now this isn't normal and please anyone continue as normal I need to toughen up.( I think it's just a phase I'm going through)
So had decided to the finger chopping bit may be suggesting times that I may regret posting something.

Tonight I took a different twist to this. Have just switched off the telly and am on my own so wondered if I could repeat the two occasions where I have been posting but a different message was written to the one I thought I was writing.
At the times I recalled the suggestion a few pages back where I thought automatic writing may be on the cards.
So closed my eyes and with 2 fingers just went with it .
It was rubbish ...... Tried again with one finger this time ...... It was rubbish.
Finally , I sent out a request that ok I've got it wrong, you can have a laugh on me up there but please give me one last chance to see if I can make some kind of contact.
Closed eyes .. This is what I wrote.

Vbnjh. Vegan veg vg change go.

Even the spaces between the words were in the right, places.
Anyone following my battle with giving up chicken will understand.

IA56

22nd August 2014, 06:42 AM

Hi Susan,

I do totally undertand your feelings of fear of being laught at....and also fear of others reactions to my writings, so I totally unerstand.
I did see this as the ego/soul battle...ego´s death fear...and today I know it was that....ego does never win, it does not exist at all...and even the try to convinse that body has any value but as a comminications device and will be still here after I go home...I am eternal, ego is only invented as a good and temperary teacher...and a damn good one :-)

Love
ia

LPCF

22nd August 2014, 08:41 PM

I understand you, Susan. Fascinating about the writing. The subconscious (HS, soul, whatever) is trying to tell you something, I feel. The path of compassion is not an easy one to follow, but I never regretted it. Blessings to you!

susan

23rd August 2014, 02:20 PM

IA56, and LPCF, thank you both for your encouragement.
LPCF, ' Path Of Compassion' . Yes you've hit the nail on the head. Spot on.
By 27/6/13 I came to the conclusion that I was being strongly directed along the path of giving up eating animals.( picture of hedgehog/ man, lamb with cross through it ( also seen as sacrifice) and killing slugs).
I stopped eating all meat except chicken but the issue is still repeating in my dreams. Even the dream the other night where my reaction suddenly changed from being angry to compassion for the person. The thing is I know I try my best with people. So I feel compassion for all animals including chicken is the issue.
I haven't eaten other meats for approx 8 weeks now, and after the writing episode the other night I'm willing to TRY to cut out all.
So here goes. Haven't eaten chicken for 4 days. I will meet myself half way to start with. If I run out of ideas for meals I may have some . Also 2 weeks time will be on holiday so I will accept that I may have some . This will not be failure just acknowledging the fact.

However I AM NOT going to the extreme of being a Vegan!

susan

24th August 2014, 04:24 PM

Have felt the need today to do some reading on the reasons why not to eat meat . What is written about this subject to help me really get behind my decision rather than just because this is coming strongly from the other side.
In other words. " Don't just follow blindly. Study Life" . Joseph Campbell.

RELIGION.
Firstly what I will not take seriously as a reason is Religion.
With all due respect to anyone reading this practicing a form of religion I read an excellent article pointing out the inconsistency of dietary components of different religious faiths. From , Hinduism, Judaism, Sikhism, Islam, Christianity, to Buddhism.
Although I believe all followers of these faiths to be striving to live as directed from their religious teachings,
Some can eat meat, some cann't. Those that can eat meat differ in the types they can eat compared to other religions , allowing meat eating. Some can eat meat as long as they themselves have not done the necessary killing.
However , what is obvious is that even with the inconsistency the subject of meat eating is a topic of their teachings.

Then there is the point to note that everything has life. We already know that everything is made up of energy.
Guru Nanak Dev says, " water is the Source of all life whether vegetable or animal. None of the grain of corn is without life. There is life in water by which all is made green, thus there is life in vegetation and life in all types of creatures."
So I suppose how do we discriminate what we kill and what we don't kill. We have human bodies that need substance to survive.
The famous saying " LIFE EATS LIFE" , the symbol of the snake eating it's own tail. Ouroboros.
So , I'm still not convinced in fact this is a very good argument for eating meat.
However, just because the sweet shop is full of sweets it doesn't mean I have to eat all of them.

Now This Is Where I Have Been Convinced To Try To Stop Eating Meat.

We don't need to eat everything on offer just because it's on the supermarket shelves. We cannot avoid killing life as long as we have a physical body so maybe the ones with a heart and brain could be spared.
COMPASSION.
Megan Kaul ,a Pranic Healer and Nutrition Consultant writes of there being no need to take the lives of animals in order to be healthy.
Spirituality is about striving to minimise harm to others and causing suffering. AHISMA ( to do no harm, to show kindness and non violence towards all living) we are all connected.

I know a few adults who are vegetarian. The reason they give me is that many years ago when they were children their fathers were butchers and the slaughter house would call on them frequently to do the killing. They were sickened as children.

Health.
Meat is considered to be full of ' dirty energy' . The body has trouble to process and eliminate which takes up energy .
Elimination could improve ones health. Meat hardly has any vibration. Plants , especially fresh has a very high vibration.
Removing meat may be one of the fastest and easiest way to raise vibration, apparently, helping towards Purification of the Mind and Body.

So this is no scholarly article . Just a little reminder for myself when I feel like giving in to temptation ,as to why so many of my dreams recently have pointed towards this direction that I was reluctant to really get behind fully.
The writing the other day was the most convincing for me.
Will be interesting to see whether this type of dream stops now. Got it! Message understood.

IA56

25th August 2014, 04:56 AM

Have felt the need today to do some reading on the reasons why not to eat meat . What is written about this subject to help me really get behind my decision rather than just because this is coming strongly from the other side.
In other words. " Don't just follow blindly. Study Life" . Joseph Campbell.

RELIGION.
Firstly what I will not take seriously as a reason is Religion.
With all due respect to anyone reading this practicing a form of religion I read an excellent article pointing out the inconsistency of dietary components of different religious faiths. From , Hinduism, Judaism, Sikhism, Islam, Christianity, to Buddhism.
Although I believe all followers of these faiths to be striving to live as directed from their religious teachings,
Some can eat meat, some cann't. Those that can eat meat differ in the types they can eat compared to other religions , allowing meat eating. Some can eat meat as long as they themselves have not done the necessary killing.
However , what is obvious is that even with the inconsistency the subject of meat eating is a topic of their teachings.

.

Hi Susan,
I am feeling as you are about religions, if they are to used in right way there will be peace on earth and everyone looking after one and other, not like today, killing each others. That is not the purpose of religion, and it is used wrong today.
There has bean good atemts of several trying to bring forth the message of LOVE but they have failed to give a wither understanding in a individual, I have suffered a lot about this, and I was given that all will find home eventually, but no time was given, and then this was given about the A Course in Miracles to me to write here about....and the person whom the dictation was given was a doctor Helen Suchcman, a professor of medical psychology...still it is focused on religion....but I know that Jesus Christ was totally aware and he said also that he has not come to start a religion, but to free everyone....My feeling is ...that religions if they are followed as they where ment to be, then there can not be war or anything of destruction against each others.
So what I am trying to say is for each of you, try to see the core of all....also in you....and do not let some details to fool you, try to take in the depts of all, not the delusions of what is trying to drag you off course.
It is not easy to communicate and I fail all the time, but I do not give up, I am going to try and try and soon I will understand, and when I understand I can communicate better.

Love
ia

susan

27th August 2014, 05:36 PM

2 short OBEs
25/08/14.

4.30 am. Settled after main sleep and little energy work all over. Did usual silence mind hoping for something in brow but could feel my self sinking, going under when I'm floating upwards. Knew OBE in progress. No vibrations or astral noise. Moving to the right.
Very quickly I'm in a large area that looked like a massive department store or shopping mall. Only 180vision. Massive wide stairway behind me. I say behind me with 180 vision because that was all I could see . I was travelling backwards but got the feeling someone was holding me sideways. Saw people going down these stairs but we were going higher up the stairs on the other side.I/we? are going into an elevator . It's at this point that I realise ( or think) that the walls are steel so will act like a mirror. I can look to see who is carrying me. At that exact point it's over and I'm back awake in bed.
Spent about an hour thinking about this and decided maybe I wasn't meant to see who it was but just the experience of going up the stairs and going in a lift may just be letting me know my decision about the meat was going in the right direction.

After settling mind found myself floating upwards again. Vision wasn't good. Had some sight but difficulty seeing clearly then it got clearer. I'm floating down to the ground. I'm in a room sparsely furnished. A pair of long curtains were closed taking up the size of a wall in a small house. Decided there would be a window behind the curtains and had read many times on the forum and books that going through the window could take me into astral so rose up from ground and headed with intention of going straight through without stopping ,but I couldn't. I penetrated part of the material but it was like hitting a sticky balloon. AsI moved back it felt like having chewing gum stuck to the front of me teeth. I did what I may have done if something had flown onto your lips quickly and puffed out and produced lovely soapy looking bubbles. As I'm doing this I know there is no air on astral so was amused as I did it again knowing I was producing these bubbles with my own mind.
Then I see two men standing close against the wall at the side of me. One of them is blond hair approx 27-early 30s.
He comes closer but still against the wall and says something like. " Yes, she only had one eye, it was me who helped her' .
He was smiling at me, almost grinning cheekily. I'm just thinking that he wasn't bad looking when I was back in bed awake. Over.
Thoughts.
I don't think the first OBE I was meant to see who had me. More a communication.
The second one, well I've entered a cave before where women came up to me and spoke and as I went to the door to explore outside my attention was taken by a woman and was asked to wait.
This time once again it's like a tease. The wide curtains, window behind but there was no way I was meant to explore and go through because I did nothing wrong. There was a barrier up. I think this was meant for me to see the young man but once again it ended so quickly without wanting it to.
I know spirit can take any shape or characters can be created. A while back I wrote that when I've perceived a shadowy figure I seem to feel the warmth and kindness and a sort of character builds as to how it wants to be seen.
I think I didn't have long enough to work out what I thought of this quit good looking young man.

susan

28th August 2014, 08:25 PM

Once again something strange has happened.
After work early afternoon I read a chapter of ultimate journey again byRobert Munroe.
This is the chapter where he is communicating and finding out about his other lives that have lead up to his ( at the time) current life as Bob.
He describes his realisation as ' every beam of light was one of me, one of my I There personalities complete with a different life experience ' . He talks of communicating with them . They had their own personalities that spoke to him at that time ,and discovering the times they had shone through him to help in the tasks required if they had the skills on his then current lifetime.

So this is where my thoughts are.

The communication I have been getting sometimes appearing to be male personality sometimes female personality but mostly showing the same sense of humour I would have may be parts of me from previous lives.
I know there is a difference on the fun communication to the more serious communication that comes from what I have decided to call Teachers.. Then there is what I would call the ' higher uppers ' that I feel the words are more chosen and loving but short communication. I feel quite privileged to receive this. Higher self or should it be called Higher Selves.
So , to my confusion....... Tonight after reading Robert's chapter described above I went for 1 hour of the Hemi sync and energy raising with some thoughts and requests thrown in amongst trying to silence the mind.
I asked if I could throw out a wish that I would really like to
have more communication through the day which makes everything more convincing , ( not to impress anyone other than myself to feel closer to them) and this would be great if it could be the writing as has happened three times now recently. As I settled I thought I picked up ' a hope' . Maybe this was just me acknowledging my request, I don't know, maybe imagination.
What isn't my imagination though is 1 hour later wondering just who if any may be the main character prominent in helping me in spirit, I decided to do a little writing again with the I Pad.
Closed eyes , had my right hand cupped tightly against the edge of it and went with it just for a few seconds expecting rubbish.

This is what I wrote with the same spaces and full stops .( I'm aware that when you spell a name the computer automatically corrects this to a capital. )

HHmmmm. BEN. BEN. Mmmm.

I ended with a full stop. This is my husbands name that I have been married to for 37 years.( holiday romance, had been with him 4 days when we decided to get married) Both the E and N both times were capital letters with a full stop and a gap and repeated.
The puzzle here is I didn't move my writing hand from where it was positioned. There is no way my finger could have reached the capital letter arrow.
So.... I was asking who was prominent on the other side helping me and my husbands name came up ( who doesn't follow any of this)
I have to think this one out. If We belong to the same soul group, then do we both have the same past personalities therefore the same future personalities ( selves?) I can see for my own mind I've opened a whole new can of questions.

I have to add a thought here.
The other day I posted how much I regretted opening up to my husband because he thought it was in my mind. The only reason I did was because I recalled a very memorable scene where I am being begged by him to open up to him! ( just upon wakening)
Maybe I was meant to , to wake him up a little, to plant the seed??

Edit.
A year on and have since read the ' michael's teachings', where an explanation is given that a group of entities( spirits, fragments) who belong together coming to learn at the same time all agree to share the same higher consciousness.

susan

29th August 2014, 08:02 PM

Oh dear when do I stop posting ?
Just now eating dinner not interested in telly with previous thoughts decided before reading my book just log on to ' notes ' where I can easily write and erase.
I wrote with one finger and just went with it with a barrier to what my finger would reach and when I looked to see what I had written I was on my last journal page on my last post on this forum.
How the heck did my finger get to the top to click on journals? No way could my finger have reached the top of the page for the arrow backwards or to the ' nursing section' .
So maybe. I have to digest what is written or maybe to re-asses what is written? Time will tell.

Since writing this have switched off and gone through the same format and no way can I explained how I got to my journal post

susan

31st August 2014, 03:52 PM

This morning Just ordinary dreams to do with what's on my mind to do with physical life.
The last one I don't know if I became lucid in the dream or if I dreamt of becoming lucid but I was certainly trying to work out the meaning of what I was looking at at the time of the dream.
In the dream I'm viewing this from the brow and was aware that I was. This was a bit like looking through a telescope and moving it to see what more there was to look at. First I see a glass window in front of me and the most beautiful blue sky with white puffy clouds up high. I could then see roof tops. I was starting to recognise the street as I'm getting a bit excited and trying not to loose what I was viewing. Next some lovely snow flakes fall from the sky and land on the window. At this point I should have tried to go through it ( I even thought this) but was too engrossed in what I was watching as I recognised the street as my late fathers.
I now see his front garden but it has a bird table in the middle. ( there isn't one ) Next, my deceased cat jumps up onto the table to rummage for food. She looks so so skinny. She always was a thin cat but this was too skinny.
In the dream my immediate thought was that I hadn't left her with any food whilst on holiday , I'd abandoned her. Then I seem to be lucid again and realised I was just viewing this Im trying to work out what my deceased cat is doing there, did it mean anything?
A few thoughts went through my mind then I must have dozed off to a deeper sleep.
Thoughts.
Yesterday in my garden I checked the bird stand and noticed they had plenty of fat balls and seed and other stuff. Did that cause the dream? The colours were so crisp and vivid. Better than looking outdoors now. Would love to dream with that clarity every night.

susan

1st September 2014, 08:20 AM

From 3.30 am doing little energy work in and out of sleep . Couldn't stay awake but every time I woke up I felt low. I even saw a submarine at the bottom of the sea. Even one dream I saw someone who was supposed to be my husband in an old army uniform just returning from war but it was a bad feeling about it and he was a womaniser and I tried to avoid him. I cann't understand why I had a night of dreams making me feel low.one had me sinking down in a mud pool. Strangely two nights ago I thought I picked up " this is where the nightmare starts" , It didn't make sense so dismissed it. ( or thought I had.) so before my final wake up I was feeling low.

However I feel brilliant and still have a lump in my throat.
Final wake up this morning was like being on a massive roller coaster ride. From what I remember...
I'm with a small group of friends in a small rickety airoplane. It takes off building up speed then goes off the edge of what looks like the Grand Canyon. Heads down then builds up speed to raise up just on the nick of time. Next there is a big metal wall in front of us but the plane isn't going to build speed or height . It's going to crash into it . There's a bunny running along in front. At the last second the pilot has gone under the wall where there was a gap. This went on and I'm feeling the excitement and the way your body would feel inside if you were going up and down in that manner.
I woke up to feeling the lump in my throat ( and still have it) after just diving up high enough to miss an obstacle.
This was exciting and just what I needed to get me out of the way I was feeling after feeling really low.
Thoughts.
I've woken up in this manner before and it has raised me up from my bad dreams.

Page 23. 25th Feb14 . Same type of fun event that lifted my spirits up after feeling low, but that time it was on a boat. ( Infact I've had a plane before, just not sure where.)

susan

6th September 2014, 06:39 PM

Could my dear late father still be asleep in spirit 3 years after his death?
I can find no other explanation for the last OBE this morning. Anyone reading this , if you have any alternative suggestions or just agree with my interpretation I would welcome your thoughts.

Leading up to it.
2days ago I found my self talking fondly of dad on two different occasions to different people just because it was relevant with the topic of conversation. Went to bed and at usual early am light sleep time picked up lot of little dreams but the last one had me wake up suddenly from it.
Someone is telling me I'm going solo tomorrow. I'm flying a plane, should they go and get it? I then see myself saying goodbye to a group of friends who are leaving on a double decker bus. As I'm walking away someone walks behind me wanting to talk to me and is trying to catch up but before they can someone walks towards me and says ' I hear your going on holiday tomorrow'. I become alarmed at this saying ' who told you, I haven't told anyone. Then the person behind says ' just how long is it since you spoke to your dad?' Then I woke up .
Thoughts.
So everything here so far could be just my dreaming mind. I've written before of my goal to take control and aim for somewhere( amongst the stars). I am going on holiday and I had been talking about my father.
Through the day this had me think about aiming to try to reach dad. A big challenge and probably unsuccessful but no harm in trying.

This mornings OBE.
4.30 am. Visit bathroom. Used the 4 levers that kurt talks about.( assessing how I was with thinking, feeling, sensing, the other was intuition but couldn't do anything about that. ) so I knew I was in an okay frame of mind not to let anything spoil this attempt
About 20 mins all over NEWS then settled and looked . Didn't take long when I'm slowly raising up. I felt very alert .No vibrations, no astral noise. Vision a bit speckly. Up and slightly to left, still speckly I almost felt I was opening my physical eyes wide to try to see but knew I wasn't. In fact I felt so alert this was great. Was I going to see dad.? I stayed calm, thought of dad hoping this would work.

Great vision now this was like being high in the sky and coming in to land over a city. Found myself coming in to land still moving forwards whilst lowering and I'm in a building which has a wide corridor leading to a large opening to another part of the building.
It was here I'm starting to feel very sombre. I can see a large plaque with writing on but didn't digest what was written. As I passed by I wish I had but there was another large stone against the wall like the ones put over a grave.
OMG, to the right of me was a tall stone in the middle of the floor about 10 feet high, slightly getting narrower nearing the top like the shape of a coffin and there he was. I could see a side profile but knew it was looking like my fathers dead body. I was just taking this in when I've moved to the front now looking at it longways and either I had gone higher or it was now lower but we were at the same level. Everything was silent but now there was a man standing to the side of where dad lay. He was wearing a white lab coat to the knees, had glasses on with dark frames and was holding a clip board and pen and had his head down writing something.
At this stage I knew this was for me to interpret and it wasn't really dad, but it's still not nice to see because for the quick second I saw him he looked just like when he was laid out in hospital when he died.
Rather sheepishly I thought I should acknowledge him and what seemed to be a very timid voice said ' hello'. It was almost as if my words came through the top of my head and moved along to his.
He raised his head a little, hardly acknowledging me, in fact he didn't look at me, and replied " oh hello, " once again the words seemed to travel from him to me but he had no interest in me and carried on looking at dad and writing.
Time to leave. I didn't want to stay any longer. I don't know if this was just my wishes or if it would have ended anyway but woke up.
Thoughts.
I know this wasn't dad but was for interpretation and to me the most obvious is
The man in the lab coat writing suggests that dad still hasn't woken up yet but is being cared for, looked after.
My father in physical had almost no belief in the spirit world. He would never show any interest. Even when dying he never talked of it and we found it difficult as he deteriorated to bring the subject up.
If I have got this right then thank goodness I've read plenty otherwise I may have thought that I'd just seen my dead father in spirit just lying on a tall stone.
( there was me thinking if I was lucky enough I could have a nice chat with him)

An after thought but if this is correct then I wish with all my heart I had opened up to him and made him listen and think. I just want to shake him and wake him up.
Mayebe this is one reason I was urged to open up to my husband ( no matter what reaction we may get ) just to plant that seed of suggestion which may help) with the knowledge we have maybe talking rather than keeping silent will help when the inevitable comes.

CFTraveler

7th September 2014, 05:12 PM

I think your interpretation is right on, and I think you'll have the opportunity to interact with your dad when it's time to move on to focus 27.

susan

23rd September 2014, 08:41 PM

I hope so CFT.
Having had 2weeks to read Kurt's ' Otherwhere' for the first time , it was worth every pound I paid. I would have paid even more if I had known what I would be reading .
The description of part of the 'After Death Zone' where souls are taken/ retrieved, has left me feeling sure I did actually visit this area described in the previous above post.

There are so many similarities.
First, my senses were in operation. As soon as I landed I felt very somber even before I witnessed what I did.
He writes of his guide telling him that he was perceiving on his own now......he was responsible for interpreting what he picked up......
He writes of Lab Technicians.....( with alchemical apparatus) ....... Wearing white lab coats..........carrying clip boards......making observations.
Robert Munroe and Kurt ( page 109 ...Otherwhere...) perceived and translated their experience differently.
Kurt was within a lecture being given to himself and others where he found himself taking part of and experiencing. He describes row upon row of shelves containing deep wooden drawers containing shades as they go through a transformation process.Can'nt at this point find in the book where he compares Robert Munroes description but it seems to be up to the individual to interpret , and as I was there looking for my father , I translated what my senses perceived. Both Robert and Kurt we're learning of souls as a collective with the purpose of writing to inform the public. I believe mine was personal.Hence the interpretation that he may still be asleep.
He writes of being informed not being allowed to pass the dream zone whilst contaminated with uncentering emotions. Also that a desire to explore is not enough to grant access .
Maybe this was/ is my only experience of the after death zone because I had wanted to meet with my father and I needed to be informed??? And I had the four levers inplace. .????? Time will tell.........

Just want to record for journal . Been on holiday and was prepared to eat meat. Didn't want anything to spoil holiday.
No meat at all eaten. So easy. So much choice of alternatives I have surprised myself. I still don't call myself a vegetarian as I don't feel committed enough to label myself this. This is a long term achievement to aim for. Surprisingly , my husband has been so supportive due to telling him about my dreams about this and the writing , that he followed me around the buffet and almost copied what I ate. Also when visiting family on holiday he pre-warned them and the choice was immense. Just love him to bits.

susan

24th September 2014, 08:59 PM

Recalled this last one as a dream but there seemed to be clairvoyance within it.
Prior to going on holiday had had some deep thoughts about the other personalities we have been and when we leave our physical body how do we integrate with our other personalities we had been. Remembering' Seth Speaks ' by Jane Roberts, Seth brought forward the future Seth to talk , who seemed to have a different personality and residing in a different location. I found this confusing to try to understand how we perceive things when out of physical.
The following dream went as......

I'm standing in a large factory where a woman is teaching me. Suddenly the whole floor is covered and swimming with all the lovely pastries that you could desire. Apple strudel, Apple turnovers, chocolate Clair's, doughnuts. They are swimming in the floor amongst a liquid that looked like custard. To sum up everything gooey and bad for you but a luxury as a treat.
She explained that everything went down stairs ( saw it flowing down to the lower level) and got sieved and only the best was left behind and this was taken and made into the large inflatable representation of the companies logo.
Whilst I was viewing the custard and others swimming around I saw a small handbag amongst all of this and it did not belong there. It was out of place.she picks it up and gives it to me as I say that it doesn't belong there. It looks out of place. I took it. I could have it.
It was small , navy and beige with a lock at the front and a strap long enough to put over your shoulder over your neck so it couldn't fall off your shoulder.
Fast forward and planning luggage allowance for holiday decided not to take usual handbag but take 5 kilos allowance instead and put necessary documents in zip compartment.
Shopping duty free and there it was . The exact same bag described ( wasn't looking for anything but this was the first time we had not used a band bag for important passports and relevant papers. (£12.00) . Bought it and was so useful for the rest of the holiday. Worth every penny.
So it could have been random dreaming with clairvoyance added or explaining how our personalities are sieved and cleansed of impurities and eventually made into one .?

susan

25th September 2014, 09:05 PM

Since over indulgence during holiday I have felt so distant from any connection, but then I've written many times of feeling dis- connected for periods . Early hours of morning today thought would do some energy work and try to get back in contact when I suddenly visualised a police car with its blue light flashing. I feel sometimes for some reason we do not understand we are not encouraged to try to venture out. ( even Kurt talks of his early adventures where he was consciously aware of leaving his body when hands would push him back into body) I don't understand why but out of my control. Due to the light sleep I recalled 2 dreams.
1) I'm in a corridor with others and being told there is a big test and a written test at the end. I enter a classroom where a lovely teacher who has a class of pupils, asks me what I'm doing here and I have nothing to worry about. I've done this so many times before . She gives me a hug and I feel so much warmth and love from her.
2). I've crept into a classroom with others and pinched files that detailed our lives and who we had been, there was a picture of me but what I was looking for wasn't there.
Comments.
This can become so difficult to dismiss ordinary thoughts that are present in mind at time of sleeping that creates the dream , to something more.
The reason I say this is that I remember feeling so much love and warmth coming from this teacher in the dream.

susan

28th September 2014, 02:57 PM

This week has been too tiring and it's showing in my dreams.
2 small dreams with humour .
1) I'm watching an elderly couple in a noddy type car just cruising along slowly on the road and a jogger is jogging beside them keeping up and 2 cyclists are cycling fast to catch up with them .
The exact interpretation of this I'm not sure but in reality, I have to keep reminding myself that I CANNT go at the pace I used to be able to. I'm fit and healthy but getting older and have to slow down. ( something strange again but I wasn't aware of spelling CANNT with capital letters and I ve just tried to write it again incase I accidentally pressed the arrow for a capital C and even then the other letters change to small.)
2) I'm running round in a big circle and someone notes that there's spilt coffee on the floor. I stop and get kitchen roll to clean it up then rush to get changed for work. A group of people are laughing at me because I didn't realise it was my day off.

So yes these two dreams are how I'm feeling at the moment but I like the humour in them.

5am I was just starting to think of trying some NEWS when I suddenly picked up ' SORRY QUEEN' .

( one of my dreams near beginning of journal I titled under my magical heading because of the beauty of the colours and sounds all merging into each other ,I was told , ' Even the Queen was calling' .This was when I had come so close to having an accident with an oncoming car and a cyclist and was upset I hadn't been warned about this. The dream followed.
I've also recently dreamt of the queen and me and a dog.
Finally just upon awakening I picked up ' the Olympics and saw two white doves. '
My own interpretation on this is ..
The Olympics are about excelling , striving , something worked at to perfection.
Doves to me represent peace and love.
Well that's me told maybe.

susan

5th October 2014, 12:18 PM

This morning after a short sleep saw a lovely thin hand with long fingers holding a fountain pen and dipping it into an ink pot and starting to write on a piece of paper.
Very slow and elegant.
Have decided to concentrate more work on the brow and not to expect or hope to leave body .
I went back a few years on the OBE forum and it did me good to re -live my old adventures before this journal started and a lot of good advice is given concerning frustration and confusion which is what I feel at the moment.
I know I expect a result from the work I put in but deep down I know I'm expecting too much too often.
Or am I? If my body is asleep anyway and resting why CANN'T I get ( it's done it again, I didn't spell with capital letters) out.
Advice was that shifts are necessary even if they conflict with our desires and expectations and to trust the process.

So , still NEWS, more brow work added, bouncing , brushing, colour and will start to just look and wait.

Something I forgot to add, woke up from another short dream where I picked up ' crystal clear' .something will be made crystal clear. The dream was I suppose to do with my frustration and probably just my dreaming mind but will record anyway.
I've arrived at an airport terminal and am walking along a long wide corridor towards the immigration, passport area. Someone behind is wanting to kill my friend in front of me ( there was no fear in this dream) The person throws a knife and its embedded in a wall. I take the knife and place it in my Filofax so he CANNT use it again. ( Right! There has to be something playing up with my I pad when writing the word cannt. )
The dream now has me standing watching some army men walking in my direction. I decide that the man behind the others must be the corporal and they pass me . For some reason I feel I have to salute and do. ( I feel silly even if it was a dream. )
The corporal leaves the others and comes over to me. He has a very gentle manner and asks me, " if I was to send you to Portugal on your own what is stopping you? . That's when I woke up and picked up that something will be made crystal clear.
The pen and paper described above was picked up at a different wake up and I have no dream recalled from that.

susan

6th October 2014, 08:17 PM

I didn't think I would have anything to post so quickly.

Went to bed fine. No extreme tiredness, concerns, listened to beautiful Tibetan tape whilst pottering in house. Everything fine.

Woke up from dream. It was obscene. This disturbed me. Back to sleep and woke up from other dream. This was me in the middle of a lake on a rowing boat and someone is under water swimming up to frighten and kill me. ( there is a resemblance in the scene here to something seen on telly about a week ago. ) This had me a little reluctant to go back to sleep, but just as I was dozing off I saw the face of a man zoom up closer to me and he had dark glasses on. This was not a sight that would have you think ' oh my guide' , There was only a slight resemblance to my father but this frightened me. I'm watching someone be shot. Started to doze again when I felt myself sinking, knew I was on the verge and suddenly felt my whole energy body like a small electric shock going through me. This made me even more alert . Started moving downwards and to the right. Everything was dark, nothing to see but I was so alert that I always get excited when I'm out so not thinking of anything else other than excited to see where I would end up.

Eventually I've stopped but everything is very dark and I could see movement in front of me. This felt like a large area underground but all I could see were outlines of what looked like a giant black buddha, then a giant naked man but he looked like a Neanderthal .
Suddenly everything changed and I'm in light.
This was great, I felt I'd finally got somewhere.
A woman was in front of me going to a tall filing cabinet. She opened it to put some papers in and I went up behind her and said " Hello" . She didn't reply. Another woman was sitting at a table with papers. I thought I should say hello so put my hand on her shoulders and said hello. She didn't reply.
Next thing I'm at the other end of the room and it looks like a large warehouse. Some others are walking to the outside. I wonder why they are walking when they could fly. Didn't want to seem out of place so skimmed across the floor with a pretence of walking. I made a game if it and as I got closer decided I wanted to explore outside while I had time , had to stay focused so rose up in the air and shot above their heads and outside.
I see four men flying high in the sky but they were upside down vertical going in the direction to a valley area ahead. I picked up that there was an air show starting.Next thing I'm down there but decided I didn't have time to waste, I needed to explore.
As I'm now at the top of the valley passing people a young girl has come to the side of me and is walking along side. About 5-6 years of age . I ask her if She wants a cuddle but she says no she has to find her mummy first. She was holding on to a man with her other hand who was small in stature and slightly Indian in origin. He took no notice of me , he didn't seem alarmed that she was holding my hand. Woke up.
Was thinking this one through and had been aware the whole time from leaving body to the end of experience.

Thoughts.
Still a mystery why I had such vile dreams.
If I had projected into the crazy dream zone area, why did I pass this dark area perceiving giant figures first?
If this was the dream zone they seemed to be a community of people interacting and there were of course the people putting on a flying display.
I cannot see this as a learning experience specifically for me as I didn't learn anything from this.
If this was an astral plane, which upon wakening I thought it could have been, the little girl has me confused. Could the young girl represent a younger soul?
I don't know, just pleased to have experienced it but woke up feeling exhausted as if I'd had no sleep.

CFTraveler

7th October 2014, 01:17 PM

FWIW, I find that if I see something unpleasant on TV, my subconscious will keep ruminating on it and it'll serve it up to me later for further considering. If I actually observe it closely without flinching, it does not recur. But if I recoil and try to avoid/ignore it it will come back with some other version of the same thing.
About the little girl, it might be a retrieval- just talking to her may have done the trick. But this is just a guess.

susan

11th October 2014, 08:21 PM

Thanks CFT. If this was a retreival then it may be connected to some previously recorded events.

Have done some homework on this last one to try to tidy up a few queries.
Such as
1) why didn't the two women aknowledge me when I said hello?

2) what were they doing with filing cabinet and desk ( putting files back into a filing cabinet) at the front of and inside a massive
warehouse? Anythings possible just a bit unusual.

3) (posted 8th May, page 25).......this was where the taxi driver was going to interview me to let me know how many people he had lost. This was when I then saw a mans pair of trousers with a zip running along the inside of the thigh, along over to the other leg running along the thigh, opening, and lovely little puppies running out. (I found this a little embarrassing at the time so didn't go into exact detail about it )but it got my attention, maybe I'm just overly feminine and shy but possibly a more male personality would not be as sensitive to showing this scene to get the message across, as it seemed to be suggesting the link of ' Family' to people lost which I later thought retrievals may be cropping up at a later date.

4) only recently ( 25 sept, page 34) a dream where I entered a classroom and met with the teacher but had picked up in the corridor that there was a big test coming up followed by a written test.
Followed by a dream where I'm sneaking into a class room pinching files to find out about who I've been , about myself.

So , Kurt writes of his ' instructor ' advising him of anomalies set up within a dream for him to work out that something wasn't how it should be and then he was expected to look for or to create a window or door to project through into astral.
Even though this wasn't a dream I've had similar before where I was taken to a canteen full of people but then I was taken to the massive window where we were suddenly through it and this was a different busy fun enviroment. I believed at the time to be astral.

For Consideration.
I believe that maybe I was taken to the warehouse enviroment and the women didn't acknowledge mebecause they weren't meant to. I was to work out the connection and relevance to the papers and filing cabinet and the recent dream where I was pinching papers from a file in a room which had information about who I had been, about me. It even had a photo in.
When I found an exit that would take me into Astral ( which I did by flying out the entrance) I should then work out the connection of the girl.
This is where I think it could have been a retrieval and the father figure wasn't alarmed at me holding her hand because maybe this was someone helping( not even going to try going there with just who.) plenty of descriptions printed of guides / spirits working in the after life taking on the disguise of a relative to help the situation. ( who knows , maybe on a couple of years I will decide it was me as well but not just yet.)
Maybe this was one of the lost puppies being retrieved.
Maybe this was the big test and this analysis was the written test.
Well makes a good story anyway.

Next must be to work out the beginning of OBE in the dark and the figures

As an add on just for the record have just read Kurt's online records on his website and an alternative I didn't think of was that possibly they couldn't see me because I was in the mental body within the astral.
I will keep this on the back burner but I don't think so. The little girl was holding my hand

susan

15th October 2014, 05:56 PM

Early am another OBE but I believe this was neither an astral plane where spirits reside nor the Real Time Zone but I think was set up for my consideration.
This has been the most profound experience to date and have re lived the scene over and over in my mind all day.
All tiredness gone and last couple of days working on NEWS and brow area.
The other night I had a short exit where I got as far as the wall behind my bed but everything was so slow and I felt resistance so it ended abruptly.
Early morning was sending out thoughts. I felt a little lost. Where do I want to project to ? What more can I be doing in physical? Have a worthwhile job through the day giving out a lot of care and attention to people. Have given up all forms of meat. I'm being creative in the garden, painting doors inside, which gives me a lot of satisfaction but something is missing and I don't know what it is. I needed another goal to work on.

OBE.
Little NEWS , silenced mind but kept circling feet as long as I could .looked into brow just hoped to see something, anything, just something. Very soon I'm raising very slowly and now backwards.i tried to shoot up fast this time but again I had no control over the direction or speed. I could once again feel a strange kind of light resistance as I was going through the wall. Even the blackness got blacker just for a couple of seconds. Now I'm moving in a straight line but it felt I was facing forwards and from a greyish colour I now have sight. I'm moving forwards seeing a train track below and now Im sitting on a train looking out the window. This was great. What was I going to see?
The train slows down and I see small groups of people sitting on the ground along the track. The train pulls to a stop. This is the station but there was no building. Just people sitting. Without thinking I just rolled out of the window. ( I love it, how cool is that just rolling out of the window, Even 007 couldn't have done that)
I have never visited India but it came to mind. A long line of men and women in colourful clothes just sitting on their bottoms with their knees up and feet flat on the ground. Women had their heads covered but not face. There was a serene silence, almost acceptance coming from these people. As I passed the long line of people the area was full of all ages all dressed the same. Poverty was everywhere.in the distance was the waters edge like a shore line or edge of a long river. As I go over groups of children were milling around with adults. There were two very old looking trucks amongst the people that had an oblong sign stuck to the front. I tried to read the writing but it wasn't in English , in fact it could have been in Indian. The trucks had the same notice and it was written in blue and red. I got a feeling these could have either been a sort of ambulance or relief aid trucks.
As I go towards the water a young boy sees me and says " Good afternoon" in a broken accent.
This next bit was so so sad to look at.
Horses/ donkeys were walking the waters edge with their heads down and their owners at the side of them . I then saw more but their bodies were half in the sand/ soil, as they walked with their heads under the water. Were they searching for crabs under the sand ??
Men were half submerged in the water, just walking. Some men were on the backs of their horses hanging off submerging themselves under the water. This was extreme poverty but I don't know if they were searching for some kind of food under the water.this carried along the whole of the shore line.
Woke up instantly. I don't know why but I thanked myself ?? Which ever part of me was responsible for showing me this. I felt and still feel very humble to have had this experience.
Thoughts.
Firstly, I cannot believe that any poverty stricken people would reside in an astral realm such as that. Just 100% not.
The boy spoke to me, but he was the only one to acknowledge me. I don't believe this was Real time Zone and to be honest I have never witnessed anything as bad as this even on telly covering poverty stricken places.
So I think this was for my consideration.
Well it's too late in life to turn into another Gandhi or Sister Theresa. I cannt help the poor in this life. I'm too old to pack my bags and become a relief worker.I do my best as already described through the day. So what I will take from this is to be grateful for everything I already have. To stop wanting what I don't need. To try to be more content. As I was reminded a few months ago with the little white purse.... Treasures are found within....
I may have missed the point here completely but I was taken there for a reason and just walking amongst these people made me feel very humble as if they accepted their situation in life.
ACCEPTANCE.

susan

18th October 2014, 09:02 PM

Just a dream but need to record for learning purpose.
Reading on another forum got very excited at the thought of helping in astral rather than just hoping for something eventful and exciting. Even if it's my made up imagination let's try to do a service whilst sleeping .... So just go with this.
Tried to stay awake round 4.30 but fell asleep.
Dreamt I'd missed the train. ( knew I had fallen asleep and missed the opportunity to experience )
I'm in a bedroom I know and am looking through a small window and there s a complete different scene outside which is like green hills and I know this is the way to astral. Next thing I'm through the window and on the back of a pink toy elephant. The elephant is so happy to be helping me and shows so much love and protection towards me . It is so happy to be helping me and to be with me the trunk keeps comforting me to let me know it is protecting me and taking me home .
Thoughts.
So going to sleep wanting to do a service may have given me a higher dream.
So I will record this as a dream, because that is what it was.
The pink elephant reminds me of the card I was given a while back of a child's card with an elephant drawn and filled in with pink.
( an elephant has a long memory and I see pink as either love or female
Just need to add there s absolutely no comparison to OBEs described as such.)

eyeoneblack

19th October 2014, 01:03 AM

Ask Karen six-five-nine yesterday: Are you staying in your body these days? She said she was 'staying put' living in the physical, that her focus now was 'inward'. There is a bit of a difference.

susan

20th October 2014, 01:24 PM

VHi Richard. Is this the Karen who used to post on this site a few years ago?
I'm not sure if your meaning the intuitive side during the awake stage and our own analysis of our waking life or something different.

Having read again my last post about the dream I realise that I was wrong to dismiss this as just a dream. Considering this is how many get into astral then this was very wrong.I suppose I am reluctant to loose the experience of consciously leaving body because you know then what is going on as it happens. My failure is being able to become lucid in a dream and turn it into an experience. Not sure how this can be worked on .
Whenever reflecting I've often tried to think how I felt. Shadowy figures , feeling kindness, fondness, fun. I think I still have a long way to go on these senses but that pink elephant toy gave me so much happiness, joy,protection, love. This was even felt as I woke up.
Was shown my goal again this am. Woman with very long legs kicking a football high in the sky.
Also saw my front door being opened and the ground outside was covered with snow.

An after thought. If I am responsible for forming my own interpretation of an energy perceived by me then I formed the projection of a pink elephant because of the above described feelings it was giving off and stored somewhere forgotten in my mind is the relevance to being given the pink birthday card of the pink elephant. Maybe. I'm going with this for the moment.

eyeoneblack

26th October 2014, 02:21 AM

I think you're getting it Susan. I can't explain why I've latched on to you - there is no apparent reason - but I respect your journey and expect the best from you. You may a great teacher one day. Nameste.

susan

26th October 2014, 02:57 PM

Thank you Richard. You may not realise how much that has helped to hear.
Was feeling rather silly about the pink elephant episode. This is why I think it's imperative for anyone experiencing events to read from the experienced authors to be able to put a meaning to it. Otherwise we are likely to be described as living in cuckoo land.
So here goes.

My Spaceman / woman, is back and I've had quite a lot of advice this am.
Woke up 4.30 from nice dream to do with physical.
Dream.
I'm looking out of a window and my late father is in the garden. My sister has brought some spring flowers to plant. Dad is watching her plant them.I,m inside doing the decorating deciding that the curtains will stay. There nice.
Woke up. ( Yesterday I enjoyed pulling out the old and planted some daffodils and tulips. Also did some painting of the stairs and felt really good about what I had done that day. My dad had come to live with me for his last 6 months and my sister would come and stay ) so my dream was connected to physical events.
After that I never got back to sleep. Ever time I tried I would just get to that stage of loosing consciousness when it was like someone clicking their fingers to wake you up and I would feel as if my physical body jumped a little.

First time it happened I had been deciding not to try to get out and just go to sleep.
As it happened, heard the click and jumped. Thought " WHY NOT? " Saw a shadowy black and white scene of a big spaceman sitting in the back seat of a car and his helmet was all misted up. ( will add to this at end of post)
2nd, thought " MORE" saw a CD. ( my binaural beats and meditation is my interpretation)
". Seeds, milk, veg, pulses.( saw them all, healthy living)
". Saw a scene where people were laughing. ( more laughter)
Saw my multi vitamin be taken out of its packet. ( keep up with the extra supplements)
Now this is the interesting one.
Thought "SWAP" saw Kurt's Multidimensional Human. And saw a biscuit tin on a kitchen bench of a BUDDHA .
Then I seemed to hear this one. " Sorry for what I've put you through" .
What I take from this load is help on the nutritional advice and more meditation. The last two , I had been thinking of re-reading Kurts book but I think the suggestion is to spend more time on the advice given on how to live in physical. How to act and think. This last bit may be encouraging me to do my own life review whilst alive and work out times I may have got it wrong, and how I could have done it better. What impact my words or actions may have had to someone.
( I suppose doing our homework now before passing over may give us brownie points )

7.30 am and that's it but the Spaceman.?
This is the 4th time he has appeared.
1) Hopping along after I perceived the big energy balls where I formed thoughts as to how they wanted to be perceived and the fun in them . ( learning to use my senses)
2) Giant spaceman with the dentists drill. ( a big test on fear in astral)
3) space man closing vault like doors but left slightly open when I got inside this room with white statues inside that started to come to life when I entered. ( felt this was some kind of library to do with evolution of life and was just around time I was encouraged to stop eating meat)
4) Today. But he wasn't in the drivers seat, he was in the back. ( I've been feeling a bit now that it might be up to me to do the work more. So often I'm raising up whilst still very alert going somewhere.)

This spaceman has been helping me along the way.
Kurt writes of some people perceiving space men when in fact this is used as a shield due to the brightness of the spirit.
This would maybe explain another event a few weeks ago not recorded.
Had been sending out thoughts about why some people ..... Compared to ........
Dreamt of a plumpish woman talking to me, explaining things to me which made sense, but in the dream I cannot see her head. She has a kind of woolen rolled tube covering the whole of her face and head. Even in the dream I'm thinking why has she got that funny thing over her face. Why aren't I allowed to see her?
This could explain why.
Off to do some gardening.

susan

2nd November 2014, 06:16 PM

When I'm getting nothing I think this is a good time to do some reflection within the journal as to progress.
Something that got my attention was my vocabulary. It's been mostly saying nothing at all or " Hello" .
So since my last reflection ( page 27. 8/6/14) I've taken consciously induced OBEs to look for a pattern or improvement.

Simulation or not? did someone speak to me? Did I speak to someone.

27/8/14
Figure of a man in room Yes? Yes. No

5/9/14
After Death Zone. No? Yes. Yes

6/10/14
In the warehouse with filing cabinets. Yes. No. Yes

Then I entered astral,where the little girl was. No. Yes. Yes

15/10/14
The scene of such poverty. Yes. Yes. No

So the two times when I really believe this to have been an astral visit with a purpose there has been interaction between me and another person.
Possible simulations just seem to be only one of us saying something, but no conversation.
Plenty more possibilities recorded but only wanted to focus on the ones where I have been totally aware from start to end since last review.

Next Vibrational Senses.
Last time I thought they were starting to come into play. The big bouncing energy balls ( spaceman there helping)
Since then my trip to the After death zone where I think I interpreted what I was picking up such as seeing dad.
Then my pink elephant dream where I think I entered astral. I knew what this person was saying to me and I felt how this person was feeling towards me and the love, protection and happiness and my interpretation of what I was picking up .( pink elephant, only because there was a connection)
So, I think slight improvement there.

Communication senses.
I felt back then I was being informed that these were still being worked on. The garbled unintelligible message I got in my bathroom.
Since then the two important astral visits we have conversed.
I said hello to the guy in the lab coat and he replied.
I spoke to the young girl and she answered me.
So improvement there also.

What I need to be doing if there is a next time is to not only say hello but " hello , who are you?
We do so much talking in our recalls of dreams, even when feeling we have left dream zone and being mentored in astral but the above is different.

susan

4th November 2014, 06:24 PM

I Want to just note here what a wonderful day I've had that could have ended so differently.
This morning in between short light naps I woke to, " Susan, this is the way to best barbecue chicken". It made me laugh a bit because I didn't enjoy my evening meal. I overcooked the veggy sausages whilst cooking hubby a steak. This was almost like a tease.
So when going back to sleep I just sent out a thought that I appreciate I may be talking to me in my sleep, but a me that knows far more than me . Woke up again. This time picked up

" When I passed over the Lord called out to me. "
I find this interesting considering the topic on suicide I reluctantly felt I needed to respond to.
I have never referred to the Lord in this journal. I do not follow any religious pattern.
So by the time I left for work this am I was disturbed by what I had read in a thread on this forum. If I had been day off this would have stayed with me all day, but I was with my lovely ladies in the Dimentia care home. I was met at the door by six residents , all smiling , saying good morning and my day was filled with laughter and hugs. Loved it.
These ladies have no idea how much they can lift you

Forgot to add, after the chicken thing ( and barbecue I used to love) I started to think of the soup I make and freeze. Will soon need to make more and was thinking of the chicken I put in this and as I dozed off was feeling sure this tiny amount would be okay.
Upon wakening I picked up. " oh no, that would be wrong"

susan

8th November 2014, 04:43 PM

MAGICAL EXPERIENCE and an O.M.G.
It's been a long time since I could record something under my "Magical Experience" heading but this excels even the ones already recorded.
I saw / was shown, either Angels or Fairies.
There is much to record about through the night and the questions that built up to this but for now only time to record the event itself.
This happened between the last time looking at my clock 7-50 am and 8-10 am when it was over.

Looking closely into eyes, silenced mind from looking at nothing to the nothing becoming blacker then blackness. This gets my attention.then in the distance I could see Black and White cubes. Hundreds of them slowly turning in space. Some of them were filled in more on some sides with black than the others. As I saw this it reminded me of CFT's description(and others) about geometric shapes. Thinking ' this is great, I'm finally back out in space again and it's the first time I'd come across the geometrics. I've got somewhere deep in space without the feeling of exiting the body.'
Then looking deep into the black space over on the distance my vision was taken up with different groups to look at from right to left. Everything was made up of sparkling silver. Best way to describe this is if you were to get a glittery silver pen and draw dot to dot without joining the dots but close enough together to form a shape.Awesome to look at.
Also what I also noticed whilst viewing was that they were at different levels. Like fish under water would be, but then this was space with no ground level .

So to the right this looked like a silver city, buildings of different heights grouped together standing alone in space. Stars sparkling alone behind them.
Now to the left of this OMG! I was looking at a group of either 'ANGELS or FAIRIES', and they had WINGS!!!!
I couldn't believe what I was looking at. I didn't believe in Faries and I thought that the idea of Angels having wings was just a myth used in writings and drawings. A sight I would never ever have witnessed. They were grouped together far away at different heights facing each other, but I still felt they looked tall and their wings were almost as big as their bodies and looked slightly pointed at the top. Tried to quickly count them 6/7 no more, one was slightly apart from the others.
I have always tried to stay realistic and grounded when thinking of Angels but have thought of them as being portrayed as bigger than Fairies, ( not that I believed in Faries) due to their size I'm going along the Angel route.
( I cannt believe that I'm writing this)
Further to the left groups of stars sparkling, swirling around going deeper into space forming like a vortex.( recorded this before from a dream)
Then everything faded and was gone.
8.10am. The recent OBE where I felt humble to have had the experience, even though I thought this was a simulation for my consideration, well this one I feel I've witnessed the most magical sight to date. Don't think anything will beat this.

I think I know why I was shown this. There is so much to write up as to the lead up to this through the night but will have to do some homework on the journal as I can see the jigsaw pieces fitting together if I was just to take my magical experiences and put them in a group of their own they would make sense.
1) the sky covered with angel wings.
2) no contamination beyond this point.
3) the giant sparkling head deep in space.

susan

10th November 2014, 10:03 PM

Referring to the last post need to note what lead up to this.
I had already given up meat but for a couple of weeks I noticed that my wine seemed to be on a hit list. I ignored this. I would have dreams suggesting that a character in the dream was drunk and was slurring their words. This confused me because I never had enough to cause this and I had read a suggestion that a small amount of alcohol could even aid events. From 3 glasses per day only in the evenings I cut it down to 2 . The dreams got stronger, my amount got even smaller. Not even a full glass per night. Then the other night husband off I had TWO glasses of wine. ( that's not even half a bottle)
So that evening I woke up from a short scene where there was no dream recall with a story , just a quick short scene where I'm in a prison cell and two prison officers are standing at the door then very slowly you see a mans legs slowly walking into the room and stands in front of the officers. He was the warden and has a whip in his hand as my view moves up to see his face. ( friendly enough) I was told " your not going to do that again are you?
That was it.
So at this stage it could be said that Susan was just dreaming this because she felt she was being pushed to give up alcohol. All through the day I was recalling this with humour.
However by evening time ready for bed I sent out questions. My pleasures are being taken away from me. When I have a meal now I can no longer look forward to a lovely piece of roast chicken. My wine is to a bare minimum. How far is this to go and why should I follow this? What benefit is there for me? I can see non. Others who drink and eat meat have lovely experiences so am I being foolish here ? Please help me here because I don't understand.
That night I woke up approx 3am. Recalled very vivid dream. 3 people sitting on a couch saying that there is someone else in the house . I was told to go upstairs and wait. I then see a light from a torch slowly descend the stairs and position in front of the other two people. They ask " what do you want" ? Then a big comic book bubble appears above one of their heads with a very old looking man with a long beard in old clothing . This was connecting to spirit.
So awake, once again this had been a strong dream realy getting my attention. But once again just a dream. Stayed awake a while deciding this was still a heavy price to pay for giving up pleasures.
Then between 7.50 am to 8.15 am I saw whilst still very lucid the silver city and angels I could not have ever thought in a thousand years I would see.
So my questions were answered. What could I expect as a reward for giving these pleasures up.?
Better contact with the spirit world and to witness the most beautiful unimaginable sights .
I suppose it's all about raising your vibration.

susan

11th November 2014, 08:40 PM

Pregnancy is back . Walking into a church where a woman is sitting with a man behind her . He puts his hand on her pregnant bump and smiles , laughs and starts singing.

Edit.
2 weeks later son announces his girlfriend is pregnant.

Edit.
Baby Alexander born 11/08/15
9 months to the date.

susan

15th November 2014, 11:09 PM

Have just googled ' Silver City and Silver Angels' and came up with .....
The silver city was first named and explored in the book of CAIN. It stands in testament to the glory of the High Heavens housing all Angels and also the Angaris council.

However this looks like a computer game so not sure whether it's taken from a religious book or just made up. Bit of a co- incidence. Will google more later.

susan

16th November 2014, 07:11 PM

A friend has just informed me that Bangkok in Thailand is known by the Buddhists as ' The Silver City of Angels'
Could this have been shown to me not just to show me the beauty we can witness out there when we try to raise our vibration but for me to work out the connection towards the Buddhist teachings. Just recently It was suggested I should swap kurt for Buddha. I took this at the time not as a religion to follow but maybe to read teachings on how to best live our lives and how to think compassionately and more? This could once again be a little nudge.

( thank you Ann. You have a new job as my researcher, unpaid of course)

susan

24th November 2014, 09:16 AM

Saw a quick flash of a side profile of a white head and shoulder with what looked like Egyptian head gear on and it was surrounded by lovely thin circles the colour of energy.( colours of the rainbow)
This was at the end of what I took to be instruction on what to do. I Decided that after the last experience it would probably be a while till I get something else, as this had been a corker. I find I'm enjoying each day with decorating and work,but my mind is running non stop when trying to meditate. A whole hour each day wasted with monkey mind.
4 am. I'm undecided. I read Roberts reply on the forum that to reach higher energies you had to work on the higher chakras. This made sense. So do I concentrate on all over NEWS or concentrate on the brow and crown?
Ending with circling the feet continually ( which has always worked for me) , or do I ???? Just at a cross roads at the moment.

Just woke up from a dream that ended with a surprise.
I'm upstairs on a house seeing a van pull up and two young men in suits getting out. They are double glazing sales men. The door bell goes. I run down stairs shouting to my mum that I will get that and as I open the door they were in the porch.
But they weren't the men, they were two young boys about 6 years old and lying slouched in chairs arms outstretched and just grinning at me. In the dream this surprised me as it wasn't meant to be like this and this had me start to wake up .
Before I was fully awake I seemed to get instruction.
" now lie straight.....( I wasn't) ...and focus on each chakra.....this will activate the energy centres....
Then I saw the lovely side profile of the colours around the Egyptian bust described at the beginning.
I'm going to try this. I just feel I need to have a slight change.

susan

29th November 2014, 05:52 PM

Well the wine issue seems to be sorted now. One glass each day seems to be acceptable as the dreams have stopped. However if I want to have more I shall. ( I took this attitude with the meat but still haven't eaten any) the decision will be mine to make but I know I will be letting myself down if I do.
So to date .....
****. I've been reprimanded when speaking in an unkind manner .( not to judge people till you have walked in their shoes )
This was brought to my attention via a dream and face change .
**** I've been directed towards compassion..... Thinking of people's feelings.
**** I've been directed towards giving up meat ( couldn't even keep the chicken)
**** I've been directed towards accepting what I have in life and being grateful. ( to stop wanting what I don't need)
**** I've had my alcohol level reduced to an acceptable level.
I don't know if anything else will be picked on ,will just have to wait and see but for a few months I would have an occasional recalled dream where masculinity was the topic. Then the other day as I was waking up from a dream ( to do with my every day life) I got a quick shot of two men walking side by side then the view went down to show they were holding hands.
The previous post included a door bell and two young lads.
This morning I was woken up by the internal door bell. As I wake up the dream is still being acted out. I'm in my house and the door bell goes. I can see the shadow through the glass of an adult outside. As I go to the door and open it there are two young men standing very casually and dressed very casual. They didn't realy say what they wanted and there were two big removal trucks parked outside.
So this is twice I've opened the door to two males, first time they were young lads , this time young men but both times they didn't say what they wanted. They were just there. ( although Instructions were given after seeing the young lads. )
I don't want to get hung up on this theme as I may be responsible for future similar dreams but just wanted to make a note.

I've just remembered that somewhere in this journal I picked up being in a house being told " when the house is empty the body moves on" need to look up.

Found it.
Page 32 17/8/14
" as the body is emptied the house is cleared and moves on" .
This was during the final stage of giving meat of all types up and spelling the ,message on the I pad.
Just before ' Compassion' became the topic.
Only reason I'm bringing this subject up is because the men had removal trucks.

susan

29th November 2014, 09:20 PM

Early hours am after a short nap. I woke up to ...

" You Cann't ( Stork? Stalk ? ) A Pregnant Woman."
Pregnancy has recently been mentioned.
One very vivid OBE when I decided to start this journal detailed me being carried in the sky in a sling by what I sensed was a stalk ( but took on the appearance of my husband) and placed in a child's small chair on a verandah and asked " haven't you been to a child's kindergarten before?"
The statement makes sense. If the baby isn't born yet the stork cann't deliver it yet to where it is to go.
Storks have been associated with delivering/ babies/ family for centuries.
In Egyptian mythology the soul of the person- the ba- was usually represented by a stork.
I've had plenty of notes here on Egyptian themes. ...thousands of Ankhas seen, being by the Nile where a massive pyramid comes up with the one eyed glass ball on top representing cleopatra ....where the pots of honey were noted they lasted for thousands of years down a cellar in the dessert ...pyramids..... The eye of Horus.....
But the stork can have many different meanings.
At the moment my thoughts on this are that after witnessing the most beautiful sight of the silver city and angels I want to see more beauty. To raise my vibration and experience more. The woman is still pregnant . I'm trying to rush this . I've been shown true beauty but that was to show me and I think I'm not ready or able yet for this. Patience .

susan

2nd December 2014, 03:06 PM

" SHE IS PART OF YOUR DEEPEST THOUGHTS".
I just love the words I'm picking up some mornings. They seem to be statements at the end of a dream to explain something on my mind that I try to work out. I seem to have to put thought into whatever is said. I know it's me and who ever I am I love me. A more intelligent, wiser, quick whitted ,deeper me.
I was even contemplating letting my hair grow a bit longer or get it cut when I don't remember any dream associated with this but I woke up to" CONFIDENCE COMES WITH IMAGE".
I recalled the dream straight away after the " she is part of your deepest thoughts".
Dream.
I'm in a room where someone brings a girl I know into the room, but she ignores me. I start to think how rude this was that she just ignored me. As I approach her I realise she isn't who I thought she was . I didn't know her. I apologised for the mistake but the other lady told me to look at her. As I looked at the face I don't think there were any features, I cannt remember seeing anything to the face but then woke up to her telling me that she was part of my deepest thoughts.

susan

5th December 2014, 05:34 PM

Very short OBE this morning but failed to stay awake during it.
Yesterday morning woke up to .
" EXIT FROM THE COAL BOX ITS EASIER"
So my take on this is
COAL is fuel/ energy.
The BOX contains the coal therefore is the body.
So activate the energy body and do what 99% of the time I've always done. Loosen body and lift or sink. ( exit)
Because of what I'd seen previously I'd started to come to the idea that I should be concentrating on the brow and just expect to view but frustration was setting in.
5 am , enough sleep, brought energy in through crown down to base chakra few times till bored. Bouncing all over body, took each chakra from lower upwards circling a few times. Felt tingle of energy travelling up legs. Settled.
My left arm felt lighter and floating. Thought of this so the feeling came back to body. Settled.
Soon slowly just rose up. Vision wasn't good. It felt I had my physical eyes open( but I know they weren't)
Now I was heading towards pink. It was quite vague in the distance but definitely pink.( heading towards an astral realm?)
I knew I was loosing focus and couldn't keep my awareness, about to fall asleep when it was as if someone was holding my ankles (although I couldn't feel any grip ) and my legs were being shaken. My view changed direction now to just black space with stars in the distance far away and that was it . I must have fallen asleep.
If only I had kept my awareness and continued through the pink energy field.

susan

11th December 2014, 09:42 PM

Failed to wake up during an opportunity to exit through a window.
Dream.
I'm in a room with someone else and there is a massive window in front of us. I see the back of a woman playing with dogs outside.
The person with me goes to the front of the window where a lovely big brown dog comes up to it from the outside and is positioned sideways. The person with me goes up to the window to give it a kiss .
I notice the eyes of the dog and say " why do the eyes of dogs always look so sad?"
This is where I start to wake up but notice the eyes of the dog changed. They had changed to small coloured squares. The colours of energy. ( rainbow colours) .

I was going to start missing out dreams from this journal , but when I see energy colours in eyes that don't make sense then I want to record.
This big brown dog has been mentioned over a period of time. ( I love dogs) I've had big dogs in this journal come in to protect me, in fact over a long period of this journal Big brown dogs have been mentioned.

susan

13th December 2014, 10:11 PM

I want to record for the journal that I've failed today in my allowance.
Had a bottle of white wine . 3-4 times more allowance than recently. A full bottle . I don't know if I'm celebrating or getting ready for giving out a lot of loving tender care.
My recent thoughts have suggested that I am failing somehow.
I think I'm putting too much expectation on my physical self when it comes to dealing with life issues,
An issue has arrived within a loved one in the family . I want to close my eyes and decide it was a dream.
However what brilliant timing to have been directed towards feeling compassion ,and reading the Buddha writings.
Everything will be beautiful and overcome.
Love you my son x

susan

19th December 2014, 11:18 PM

Another OBE and what a beautiful children's fantasy but I was aware from doing energy work , to sending out wishes to what I wanted to experience to looking into brow, and waiting, but it didn't turn out the way I expected.
Will record the event as it happened then put my interpretation on it.
What I want to say here, is that anyone who thinks that communication with the spirit world that relays a message is only real if it is a serious communication with either Angels or religious figures then I think your wrong. We have humour here, we pass on with humour.I have often recorded humour within my experiences, but also more serious tones where I think an important message was to be understood for my benefit.

OBE.
Woke up 4am , bathroom , tried little news, heart wasn't in it but had been going through much in physical where last 48 hours involved much loving care and compassion. Needing to think of one persons feelings and advising this person on the other persons feeling and giving advice so they could consider the self and look after the self but also consider how the other person was feeling and we had to go through different stages in the 48 hours.
Felt myself getting lighter and raising up, good, knew this was an early sign suggesting I was getting help here. Felt like wobbly jelly raise up but it seemed to take ages for any colour to set in , it was just the feeling of movement and seeing grey. Thought this then suddenly back to body and awake.
Dissapointed, alarm had been set for 7 am so plenty of time for sleep but after about an hour I realised I mustnt sleep in.
Little more energy with colour and all over and once again as I pass to the semi conscious stage I realise I feel that jelly wobbly feeling again. Thinking, this is my second chance, I've got to do it this time, there is something I have to see.
Focused on brow and the jelly wobbly feeling but focused on brow as much as I could.
Vision took a while to come in but it started with a small silver spark to the right, thought of previous silver Sparks and wondered if this would be an experience approaching a vortex that I am hoping to experience. ( I had sent out wishes to enter one and experience inside one)
It wasn't but this silver spark turned into a branch then a silver Christmas tree with decorations on with many colours still not seen realy clearly. Than a small gold spark but this added to part of another Christmas tree. This was all to right of me as I travelled backwards, looking behind me .
Now to the left was a green Christmas tree with wonderful decorations on and presents underneath it. As I was viewing what I had passed I saw this to be a department store with a beautiful lavish children's christmas scene and I recognised this department store as previous OBEs having taken place in. A while back where I was travelling backwards in water as if underground, this was the same place. Where I encountered the hairy ugly faced balls when I thought I was being tested for fear. As I'm travelling viewing behind me I'm aware I've been here before . Knew then this was a simulation taking place for my consideration/ attention.
I've now stopped and just looked, knowing what had just happened and that I was fully aware. I was in a department store filled with Christmas presents and trees. Took control and just for a second thought of this as a lucid dream and what to do next till I reminded myself that this wasn't a dream, I had been brought here.
Checked out the presents under the green tree to see what era they were. They were modern . Large children's train about 2 foot tall. Looked like a thomas the tank engine so knew this was our era now.
Next I see a small material looking male doll on the floor looking very stiff with its arms out like a scarecrow dressed in yellow and red. It suddenly jumps up into my arms and says " give me a kiss" . I feel silly but do but then need to take control of this situation and remember a previous encounter when a young boy spoke to me and I didn't exchange words, (during the OBE which left me feeling very humble.)
So I said "WHO ARE YOU"? It replied, " you chucked me for Jackson" .
I didn't reply but looked around me still holding ths doll, saw a lovely big log fire at the end of the room which appeared lit . I saw a big double bed to the right and there were two similar dolls appearing to be male and female sleeping on the bed as a couple. looked for an exit, window, door ,way out but there were none. I knew then as I stood holding this doll in ths magical children's christmas setting that I was not meant to find an exit out of here I to astral I was working out at the time of standing there that a real department store would not have a real log fire alight with no customers and no staff to attend. . This was for my attention. With that it faded and suddenly I was back in body . Looked at clock 5.25.
So my thoughts on thus.
Definite OBE.
This was not the crazy mixed up dream zone as I was fully aware and thinking as things were coming to my attention.
I did not create what I was wishing for ( to experience inside a vortex)
This was not real time zone due to the lit fire and the interaction with the doll.
I recognised the place as having been there before during simulations.
The doll was not a spirit disguising as a doll as I felt Nothing from it. This is important to me as a learning lesson on distinguishing a spirit in whatever form , to a dream character that I have created, to a character created for my benefit. I did not create this talking doll as it was not part of any dream. This was set up for me to consider and I think to enjoy and feel good about it.
I think this was just a way of saying " well done" ( presents) ( kiss) for what I'm currently working through in physical

susan

24th December 2014, 12:06 PM

Over 55 'I' s in this last written account.
Also once again I seem to be ' KNOWING' a lot of time when recalling.
It's just that I feel at the time that I do know, is this arrogance from me , or is it that I DO know?
Must re- read before posting next time but I suppose I just get a little too excited when recalling .

Oops this was meant to be an edit added to last post.

susan

31st December 2014, 09:39 PM

No energy work done over Christmas . No alcohol. Gave advice to son and woke up to ' report failure'. Did I give out wrong advice which was considering his feelings but not taking into account the other persons feelings? I think this was the case.
When you have a son with problems you feel allegence to him. Compassion is a hard task to fill which is considering feelings from all angles and all involved.
My husband directed my thoughts towards a middle line . ( he is helping me here where I have failed, he has no idea)
I feel I'm changing the goal post as events happen.
Failure is the feeling just now with me.
But I know this is just a short event in life that will soon be over and back to a normal .

susan

3rd January 2015, 09:44 PM

For my journal to note,
From what I experienced and concluded as a well done ; for what I thought may be to do with my actions in physical, to the feeling of failure just shows how easy it is to fall from grace. ( my own grace subconsciously, as I can recognise my own failure)
Aunt claire mentioned the difference of our own energy body ( kundalini energy ) and where it is compared to a vortex seen as a different energy. In that case any vortex viewed must be something to aim for . I may be wrong but the ones I've viewed have been above me going higher.( never have and never want to view one going downwards)
I find it hard to believe that any vortex could aim higher than the angelic silver city but then what do I know. I only record experiences.
There is so much out there within our reach and also currently out of our reach.
Must increase energy work, build up energy .
Just getting rid of 5 days of cold. Tried 2 hours energy when fell asleep very quickly. ( sometimes body just needs recovery period)

This morning woke up to seeing my front door with a milk bottle on the door step.
No dream attached, this was viewed in a flash.
Wondered at first if I should be drinking more milk. ( cannot bear to drink milk but have plenty of cheese and milk products.)
4 hours later I get word that our suitcase has been found and has been delivered to my door by the airline.
Some people go to the shop for milk and some get theirs delivered to their doors.( left on doorstep)
This is like one big jigsaw that has to be worked at piece by piece, sometimes we push pieces in to place because they look as if they fit and we want them to fit but in time a better piece ( meaning) comes along .

susan

7th January 2015, 09:21 AM

Woke up first hearing 3 'Gongs' and being told " Now just listen and watch".
Dream
I was in a small boat floating in murky water,inside a dark, low ceiling cave and someone was with me at the other side of the boat.
I watch her as she bangs on the top of the water ( making this gong sound)and the mouth of a lovely white dolphin emerges under her hand. She is telling it to just listen and watch.
I was the observer sitting in the boat wondering why she had called the dolphin because we were just going out of the cave, and the water was murky and dark and not nice.

susan

10th January 2015, 06:18 PM

I'm so pleased I don't just dismiss everything I wake up to. For me often its guidance I have to work out the meaning of.
However I will keep in mind that it may not always be helpful. On this occasion I'm sure it was .

Woke up about 2am, tried a little NEWS all over and then just looked into brow hoping to stay awake.
Fell asleep.
Woke up hearing myself having a good chatter. This was a couple of sentences as if I was telling someone about what is going on at the moment within family. As if I was updating them. Then the same voice said,
" RAISE THE GARLAND WITH THE LEVEL OF THE CADENCE". ( it may have been cadence and garland said the other way around)
I lay pondering this last sentence and knew I had heard of cadence before but couldn't think what it meant . It was now 5.35 .Visited bathroom and wrote down sentence so I didn't have to try to remember for the morning.

Settled down to try news again and try to exit. I'm just not getting anything in the brow recently and I miss it. Working with visualisation excercises but during meditation practice I still have problems silencing the mind.I just wish I could zoom out of the brow like I did once that was exhilarating. In the end just focused on circling the feet over and over and over again.
Could feel energy travel up to knees, kept going when eventually could feel my feet raise up out of body. They were swinging backwards and forwards. The problem here is I got kicked. This made me think I had kicked my husband's leg and he had kicked me back so wide awake again. I wonder here if this was one of my etheric legs touching my husband's etheric legs if he was just hovering above his body. It's possible, anyway he was fast asleep.
Tried again the same way and very quickly. I feel the feet then legs then torso raise up .
Was moving behind but found myself going forwards as if flying on my stomach . Had no vision. This seemed to go on too long .
The mistake I think I made next was to wonder if I would end up in the same setting as last time so now vision came in and I think I had created my own images of the long room I've experienced a few times. Saw a large toy aeroplane to the right but lucidity wasn't good . Vision wasn't good.
Woke up.
Pleased but also dissapointment. For days now I've wanted to get out and interact with characters ( even if it is a doll)I've wanted to experience vortexes, so why was I so unexcited about this one? Was it my lucidity?
Pleased because I've confirmed for my own benefit that if I'm not able to leave through the brow as I've done before, then I'm right to concentrate circling the feet for an exit after the initial energy raising. Go with what works for me at the moment.
Lying in bed thinking this out . It was 9.30 time to get up.

Now looked up meaning of Cadence .
Cadence in cycling is the pedalling rate( number of revolutions of the crank per minute) (Feet, circles.)
Garland, the measure of beat of movement, balanced rhythmic flow.( garland - around)

I feel this was advice on speeding up the circular motion on the feet to a faster pace to separate,
I was talking to myself, I was advising myself .
Maybe this short projection wasn't meant to end up anywhere but was just guiding me (as I was feeling frustrated at lack of brow activity, )to what works for me at the moment.
I like the fact that I decided to do this after picking up the sentence but before I worked out the meaning.
Was this the more knowledgeable part of who I am advising me.

susan

12th January 2015, 09:38 AM

Dream,

I'm going back to college but the taxi fare to get there is too expensive , but I pay it, not sure if I can afford to keep this up. When I get to THURSDAY I'm told I've paid enough. Just one more pound to pay.I was happy with this, I'd thought it was to be even more.
This meant I could move into the dormitory. I was now in the dormitory where I was looking at my bed happy that I was so close to college. Next some girls lead me into the shower room and tell me I must shower first before leaving.
I'm now on a bus which is full of people but we have to wait for one more person. She rushes over dragging her heavy case. I know her in physical. She wrote a book about her dog.( she realy did) .As I wait at the front of the bus the bus driver is slouched over the wheel in a very relaxed way. ( this reminds me of the bus driver from a few months ago , the way he was slouched over the wheel, but he didn't have a witch face this time.)
I remember being introduced to someone, but cannt remember who. I remember a load of dogs rushing up to me and one has fur on that matches my coat. I joke that I need to keep this one.
I wake up at this stage and go over everything. As I'm drifting back to sleep my mind is still active and a lovely soft loving voice says " hush my dear, stay silent". Went to sleep. Woke up seeing 2 identical pens lying on a piece of paper. Remembered a news reporter sitting at his desk about to announce something quickly, but the camera now goes to another reporter who needs to announce something instead, then a third. Suddenly I woke up feeling a thud as if I'd been woken up by surprise. Saw the pens.

This dream speaks volumes to me as to what is on my mind at the moment. Strong possibility just wishful thinking, only time will tell but what stands out for me was the soft loving voice telling me to hush and stay silent. I have only heard that softness once near the beginning of the journal.

susan

13th January 2015, 01:26 PM

Very short dream.
Didn't do any energy work through night. Decided not to attempt anything as I knew my mind was troubled over an e mail ,therefore
as Kurt has written , don't attempt unless you have the four levers in place.
Whatever I dreamt I didn't attempt to recall.
Back to sleep awakening to this very short dream.

I'm standing in a room looking into this large glass tank filled to the top with water.
There are two small white rockets lying next to each other flat on the ground on their sides inside the tank. At the bottom of each rocket there is a small opening. Someone is behind me. We are watching two small babies ( toddlers) playing inside the tank having fun. They are just bouncing around laughing and going in and out of their rocket. I remember they had lovely white outfits on , nothing to do with space, just lovely cute outfits. One baby went inside the rocket and hadn't come out by the time the dream was over. This got me a little alarmed incase they got locked in and couldn't get out, thinking surly they will have cameras inside the rocket as well to keep an eye as I felt they were being monitored by many people.
The other baby went over to the glass wall and it's here that I suddenly realise that they are under water and breathing with no oxygen. I said this to the person behind me.
I'm just starting to wonder if this has anything to do with pre birth whilst in the woman's womb or to show me that you don't need to breath under water in astral, but I knew this already. Then I woke up.

Haven't realy worked out the relevance of this one.
Looked up Betty Berthards interpretation on rocket and ... Spiritual growth, ( if taking off soaring to new heights of awareness)
But they were lying on their side so it's not that. It's the breathing under water bit that in my dream I was drawn to.

eyeoneblack

13th January 2015, 10:21 PM

I haven't been by in while, Susan, I but was reminded how much I enjoy your dreams. My experience has been that you will enjoy your dreams for the rest of your life. I've taken the weight out of them and some are just Looney Tunes while others are great and strange adventures.
It's been my understanding that water is the element of the Astral, and it should be no surprise to you that you are 'comfortable' in the Astral. Long ago I dreamed of breathing (life) under water - a tea party in the sea - and I was silenced by it in a way. Quiet.
Two babies come out of the mental-space ship, one returns, the other stays for the experience. Which one is you? I bet I know.

susan

19th January 2015, 09:38 AM

Two mornings ago early am just lay wondering with a lot of thoughts going on in my head.
The usual needing to know more and even feeling I'm expecting too much too often. It's not as if My purpose in life is to write a book and educate people on this topic so maybe I am expecting too much. My husband will also have a ' higher self', is it possible I communicate with this part of him when in astral ?
Back to sleep.
Woke up to a quick Flash of a scene. Very showbiz . 3 people sitting on the back of a big car waving, dressed in theatrical showbiz clothes, black suites with top hats and the woman in similar. Sky scrapers behind them with lights everywhere.
This was a showbiz scene with the actors on parade.
It had nothing to do with the dream I recalled which was very gruesome ending with something flying off saying ' I hear you have a new Vicar.
I wasn't going to bother recording this but have just read Leyla's reply on a thread suggesting life as a play.
Also read a suggestion here that it is possible that when we experience something not nice in a dream it may be our subconscious trying to wake us up in the dream, to gain lucidity. This is something I have not been able to do so far, except once. I've only experienced from leaving body.
I have a new vicar. ......A vicar represents a parish of people who he/ she will be there for and advise and listen and Guide.

susan

24th January 2015, 09:45 PM

Another class room dream again with a test coming up.
Dream.
I'm in my dressing gown going into a classroom with two presents under my arm. I'm not due until later for the test but some people are coming in now for theirs. I leave the presents in the corner for later when I return as the teacher comes in. I remind her as I leave that I'm not due until this afternoon . She knows. She tells me that Susan ( I visualise a girl I used to work with in physical who had the same name as me) has been excused and won't be in because she has been under some stress recently.
As I looked at her to speak my eyes were hurting as if looking straight up at full sun. They were uncomfortable and I took off my sunglasses to rub them ( wasn't aware in the dream prior to this that I had any on)but couldn't look straight at her, the glare of the sun was too strong.I apologised for not being able to look at her.
Woke up instantly.

So dreams I know can just be what is on your mind.
I've had the classroom dream before and a test coming up and did indeed experience an OBE that left me working out the sequence of events and putting them into some kind of order that had me conclude this may have been a retrieval .( 25th Sept page 33)
What stays with me here is the warmth ( once again) from the teacher. I felt she would not judge me if I failed the test and she would understand. Very loving. Also the corridor outside entering the door on the left.

When the mind is troubled I feel we can have so much confusion in our dreams that it is easy to dismiss as just a dream.
For me I've discovered it is to my benefit to take note of a lot I pick up when in an okay frame of mind.
So why didn't I? The other morning when I heard a message . Because I didn't want to hear it so I decided it must be just chatter picked up , nothing to do with me.
1) early am went back into a light sleep after thinking about tax return I was about to do and how much I had put away to pay the Inland Revenue. I had calculated how much was needed and everything fine. Thought about going out next day to buy something I've been saving up for .Woke up to .. But your going to be short.... This didn't make sense so dismissed.
2 days later filed return on line. The ************ wanted more than I had expected, £1,500 more than expected.
Apparantly because my due amount was above a certain figure they now require 6 months in advance also and more in July.��

2) I interpreted a dream about my son which I thought he would like to hear , especially with problems at the moment. It was welcome news. Woke up to ... It was never meant as that... In time the hope I gave him was unfounded. I can see now how easy it is to interpret something but take the meaning you want to put on it. When I later felt I could now understand the meaning and where I went wrong, was thinking this out before going to sleep I woke up to .......a thought...inspirational..
so once again just Love the contact, even if it is me, I'm not alone , I'm talking to me, helping me, or someone is.

susan

25th January 2015, 11:48 AM

Wow I think I've just had the test experiencing dual awareness, I became the person I was watching. I thought I may have a little while to go before anything and I had hoped it would involve me consciously leaving body to experience but this was recalled as a dream but left me with the wow feeling.

Dream.
I'm standing in a small room( classroom) with 5-6 other people, in a circle. We are all holding a small white paper bag.
A teacher is around the circle also and asks for a volunteer to do something. She tells us she has a friend who is trying to work out why a little girl is behaving in the way she does. As she asks again I decide to volunteer. I cannt remember what instructions were given out but was aware of holding the opened bag in front of my face and just staring into the bag. Someone comments that I'm still here. It's at that comment that my surroundings dissolve slowly and now I can see clearly that I'm in a similar room with a man sitting in a chair, but at this stage I could also still see the people who had been with me in the room and I just knew I was having dual awareness. I was aware I was in two different localities at the same time. By now the others have dissolved and I'm fully aware of standing looking at a man approx 30ish sitting with his legs crossed and a clip board in his hand. Across from where I am I see a little girl sitting on a small child plastic chair with a lot of toys on the floor around her. He's talking to her and now gets up to go towards her.
( this is the bit that excites me when I recall)

I'm now sitting on this child's chair and this massive man comes towards me. His head is nearly touching the ceiling. His arms are so long and he's waving them around. He's holding something in his hand and I think he's going to hit me . I have to stop him. The toys,
I've got to throw the toys at him to stop him coming to hurt me.I throw them in front of him.He's angry.

Next I'm back at the other side of the room watching this man who had got out of his chair and walk towards the little girl who has just thrown all her toys around the room. He asks why she is doing this. His arms go up in a gesture of disbelief. She throws more and runs towards my side of the room.

He leaves the room and a few people come over to me . By now I'm lying on the floor ( me, not the child) I think they were the teacher and friends. She throws a blanket over me and tells me to go to sleep now.
I wake up to seeing the word....AISTO... Written in blocks in black and white. The A was half black and half white.

Thoughts.
I've read of authors becoming someone else briefly, feeling and being that person if only for a short period. They mostly believed this was experiencing an event in a past life, having viewed the person first then becoming.
This was a modern plastic child's chair and toys and the man looked normal dress, so this was not going back in the past.
However, I became this little girl. I was thinking her thoughts. I perceived the man as a threat and was frightened of him. As a small child he seemed enormous. I also flitted back to being aware of watching this all take place as me.
I don't believe this was a real encounter with a past life but an experiment, test, learning skill, whatever, to see if I could get into this child's mind and perceive as she was experiencing.
I'm not sure what use it could be but just love this one.
Need to do some homework on this . Any thoughts welcome.
Also AISTO... Sounds a bit like AKEO....but never heard of it before. Bit of reading and googling required.

Edit 01/10/16
This later transpired to be encouragement for a difficult situation that was to enfold in my physical life involving my son and his girlfriend. I was to understand her feelings and understand her reactions by putting my self in her shoes. Only by seeing from her perspective could I understand, therefore be a mediator between the two.
This helped me enormously and in turn helped them. Without this way of thinking I would automatically have taken my sons side and there would have been much bitterness, sadness, grief for years to come .

IA56

25th January 2015, 12:54 PM

Hi Susan,

Would it be different or make a difference if you see it this way....A is to.....??

Love
ia

susan

25th January 2015, 02:15 PM

Hi IA, I've just quickly deleted a reply to you. I completely misunderstood what you were asking, so I'll start again.
Interesting way to look at it and it can be very relevant to how recently I've been trying to understand how my sons girlfriend is feeling about a situation and at the same time how he is feeling. I've been realy trying here and have I think done an okay job. His replies to me have been that what I write to him is exactly how he is feeling just now.
Maybe I should be trying to develop this with everyone and everything. Kurt talks of merging with what he was looking at and becoming that fly or blade of grass. This is a skill of one of the senses he talked of. Need to get the book out again.
I think I need to find time to balance reading on both the buddah writings on compassion and kurt who tells us how to develop this skill. The feeling, understanding, and then the being.
Thank you my friend. Sometimes something can be staring me in the face and I just don't see it.

IA56

25th January 2015, 02:26 PM

Hi IA, no difference at all. The experience is what I'm left interested in. The name means nothing to me, and I can only come up with a few people with this as a surname. It's noted , not forgotten but noted.

Okay Susan,
It does not Always have to be a name, it can be a Word too....like Another to it.....or Always to it.....away to it....to like underline something......
I am happy that you did have a dual expereince.....high 5 :-)

Love
ia

susan

25th January 2015, 02:41 PM

Hi again IA, you read my deleted post before I realised what you meant. I hope the above reply explains I am now seeing what you mean.

IA56

25th January 2015, 02:55 PM

susan

30th January 2015, 09:12 AM

Don't understand why I dreamt this but I woke up instantly from it with a lump in my throat.

Dream,
I'm lying on a wide road sunbathing when a double decker bus comes nearer. A child runs out into its way and I quickly warn the driver about the child. He misses it and gives me a wave in thanks then does a 360 degree circle with the bus very fast.
I notice that the bus is so packed full with people that they are almost hanging out of the window with suitcases going on holiday and very happy. Then in horror he's gone too fast and the bus topples onto its side. This is horrible, worst thing to happen.
People running over to help so immediately I'm in emergency mode. I run up steps to an office to ring 999.a man is on the phone just smiling at me . He couldn't have been calling for an ambulance because he wouldn't be smiling. I keep repeating 999 ambulance. As I'm using the phone I'm thinking of the blankets in the bedroom next door. I'll take them outside . They'll need them.
Woke up with a lump in my throat.
Dissapointed because I was in the middle of about to help people/ relieved because it had only been a dream.

Was this because only yesterday did a bit of reading and kurt talks of the best way to progress with experience in the spirit world is to request to be of help. So I sent a request out but the thing is I know this already and I've already made this clear.
Am I going in circles here?
Written before of never liked to ride upstairs on a bus as a child incase it tipped over. ( a fear?)
Was this trying to wake me up in a dream to become lucid?
Well it's logged anyway.

Edit.
A few months later this seemed to be linked to the massacre of tourists on holiday in Tunisia where we were booked up to visit

Tourists ...holiday...someone trusted suddenly does something ......a fear ( bus toppling over)The feeling that this was the worst thing imaginable.

susan

31st January 2015, 10:01 AM

A beautiful coloured dream early am.
I was dreaming that I was dreaming lying in bed and my astral body sat up to view pictures that were appearing on the wall.
One was pastel colouring,energy colours with a sky and sea blending into each other with a woman and I think a younger daughter at the side of her just looking ahead. There was slight movement it wasn't a picture. In the dream I seem to be aware that I'm dreaming this. Then I saw a completely different scene with bold colours as in physical. This was like , well, kind of pre historic . I cann't remember much about it but was trying to understand in the dream what this was.
Later after wakening up did some energy raising when third eye opened. Was aware of lying in bed watching this. Got a bit excited .
It stayed black and white like an old film but was a man on the left brushing his teeth with a lot of toothpaste in the mouth. It ended.
Well, I always get excited when anything comes in the brow but this was a disappointment. Maybe just something passing through my vision/ perception space.
But I loved the first one.

Need to add something that was picked up after the dream that I was dreaming.
Picked up .. "What's happened to Paul Burrell these days? "( then there was a pause, then) something about "she's the queen's????"

I forgot who Paul Burrell is/was so have just googled him.
He was the queens footman before working for princess Di. ( I'm a podiatrist even though obviously different, as a joke I have been called the foot woman before.)
The queen has been mentioned a few times over the last two years of this journal

susan

2nd February 2015, 09:19 AM

Just followed a link on a website that took me to Robert Petersons book . I recognised it. It's in my cupboard. I read just now on Internet about a section on inner voice and he describes how he first encountered his inner voice and how it spoke back to him and mostly was more a voice than an inner thought. Was able to ask questions and get answers.
The humour shown, the advice given, advising the advice would always be there for him to help him but the choice will always be his but the advice will not come through when it involves an important part of his lessons. The voice said that it was part of him, trying to help him through this life. . He writes that he then came to the conclusion that it was his higher self helping him.

This has helped me to understand why I get more than just thoughts and do actually hear the words. It could come across as a best friend you can confide in. In fact that is how I see it because it only has my best interest at heart. A best friend.
Even Kurt wrote of starting his journey as a youth on a ouija board and made contact who later channeled through him. He had a name given . This was just for communication. He later decided it was his higher self. It is thought that Jane Roberts who channeled Seth may have been channeling her higher self but once again a name had been given. We live by names, we need a name.its easier to have a name.
I am so pleased to read of Robert Peterson's description of his ' inner voice ' conversations.
This has taken away any doubt and reservation I would have on writing about this same inner voice. Some people say that it isn't a voice , just a thought , but that is not always so. It can be a voice. Through the day then maybe just a thought but in silence with no distractions this can be a voice.
I remember a few years ago when I read this book I wasn't impressed. In fact I don't think I finished it . I remember reading this section with him having a conversation with his inner voice and it seemed too much in the imagination to me.
How wrong was I? Maybe I just wasn't ready to understand at that time.
I have a best friend.
Just to note for journal I actualy came here to record OBE this am but no sight. Seemed to last about a minute just movement. Left from my left leg first then the rest of body followed. Upwards , forwards but just blackness. Waited for vision but nothing came. Tried to focus on my eyes, stupid I know, that was it finished.
Don't know why because I've been doing brow work as well as the rest.

susan

3rd February 2015, 07:18 PM

Flying dream with magic tricks.
Woke up about 4am, raised energy then circled bottom of feet over and over and over . Could feel energy travel up legs. Full body circle taking the whole body in one swoop as fast as I could. Finished just circling feet over and over again until I fell asleep doing it.
Woke up . Recalled dream.

I'm flying hovering near the ceiling of a room where there are two men sitting at a table in an adjoining room. I decide to stay up so I can make a quick getaway if they are not friendly. I enter the room and approach lowering to the ground as they Dont seem bothered about me.Next thing I know I am sitting opposite them at the table but the table is now outside. Behind me is another air show taking place. Statues flying up into the sky. It seemed to be in the distance. I remember jokingly sticking a pen in one of the men to see if it would hurt. It didn't, it just went through him. I remember asking him how I would find my way back here again if I wanted to come back and he told me to just think of this place and I will find my way.
Another part of the dream was me sitting in a room with a few other people in what was like a shop. 3 other people were behind the counter. One by one my group were asked what kind of ice cream they would like. This was magic. We were being shown how to create something out of nothing. They were all given their chosen ice cream but when it came to me I didn't get asked. I was missed out.
Next the group including me were shown how to create puppies. A dog was just lying there and someone put their hand near the dog and produced a ball. Threw it over to me and it suddenly turned into a big bouncing dog.
This is all I can remember from the dream but points I want to note.
1) I turned around to see the airshow. I didn't have 360 vision. However during consciously induced OBEs I don't always have 360 .
2) The 2 lessons were on materialisation.
3) I didn't get an ice cream because I was dissapointed in myself last night when I went to bed because I knew I had had more than my 1glass of wine that I have been keeping to. ( still only half a bottle but I was dissapointed in myself for failing)
So this wasn't me just landing in astral and communicating with who ever was around.
The two men may have just been conjoured up for my benefit to experience the difference. I felt nothing from them. There were no feelings of friendship, joy, fear, nothing. Just contact.
I may not be getting this right. It's a difficult one because I seemed to be with other students learning about materialisation but the bit with the two men have me stumped.
Well it's logged anyway.

susan

6th February 2015, 09:35 AM

Discrimination
This seems to have been the theme for my light sleep from 7am- 8.15am.
In physical I'm not aware that I do discriminate in any way but maybe there is small part of me that does that I'm not aware of.
The first bit was lovely like watching a child's cartoon.
I'm at sea on a boat with someone looking out to the water and a seal is half out of the water in front of us and starts singing in a male voice. It was lovely, as if for children , it sings something like " follow me and come and see what the heavy boys are doing to us here". I woke up and thought how lovely this was but then to the meaning. Almost a dread followed incase this was going to continue on a theme of giving up eating sea life of all kinds. I've given up meat but will not give up fish. I need to eat something other than vegetables. Dozing back off then saw a horrible sight of guts all over a floor and a lot of big heavy cleavers chopping This all up and blood splashing everywhere and picked up " the choice is yours".
This has me awake now but I could then remember a dream from earlier in the night and it has someone cutting something and producing blood from it and trying to put it on my lips like red lipstick. I run away, I don't want it on.
I went back to sleep very slightly and had singing again and saw a teenage dark skinned young man on the dance floor with a very young white skinned girl. She was very young. There was singing again but I've forgotten what it was.
Thoughts.
The two different coloured skins could emphasise discrimination.
The age difference could cause disapproval which could be seen as discrimination.
The fish could be seen as I've decided to give up meat a while ago after heavy nudges from the other side which didn't stop till I gave it up.
Have I discriminated towards still eating fish.?

susan

8th February 2015, 12:43 PM

Bit of a headache this morning and yesterday. A little too much brow work, will lay off a couple of days.
Other morning I had flashed up in brow a small hexagonal looking thick wooden wheel with spokes and picked up " try spinning the wheel."
So I do a lot of bouncing the ball but tend to just finish circling the feet .
Have put together recent advice I've been guided on.

1) ' Raise the garland with the level of the cadence.' ( increase the speed of the circles, faster)
2) ' Lie straight, focus on each chakra. This will activate the energy centres.'
3) ' Try spinning the wheel'.

So yesterday focused mostly on brow imagining a heavy wooden wheel in the brow area with a small handle that scratched my forehead as it was being turned. This was hard and very slow moving. I couldn't increase the speed, almost slow motion.
Did some more this morning and surprised to see how the speed has increased. It is becoming easier. Also I'm changing the colour as I'm doing it . I think this make take over from my usual coloured vegetables I practice with .
However I need to do this with all chakras if I'm to take the advice and not just focus on the brow.

susan

9th February 2015, 10:16 PM

I have just realised that for the past month I have been frustrated at not getting out of body but in actual fact I've had almost continual advice given ( inner voice) with my experiences being from a dream state.
Looking back in journal, 7 th January in dream state in a boat with someone in a cave the other person taps on the dirty water and a lovely white dolphin emerges and she tells it to JUST LOOK AND LISTEN ( this isn't the normal kind of everyday dream so it got my attention)
The advice recently has been on how I can increase energy. What to do. I've never needed this advice before or been given it and I've been projecting for a number of years. So why now?
Early hours of this morning I was awake and decided to do little energy work but to stay off brow due to too much previously and slight brow ache. Fell asleep. Very restless night. Woke up hearing
" STOP TALKING AND JUST LOOK BETWEEN THE EYES.
So I did but was too tired and fell asleep again. Woke up dissapointed that I had fallen asleep feeling I was failing tonight.fell asleep.
Woke up to
" BUT WE ARE COMMUNICATING MORE."
So going back to 7 th January advice, then yes, I think I am being directed more towards using the brow and listening.

The dream recalled may have just been due to a conversation on this forum a few hours previously but I'll log it anyway.
Dream.
I'm late and have missed a trip out. Told the teacher is coming back this afternoon to take me out on my own on a river trip.

susan

11th February 2015, 10:37 AM

Dreams last night I could understand as being my deep thoughts as to my actions . They had TV characters in them that had recognisable characteristics I saw in myself. However there were some bits I don't understand.

In a small cute cottage and come downstairs to find the coal fire which is lit has been alight all night and the coal ( even though the size of the pieces of coal are large like logs) has been piled up to reach the ceiling and this seems dangerous. They could fall and cause a fire. I try to move the log size coal pieces as it wobbles.
That was all I remember to this section. Don't know if in fact there was any more to this.
Thoughts.
I know when I'm raising energy I've been noticing how quickly I feel the energy fill the whole lower body when working feet.Circling the chakras is not the same impact but I read that this is normal.
I was cautious in drawing back from the brow. Thing is I've had a few strobes in the past and if I did end up having another one it wouldn't frighten me because I would understand what it was .
Was this thought of the fire possibly being at a dangerous height me realy having a fear of the energy I'm working on.
I don't think so.
Any thoughts on this welcome.

IA56

11th February 2015, 10:48 AM

Hi Susan,
Was the coal piled inside the fireplace or outside it, you wrote it reach the ceiling, so I got the impression it was outside the fireplace??

Love
ia

susan

11th February 2015, 11:28 AM

Hi IA,
The fire was in the fireplace with a chimney above it. It was a big wide fireplace but I still felt it could topple because of the height.

IA56

11th February 2015, 11:46 AM

Hi IA,
The fire was in the fireplace with a chimney above it. It was a big wide fireplace but I still felt it could topple because of the height.

Okay, it feels that you really are frightened of your own force, it was so huge (wide fireplace with coal big as loggs who will burn long time and with fierce fire) if it had bean outside the fireplace, the you would have seen your force coming outside of you.
But in the fireplace it is in you. Wow.....Susan...you are a Power force, really :-). Good for you!!

Love
ia

susan

12th February 2015, 03:05 PM

I think I've had a history lesson last night going back to an era when I was around.
Woke up to

" YOU MUST BE REALY ANCIENT THEN?"
" YES MY DEAR".
Tried to recall dream but absolutely nothing came. Went back to sleep. Woke up to
"OCTAVIUS HAD HIS OWN ( SUNS?) ( SONS?) AND GODS?

I had to google OCTAVIUS this morning and came up with
Gaius Octavius, Born in Rome 63 BC- AD 14. (76yrs )
His mother was the daughter to Julius Caesar's sister.
Upon Caesar's death the treasures of Egypt fell to him.....Conquest of Egypt 30BC.
Did not have any sons of his own so adopted two of his daughter's sons as his own, to be his Heirs but they died early so he then later adopted another.
This was the time when rulers were frequently worshipped as Gods.
So that said, why do I feel this was a history lesson connected to an era when I was alive.?

I decided a while ago events can be hinted at,

****just the other night was told a teacher was going to take me out on my own on a river trip.( river Nile ?) 9th Feb.
( this wasn't to be with other students but was maybe something specifically related to me.)

****an air show behind me with statues going up in the air. ( at the time these statues reminded me of the ones I had seen in a
Vault which I entered and the White statues came to life.People and animals. Had me think at the time these were prominent
people from history books and I may be learning about them at some stage.( 15thJuly 2014)

***** a possible past life recorded ( 17th August 2013) Egypt, river Nile to the left, pyramids, Elizabeth Taylor on top of the pyramid
Who I thought at the time represented Cleapatra as she had played the part in a film. Feeling of being banished from the land
and leaving a woman whom I loved and would never see again. Being down under the sand in a room where honey was
stored and was told it lasted for thousands of years.

At the time I felt Egypt was very prominent in my experiences.
So here we have OCTAVIUS, emperor, involved in Egypt around the era of Cleopatra.
I think this was me learning of my past , going back to a previous life and learning of the rulers and how it was in those days.

What I didn't record the other morning was a very short dream where I was walking down the aisle of a coach and turned round a corner of the aisle and it turned into a plane looking first class. 2cosy looking leather beds were available but I went to one of the two chairs , opposite, to sleep in. A brother figure followed into the second chair. They were realy cozy and snug. Realy felt like first class.
I didn't take the beds because they were for our parents.

I never had any interest in history, but we all have it. If we believe in reincarnation then we all have history. We just don't know what unless we are guided with information. I think it would be very rude of me not to learn more on this era.
Need to add am getting a click inside the head as if between the ears upon wakening before hearing the message. Read of this beforebut never experienced it before

susan

13th February 2015, 09:02 AM

" SO THATS WHY THE CODE WAS NECESSARY FOR THE PLANET".
Woke up to this but once again absolutely no dream to recall.
So frustrating because this one had me stumped until this morning when I had to do a bit of googling.
Possibilities.

1) I was once again getting a history lesson but the memory is stored deep in me and won't be recalled till I pass over .( like the meeting at the space station in space)

2) someone on the other side is just having a bit of fun with me and maybe wants to see if I'm going to believe it.
If that's the case I'm dissapointed because I realy was on a high working out the previous post which I truly believe. The voice that came through was very gentle and loving.

I googled code and planet and just came up with computer games. The Da Vinci code came to mind so googled it. ( which I never read or saw the film) knew it was fictional but seems to have stirred emotions within the religious groups.
All I'll say here is that the previous night for certain was a lesson.
Also that the time frame of Octavious's life was during the birth of Jesus.BC- AD

susan

14th February 2015, 09:37 PM

All I want to note here for anyone who passes by this thread is my thoughts on the importance of keeping a journal.
We know what we perceive one night can seem so important to follow through but a different topic may present the following night . Not like physical where what you decided to do the next day you actualy do ( or decide not to do). Said many times by people ' astral is very fluid' . If you don't keep a journal things perceived may just be thought of as ' oh that was interesting' , I wonder why I dreamt that.? So so easy to just be amused. That's good.
All I feel is that when you realy want to learn all you can about what is happening to you , what information you are opening up to , because astral is very fluid a journal is so important for looking back and putting pieces together. I notice people start journals and loose interest. Is this because they feel they are competing with stories?
A journal, even though open for others to read is for you to put your experiences together and fit the jigsaw pieces together as things develop.

susan

15th February 2015, 09:51 AM

I've just felt every molecule of my body electrically charged, tingling but not uncomfortable. I could feel my toes, fingers top of head, the lot.
This lasted about 5-6 seconds after I was awake experiencing it. I think this was me returning to physical but it was different from past experiences. In the past,( and maybe again in the future) it has felt like falling in with a heavy thud. This time I just felt electrically alive.
When it dissapeard my thought was that I had just missed a chance to exit but after recalling dream it was the opposite.

6.15am visit bathroom, drank water,did some stirring, bouncing, individual chakras but also whole body. Now looked into the brow and this is where I must have fallen asleep.

Dream
I'm waiting patiently in a small room where someone is helping someone else. This person is being helped to find someone who has gone missing. Next someone puts a small drawing in front of my face. It is pastel colours and I'm asked to look at it and see if I can find where this person is. But the drawing erases and there's only a tiny bit of colour left at the top. ( this may have been me now leaving) As I start to think this I'm not in the room anymore and this is where I felt the electric and was aware I was awake in my bedroom.
Thoughts.
This is similar to previous experience where I was looking into a paper bag and was aware of changing locality, and experiencing the little girl (25/01/15) . This was me this time looking at a picture with the instruction to find where this missing person is.
I suppose I found her, ME.

susan

17th February 2015, 09:18 PM

A while back I was encouraged from the other side to stop eating meat of any kind. It was followed by nudges till I got down to an acceptable 1 glass of wine per night ( occasionally missing the target.) When I questioned why should I give up my pleasures I was shown Clairvoyantly the beautiful angels and a silver city. So the reason seemed to be spiritual progression.
Have just had my yearly health check and I've lost weight to a good size. No more puffing when going up a ramp.
My blood pressure brilliant. 124/72 . (Nearly60yrs old) previously always around 154/86 and upwards over the years. I have far more stamina.
So although spiritualy I don't know if this is yet an advantage, what I experience now would I still have picked up if I hadn't given these up? But for my physical health I have certainly been pushed in the right direction.
What I don't get though is I see obese clairvoyants on television and around .
Jane Roberts who channeled Seth seemed to smoke heavy and I believe drank beer.
The late Doris stokes was obese. Look at any statue of a laughing buddah and they all have fat bellies.
So I'm a bit confused here . Not able yet to conclude

Just had a thought. Maybe yes the meat was a spiritual thing and the wine was just a health thing I would benefit from.

Osiris

17th February 2015, 11:29 PM

I've been "encouraged" to stop eating meat to, Something, a thought form, spirit...what have you... went so far as to bad mouth my Tacos at El Nepal once a few years ago, must have went on for atleast 5 min, and I am by no means a clairvoyant, calling it "disgusting animal flesh" and exhorting me to stop eating it as it was filthy. He [I got the impression] wasnt upset at me in particular just found the act gross and revolting and... I cant help but relate spiritually ignorant. Ive also had dreams and stuff pretty backing up his remarks especially regarding red meat. I never saw anything but he was loud and clear, and needless to say gave me food for thought har har har...
Ive tried goinig vegetarian several times but it just seems like there's NOTHING to eat. You can only eat so much pasta and soup and salad. Reading your remarks sure makes it worse coupled with things I've read about the effects of especially eating beef has on your spiritual bodies. I know from plenty experience what alcohol does...no more than maybe 1 beer anymore...occasionally.

susan

19th February 2015, 08:58 AM

I know what your saying Osiris and I think there are many many spiritual people who have the thought in the back of their minds about the meat business but have not had the push yet from the other side.I say this because as you discovered the message can be very strong or/ and repetitive. I suppose because we have free will they will step back once a decision has been made.

But about meals. I tried all veg but got bored. I love fish so have loads of that ( which is why I don't feel ready to give this up yet, this is a long time goal).I also still use quorn products to substitute meat. I've stopped putting the emphasis on the meal, even though I have to cook for husband I try to keep my mind on what I want to do after I've finished.

susan

20th February 2015, 10:13 AM

Feel great this morning as if I've realy enjoyed myself last night flying high in the sky.
Dream.
I'm entering a large college/ school where all the pupils are finding their seats. I don't know which class to go to but the teacher takes me to one side and tells me my first class is 9.15 but then the next isn't till 5.15. So after my first class I'm told by the teacher to go and practice inbetween the classes. Someone comes up and asks if my teacher has dark framed glasses on. We have the same teacher. So now I'm having fun flying up and down high in the sky above people. It was exilerating. I could feel the breeze on me. I even tried to give someone a lift on my back but they weighed me down.
Woke up.
This was a dream and the characters were dream characters but I think a couple of things were thrown in for me to notice.

1) the mention of the teacher with dark framed glasses.
a) same as when I believe I visited the after death zone and saw my late father and the man had dark framed glasses on.
b) 3-4 years ago when I had contact with a bad energy and dreamt I was taken to a place made of crystal to be cleansed ???
Clairvoyantly I saw an image of a woman with dark framed glasses on and at the time thought she was teaching me the reason for the crystal.
2) the gap between the lessons was for practicing.
After I went back to sleep just upon wakening I thought I heard ' unaided exit.'.

I'm feeling the urge recently to concentrate on developing the brow more as well as keeping the energy throughout the body free flowing and strong. I've had tips on energy work mentioned above.
So this was just a dream with dream characters but I think ' practice' may be a point to note.
At the end of the day it doesn't matter if a dream of my own creation because I feel I 've been laughing and having so much fun flying high in the sky . What a way to spend a night. Beats wrestling with monsters, aliens, negs, any day.

Ps to anyone who read the previous post about meat and alcohol, cholesterol levels have gone down also. Below risk level.

susan

22nd February 2015, 09:34 PM

After posting thoughts in a different section about the priest who saw God as a female during an NDE, whilst cooking I got an image.
Just my imagination but this is my space for my journal so would like to record.
I saw my red bucket filled with water , full of animals, plant life, sea creatures and us. I saw red cochineal put in in the minutest drop.
The colour was lost in some forms of life within the bucket showing no sign of turning red but was absorbed more in others. The point here is the red cochineal was in fact present in every part inside the bucket but more obvious in some. If we see God as the red cochineal, it is present in everything, but lost in some. Needs to be looked for , needs to be found, which is what we try to do. If we think of God as a most powerful feeling that we all thrive to find in life 'LOVE' ( whether it's a person, job,pet, hobby) maybe that is the answer to a query I never got to answer a while back in the journal where I picked up.....

" SEARCH THE LAND AND SEA AND PUT A SHOUT OUT FOR GOD".
Just thinking out loud.

Search for love in your life.
Find a job you love doing.
Find a hobby you love doing.
Be around people you love being around.
Listen to music you love to hear.
Surround yourself with this and you've found God ( the red cochineal)

susan

28th February 2015, 04:36 PM

Last two hours before getting up, in and out of very light sleep is the best time for me so sent out clear thoughts, questions. ( sometimes I find it can take a few days for the answer but it comes eventually)
So impatience is my middle name and was wondering if I should be trying something different for a projection.
Woke up to lovely singing, repetitive .....Everything Stays The Same......Everything Stays The Same.......
I see a man standing on a ladder leaning against a fruit tree with a pair of shears as he cuts fruit off the tree and the fruit bounces on the ground.
The bouncing ( part of NEW)
The visual excercises I do with different fruit.
Back to sleep slightly and woke up to a few home truths about myself played out in short sketches like above.
These were pointing out areas about myself I could improve on in my daily physical life. Feel a bit down today because of this but the last little sketch I saw was.
I'm with a friend in a large room full of people and this is a dating event. My friend tells me he has found a partner . I walk over and find my partner. It's a cardboard cut out of me.
For me I interpret this as meaning in life we look for partners to share our lives with but the most important thing is to love ourself.
We should love ourselves, take care of ourselves just as we would a partner.

susan

1st March 2015, 04:41 PM

I think I may have had a suggestion that my late father may be contactable soon, or if not yet then may be coming out of his sleep state on the other side.
Prior to dream.
Yesterday was a down day for me. Did my chores, shopping etc but feeling quite low. Thoughts going on in my head that this could all be a load of rubbish . Hypnotising myself and hallucinating. Sad old woman. Spends too much time on my own just thinking rubbish.Cooked husband a lovely steak for when he came in and I had cheese macaroni! What was I doing this for? I loved steak ,I just wanted to take a big chunk off and eat it.
I've written of being shown failures in myself yesterday morning.
But the thing is the previous day the sun was shining and I started the day with fruit and fresh orange juice, so healthy. Had a lovely day out at work and laughed and talked with my clients. Came in great mood.( had I exhausted myself with talking and laughing?)
I had had such a grounded day the day before that this all seems so impossible.
Slept through night till about 4.30 am. Back to sleep, couldn't be bothered with raising energy.
Woke up 9.15. Recalled dream.

I'm looking out the window of a small caravan. My son is outside and a bird takes his hat off his head and flys away with it. I was alarmed because it meant he didn't have a hat to wear. ( he went through a uni student thing a while back of wearing strange hats most of the time . Pleased to say he's out of that now) As I move in the caravan the thing starts to tip to one side. This means the soil underneath is very soft. I'm thinking what a stupid place to put the caravan. As I go outside some boys are playing, there are a lot of people around. After all this is a holiday camp.A boy is trying to take a picture of his friends but I get in the way thinking my caravan is to the right but it isn't its to the left.I take a seat outside the caravan where the parents of the boys are sitting. They come over to tell the parents the funny story of me going in the wrong direction to my van but they are talking in a different language but I seem to know what they are saying.I can understand the mother clearly, she was talking with a Scotish accent.
I realise there is rock as high as me right next to me. The ground is so uneven and rocky that I get a knife and stab the rock and it crumbles. I'm thinking this is a realy low life holiday camp. The site is right on top of a volcano. We are parked on top of a volcano!

My sister calls me. The family photo has arrived of dad and the rest of us. It's about 1 meter tall. I see it and it has all the family on but the second one is the same but I point out that I'm the only one missing in it. I've been cut off. My sister comments what a shame dad wasn't here to see this, he would have loved it and he had ordered the picture and arranged to have it delivered.
My husband calls me over to the field he's standing in.
This is the bit that recalling was magical to look at.
High in the sky over in the distance what seemed so far up into space he points to Stars sparkling in a group and moving closer. They are so so high up this is like seeing deep into space and has me mesmerised . There is a large cluster in front that almost looks like a cloud made up of stars, followed by other smaller stars behind on both sides of it . As I stand and watch this I was starting to think I've seen this beautiful kind of sight before in a dream.
My husband tells me today we are all celebrating. This is a flyover. They are aeroplanes and the fly over is in celebration of a famous battle.
That's all I can remember of the dream.

Thoughts.

This speaks volumes to me but I shan't list all possible meanings due to my previous downer on possible wishful thinking.
So If I leave out where I think I may be involved in this.....
I hadn't been thinking of my father for a few days but 2-3 weeks ago I had wondered about trying to contact dad if I could be lucky enough to have a conscious exit. The problem here was that I didn't want to put myself in the same spot as the last time.
( page 33 , 06/09/14) ( conscious exit taking me to I believe to be after death zone( as described by Kurt) ) If I was responsible for translating the energy I was perceiving ,then I formed a sight of my father's dead body ontop of a stone being monitored by a man in a white lab coat with a clip board and wearing dark rimmed glasses.
So I decided 2-3 weeks ago just to forget it. Might not be a nice experience if he still hasn't woken up yet , or whatever the image meant.
So this dream was involving my late father who I had not gone to bed thinking about. The photograph had been torn and I was not on it. (I had been separated from him)
My father was Scottish.
The bit that means more to me is in real physical life my father was ex Royal Air Force and he was aircrew and used to fly around the world. I have a picture in the house of his plane where he took part in the flyover of Buckingham Palace on the day of the Queens ♥♥♥♥♥♥tion in 1953.
In the dream this is a flyover in celebration to a previous battle.
Could this be the battle , my father winning the battle and coming round at last, if that was the case?
I think this may be the case and I don't think it was just wishful thinking in a dream. In fact looking through the posts trying to find the date of the visit to record how could I have thought this could have All been hallucinating.
I would be writing blockbuster movies by now if I had such an imagination.
So , back on track. Next goal is to send out thoughts of him and try for an exit.

This is twice now when I have had serious doubts( previously about eating meat) that a dream follows straight after that puts me back on track.

susan

2nd March 2015, 09:09 AM

Beautiful giant boys face made up of stars with colour added just flashed up in view as I was turning sides in bed. I must have slowly started to wake up as I turned.
This was once again like staring into deep space filled with stars. The boy looked about 12-14 yrs old. The outline of his head was made up of stars. He had a white scarf/ sheet wrapped round the top of his head. I think he had a white scarf round his neck. His face was coloured in in brown. Behind him was just black space with stars shining.
This was how I remember seeing head gear round the time of Jesus in biblical pictures. Like a shepherd boy. I may have the time period wrong . It doesn't matter, this was beautiful. This will go down as another of my magical experiences.
Just love this one. I mustn't let anything get in my way again preventing me from experiencing this kind of beauty.

susan

9th March 2015, 09:13 AM

Soul star. I've just read this mentioned in Siners's post.
I can show my ignorance in this subject of chakras. I learn as I go and often after the event. I've only consciously focused on the chakras within the body but it seems there may be more outside , above body. ( thank you for pointing this out Sinera.)
I read it is supposed to link to the higher self and enlightenment. I feel the communication I'm getting may be from my higher self or an aspect of myself ( if that is the correct term) because sometimes the communication is very loving as a parent, and sometimes as a female and sometimes seems to have a slightly male lower sound. ( higher self, male , female characteristics)
Sometimes it is just like my kind of way of speaking as you would do to a friend. So, although different at times I believe all connected to me in some way.
My thoughts are about the beautiful star like experiences I've had, and even the last one where the boy was outlined in stars. Is this me having opened up the chanel of this chakra which I did'nt even know existed.?
Another thought, when twice saw the same boy in period costume but a few years in age difference, then lying dead on a battle field and I was a young boy, now seeing this young boy mentioned above,........why always a boy?
I was told this morning that I have to visit people, they don't come to me. ( encouragement to get out myself unaided is what I feel here )

susan

12th March 2015, 08:51 PM

Went to sleep yesterday after doing energy raising and decided to just end with circling the feet, but to keep at it till I fall asleep. Fell asleep.
Woke up with vibrations and I was still circling my feet. I seemed to have continued doing this whilst asleep( or started up again immediately upon wakening and could feel the circling) I was aware this was a good state to be in to try to exit but immediately after that thought I picked up " no I'm sorry but you misunderstand" . I then got a picture of a man in a wheel chair with a glass of wine in his hand and a big cross in front of it.
By now the vibrations have dissapeared. I felt so dissapointed at having wasted an opportunity. The problem had been that hubby off work so I had 2 decent sized glasses of wine. ( 1/2 a bottle) I knew I was having more than what seems to be asked of me but that was my decision to make.

susan

13th March 2015, 09:20 AM

Time to address this now . Through the week I've had a lot of work with elderly. Done some good work in physical. But once again last night / this morning waking up to many different short dreams all seeming to point to areas I could improve on in physical. It would have been a complete waste of time trying any kind of projection. As Kurt says, the four levers have to be in place.
Even one dream suggested that the queen was watching.
I'm either creating my own problems here or realy getting the push.
The only reason I'm recording this is for my own encouragement. It worked with the meat.
So intentions.
For the next three days will
Have NO wine.
Will address what goes in my mouth, .... Salads.....fruit......water......soup.....vegetabl es....fish..( well I reckon if Robert still eats fish then..)
Plenty of meditation.
Plenty of energy raising.
Plenty of sleep.
Will try to work on other areas pointed out not to do with food.

However.
I intend to still have one mug of Nescafé in morning but honey instead of candarel.
1 crumpet on Sunday as a treat, ( it's Mother's Day)
If after 3 days, having attempted to address my intake and actions, then I will have to re- think.

One of the dreams was suggesting that I was the only one who had not made the effort and did not get a summer dress to go on holiday and I was left behind.

CFTraveler

13th March 2015, 01:20 PM

Yuck! Or use stevia, it's natural.

susan

18th March 2015, 09:18 AM

Thanks for the advice. It arrives tomorrow.

No wine and attention to food went well but this is a long slow process so I might slip along the way but will do my utmost to think about everything that goes on my mouth in regards to chemicals and health.

Through the night as I wake up I couldn't be bothered to do anything just go back to sleep .As I was waking from my final sleep I was aware I was looking at a single white ballet shoe ( but without the ties) . It slowly started to move and turn and take small steps in different directions and kept folding in as if the edge around was made of elastic. By now this has got my full attention and I know I am lucid enough to know I'm lying in bed watching something through the brow. I didn't want it to end but slowly it just fades and left with white fluffy cloud like screen so I concentrate on the screen and clear any thought from wandering in that would spoil it.
I can now hear rustling of paper, then as if rustling of the contents of a drawer. As if behind me and a woman's voice saying " Jimmy,
it's a one pound postal order. Must have been from when we were in Foxton Crescent".) Nothing after that .( picking up just chatter, nothing to focus on) then a new scene started up.
I'm standing in an area for parking directly in front of a church looking into a massive hearse. The coffin isn't inside ( in the church) .
The back door of the hearse is up and all I see are flowers and 6-7-8 young children inside the hearse all looking sad. As I'm watching I couldn't work out any meaning because I've had hearses and deaths over a period in the last two years but not for quite a while.
I realise I'm sitting on a bench next to people and someone says to someone behind us something about do you know what I do?
"I'm the air freshener".
This fades and finally I'm looking at a section of a large wooden wheel with spokes on ( the same image I was given when advised to
" try spinning the wheel". I took this as advice on spinning the chakras which I hadn't been doing and to be honest this was good advice as I can feel each chakra as I do it.) As I look at the wheel there is a small white sticker on it with writing so I focus hard on this and it comes closer. It reads ... ' NYLON MATERIAL'.
It disappears and that everything finished now. I'm trying to work out the nylon and all I can come up with is nylon cannot break. Is this something to do with the chakras, energy bodies being indestructible ? ( but I know that already) or , just had an after thought as I'm writing this, could this imply that the chakras are strengthening? Becoming stronger?
Maybe wishful thinking on my part but I'll leave that to ponder on.
Now. The air freshener. An air freshener eliminates bad, stale odour. Is this something to do with me trying to cleanse the body and eliminate the bad before I can experience anything of a higher vibration?

susan

19th March 2015, 08:36 AM

I can now put a meaning to the hearse with children inside it posted and perceived yesterday morning.
Last night I got informed by my sister that our Aunt 200 miles away had just died. I didn't even know she had been ill.Although her children were now grown up she has 7 children but gave birth to 8.that would explain the unusual sight of seeing children inside the hearse looking sad.
And I assume the air freshner was addressing the bad feelings that caused arguments between her family and the rest of the family. Things happened that were not nice so my father lost any contact with that side . I was not brought up with them so it had no affect on me,.I just felt it was sad to know my father was dying and he would never see his sister again and she would never see her brother in physical again. When dad died they did not call, send a card nor attend his funeral.

This is my opportunity to practice what I preach.
On this forum I replied to a question suggesting that we could all do with showing respect and if it isn't shown to us we should still show it . Lead by example.
So I shall contact my cousins. I shall send a card because she was my aunt and I believe she was a wonderful mother to her 7 children from the occasional visits we had together and as a child I realy realy liked her. They must be very sad.

susan

22nd March 2015, 12:47 PM

Have I been given the meaning of a new symbol to look out for?
This morning waking from that very light sleep ( approx 30 mins) recalled the end of a dream.
I've drawn a picture. ( not good at drawing) It was a bird with its wings stretched out flying in the sky. Someone ( who I felt was my leader) asks to have a look at it and tells me " every time you see one of those it will mean a Soul Reunion".
I woke up but it was one of those times again when you feel you are suddenly woken up and the picture and words were the first thing to recall.
Yesterday through the day I had felt so grounded. Spent all day potting up seeds, plants, painting fence. Was in my element, loved it didn't want to come in. So last night when going to bed I had no intention of trying for anything through the night . The only thought I sent out before drifting off was for help in understanding the significance of seeing the young boy outlined in stars.
I wrote previously wondering why I'm always seeing a boy. The first page of this journal details me going on a journey and seeing a train stationery with green lights ahead. A very conscious OBE where I was put down on a verandah on a child's plastic chair and given a bowl of fruit and asked " haven't you ever seen a boys kindergarten before? " The boy I was taken to meet , that I loved from the bottom of my heart and there was a mother figure in the background.He had my hair colouring.
This is all listed in my first post of the journal.

susan

24th March 2015, 09:16 AM

Was called by my name this morning and given some good advice , and missed an opportunity to exit.
Liminal stage ( shall use this term in future) heard ,
" Susan can I ask you a question? Do away with ........ ......... This was singing and was repeated again.
Wasn't sure if I'd heard correctly as it was a surprise so sent out thoughts straight away that I was sorry but didn't quite catch that. Could you repeat this again please?
The song was repeated twice again.
I know this is good advice about a policy that is due for renewal and the papers came but I felt this was an expense I could be doing without. I was lazy and just put the papers in the drawer deciding not to bother cancelling . Will make the effort today to cancel as I know this is right. I like the idea of the singing which I've had before.
Back to a very short light sleep when I woke up remembering seeing a bear in a bed sitting up and floating forwards like an OBE.
I was awake now and amused as it had nothing to do with the recalled dream ( my own mixed up thoughts) .wondered if this was a chance for me to try something so only spent about 5 mins energy raising and then silenced mind. Very soon I feel myself raising up very very slowly but the problem was I was too awake. This took me by surprise as it started whilst still almost awake. ( this happens when I think I am taken to be shown something) . My thoughts went to this and it was over, back to body awake.

susan

27th March 2015, 09:16 AM

Rang up to cancel policy and they gave me a discount with a slightly changed term. Payements reduced. Happy with that.
Yesterday spent 1 hour energy raising of chakras. Later 4.30 am awake so little more bouncing body all over then circling feet before relaxing. Could feel energy travel up legs, body hot, shoved off duvet. Slept, woke up still very sleepy so started bouncing through body realy high as if the ball was reaching the ceiling. Slowly I feel lighter and being pulled up raising up and up. Was just about to shoot up through the ceiling when hubby turned in bed and put his arm over me. Drat! Spoilt another chance.
Last night I had done something to I pad and couldn't get the Internet on it so just read Michael Newtons book on kindle. This had me thinking. The accounts of regressed people accounting their journeys after a life here and it is all organised and vast. Seems to agree with Robert Munroes description. It reminded me of one of those vivid dreams where everyone was floaty and slow moving I had a long time ago where I was helping with assistance. Will record when I have time.

susan

27th March 2015, 05:35 PM

Have just checked dreaming forum going back 4 years to make sure I hadn't already recorded this one I said I would post . Whilst looking at old posts nice to read of Neil talking of his ' internal jukebox he was getting when waking up that would have meaning to him. I read of my bliss having been standing on a dark planet with someone( page 11, dreaming forum) with two planets so close to where I was standing in space ahead of me I felt were orbiting the planet I was on. Beautiful colours peaking through the black sky.

Why has all this excitement gone? well that's not realy true . I suppose at the beginning this was an introduction. Everything was the wow factor! Now that's over the last two years seems to be how to be a good person. Either a well done ,or my faults being pointed out. I know I had to go through the 'fear' thing in astral . Clairaudience certainly in play more now. Just wish I could have some more Wow!
Recording this dream from a few years ago. ( seems to have similar characteristics to one of michael Newtons recorded descriptions.
Had previously been wondering about retreival work or something to do with helping in astral.
Dream.
I'm in what looks like an airport terminal with all the shops. Someone is with me but no words are spoken. Over in the distance I can see some people looking distressed sitting on a bench .But we are concentrating on the side we are on and there is a girl whose attention we have to get and make her follow us. She sees us and follows us round the corner. It's then we hold her . She is distressed. We tell her to lie down and go to sleep. A bed suddenly appears below her and she lays down.
Next thing tunnels/ corridors seem to open up all around us and the shopping mall has dissapeared.
These beautiful, gentle, semi transparent people just floated from the tunnel. 4 came over to us and put their arms round the girl speaking to her softly and told her to come with them . I watched as she was as if sleep walking with them down the tunnel they came from, and dissapeared. As I looked around I could see similar figures had come from different tunnels and we're taking some of the other people who were at the other side away.
Michael Newton writes of souls arriving at a central port he called a staging area. This was for the assembly and transfer of souls in mass to their final destination.
Two phases. Brought in and collected then projected to final destination. His accounts all seemed to suggest walking with large numbers of travellers through a central terminal of a metropolitan airport .
One client described the staging area as resembling the hub of a great wagon wheel where we are transported from a centre along the spokes to our designated space moving in and out of the hub in an efficient manner with no congestion.
Wish I could experience this again even if just a dream. I know I dreampt this well before downloading the book to read.

This instruction to lie down and go to sleep seems to be used quite often here.

susan

29th March 2015, 12:34 PM

Past two mornings woken up feeling I've been crying. I've been having internal battles with my self over the wine and meat.
Last night watched a realy good program that had me laughing . With my dinner I had Less than half a bottle of white wine. I felt it was over the third but what the heck. Saturday night, eating my plateful of green cabbage, mange tout, pepper stir fry. How could life get more exiting than this.Thing is as I cooked a chicken Thai dish for hubby it smelt so gorgeous I wanted to taste it just to see if it was cooked thoroughly. I didn't but I did look longingly at it wishing and wondering. Sat down to a drink of ginger beer which I use in place of wine now. But if I have understood correctly this carbonated stuff is supposed to be not good.
So this has been the topic on my mind when going to bed and I suppose it's just going to throw up a lot of mixed up confusing dreams. I feel I'm playing a sympathy game with myself. Feel sorry for me. Why should I do this? Show me why I should do this. Problem is I know I'm playing a game trying to fool myself. Feel sorry for me and show me something beautiful like the silver city again. But I'm the one playing the game with myself. I cannot fool myself. Is this what is known as an ego battle?
Just two pieces I want to record from last night even though may just have been confused mind.
1) I'm in a landscape that is unknown to me , with someone but I feel we have to hide from the enemy. I don't understand what I'm seeing. They are not people but more like wooden puppets with round ball like faces. Then the enemy comes closer but they are human shaped now. One is wearing black but as he gets closer I realise this isn't the enemy. He is wearing a vicars robe down to the ground. ( thought a few weeks ago that I may have a new guide on the scene who would show as a vicar)
2) liminal stage and picked up ... Message coming in......I saw a mobile phone( my mind would create that anyway ) but there was a long message scrolling down but non of it was writing. It was a mixture of pictures, symbols, even what looked like geometry symbols. Non of it made sense.
Need to get back to a peaceful state of mind. No more games or self pity.

susan

3rd April 2015, 01:37 PM

Since this last post I've come to the conclusion that the only way to guarantee a battle free nights sleep is to address the dreams. Cut out alcohol altogether. 1/3 bottle of wine nightly is gone.
Signs are very positive. 5 nights now no alcohol and sleeping peacefully. Those short scenes( cannt realy call them dreams because there is no story associated with them, just a quick , short scene) that I wake up to are funny but meaningful suggesting a cleansing in progress.

Want to note here an example of why we should choose our words carefully and always think of the impact they will have on the person they are directed to.

Yesterday I was with an elderly lady (93) . 4 weeks since I had last seen her but there was a change in her. She was very down. Today she is having to go for more tests because they found a shadow on her lungs. So here we have an elderly lady who may be coming to terms with the news that she can not go on for ever and her days here on earth may be ending soon. Recently she had just lost a cousin and she showed me pictures of the hearse leaving from her house.
We had never talked of anything spiritual and finding the right angle to approach this topic took a bit but I asked her what religion she was , was she Catholic? This just opened the flood gates as she swung her arms in the air and started a verbal abuse about anything to do with the church. This was a lady who had lost her husband during the war and brought up her son on her own. He is buried in France and she often has family go over to France to lay flowers. She was showing a hatred and distrust for the church and any faith .
Some of this reaction may be due to her worry over health but there had to be more. Certainly at a time like this faith would be a help. She told me the story.
Last year, prior to a Remembrance service in her local church she had bought some silk roses in memory of her husband and gone into her local church to find a place to put them.
A woman who seemed to be organising things shouted across the church " No, you cannt put them there! " my lady told her she brings them every year and they are for her husband but this woman insisted indignantly that they were to be removed . They would have to go over with some others and displayed elsewhere and after the service. She brought them home upset .
Since last November my elderly lady has recalled this episode with disgust. This was someone who represented the church.( She may have just been a member of the community who's role it was to organise the display of flowers but nevertheless was still seen as a representative. ) Represented the teachings of this church and yet failed to show any compassion towards this elderly war widow who was bringing the same silk flowers to place in her local church that she arranges to have laid in France. Her visits to church have ceased and she sees all those within the church preaching the bible as hypocrites. Her faith has gone and she doesn't know what to believe now.
What a shame this stupid woman was present in church at the time of her visit. She failed to understand the importance of this lady's visit and the symbolic gesture of the flowers. She handled it shamefully. If she had allowed her to place them at the time then discreetly removing them to a different position later would have saved all this.
I've been thinking this for a while that there are many ' Hangers on' who I feel think it's good to be connected to the church and vicar and be seen to be doing charitable work for the community but when put to the test are just hypocrites.

susan

5th April 2015, 03:06 PM

Two nights sleep and very different. Humour is back.
The other night I was being shown little scenes where it realy got my attention and made me think. There seemed to be a mother figure in the background and felt this person was instigating the advice.
This morning the nights sleep was very different .Woke up with a start at least 3 times. Each time funny scenes that had me want to laugh out loud.One involved The name of the guy who is doing some kitchen work for us and had him dressed as a big fat biker.
Fun was definitely the theme last night which was good. Twice I got the feeling this was male with a really good fun sense of humour. No advice, just fun.Each time I woke up it would be as if my mobile phone alarm had gone off to wake me. It hadn't .

The thing is the last two days I've been gardening loving it. Going to bed I've been determined to wake through the night and attempt to get out. Couldn't be bothered the other night so last night was determined and sent out a request to please help but each time I woke up I couldn't be bothered. Just went back to sleep.
I've said this before that the humour is like mine but funnier and whittier, and definately displays a male presence.
Is this part of me? or someone who knows me ? without me remembering.

susan

7th April 2015, 08:22 AM

woke up yesterday to remembering someone being beaten up bleeding all over. One final punch and even more blood pouring out all over the floor as this person lays unconscious. This loss of blood is always an indication of fatigue , loss if vital energy.
This was so true. Too much heavy digging in garden, felt great till next day. Had to rest on bed most of day exhausted.

Another little caption this morning that took me a bit longer to work out but I think I've got it.
I'm sitting on the edge of a small wall of a large plot of land on the inside , which I think belongs to me. Someone ( husband?) is in the middle chopping wood. Someone in the distance is just watching silently. He looks like a man of wealth from the country in his clothing. He knows I've seen him but he doesn't come across. Just watches.
At right angles to where I'm sitting is the similar wall I'm sitting on but behind it is a large fence with a space inbetween. My thought goes to that if we were to move the wall closer to the fence it may not be noticed and we would aquire extra land.
This man is still watching then he just leaves without saying anything. I look in the distance away from our bit of property and its realy black as night but as I walk further towards husband closer to the centre of our land it gets brighter and brighter. Kids come on bicycles playing having fun. There's a bicycle for me.
Interpretation.
( No alcohol going fine, ginger beer in crystal glass working . I've come to the idea that it's the idea of addictions that have to be eliminated and the fact that I got it down to a small quantity I was drinking it every night. Everything I've looked up and read mentions the need to eliminate drugs/ addictions to progress further spiritualy. One site did mention the affect alcohol has on the way the brain works with higher frequencies. )
So last night ginger beer as usual but just curiosity as to how I would feel if I had a sip of my husbands wine. Would I want a second ? I took a small sip and found it bitter. Got used to a sweeter taste. Happy with this)
Back to interpretation-
By wanting to be sneaky and extending the wall I would be crossing the boundry. The man was watching but saying nothing. He seemed to be of importance. Just watching. Everything was dark outside my boundry but light and happiness inside my boundry.
I think to stay within the current boundry I have of -no wine- is the way forwards.

susan

8th April 2015, 08:09 AM

Just to note for journal.
Such tiredness yesterday. Should be back to normal by now after a day resting . Got back from work early afternoon and no energy. Effort to stand and cook. Bed by 8.30pm.
Too tired to do any energy raising late afternoon, did none through the night. Slept well but feel the plug has been pulled out.
Totaly disconnected. Must get back on track!

susan

8th April 2015, 09:14 PM

Just decided to google Kurt's website And reading one of his excursions witnessing a simulation taking place involving a woman .He writes of her being aware of certain rules she felt she should be aware of but not knowing what they were. During the simulation if she was correct the room became lighter and brighter and more illuminated. When she did the wrong thing the room became darker and denser. She was learning herself which of her actions brought her closer to Scource and which did not.

Co-incidence or not that I should choose that website and that one story to read just after recording my thoughts on my last dream ?
And I thought the plug had been pulled.

susan

14th April 2015, 10:53 AM

Last two nights dreams I've been teased with the meat and wine.
People are giving me a plate of bacon and putting it in front of my face but I'm politely refusing. Next a policeman stops me in my car and needs to look for something. He empties my petrol tank( fuel , energy , body) and this disgusting slimy filth comes out . Two big pieces of rolled up slimy filth comes out. (there was no sense of smell in the dream.)
Last nights dream had me sitting in a bar with my father and a lady who worked behind a bar in physical. As I look at her throat it looks strange and not nice to look at. She has a hole in her throat and a big black lump. In the dream I'm trying to work out if this is cancer of the throat or if it's the scar from a tracheotomy . I politely refuse the wine because I know I should be in a coffee bar instead.
Next someone comes looking for me to take me up in the lift to meet dad.
Then I come out of my house ( this is the first time I've dreampt of being in my own house I live in instead of my late father's) .As I look at the bottom of the street there are bells ringing. They are massive like big Christmas bells, bigger than me. Sparkly red and a sparkly silver one. There's green tied around them just like Christmas colours.

Out of these two dreams the points that stand out are
1) the disgusting filth coming out of the engine.
2) the horrible thing on the woman's throat.
Is this how hypnotism works? Is my subconscious or other trying to plant the disgusting idea of the filth and ugly mark on the throat so when I'm tempted I think like that ?
Time will tell.

susan

17th April 2015, 08:04 AM

Babies are back and I'm not sure if I'm the baby or I'm nursing the baby or I'm both . I think both. A short dream recalled where there is a baby sitting up on the bed being supported by me. Someone gets up and goes away. Baby says something and I am so pleased because it can talk. The baby repeats what I say with " yes isn't it wonderful" . I pick up the baby saying lets go and tell Daddy. As I pick it up the body is so limp and I'm afraid I'll drop it . I then hear a very tinny metal type voice, high pitched speaking in a language I don't understand. End of dream.

Comments.
I've heard this same sound before and the same type of words before about 2 years ago around the beginning of this journal. I don't think the words are important just symbolic .
Is this to do with communicating and understanding . Maybe I have a chakra that still needs work on to interpret messages coming through. Could this be connected to the previous dream of being told a message was coming through and seeing a mobile phone with a load of geometry symbols I didn't understand.
Kurt talks of the development of each chakra associated with the different energy bodies needing to be working.
Don't know, could just be my dreaming mind and wishful thinking but I have a feeling not.
Going to bed with the intention of trying something and wakening up plenty of times but just cannt be bothered.

susan

19th April 2015, 02:38 PM

Revised edition of C W Leadbeater The Chakras, ( annotations by Kurt Leland) suggests the western system of chakras relates to the mortal personality, linked to the etheric double, and the astral and mental body. ( physical health, emotional happiness and intellectual and psychic power) Also that the eastern system concerns the immortal individuality , often linked to the casual body. This is suggesting the reason why chakra systems may be perceived differently .
Suggestion being made is that there could be 7 chakras for each of our 7 bodies( vehicles of consciousness) . Each wheel/ chakra/ revolving disc, are points of connection where energy flows from one body to the next body. So I suppose each chakra is connected to its similar chakra to its higher body. 49 Chakras !
I suppose there's only so much we can do in physical.

susan

24th April 2015, 10:16 PM

Lovely image upon wakening the other morning. This was viewed as a faint outline. No dream recalled
The only colour here was white. The ground was covered in pure white snow. Then viewing from right to left I saw two adult white polar bears, then at the end was a small baby polar bear. It was so sweet and just started to turn away when the vision ended.

susan

2nd May 2015, 12:15 PM

"THEN I LEFT LONDON IN (1565? 1560?) BECAUSE OF THE PLAGUE".

I heard this as I woke up. Tried to recall dream straight away but got a complete blank. Nothing.
When I got up I googled London Plague and from 1348-1665 every 20-30 years London was hit with a deadly plague that killed approximately 20% of the population .
Could this have been someone I've been in the past, a self aspect ( if that's the right term) letting me know how life was in those days?
The reason I think this is because the night before I picked this up I'd been watching a TV program about life in England way back in the past. Didn't know what era it was but the poverty and harsh conditions just to earn money to eat and the crowded conditions to live in got me thinking how bad this must have been for poor people in those days . I enjoyed the program but did not continue any thoughts about this when the news came on. Went to bed not thinking about this topic.
If we want to try to visit someone in astral we are told to think of that person, as astral is a thought/ emotion place. So if I was wondering about a time ( and without knowing have actualy experienced life then) but can't remember, then who better to teach me what it was like then than a part of ME that has lived it.

BEES.

Went back to sleep and woke up trying desperately to free my right arm to swat a bee that had got into my hair on the left side and was going to sting me. The buzzing was so so loud, right in my ear.
Recalled dream and I'm walking into a bathroom and see hundreds of bees swarming round something in water in the bath.not wanting to get stung I quickly got out closing the door behind me but one bee got out and got in my hair . This was I think as I was just starting to wake up because I was trying so hard to free my arm to swat the bee but couldn't free my arm. ( I presume by this time I'm back in body otherwise my astral arm would have no problem) As I struggle I'm now wakening up knowing my physical arm is trapped under my husband's shoulder. I free it but by now know this was a dream. ( but I still could have slapped him with frustration) not sure how I would have explained the reason.

The previous 2 days I'd started some crown work and was noticing how loud the ringing and noises were in my ears. ( I usually do notice this when working the crown).I read that the buzzing is just Bio- E electrical noise sounding like a bee. Whilst asleep in a light sleep had I tuned into this noise and created a dream about bees.? The buzzing getting louder as I am closer to wakening up.

This is the most sensible explanation.
HOWEVER
Another way to look at this is.....
Taken from Aunt Claire's own experience.

" The inner shell of the female tan then is called the golden bowl of the bees chamber.
A vision of bees followed by their loud buzzing.
Projection to the death chamber of the Great Pyramid in Shamballah will occur at this stage.
The hidden chamber below the queen's chamber is also called the bees chamber.
We begin to manifest our future here.
During this stage kundalini both ascends and descends.
A cobra will sleep here coiled up in the golden bowl and nadir will manifest from her egg.
This is the beginning of the Alchemical structure called the crown and chandelier of the goddess.
It will form an internal obelisk descending from the scalp.
Humble Bumblebees take flight up into our heads into the chambers but not into the bees cave yet as these make the little snakes waken stirring them from slumber to grow and eat and grow some more."

The Alchemical structure? I googled these symbols as I had no knowlege in this field. So many. Could these symbols have been mixed in with what I saw on the text message of a mobile phone when it didn't make sense. I couldn't understand as it was all symbols. I described them as geometry symbols as I was ignorant to these others.
Could these different interpretation of the meaning of bees have the same meaning, just interpreted differently.
After all one of the first signs I ever saw were hundreds of Ankha symbols against a white background and I had to describe them to people before someone told me what they were.

susan

11th May 2015, 08:24 AM

Clairaudience definately on silent mode just now and I think I know why.
Events in physical with a close family member is requiring me to help with understanding both parties and give reassuring advice. This flares up periodically . The Auther Robert Peterson wrote of his inner voice telling him that it was there to help him in life but would be silent when involved with certain lessons. For me, compassion was highlighted a while back.

Loud buzzing in head gone although still getting all the different ticking clocks and ringing but a lot quieter. Still working on all chakras daily and bringing energy up and down spine starting outside body above head but it hasn't instigated the loud buzzing ( bio- electrical noise) again. Was this just because at that time I had just increased the focus on the crown more ? I think so.

Yesterday settled to a planned 45 mins NEWS using binaural so followed by 15 mins focus and silencing mind.
Think I fell asleep before music ended as it was still on when woke up to a quick flash of an egg dropping.
So- is the sub- conscious playing around with the previous post about bees and eggs?
I do display humour in physical life and in dream state and inner voice sometimes.
But there we have it .
Susan has laid an egg.
Laugh all you like because I am.

susan

12th May 2015, 09:42 AM

Well the last post suggesting clairaudience was on silent mode has changed this morning .
I feel I've had a camera and microphone attached to me at work and home yesterday and this morning teacher has gone over everything with advice but I suppose I'm my own teacher here. Self critique.

Woke up from main sleep to
' thinking' ...."whatever BW wrote about doing to her house I should do the same".

Recalled dream. Nothing to do with this topic.However I had visited the Neg Forum last night for a nosey but this is an area I prefer to stay away from. Mainly because I don't feel I would be much help there, and I wouldn't like to go to bed creating a dream from what I may have just read.
So shielding and creating protection around us all seems to have been an issue in the last few days here and advice was given out by BW after the banned poster.
So this was advice.

Little energy work back to sleep.

5.15am- 7.20am
Each time wakening up quickly to watching a television screen and a man , then a woman talking to me.

1st). "Not to be so shallow- look deeper within."

Recalled dream and it was about choosing my favourite dog because he looked lovely.
( through the day at work I had been making a fuss around 2 dogs because they were lovely to look at) so I dreampt this but I
feel this is reminding me to discard the outer appearances and find the beauty within a person. To look deeper.

2nd). " Search deep down to eliminate the bitter" ( I then saw a lemon flash up)

Could not recall any dream. I don't think this is to do with food although it may but I feel this has to do with how I was talking
to someone yesterday about the family situation I'm dealing with. I'm not saying bad things of the third party but I think I am
harbouring deep thoughts that she is at fault and has caused all the problem.

I realise as I read this that it isn't enough just to say the right things, to appear to be showing compassion (although it can help a situation ,) but I cannt hide my true feelings from myself. I have to turn these deep rooted feeling around and believe truly what I say. Easier said than done.

susan

14th May 2015, 07:48 AM

Just a note for the journal.
Relating to the previous statement " search deep down to eliminate the bitter" .
The only way to eliminate the negative thoughts I may be harbouring of this person is to imagine being her.There is no other way.
Knowing everything about this person, events leading up to events, reasons for reactions. Therefore seeing from her point of view.
Therefore showing compassion, but truly meaning it and speaking from my heart.
Going in circles here because this takes me back to my class room experience where I suddenly was this girl in the chair who threw the toys in fear of the man, but I was also the man witnessing the girls anger and couldn't understand this.
( page 37 , 25/01/15)

susan

15th May 2015, 04:06 PM

Not taking notice of a particular dream has cost me £ 100.00 fine.
Few weeks ago one of many short dreams early one morning had me sitting on the shore looking out to sea. Someone was with me .
( It's one of those short dreams where someone is there interacting with you but does not display any features to note, meaning I have not used any stored memory of someone I know in physical who can be used to represent something.)
Suddenly behind us both some racehorses come galloping along the sand. As I turn I notice that one rider on the back of the horse has a helmet on like the type cyclists wear for racing. This person is going at such a speed and positioned realy low down as they do.
As I notice this I comment to my friend that he's going realy fast.
My friend replies, " yes some people take this very serious".

That's all there was to the dream but remember thinking it may have just been my thoughts dreampt out to do with my commitment to energy raising.
The other day the letter came.
Caught speeding, 40 miles in a 30 mile zone. Fined £100.00 with 3 points on license. First time ever!
Checked date of speeding..........2 days after dream.
( reason I know is I logged it in working dairy just as interesting)
Will take more notice of dreams involving a friend who does not represent anyone I know in physical.

susan

17th May 2015, 05:36 PM

yesterday morning woke up listening to a voice sounding like Frank Sinatra singing " I love you more each day with the sadness and excitement. " (" ups and downs " I think would have sounded better placed in the song but this is what I heard.)
This almost put me on my guard to look out for anything that may cause me to get either excited or sad.
i don't want to write the details but just to note how important and much needed these words were by the end of the day .
This is almost as if this is my husband re-assuring me and thanking from the spirit world as we sleep before the event.

I remember posting somewhere once before viewing Clairvoyantly in black and white of watching what was like a movie of a man and woman playing with a young child in bed and hearing at the same time a song " you make me feel so good" .
I recognised the man as my husband when he was younger and me younger playing with our son ( 35 yrs now) who was a toddler.
Recorded somewhere here.
Is this my higher self working with me sending me this?
Is this my husband in his dreaming state sending me the song. ( don't think so. Frank Sinatra isn't his thing)
Is this my husband's higher self/ more evolved part, watching over us and helping and communicating?
Don't know but this isn't the first time I've felt confused over this .

susan

22nd May 2015, 08:19 AM

Just missed focusing on some kind of air show about to take place this morning I think.
People were all on top of a hill sitting down .(Two people had the same coat on . I think they were coral/ pinky). In the dream I'm leaving work and walking towards them to join them. So this could have just been my own dreaming mind but I'm becoming lucid at this point because as I approach them I'm wondering if they are the same person.
This is the lovely bit.
As I look into the sky ahead, high up is this giant figure of a woman suspended in air but she is facing downwards as if lying on her stomach. Others are in the air but not quite as large. Her colours emanating from her were beautiful. I could see the colours like waves of energy pulsing out from all over her. I cannt think of any other way to describe her. A lot of green/ turquoise/deep red.
Just as I focus on her amazing colours it fades as I wake up fully. Tried to focus on brow, it was white and speckly flickering. At one stage I thought the flickering was stabilising but it just faded.

(The spirit world seem fond of air shows. They've been seen a few times and others write of witnessing air shows.)
Edit.
Just wondering if this could be linked to the mental plane. Could the very large lady floating flat facing the ground be symbolising a more advanced spirit watching over others?

susan

22nd May 2015, 10:08 PM

I need to add a reminder for myself at this point of the journal.
As clairaudience seems to be slowly progressing its natural to be wondering who is talking to me, advising me. I've written recently of sometimes funny, sometimes loving, sometimes the words are chosen carefully . Sometimes the words spoken were of quite an old fashioned language, words also I didn't know the meaning to, the time I picked up KINSHI. Japanese for to forbid, not allow. ( was deciding to do this concerning the wine whilst on holiday and drank a lot.)
The other day I picked up about leaving London during the plague.
So this is a reminder for me .

It's not always a higher self or teacher or guide.........

Robert Munroe describes in Ultimate Journey where he is communicating with and finding out about his other lives that have lead up to his then current life as Bob.
He describes his realisation as ' every beam of light was one of me, one of my I There personalities complete with a different life experience. ' He talks of communicating with them. They had their own personalities that spoke to him at that time and discovering the times they had shone through him to help in tasks required if they had the skills to help him.
So our past personalities aid us through our life, I suppose talking to us as well , in our sleep, thoughts in our waking life.
Just a reminder.

I've come back to add a thought.
Past personalities all having their own personalities separate from himself. But his higher self is made up I thought of all of these last lives.
So his higher self IS all these separate personalities.
Or is his higher self made up of his separate personality Bob plus the next life and the next?

susan

26th May 2015, 08:33 PM

Thunder Birds are Back.
This morning just in that liminal stage when I saw the cockpit of a large white plane in the sky. I was viewing as if flying next to it. Something dark brown started to cover the cockpit from the outside. It slowly started to form until it had completely covered the top of the cockpit. As I'm slowly gaining lucidity a thought goes by me that it's a blanket, but then it slowly lifts off and seems to have strings attached. Then I think / hear the signature tune for Thunderbirds and picked up the phrase. " thunder birds are go".
As it rises it takes the form of a parachute and flies above the plain pulling a smaller plane that had been sitting on top of the big one. So this smaller pane is now in flight.
Awake now. This all happened within about 7-8 seconds. I could have laughed out loud. It was the tune that did it for me but I cannt get it out of my mind . Been to work today and every few seconds I'm thinking of this so have to record it. There was no recalled dream from this.
However an hour previously I'd woken from a good nights sleep with a few different dreams all in the one sleep.

( just lost everything else I wrote . Will fill in later)

I just need to finish this with what may have instigated this.
I've written recently that I miss consciously induced OBEs. Feel I'm being encouraged to silence mind, listen and look into brow but I miss the excitement of leaving.
Other day thinking about all of this I sent out a request for guidance. If I am developing clairaudience as well as clairyoyance how can I put this to good use to benefit others without it becoming an ego trip.
I deal every day with elderly people. Many have lost their partners. Many are fighting ill health and age and know they will be leaving here shortly. How wonderful if I could develop this ability during my working days and comfort some of these people with some words of reassurance. But I don't know . I read that we should look to use this ability to put it to good use. I just don't know.
That night I had a very strange dream that had me take notice of it.

I was asked by someone that was following me and watching me if I was .........'s sister. ( a male name) I said No sorry. He said, " but you are very spiritual aren't you?, please come to a prophetic meeting we are having" and he walks away. He got my attention because he started off very handsome and then changed to a funny character. ( this kind of change of character has happened before and got my attention)
Time will tell .dont want to raise my hopes by expecting something or I'll just be dissapointed.
Will post dreams that I had prior to the plane at a later date.

susan

30th May 2015, 05:19 PM

Wonderful experience this morning.
Had not managed any energy work for 2 days as I felt exhausted ( which I think has something to do with not eating lunch at a reasonable time and carrying / lifting heavy work bag in and out of the car. I know energy work can cause fatigue but sometimes I just want to finish ASAP to get back home so I think my non eating was the cause)
Slept well
9.15 am
Still in bed deciding to try little energy work once again. Feet circling , little of chakras but not realy putting much effort into it.
As I've noted before I feel I don't want to loosen the body and raise up but feel I need to be concentrating more on brow and crown .
( with caution of course).Fell into a very light sleep but became lucid and was aware of a woman with strong lipstick on ( I like my lipstick, always wear it but certainly not as much as she had on) She is opening a door to let a young girl go through in front of her. There was someone else there as well. She says something about talking but I'm awake now and I've missed it. I was annoyed with myself for missing what she had said because I thought it was important for me . Layed still hoping something would happen.

Very soon the noise in my head started up. No vibrations, no clocks ticking or hissing in the head, this was more pre- projection noise.
Next thing I'm raising up slowly. Something comes towards me moving sideways and for a second I had a feeling this was something to frighten me so as it got closer I just said " love you ,now go away ". ( it was the first thing I could think of.) it passed . No vision at this stage but I could feel myself travelling. I knew I'd projected my consciousness . Had no sense of body at all this time . No sight but sensed going down and down realy fast. For a second it reminded me of the time I plummeted underground.now I'm travelling sideways and vision sets in. This was worth the trip.

Travelling sideways it gets lighter and lighter and spaced out are a lot of trees just floating there in a white sky, but there was no brown trunk or green leaves, just white, beautiful . Each branch had pinky/ white blossom? cotton? At the ends.
The thing is there were bubbles in front of me as if this was under water. I was moving sideways weaving between them when everything cleared and I'm now looking at a field full of hundreds of white trees lined up in rows as if planted in the sky once again at the end of each branch a fluffy pinky/ white piece of cotton. ( if you could visualise drawing a tree and covering the whole top of the tree with as many round pieces of cotton wool you could fit on.) And still this was viewing as if under water with very fine bubbles in front if me. Beautiful.
Ended abruptly.

Thoughts.
I projected the way I wanted to.
I've had the 2 babies in the tank before where Richard suggested water signifying the Astral.
I don't know if this was just a projection to experience with no other meaning, but these experiences are few and far between so I feel I should be taking more from this . The field of trees?
If any one has any thoughts here please feel free to comment .Need a bit of help on this one.

Edit.
Just come back with a thought, Tree of Life?
I have to think more on this . I had been wondering about developing more for the benefit of my elderly clients.
A dream invited me to a prophetic meeting.
Thunderbirds are go. They go on rescue missions.
The blossom on the tree results in fruit. There was a lot if it. Fruit is a reward.
Maybe this is just acknowledging " YES DO IT"
Edit.
I'm back. I think the thunderbirds scene was a hint at my forth coming projection. I often have a hint at an event but not always.

susan

31st May 2015, 09:42 PM

I want to practice and develop the Clair's more utilising my day times instead of just energy work and attempted meditation in evening.
Handy for me to monitor any progress.

Day 1)
Able to see auras of different fruit.
Orange
Fig
Peach
Lemon

My Aura. ( only seeing etheric aura )
Head.........could only see 1 colour just now. Pale blue, extending upwards sometimes about 12-18 inches. Notice that most of the time it's the right side I'm seeing most of but the left does appear.
Fingers...., pale blue again, the tips are extending about 2 inches, can see all around individual fingers and whole hand.
Hope to see more colours as time goes on but just to note.
Was shellacking finger nails this pm. 2 fingers only in dryer. Mobile phone in other hand to ear. Had just heard some bad news that was unexpected. Sudden bang and my dryer blew up followed by burning smell . Broken! Had to de- shellack nails. Do I realy want to increase all this energy in body? I'm sure I had something to do with this. Too much of a co- incidence.

susan

6th June 2015, 07:00 PM

Well this could be just a co-incidence/ one off, but I've just spent 30 mins NEWS , 30 mins meditation, little aura practice and just decided to get I pad out and asked for guidance here. Should I be concentrating on anything else as well.
Closed eyes and this is what came.

Bible. Jkgtr.
Bible had a full stop after it then a space. Think the rest is just rubbish.

susan

7th June 2015, 10:03 AM

This morning dozing lightly in that liminal stage when woke to singing from a male voice choir singing very gently, quietly and slowly. Then two knocks as if a knock on the door. Awake.( was so calming and peaceful to listen to)

susan

11th June 2015, 04:02 PM

2.38 am woke up to hearing....." Then you were a government minister in G?J? but you failed to .."
Lost the rest as I was wide awake now. This was a male voice, quite matter of fact way of speaking.No dream recalled from this.
Extreme tiredness from work so no meditation or energy work done. Just went to bed to have much needed rest.
So we are given information about ourselves during sleep, stored in the subconscious I suppose to be remembered when we leave our physical body.
Would love to know once again what was said in what I interpreted as a space station in that white room where I was taken during an OBE then felt I was waiting for someone to come to talk with me. It just stopped suddenly.( not to my benefit to know any more whilst still in physical maybe.)

susan

20th June 2015, 12:37 PM

Flying dreams this morning but a bit of difficulty recalling. I think these were two separate dreams. Key points I remember.

Flying into a class room. I'm late. They've changed the room.This isn't my class . I have to be re directed to the class room. I've lost my handbag.Ive arrived. I'm not prepared. I haven't brought any paper and pen.

2nd dream.
I'm flying high in the sky. I'm so high up and there's a lot of smog down below causing traffic chaos. I'm flying high in circles away from it all till I see the entrance to the class room. I zoom down through the entrance, along a corridor into the classroom which is not like my old classroom. This has chairs with tables in front of them forming a semi circle and the guest speaker will sit in front.
I go to sit on a chair but someone has put their handbag on it. I go to sit at the end where there is a chair but a man is standing in front of me. The guest speaker arrives feeling very humble wondering why she is here in front of us. She finds faults with herself but I look at her thinking how lovely she is . We all clap. The man in front of me is the famous footballer .He is the father of the woman.
I wake up.

Points.

I think I've missed a lot out here but feel sure the two dreams were a continuation.
It isn't often I have dreams where I'm flying.
Class room involved.
The famous footballer and his parents were brought up in the town I live in.
There is so much here that is connected to my daytime thoughts.
1) have just attended a speed awareness class because of my speeding. We saw a horrific pile up of vehicles on a motor way due to heavy fog.
2) I feel a little lost and a failure that I cannt just project at will when I want and have to wait for the time spirit seem to want to show me something. Frustrated.
3) I had been recalling prior to the dream the time I suddenly found myself inside a book in the picture and I was kicking a football high into the sky. ( at the time I felt strongly that this was my goal, to be more proficient at getting out, whichever way)
4) I miss my wine but feel for the sacrifices I'm making I'm not sure it's worth it.
5) I felt a failure last night simply because I wanted some wine. Poured some out for my visiting son. Had my ginger beer.
6) just wondering just now if it's realy worth the sacrifices.

Aura practices coming on well, but these exercises are all seeing the matching colour to circles of colour or coloured petals. I enjoy seeing three aura colours and stretching them to the left with the eyes till they merge.
When I attended development classes a couple of years ago the first time we practiced seeing someone's aura I saw bright yellow around someone's head. I got so excited. But nothing like that just now. I can only assume this was something to do with all the energy in the room.
Downloaded an e book by Sanaya Roman on channeling. Good book.
Not sure if I'm on a bit if a downer at moment . Maybe I'm trying to learn too much, too soon, too fast.

susan

21st June 2015, 02:34 PM

My last post had me at a bit of a doubting period again . Wondering if giving up my pleasures was realy worth it.
Keyed in some key words hoping to find confirmation that it was.
This brought me to a discussion 5 years ago on this site on the topic of Kundalini and spiritualy evolving, written by
AUNT CLAIR.
She writes,
Once a human enters a metaphysical path to have a " whatever happens, happens, come ci come ca" does not make sense. It is like giving up or " sour grapes".
It is the purpose of life and why would one that is aware ignore this?
To grow physically requires no thought or effort but to grow magically, metaphysically and spiritually requires much effort.
It will not occur without discipline and dedication.
........do not accept complacency and give up.....
.....none of us are nothing. None of us are without a legacy of spirituality. If you reach into your soul and connect with your Monad, you will find that you had unlimited potential.
The spiritual evolution that has been affected by Kundalini has caused humanity to slowly raise its consciousness to fly universally, to hear and see the eternal teaching spirits.to think globally and to feel with greater compassion.
One can contemplate, but without Clairvoyance, Clairaudience and Projection, the magician can not access the divine curriculum and attain Union
Aunt Claire writes some seriously good stuff and this has been just what I needed to read.
She has given me motivation back.
Outcomes the lemon and ginger herbal tea......fruits....green veg....aura practice this afternoon.
No doubt I will have my relapses again. It's going to happen but keeping this writing above to look at may help me.

Dream last night.
First dream had me going into a doctors surgery to collect two elderly people. The doctors were going home but they had ignored the two elderly patients. I was angry they had been ignored but the doctors said they could go. Their blood results were okay. I insisted they talked with them to give them the results. We are all walking into a treatment room where one of the rooms is a toilet. One of the male doctors decides to pop in to use the toilet and doesn't properly close the door. We ignore this. Female doctor has a big white tablet she gives the lady and says your blood is fine but we should explain why you have to take this .
End of dream. Back to sleep .
2nd dream
I'm in a building I don't recognise. There is a fire ( don't see it just know there is one) Others go immediately to attend to the elderly to help them. They expect me to come with them but I say NO.
Instead I go to the fire alarm on the wall and raise the alarm. I thought this was the proper thing to do.
End of dream.

Thoughts.
Well the first one easily fits in with how I was feeling about everything. ( bought some extra B supplements yesterday for my tiredness.) thought it could be lack of iron due to not eating meat but pharmacist suggested could be thyroid, not necesseraly iron as I take a daily multi everything supplement . Health food shop suggested this.

The second was about following the correct rules/ procedure.

A few months ago working in a care home I was wheeling someone back to the day room when the fire alarm went off. All the staff dissapeared which meant I was left with all the residents in the room. There was a hot kettle of tea on the trolley.
Buttered scones waiting to be given out. Two elderly ladies starting to get angry with each other. One lady near the hot kettle helping herself to the scones and putting one down her front for later. Ladies getting up from their chairs looking very unstable on their feet. Good Samaritan Susan stayed and helped until the staff came back. This had been a false alarm. I was informed I should have vacated the building when the alarm went off as this was the required procedure. When I suggested the possible implications of leaving these residents alone I was told that unfortunately we would have to take the risk and she explained the reasons why.
These were the rules.

So to sum up I suppose I don't always understand why but if I want to develop in the way I wish then sacrifices have to be
made as it doesn't come easy.
Of course the choice is mine but I Shall drink wine on holiday in August. KINSHI will not apply for those 10 days only.

susan

23rd June 2015, 03:55 PM

Only recording this for future reference.
Feeling very spaced out today. Free day from 12. Could have done so much in the garden but all I can do is look at it. No motivation. Walking up high street, passing people just looking at them so engrossed in their daily life. I should be full of life and painting the new fence, painting the kitchen chairs, propping up the strawberries with straw, re- potting the broad beans. Every thing I love doing that gives me so much pleasure and keeps me grounded.Walked into a pet shop and watched birds interacting with each other in their large cages, singing. For a second I thought it would be nice to have one. Wrong. Why on earth would I want to take a bird away from its friends and put it in a smaller cage to be alone and still where it could only fly for a second?
This am soon as I woke up I thought " come with love in your heart", and " bye from the non seeing world".

susan

25th June 2015, 05:03 PM

Back to normal. Hay fever may have contributed to the lethargy and being spaced out.
Projection again this morning approx 4.35am . I got my wish even though it's been a long time coming.
I've been wanting to get back out there amongst the stars.
4.10 visit bathroom. Decided to focus on brow exercises so visualising close ups of flowers from memory from vase in kitchen. Then listened to noises in head. Shortly I could feel myself being drawn upwards. This was straight up but so slowly, but now I could hear my husband's voice as if talking mumbling in his sleep. But he never talks in his sleep. Finally going faster upwards but no plane engine noise this time.
No sight for a few seconds then it set in. Wonderful. Black space I'm speeding so fast .The black space was filled with tiny looking silver stars/ planets/orbs? Thing is I got the feeling they were all travelling towards me as if they were not stationary. We were both going in the opposite direction.
Ended abruptly.
Such a contrast from pure white to jet black and silver but both beautiful.

susan

27th June 2015, 09:04 AM

Another brow centre strobe last night. ( I'm assuming it was)
10.30 pm . Read a little of Seths work, settled, just mind wandering to pictures on Facebook I'd been looking at of a friend who is leaving Germany ( army vacating)when a sudden brilliant white flash behind eyelids hearing at the same time a sound like a metal clunk. Just like a blinding flash of a camera.
Pleased with this because I knew what it was but I hadn't had time to do any energy work.

susan

1st July 2015, 09:11 PM

This was posted 30th January 15

Don't understand why I dreamt this but I woke up instantly from it with a lump in my throat.

Dream,
I'm lying on a wide road sunbathing when a double decker bus comes nearer. A child runs out into its way and I quickly warn the driver about the child. He misses it and gives me a wave in thanks then does a 360 degree circle with the bus very fast.
I notice that the bus is so packed full with people that they are almost hanging out of the window with suitcases going on holiday and very happy. Then in horror he's gone too fast and the bus topples onto its side. This is horrible, worst thing to happen.
People running over to help so immediately I'm in emergency mode. I run up steps to an office to ring 999.A man is on the phone just smiling at me . He couldn't have been calling for an ambulance because he wouldn't be smiling. I keep repeating 999 ambulance. As I'm using the phone I'm thinking of the blankets in the bedroom next door. I'll take them outside . They'll need them.
Woke up with a lump in my throat.
Dissapointed because I was in the middle of about to help people/ relieved because it had only been a dream.

I could be way off track here but I picked out some key points here.

Lying sunbathing.
Holidaymakers with suitcases going on holiday happy.
A tragedy happens involving the people.
Emergency services needed.
Someone just smiling, not caring, just standing.

A month ago I told my husband that I picked up one morning that there would be some sad news about our holiday. Forgot about this , he just reminded me.

We are booked up to visit Tunisia 2nd August- 12August
It may not have been meaning this but there is food for thought.
Anyway I have no intention of cancelling.
All my husband's family will be there and I will not allow these poor misguided terrorists dictate where I go on holiday.
Get the sun cream out!

Update.
Looks like I have no option now. Holiday cancelled by tour operator.

susan

16th July 2015, 08:32 AM

I've missed out on some wonderful words all because I hadn't made sure I had pen and paper to hand.
This morning in that semi stage when a thought came to mind. Just about 5 words.This was followed by some more, then some more. I now had 3 short sentences I was recalling and thinking how wonderful these words were and infact would make up my own signature at the bottom of a post.went to bathroom then study. No pen. Decided I'd remember them in the morning. Wrong.
All I remember is the meaning I took from these words and it was something like this..

"The destination is not the importance, but the journey.
What we do here on earth leads us to what I want to see, the destination."

These words are clumsy but try to give my understanding.
When I think of some wonderful experiences I've had many have followed something good I've done . Whether it was to give good advice, want to do good for people, have a wonderful day giving out lots of comfort.
Even bitten my tongue when verbally attacked.

So the more effort (or maybe there should eventually be no effort) we put into our daily lives to help others as well as looking after ourselves will reap rewards.
But we know this already so maybe I just needed a reminder .

IA56

16th July 2015, 08:51 AM

I've missed out on some wonderful words all because I hadn't made sure I had pen and paper to hand.
This morning in that semi stage when a thought came to mind. Just about 5 words.This was followed my some more, then some more. I now had 3 short sentences I was recalling and thinking how wonderful these words were and infact would make up my own signature at the bottom of a post.went to bathroom then study. No pen. Decided I'd remember them in the morning. Wrong.
All I remember is the meaning I took from these words and it was something like this..

"The destination is not the importance, but the journey.
What we do here on earth leads us to what I want to see, the destination."

These words are clumsy but try to give my understanding.
When I think of some wonderful experiences I've had many have followed something good I've done . Whether it was to give good advice, want to do good for people, have a wonderful day giving out lots of comfort.
Even bitten my tongue when verbally attacked.

So the more effort (or maybe there should eventually be no effort) we put into our daily lives to help others as well as looking after ourselves will reap rewards.
But we know this already so maybe I just needed a reminder .

Thank you Susan, we need a reminder now and then for sure :-)

Love
ia

susan

21st July 2015, 08:31 AM

Fatigue slowly lifting. For days now when trying meditation Im just falling asleep. Trying to raise energy doing NEWS and within less than a minute my mind goes blank and I forget which chakra I was doing so decide to go to sleep. Saturday afternoon just lay down and slept.
I'm always finding another reason for this, work, hay fever, heavy lifting, gardening.
I think it's time I just accepted that some of this may be due to energetic change within the body.
I read this is expected.
Last night before sleeping I wondered if I was about ready to get back to news and meditation without falling asleep and eventually try for an experience of any sort.
Woke up to a lovely lullaby being gently spoken.
Something like " fly high my baby, like a bird in the sky".
5am.
Back to sleep.
Woke up to a voice like mine as if announcing with urgency.

" Susan, I've heard there's going to be a death this month. Could it be a baby?"

This unsettled me because my son's girlfriend is expecting a baby next month but the medics think it will come anytime now. There were health issues at the beginning of the pregnancy.
This was heard so clearly.
More time I've had to think of this I realise that everything I've picked up has been a riddle that needs working out. This makes it more genuine . Effort has to be put in to working out the meaning.
My speeding fine, why children were inside a hearse, thunderbirds are go.
They come in hints. This was a statement that upset me but I don't think it was meant the way I took it.

susan

23rd July 2015, 07:23 PM

The Death of a baby had been playing on my mind.
Back to 45 mins energy raising and only got 20 mins meditation done when I got all excited. I remembered another time when I got the death of a baby but that time it was visual and stored in an old black diary when I was posting on this site but was not posting on this journals section.
Looked it up and this is what was written .

JUNE 2012
Baby.....tiny.... newborn.....it was poorly....may die.

NEXT NIGHT
I see a man standing in a river holding a baby in his arms. I see him from his trousers downwards.
He slowly lowers the baby into the river saying " It's gone"
I could still see it breathing. Why did he put it in the river when it was still alive but he says it's dead?
I didn't understand and in that same night the vision was repeated just before wakening up and I see him put two fingers into the baby' mouth.
Although on paper this reads as a bad thing I felt compassion from this and that the man was gentle in his holding and lowering of the baby.
My text book suggests ...Birth and Death, a good sign of awakening to a new level of awareness.

Well I'll just have to wait and see but I don't feel disturbed now.
Interestingly I've started reading from a site by Dr. Suzanne Lie @ Multidimensions.com
A lot to read but describes her understanding of the

Unconscious
The Conscious
The Superconscious.
Through her descriptive journey of different stages of realisation it then leads to talk of the Pleiadian Arcturian.
This is a route I have not followed but can not dismiss the encounter I had on what I perceived as a space station and the people who met me in white. Deciding at the time that my senses were responsible for interpreting the energies that were infront of me , why then didn't I make them look like spacemen with space helmets on as I would expect in physical. I remember so clearly what they looked like and he had such a warm gentle voice.
The fact is this was not a dream .This was a consciously induced Out of Body Experience where someone was behind me, had taken me there to meet these people. They were waiting to greet me.
So if my senses interpreted the energy infront of me then they must have been energies different to the usual energy that my senses would interpret into a human or an animal.

I have to be very careful here not to have come so far only to go down a complete wrong road and completely off track.
I shall read this with interest but try to leave all doorways open.
Just see what comes.

susan

25th July 2015, 09:44 PM

Woke up to " take your skates to your wings".
Recalled dream but have forgotten now . It was a busy dream but I remember right at the end I'm ice skating avoiding obstacles when someone comes behind me and is skating behind me . As I weave around objects they are in complete harmony/ synchronicity with my movements.

Another dream was me being shown something.I couldn't make out any features to the person with me but I'm being shown a beach full of people sitting on the sand.
One half was completely in shade, dull. The other half was lovely and sunny. I comment on it being a shame for those people in the shade. Then as if the sky had been a drawing used as a prop in a theatre it slides across to reveal a full sunny sky beaming sunshine on all the people.

I think this is to do with the worlds population. Those who are still in the dark and the hope that one day everyone will be enlightened.

susan

9th August 2015, 04:35 PM

Although I seem to be going through a rest period,( possibly due to events in physical life being a bit demanding, but pleasantly demanding) last nights dream was one I think worth noting.

None of the characters in the dream had features to recognise, neither family members nor TV characters to link up with.I usually find these are meaningful.
Dream.

I'm going up some steep stairs with someone and it's quite dark. As I get to the top I can hear people snoring. I pass a comment that people here are asleep. There is a receptionist at the top who directs us
where to go.
I'm sitting with my companion in almost darkness at the side of a large corridor. Eventually a lady passes.She is young, modern dress and is walking towards us and then past us as if she hadn't seen us but she was almost like sleep walking, almost dazed like.
A young man is walking behind her just following her. I think he was trying to get her attention but remained behind her. They both walked past out of view.
Next thing someone we knew came towards us and I got all excited telling them " we saw her, we saw her. She was a ghost".
The other person asks if we communicated with her and we said "no we didn't".

That's all I remember of the dream . I had stayed up till about 11.30 watching a film ( not of my choice)
It had killing in it but nothing to do with spiritual matters.
I would love to think this was some kind of training and not just a wishful thinking kind of dream,
But time may tell... Or not.

susan

12th August 2015, 01:34 PM

Wasn't going to bother with this dream I had last night as I have so much happening in physical but I think I need to.

Dream

I'm looking after a small lion cub in my back garden making sure it doesn't get out when I notice it has found a hole in the netting keeping it in and it rushes out.
I run out to catch it before it can do anyone any harm because they will see it as a lovely cute cub but I know it is very powerful. Next thing I'm running towards these people who have found it and it has turned into a full grown powerful lion.
End of dream.

So this morning over coffee reading Siriustar's post I thought to post and ask what type of powerful meditation it was he used but first I didn't know what the galactic alignment was really about so ,not wanting to show my ignorance too much I googled it.

888 Galactic Alignment ' Lion's Gate'.

Between 26/7/15 - 12/8/15 whilst the sun is in the astrological sign of Leo ( the Lion)
Portals open allowing Galactic waves to bathe the Earth with light keys and codes and assist in the evolution of the planet's next cycle.

I'm sure this dream was concerning this event as I can think of nothing in physical that it connects to .
Also was the short dream posted above 25/7/15 where the beach is full of people and the sun is only shining on half the people on the beach and then the sky moves over to allow full sunshine on everyone, also connected?
These two dreams also occurred 25/7/15 and 12/8/15.( or early hours of next day, not important.not going to quibble over few hours)

So pleased Siriustar posted what he did or this lion dream would have been left out.

susan

16th August 2015, 08:01 PM

Whilst reading Robert' ' Treatise on Astral Projection'( revised edition) he describes each plane as he experienced although pointing out that there are no signposts saying where you are.
This got me recognising some experiences I've had and intended to go through journal and pick out one or two to see the similarities.
However that will be done later.
I found myself looking at different websites explaining their understanding of the planes of existence and not always agreeing.
This got me thinking of the bigger picture and just how much we can have different belief systems.
And ' Where does God fit in here' what is it? Does IT exist.
Some bible bashers may feel pity on those who don't believe in a God. Problem is, until I know what 'IT ' is I don't know if I believe in 'IT'.

I stumbled upon ( with my fingers)
MICHAEL's TEACHINGS, at Michaeleducationalfoundation.com
This is reported to be an entity claiming to be channeled from the Casual Plane. What I like about what I read was that the teachings are not meant to be a belief system but a scource of information that encourages students to continue to question all beliefs.
I want to post here what I read as this explained so much to me and answers my question. Who or what is God.

TAO
The Infinate Soul. The total consciousness of the universe. The whole of which we are part of.
Western philosophy known as GOD.

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Symbol of Tao.

Ego. I'm always hearing that we need to loose our Ego. What do we need to loose?
Our belief in our separateness from the universe and Tao ,(God)

So how are we connected? Or how were we connected?

Tao, God is the total consciousness of the universe, learning its own lessons and dealing with its own game plans. The motivational force is that the universe wishes to know itself.
The universe creates games through which it can have new experiences.
One game is ' the experience of separateness.'
The physical plane is used for this by experiencing a separate body, identity and consciousness as separateness.
All activity within the universe is governed by individual and collective choice.
Individual parts,( called fragments, or Essences,in other words US )of universal consciousness agrees to enter physical plane. Approx 5%, of which we are part of. This fragment ( US )experience ourselves as separate and limited, moving through 7 planes of existance eventually returning to be united again with total consciousness of Tao ( God) . This being the Cycle of Experience.

Fragments,us, deciding to come here 1st go to Bardo.
Here entities are formed, groups of around 1,000 fragments,us,all agreeing to share their consciousness and experiences throughout an entire cycle through 7 planes of existance.
7 entities form a Cadre.
12 Cadres make an energy ring.
Most of our relationships will be from our Cadre, members from our energy ring.

So, if I am understanding this correctly, I am a group of approx 1,000 others ( all originating from God)
My group I am in and 6 other groups form a Cadre. ( that makes around 7,000 of us)
An energy ring is made up of 12 Cadres.( 12x 7,000 of us)

A lot here to take in . Sounds incredible but then life is incredible.

At this stage we choose what characteristics we will have.an essence twin may be chosen.
The entire entity (1,000 of us) shares a telepathic higher consciousness. After being fragmented and having completed the experience of the physical plane they later reunite on the astral plane.
The entity fragments do not all come to the physical plane at the same time.some will forge ahead and others will follow later.

Commitment to the physical plane involves working through an entire cycle of experience
Re) moving through different levels of soul perception involving series of lives on physical plane, then moving through levels of 6 planes ( cycles) as you advance towards Tao/ God once again.
The decision to retain full consciousness whilst returning to physical is made by Tao/ God.
When this happens this is called The Manifestation of the Infinate Soul.)
In this case the Infinate soul is not on earth to learn but to teach and assist souls and the entire planet. The Infinate Soul can manifest from any 7 planes of existance in whatever form.
Jesus, Buddha, Mithra and Mohammed are examples.

The normal ( cannt believe I'm writing the word NORMAL. ) process taken by us Fragments is to agree to forget connectedness to the Tao/ God, whilst on physical plane .
The benefit of forgetting allows us to take on new experiences for growth, separateness encouraging growth, searching for answers encouraging experiments with new methods.
As the fragment (us) ages and accumulates experiences on physical plane the forgetfulness wears thin longing to reunite with the consciousness of its entity and the Tao/ God.
This drive becomes strong in older souls as they complete their experiences here.
Eventually the fragment ' cycles off' the planet by not taking on any more bodies here and moves on to lessons on the astral plane.

As you pass through the planes experiencing each one completing the circle you recombine with the rest of your entity, then with other entities becoming more and more merged with total consciousness of the universe , slowly releasing the separateness as you learn and accept they are part of yourself.
In the higher planes( mental, messianic,buddhaic) you are in contact with Tao /God.
1st intellectually, then emotionally, energetically becoming part of the whole , Tao/ God.

Wow, this is so much to take in and digest and play around with and maybe question but for me this is the first time I've had a possible explanation of the complete cycle.
I'm really drawn to this explanation. I've thought so much of self, past selves, higher self but that is as far as I got.
We are told we are spirit/ soul/essence/ being part of something and at the same time being immortal.
Need time to digest but am close to saying I understand what God is therefore close to saying ' yes ' I do believe in God. ( it just might not be the same as someone else's God)

susan

17th August 2015, 07:48 AM

Last two hours of short sleep was a lovely dream. Really happy.
Dogs featured a lot. First a small dog is running backwards and forwards excited and pulls at my stockings playing with me.
Then I'm sitting in front of a coal fire. It's not lit then next time I look it's lit. Some massive dogs have now appeared right next to me. They are so powerful and so close that I have a quick thought that I hope they don't get aggressive. But they are friendly.
As I wake up I thought,
' So now Science....Mind....intuition'
Awake now this had me thinking of the atoms, molecules, ether and bits I had read about yesterday but there was a lot to digest and I found it a bit complicated.I want to try to understand this and will try.
However I wonder if the thought I had picked up could have been,
' So now Silence....Mind...intuition'
After all this is what I'm having trouble doing.
Silencing the mind . I suppose this is the only way I will develop intuition.

susan

18th August 2015, 08:12 AM

25/7/15 I wrote that whilst slowly leaving body I heard my husband mumbling as if talking in his sleep.
The words he said were personal but directed at me. As if he was talking directly to me. A deep concern he had.
The other morning upon wakening I had a thought but once again this was as if this was him talking to me.
The subject was the same as if he was sharing a deep concern he didn't want to talk about.
No dreams recalled involved anything related.
Yesterday whilst awake in physical he blurted out his concern saying the exact same words he had said the first time.We weren't even talking of this.
What it boils down to is I'm thinking or receiving his thoughts but as if he was talking to me , but one time the words were not spoken with the vocabulary he would use. Eg ( ' you are living my worst nightmare')
This is where I have wondered before if this is a more evolved part of him putting the thought in my mind.
Is this how intuition works?

Couldn't be bothered to do anything early am with time to go before getting up but recalled dream where I'm on a bus and a lot of people are getting off .( no faces to recognise) These were friends I was saying goodbye to.They were leaving me. ( I'm sure I've had this before)

Woke up to a part of the Beatles song.... " get back to where you once belonged".

susan

23rd August 2015, 05:06 PM

This morning as I woke up I heard a single musical note. Nearest musical instrument I can liken it to would be a flute.Recalled dream and nothing related to music.
This got me recalling times I've woken up to music.

I've had known songs sung by the artist and in those cases the words were very meaningful.

I've had a male voice choir sing very slowly and gently.

"""""" gentle tinkle of bells

""""""Buzzing of bees ( recalled this time a short scene where bees were involved.wondered if this was just internal noise picked up and then creating a scene of bees)

""""""" a dream where the colours were exquisite and sounds indescribable.

"""""""" today, the flute.

This had me googling most of today wanting to read about sound in the form of music.
Basically I read that sound is a vibration. The vibration of a plane have sounds specific to their own frequency.
In this case I would imagine the courser the plane the heavier and corser the sound.
Does this mean that when spirit is in a particular plane the sound is carried and heard constantly?
Don't know but found a few descriptions of planes and their sounds associated with them.

As Robert wrote there is no signpost telling you where you are in non physical.
From beautiful energy colours to magnificent sparkling silver, easily distinguishable but the more I read the more I realise that not everyone puts the same name to which plane of existance their consciousness perceived but they can agree upon descriptions.
Sound does seem to be agreed by most .
This is one description of sounds relating to various planes.

Sounds
13. Supreme Sugmad The All Loving Glory HE UUUUUUUU
12. Sugmad Sugmad-Living Reality HU - music of god
11. Sugmad World Sugmad Lok music of universe
10. Anami Lok Anami Lok sound of a whirlpool
9. Agam Lok Agam Lok music of the woodwinds
8. Hukikat Lok Hukikat Lok thousand violins
7. Alaya Lok Alaya Lok deep humming
6. Alakh Lok Alakh Lok heavy wind
5. Soul Sat Nam single note of flute
* Etheric Saguna-Saguna Brahm buzzing of bees
* Causal .i .
4. Mental Brahmanda Brahm running water
* Subconscious . .
3. Causal Maha-Kal-Par-Brahm tinkle of bells
2. Astral Sat Kanwal-Anda roar of surf
* Etheric . .
* High Physical . .
1. Physical Elam thunder sound

From 7 upwards I've also read these described as a continuous HUUU, thousand violins or a million voice choir.
What I've noticed is that I've recorded hearing these sounds here in the journal in ascending order before being aware of the relationship to planes .
Tinkle of bells
Buzzing of bees
Single note of a flute.
So why oh why oh why cannt I remember anything related to these planes.?
This is as if I'm being teased or just barely skimming the outer edge with no recall.

susan

27th August 2015, 08:09 AM

Was looking for something in this journal here yesterday. Didn't find it but found this.

QUOTE=susan;131598]Pregnancy is back . Walking into a church where a woman is sitting with a man behind her . He puts his hand on her pregnant bump and smiles , laughs and starts singing.

This was picked up and posted 11/11/14.
2 weeks later my son broke the news
Baby Alexander was born 11/08/15.
9 months to the date.

For a while now Compassion has been the focus of my attention.Vivid dreams of someone dropping a baby in the river but concern about how that person felt. ( this was not the one where baby was lowered slowly by a man)
Also when I was in a classroom setting and transported to another room and became the little girl. I was told I was there to understand why the little girl was behaving as she was.
I was to become her and did ,therefore could see how she perceived things.
This may sound confusing but is absolutely clear to me.
My challenge in physical life was to mediate between the two parents and not take sides towards my son.
If I had not paid attention to my dreams I would have been bias towards my son.
By analysing vivid dreams this has helped me through the nine months and in turn has helped my son change his extreme horror of parenthood and being trapped , to a very proud father.
There is much that I cannt write here. It just wouldn't be right but we talk of lessons and challenges in life. Well without doubt by seeing this as a challenge and being aware of every word that came out of my mouth, by understanding the mothers feelings as well as my son's all I can say is what a brilliant way to steer me towards the art of compassion.
Ready for the next one.

Just want to add
Will be seeing baby Alexander for the first time this week-end. Like most doting grand parents I will be doing the usual " oh aren't you gorgeous, give me a smile ", and all the rest but there will be another silent question I'll be thinking.
" just who are you? Do you remember anything of where you've come from? Do you know me? Have we met before? " I expect we have. If only babies could talk before it's too late.

susan

28th August 2015, 08:01 PM

Posted the other day

The entire entity (1,000 of us) shares a telepathic higher consciousness. After being fragmented and having completed the experience of the physical plane they later reunite on the astral plane.
The entity fragments do not all come to the physical plane at the same time.some will forge ahead and others will follow later.

Does this explain why I pick up messages from my husband when in that liminal stage or just leaving body as if he is talking to me in his sleep and sometimes it is definately not the vocabulary he would use. .
" I love you more each day with the sadness and excitement". Sung and later that day it had great meaning.

" please open up to me" . When I felt I was being pushed to start talking about my experiences.

" your living my worst nightmare".

I had wondered at the time if this was his higher self communicating with me.
So maybe this is as it says above from " MICHEAL'S TEACHING'S.

Telepathically we share the same higher consciousness .

CFTraveler

29th August 2015, 01:47 AM

Telepathically we share the same higher consciousness . I think so too, in a way at least.

susan

4th September 2015, 07:50 AM

This morning, waking up a few times so much going on.
One scene that flashed up so quickly as a dreamlike image but came and went so quickly.
A dark graveyard with a couple of tombstones then a massive ANKHA black symbol still in the graveyard.

This journey started one morning just wakening up to see a white background with hundreds of small black ANKHAS in front.
I didn't know what they were and had to look them up.
Their back again, and this is the day after picking up the thought that ' Archangels were mistaken for God'.

I'm back, just googled and found a site explaining that Ankha symbols are often found with funerary images. ( just love all this mystery)
My ignorance in subjects can make me so excited.

susan

5th September 2015, 05:28 PM

Found this written by Dr C George Boeree writing on Carl Jung's Theory.
( not sure how much of this was his own thoughts added)

The outer world is called maya, meaning illusion, and is thought of as God's dream or God's dance. That is, God creates it, but it has no reality of its own. Our individual egos they call jivatman, which means individual souls. But they, too, are something of an illusion. We are all actually extensions of the one and only Atman, or God, who allows bits of himself to forget his identity, to become apparently separate and independent, to become us. But we never truly are separate. When we die, we wake up and realize who we were from the beginning: God.

When we dream or meditate, we sink into our personal unconscious, coming closer and closer to our true selves, the collective unconscious. It is in states like this that we are especially open to "communications" from other egos. Synchronicity makes Jung's theory one of the rare ones that is not only compatible with parapsychological phenomena, but actually tries to explain them.

So whether reading Jung's theory or the Michael's Teachings they both agree on a collective consciousness . The point I want to note is that although I was experiencing I didn't fully understand why I was getting what I was getting and needed that extra help from Michaels Teaching for it to make sense.
Someone trying to rush this learning process will go loopy.
When I picked up the Ankha symbol again this made me realise there is so so much to learn from writings to be able to understand the experience. A vivid dream can be worked out. Words spoken are meaningful.
A riddle can be worked out but there are some things We just have to learn.
To experience only isn't enough. I need to learn.
To learn only from books isn't enough. We need to experience ourselves so we can judge what we read whether we are going to believe or dispute.
I want to learn more on symbology. Ancient geometry, after all when I perceived the black and white cubes, hundreds of them before seeing the silver city and Angels I was so engrossed in what I was looking at that I never worked out what the cubes represented. Someone somewhere wrote of entering these beautiful shapes and they spoke to her meaning I think that she instinctly knew their meaning.
I think some reading on the hierarchy above may also have been hinted.
How do I divide time between meditating, energy raising and reading?

This morning in the liminal stage picked up
' in school dropped down dead.' ( school= learning. Dead= afterlife)
Also saw a finger slowly turning a page from the bottom .

susan

24th September 2015, 10:48 AM

Currently on holiday. From notes.Sunday 6 am.

After main sleep , small short dreams.All different in topic. ( none included characters that I recognised.)
After recalling these and working with them I found areas in my daily life I could improve upon.
Thinking to myself that I would try to remember these points ( one being a time when I was agitated with an elderly resident who was becoming very demanding asking constantly in a very loud voice for me to do something when in fact I didn't even work there and it was not my job to do that.)
If this had been in my dream I had to think why? and I realised that my response could have been handled better.
So, deciding I could try to be more helpful and patient at times 2 royal blue birds flashed up. Thinking how lovely these were and certainly never seen any completely covered in this beautiful shade of blue in physical before, then suddenly a wide gold/ white path with a low wall around the edge quickly flashed , and I thought the word 'TRUTH'.
Another one of the dreams.
*** My willingness to embrace all religions.? I think. Not too sure on this .
( young Jewish boy, sitting down . He has his hat on.I'm standing at the side of him . A ceremony is to take place and a parent needed a volunteer. I offered but an adult member would rather have someone within their faith.

Monday 5am.
Dream with Dream characters recognisable from telly when suddenly....

" YOUR BODY IS THAT OF THE LORD'S AND EVERY ONCE IN A WHILE JESUS'S FACE WILL COME DOWN AND SHOW WITHIN YOU."

Wow, this was like an announcement interrupting a dream. There was no familiarity with this announcement. Just like a formal statement being read out. Very clearly perceived.

Have had time to think on this one.

This reminds me of the time I had been working in a care home and came back after a wonderful day interacting with the residents. My day had been filled with so much laughter working with them that that night I had a beautiful dream where we were given cards that turned into gift tags and we were to give them out to people and when I turned them over they had beautiful pastel drawings of a man's face looking as Jesus is depicted in drawings.
At the time this had me think that I was to take my joy and the love I had felt that day working with them and share with others.( instructed to send out the cards)

susan

30th September 2015, 03:25 PM

Still holiday. No meditation nor energy work .
12 months ago I would never have dreamt that I would go on an all inclusive holiday and miss out the alcohol. I came with every intention to drink wine.After all this is a holiday. I usually tolerate any cheap wine hotels give us but after a few sips I feel my senses changing. I'm not so alert and don't like it so stop. Tried piña colada with alcohol and prefer the taste without.
So there we have it 12+ months on and vegetarian with no tolerance to alcohol.

Dreams.
I'm in a swimming pool to a large house I'm looking after for a couple when someone is at the side of me. We both look in the same direction and this was the bit I liked.
I see a group of people fly up into the air and get closer till they seemed to form a shape and dived into the water.
Then this big whale leapt out of the water looking so powerful and I'm saying to the other person,' look, isn't that clever, they've even formed the White of the whale showing on the underside as well as the black colour'.
Then as it was in the air the whale fragmented into all the individual people that had formed the whale and they just flew away in different directions.
Just as this happened the person next to me said ' I'm pleased 'and I see a half empty glass of red wine in her hand and throws it away.
Woke up.
So yes , this was me and how I was pleased with my self about the wine but it was the formation and break up of the whale that has stayed with me and got me thinking more on the merging of energies of the individual fragments (me, us.) that formed the Cadre, that Michael refers to in his teachings.

All remain their own individual being but can group together to form one mighty big group energy.
Just imagine how powerful this could be if ( God, total consciousness, the whole, Tao or whatever people wish to call IT) all came together as one having finished its work , plan ,game )on earth.

susan

3rd October 2015, 08:53 PM

I have to ' FIND YOUR INNER CHILD.'

I picked this up as I woke. I think I can understand why I got this but did a Google search first just to make sure that I was on the right track.

Whilst on holiday I was watching young people having such fun. The pool game was a sheet of rubber floating on top of the water and they took turn running onto it and trying to get to the end before sinking.
I wanted to have a go but was too embarrassed . Everyone else was younger. I imagined doing it and that was as far as I got.
Evenings at the end of a show everyone was encouraged to get up having fun dancing .Iwatched them.

I suppose I've forgotten how to let myself go and how to not care looking silly.

This reminds me of a couple of years ago when I went with some friends to a Buddhist meditation weekend retreat and took a LAUGHING class. We were on our backs with our legs in the air. I was a child again and nearly wetting myself with laughter. It didn't matter what I looked like because we were all doing the same.
I used to see myself as a bit childish. Finding fun in something that others wouldn't. I felt I was being encouraged to act my age . Grow old gracefully.

Found some lovely quotes about finding your inner child.

'After a while the middle aged person who lives in her head begins to talk to her soul, the kid.'
Annie Lamott.

The most sofisticated people I know- inside they are children.
Jim Henson.

So, like a forgotten fire, a childhood can always flare up again with us.
Gaston Bachelard.

Anticipate the day as if it was your Birthday and you are turning six again
Mike Dolan.

In my soul, I am still that child who did not care about anything else but the beautiful colours of the rainbow.
Patina Gosh.

susan

14th October 2015, 04:20 PM

just to note for diary no time for meditation or energy work due to work commitment. Nothing coming through in form of thought or voice but dreams yes.

After going back to sleep one morning I picked up me trying to walk on a very narrow path with a river to the left of me and the road to the right. I lost my balance ending up on the road but quickly got back onto the path when an ambulance went passed, stopped , reversed and opened its doors.
As I'm awake now thinking about this I suddenly see a dart board with a dart thrown into and sticking in.

Well I suppose I got a bit off track this week . I see this as something that can apply to everyone.

.....That the path can seem difficult to stay on at times but there is assistance there waiting to help if we ask.
The dart board, well , there was no bulls eye , no double, no treble, I think this was just about scoring points. ( not one I'm proud of remembering so the less said the better)

susan

17th October 2015, 04:31 PM

Interest in symbols and ancient geometry has led me to a couple of good books.
Symbols Meaning and the Sacred Quest by Andrew Cort, and
The Geometry Code by Bruce Rawles.
This had me remember when I picked up ' The code was necessary for the planet'. This didn't explain anything to me at the time and the more I read the less I know but one of these authors got it right. ( I cannt remember which one ) when he wrote that the meaning of everything is obviously beyond our conscious mind because the true meaning is not split, divided or apart. ( fragmented) ...it waits patiently for our return.
So I suppose only when we are merged again with all to be whole again will we get the full picture.
In that case I'm not going to bother my silly little head trying . Bit like being given a jigsaw with only some of the pieces. Fun trying though just to see if we can link up some pieces.

However I then went onto more of Edward Cayce's work but these books were written by others about his way of thinking ,and what a fascinating man.I understand now his thoughts on his understanding of the collective consciousness. This is the first time I've read of the relationship of Chakras and Kundalini energy and the Book Of Revelation.In other words the Biblical theory on Chakras.
I find this fascinating and the more quotes I read the more of this I want to read. At school I used to recite the Lord's Prayer but with no meaning or feeling. Just said it in assembly because we had to.
From what I've read The Lord's Prayer was given out by Jesus apparently to his Apostles and is thought by some to specifically address each of the seven chakras prompting the optimum movement of Kundalini Energy within the body.( I'm sure someone here will correct me if I've got something wrong, I would not be offended because I find it fastinating.)Leyla also posted similarities to descriptions in the Bible to experiences of Kundalini Energy within the body.
The advice being given is to feel the emotion and meaning of each sentence with the corresponding spiritual centre allowing the energy to rise through the body.

So I Tried It.
But first I had read how Cayce was talking with his group one day and stopped in his tracks. For a few moments as he looked at them in physical he saw them as their pure selves. The very best, purest.
This had me remember when I was taken to meet this person with my colour hair( representing me somehow) I loved him from the bottom of my heart and described him at the time as innocent, pure, gentle.
This I believe is what we should be trying to achieve here in physical. We come here as innocent babies but life taints us . ( but then we cannt avoid that )what we can try to do before leaving here is to get rid of as much of the bad habits and thoughts as possible. I don't want to pass over badly tainted,( even if we do get hosed down.)
Do we eat a new meal on dirty plates? Go out with dirty clothes on? Invite people home to a dirty house? Attend an event in dirty clothes? Although realising what we are here for and doing the best we can our thoughts, I believe, are so important in cleansing us.
So I tried The Lords Prayer and where I read to substitute GOD for our Highest Self in the Purest Form
I thought of this beautiful part of me that I met but don't remember.
I found it a little difficult remembering and focusing on each chakra with each sentence because it wasn't a straight 1-7 or 7-1, got a bit confused, will take some time to learn .
Intend to write it out fully tomorrow when have more time but the night I did this I don't remember any dream but had a lovely nights sleep feeling nice and cozy when I woke to the thought ' road to salvation'.
I suppose this kind of phrase reflects the kind of reading I've crossed over to but I'd rather have this than bad dreams.

9th February 2013
Page 1) a reminder of my beautiful person.

A few months ago I had an experience where I was taken to my fathers house and I knew someone from the spirit world had taken me but I didn't see him . It didn't seem important.
I was there to meet someone .HE ARRIVED.
I LOVED HIM FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART.He had the same colour of hair as mine( mine is out of a bottle)
He was innocent , pure , beautiful , gentle, . I recall telling him how much I loved him. He could see me but not hear me or hear me but not see me ( I cann't remember which way round it was ) To this day I use this love I feel for him for my meditation. )

susan

24th October 2015, 02:23 PM

"..... will be shown to all those that stare onto the Obelisk."
I then quickly saw a very high long pillar with a very small cross at the top and picked up an image of Jesus on the cross.The image though showed him to be much much larger than the cross.

Once again this was after my main sleep and in a very light, short sleep.
All I had been wondering before going back to sleep was when I would next see something really vivid again within the brow and the exercises I do for the brow, should I change ? I have always done my fruit or vegetable cutting for the vibrancy of colours.
Although I know I expect too much too often I have come to really appreciate what I pick up . There is something very comforting knowing that you are never completely alone. Even using my own signature this is a reminder.

So I googled Obelisk.
Once again showing my ignorance. I knew I had heard of it before but couldn'think what it was.

OBELISK.
Taken from the Greek word Obeliskos meaning needle.
An Egyptian Obelisk is a monumental tapering column carved from a single block of stone with a square or rectangle cross section and capped with a pointed top called a pyramidion.
They were set in pairs at the entrance of temples and to some Old Kingdom Tombs and closely related to the cult of the Sun God Rae.( Atum) They symbolised the stability and creative forces of Atum, and were believed to act as magical protection to monuments such as temples and tombs.

A 4,000 year old Egyptian Obelisk stands at the centre of Saint Peter's Square where since its re-siting it now bears a cross and is said by some to have certain relics of Jesus Christ.

So it could be said that my mind produced the image of Jesus as we associate a cross with Jesus but the
rest is new to me so I don't think I did. And it flashed up so quickly.
I had been wondering about the brow work and how to?and when I may see next?
So maybe my exercises should be a fixed focus of an object and I would like to think I am being encouraged to focus my attention where it already is focused. The mysteries of Ancient Egypt, Symbols, Angels, Jesus and the relevance of the Book of Revelation and Kundalini Energy.

Maybe the mysteries will be shown to all those who seek the truth and knowledge when the brow is developed and the opportunity arises. ( just had to put that bit in)

susan

24th October 2015, 05:28 PM

Meditating using the Lord's Prayer as suggested by Edward Cayce, and the centres to be focused on at the time.
THE VERSE SPIRITUAL CENTRE. OVERALL AWARENESS.

OUR FATHER WHICH ART IN HEAVEN. Pituitary ,brow,(6th). Awareness of Oneness.

HALLOWED BE THY NAME. Pineal, crown,(7th). Awareness of Universal
Consciousness.(that part of self
that identifies with the creator)

THY KINGDOM COME,THY WILL BE DONE. Thyroid, throat,(5th) Awareness of turning self's will
Over to GOD'S will.

IN EARTH AS IT IS IN HEAVEN. Lower 4 upper 3. Awareness of letting the divine
Part of self manifest in the earth.

GIVE US THIS DAY OUR DAILY BREAD. Gonads, (1st)Root. Awareness of having access to that
amount of energy that self can use
productively.

AND FORGIVE US OUR DEBTS AS WE Adrenals,( 3rd,). ** Awareness of forgiving self and
FORGIVE OUR DEBTORS. Solar plexus ** others for anything out of harmony.

AND LEAD US NOT INTO TEMPTATION. Cells of leydig.(2nd). Awareness of being led appropriately
Navel. by the Highr Self.

BUT DELIVER US FROM EVIL. Thymus. (4th) Awareness of choosing love of others
Heart. Over selfishness.

FOR THINE IS THE KINGDOM. Thyroid. ( 5th ). Awareness of turning self's will
Throat Over to Gods will.

AND THE POWER. Pineal. (7th). Awareness of Christ's Universal
Consciousness .( That part of self
that identifies with the creator)

AND THE GLORY FOREVER. Pituitary. ( 6th ). Awareness of ONENESS.

Brow

AMEN. Crown

*** I think this one is an ongoing everyday challenge.

So these 7 endocrine glands serve as conduits of energy between the physical body and the chakras.
Cayce suggested that the Lords Prayer addresses each if these centres promoting optimum movement of kundalini energy during meditation, allowing centres to open and energy to travel through in a way that would not induce harmful karmic memories.
To FEEL the emotion as it s thought.
( this was taken from a very good book by Kevin Todeschi, called Edgar Cayce on Soul Symbolism.Creating Life Seals, Aura Charts and Understanding the Revelation.

Should have known it wouldn't print out the way I organised it. Bit messy but thats computers for you.

susan

27th October 2015, 09:38 AM

Yesterday morning just after getting up sat with I pad in silence whilst having a cup of coffee. Sent out a request. What advice could I be given today if any?
This is what I wrote with eyes closed.

Sugot cn vhhbvn
( then tried again, and wrote the word)

Kindness.

OMG! I love the sycronicity.
I've just sat down this morning with a cup of coffee, logged on here to write this. Just finished and have the radio on Radio 2 with Chris Evans on with a guest and she has just started to read out a story headed
KINDNESS and going that extra mile!

I wasn't going to bother writing this . Was going to wait till I had something else to add to it. I just decided on the spur of the moment .
Also this morning saw a lovely blue eye take up the whole vision screen.
Need to put more practice in for the brow.

susan

31st October 2015, 10:44 AM

Between 6-8 am.
I was dreaming that I was dreaming and realised in the dream that something was taking shape in the brow. I see a circle then a room with artists easles standing upright. Someone comes into the room , then I am looking close at a canvas and someone has sketched a black outline of a horse and filled it in with the most beautiful emerald green colour. This striking colour seemed to wake me up more knowing that I was viewing this I tried to focus on this as long as I could but the picture started to scroll upwards until it was gone and I woke.
I have no artistic skills at all, absolutely none. I don't know if there is anything I could take from this but the emerald green colour was beautiful.

Also this morning I saw my birthday card that I got from my sister yesterday and there was money in it.

Yesterday was my 60th, so to celebrate we had lunch at the Tree House in Alnwick in the grounds of Alnwick Castle where the Harry Potter films took place. ( she lives 5 mins walk from there)
She paid which was my present as it was expensive for the five of us.
Ive just logged onto my e mails and one from her. She's transferred money into my account as another little gift.
So what I picked up then was meaningful. In that case I feel I should taking something from the sketch.

Edit.
Have been googling Green Horse and don't like what I'm coming up with. Very disturbing .A lot to do with Islam . Quite depressing,some quotes, prophesies and video clips so I had to think how I felt about the scene and the sketch and it was peaceful and lovely to look at. If this was meant as some kind of prediction then I think I would have felt disturbed by it.
When I've had something meaningful that later happened I've felt the emotion.

....The sadness of children inside a hearse.( just before hearing about the death of my aunt)

....The shock horror worst thing to happen about the bus full of people going on holiday that toppled over .( Our planned Tunisian holiday)

...OBE where I felt very serene , slightly sad as I came into an area that showed information about my father.
I need to bring feelings into the analysis. If I don't get it log it and forget until.....

susan

5th November 2015, 09:15 AM

The last two mornings I've woken to scenes that made me want to laugh out loud. No long stories attached to the scenes, just realy funny with hints added that would enhance my daily life. Also once again I was remote viewing . Like looking through a telescope down on the sea bed watching the sand move looking closely at fish and other things.
I'm walking into a classroom but I'm late everyone else has started before me but it doesn't matter because someone is willing to show me.The teacher mumbles something about being pleased with me. I couldn't understand her properly.
A lot of detail too much to write but the main theme was excitement.
WHY?
Well I had read a complete book on Angels Archangels and the Unseen Forces. Quite a few quotes on the book of Revelation.
I decided that what I need to do is write down so I have a complete understanding of the titles used when I'm reading. Such as Spirit, Soul,Higher Self, Divine Self, Essence. Conscious mind, Sub- conscious,Super - conscious. We talk of wanting to meet our higher self but some refer it to just being us thinking at our best.
I need to realy get behind this and see how the majority of channeled information on this is describing these terms.
Who was aiding my projections with my wedding ring on? With my bracelet on? Who is or has been communicating or probably just what part of what I belong to? I need TITLES. I want to understand better.

So I certainly didn't go to bed happy and jolly the way I woke up so if ever we were to assess our dreams I would say this was a positive reaction to my decision.
( one of the scenes was strange. I was observing two people but I was also being observed. Someone points a finger to the child observing and says' look that is you'. But I felt I was the person being watched by the child.
I was the observer , but I was also being observed.

susan

11th November 2015, 05:30 PM

Writing with the I Pad keyboard is coming up with some good results.
What I've noticed is the times it works is in the morning shortly after getting up or after some deep spiritual reading or thinking. Also realy clearing the mind of thoughts, closing eyes and sending out a request.These conditions seem to need to be in place .

Yesterday morning I had been feeling a bit guilty when hubby went off to work. He had given me a hug but I had a saucepan in one hand and a cloth in the other so didn't return the hug.
I felt a bit heartless after he left, I should have put the things down but didn't.
By evening time with conditions in place I sent out a thought, not realy expecting anything.

' Is there any advice I can be given ?'
I wrote.

HUG Inadvertently

This was a surprise because if anything I thought it may have been about a completely different topic which had been on my mind at the time I sent out the question, but quite comforting because I realy had felt a little bad.
I asked for one last piece of advice I could be given.
I wrote.

I Pad exit.

Well I was in bed doing this and had already decided it was time to sleep and put the I pad down.
The last time this worked and I'd asked for advice I wrote Kindness.

susan

14th November 2015, 12:13 PM

Short exit this morning. Between 6.30-7.30.
After main sleep I woke up instantly imagining someone was waving two coloured feathers under my nose to wake me.
visited bathroom , settled comfortable and decided to attempt an exit. Little NEWS , colour exercises for the brow.Reverted back to circling the feet after working all over then tried stilling mind .
Eventualy felt myself slowly rock backwards and forwards. I hadn't thought of doing this so this got my curiosity. No vision.I was so curious and didn't want to loose this that I didn't even think of the 'clarity now' demand.The swings got wider and I was realy enjoying this. Just going backwards and forwards like a baby being pushed in a cradle.I was moving And sensed a wall ahead and felt the slightest resistance. Just like touching a balloon.Through the wall now and just deciding time to order clarity take advantage of the large swing to try to catapult up and suddenly it's over. I see a close up of a mobile phone with a black and white photo of my grandson.( I don't have a black and white photo)
Don't know if I took too long in deciding to take control of this but realy enjoyed the rocking.

The avatar suggests my new interest.So much to read on the internet but reading up on symbols is fascinating. For a bit of fun I want to learn as much as I can about the time periods I may have had a life. What is was like.
Starting with a period by the river Nile.
Three years ago during a projection I was advised " don't let fear and children get in the way."
This was when I was becoming fixated on knowing more of the hologram of the young boy I've had 3 times at different ages.
Okay so I let go but I think I'm ready now . After all I am trying to learn about myself, my selves.
I sent out a clear message that I would like to learn as much as possible about my selves.

susan

16th November 2015, 08:31 AM

I spent 30 mins in meditation. When finishing pieces just seemed to fit into position.
The previous post where I was enjoying rocking like a baby then just when I wanted to take control I see a picture of my 3 month old grandson.
I've posted before that when I've had something happen realy special , like the white trees with blossom , the Christmas department store, it often happens after I've done or said something good and helpful.
Just two days previously I'd had a very deep heart to heart with my son giving out advice that I hoped would help very much and I think it did. I felt good after the long conversation.
Was this a reminder of my role here ( which involves my grandson) currently with just a little humorous treat?
In the years I've done this I've never had rocking, but I have had experiences cut short just at the time I've wanted to take advantage and control.

susan

20th November 2015, 08:32 AM

I feel I've been sleighing on the North Pole.
I woke up with a start again with the feeling of going fast around a corner but having a brilliant time.
Dream recalled immediately.
I'm walking outside to get into a homemade looking metal car/ sleigh. I comment on the state of it.
Someone gets in with me and suddenly there is a crowd around and they throw white confetti over us. Then the ground is covered in white crisp snow and beautiful big chunky snowflakes fall along with the confetti. Someone else is driving the sleigh/car from the back and we start moving. This is fab because my section I'm sitting at at the front has a moveable section and has me tilting as we go round the bend.
Woke up to the feeling of this.
This was so much fun and just wish in real life I could experience it again.

So what did I send out in my thoughts before sleeping?
To help me stay away from any situation or person that contains bad energy that could affect me. To help me only display the best in myself even if it means I have to keep my voice quiet. To help me be the very best I can.
Fab, I want a ticket to the North Pole and go sleighing now.
Some may think I'm fantasising, away with the fairies. I couldn't be more grounded in my day to day working life which I take seriously. Anyone who thinks this, I would ask you, what dreams do you have?

susan

22nd November 2015, 08:34 PM

My favourite exercise to date.http://38.media.tumblr.com/3ea8c4b87f780e778106d245b28b81a7/tumblr_inline_nctyt71mcg1rauqfx.png

Stare at circle for 30 seconds then look at wall. That was all the instructions were.
Tried it and the circle appears slowly staying for a few seconds. Tried this by staring then closing eyes and circle forms.
It doesn't matter if there is a biological reason for this process it was posted as an example when practicing focusing for aura vision. Like this one. Will keep here incase I loose site.

This morning the finger tip exercise moving fingers apart the after image stretched about 18 inches before dissapearing.
Need a lot of practice. Bored with seeing auras of fruit.
Maybe a piece of fruit has more aura than I have . OMG!
Rome wasn't built in a day.

Edit.
Need to say the circle image , after repeated tries is always reversed in colour.The black circle is white and what should be white is black.

susan

28th November 2015, 09:52 AM

Staring at my large connifer tree from my kitchen window has paid off.
Today and yesterday .....it starts with the grey/ white outline but between the gaps in the outer branches and leaving the tree spreading out a mixture of colours.
Beautiful but so quickly lost. Mauve, pink, pale green, the palest of blue/green.
Was this the atmosphere or the tree? Sky was and is grey cloudy with no sign of sun. My eyes kept flickering trying to keep focused which resulted in loosing and needing to refocus.

All this beauty is there for everyone to see but it is time consuming and can be frustrating if nothing is seen but now I don't care how long this takes. Will be worth the practice and time.

I wonder if the previous ' will be shown to all those who stare onto the obelisk.' could have been one of those double riddles.

Also short humorous scene yesterday morning making fun of my inner feelings on a situation actualy happened unexpectedly 4 hours later.

29/11/15
Sunday deciding to start the day viewing beautiful colours again from tree in garden.
Nothing! Stared, re-focused, stared .10 mins absolutely nothing. Bird comes and sits on very top branch.Immediately I see the grey/white line surrounding it but no colours.
Patience required.

susan

2nd December 2015, 02:33 PM

This morning I was feeling low. Woke up to thinking, ' please come and help me- check mail box.'

I checked mail box and there it was. I could read between the lines of the message. This person needs support and help and on Saturday I will have to do something I don't want to,but know I have to.
So feeling flat I tried auras and got nothing.
Then I logged on here and read Soulsail's post on subject of Indra's Net. Followed link to Wikopedia where the picture of the web reminded me of my ' Golden Threaded Universe'. I want to bring it back up here.

6th June 2013.
Golden threaded universe.
I am currently reading Jurgen ZIewe's 'Multi Dimensional Man' and I love his style of writing. It's one of the best books I've read but what I am encouraged by are the similarities of experiences.
A few years ago in my paper journal I wrote of viewing behind closed eyelids an exquisite fine gold threaded universe,so fine and sparkling with golden planets and gold lines like thread seemed to connect them.
I have just read today that Jurgen experienced the same.
He describes" ......unfolded the universe in front of me. A vast space opened up, and a giant symmetrical web made from golden threads, each junction studded with an enormous golden sun. Each sun casting off golden patterns, which interacted with each other."

This sight was exquisite to view even if just for a second.
So I have to continue confronting daily problems and sometimes they can be realy challenging but keeping the knowledge that this beauty is realy out there far more beautiful than anything I've seen on earth is my daily medication. For some reason my excursions have ended and I miss them so much. Communication seems to be the focus now but I'm sure if I was to put events in sequence I would notice a similar pattern from other's experiences.
So my advice to myself is when things seem to get a bit tough read through my little black dairy ( pre journal days)and remind myself this is all just a play, a game, and things are going on behind the scenes that I only get glimpses of .

Have just bought as e book.
Indra's Net. Alchemy and Chaos Theory as Models for Transformation.
by Robin Robertson. See how it goes.

susan

8th December 2015, 09:44 AM

Dream
My last dream ended using puppets.
The first bit involved normal characters to do with how I was feeling about having had a big meal and I felt this wasn't helping.
Then I see a female puppet in a small cage. Facing another small cage with a lion in it. Then I heard the words in the dream. " No This is wrong!"
Then it's me looking into a massive cage with two puppet style giant lions. I am being encouraged to go into the cage on my own but I seem to know there are people in the background watching.

I've been watching I'm a celebrity get me out of here on telly so this could be mixed thoughts of program and what's going on in my mind.
I'm only recording this because it was interesting the use of puppets.

susan

11th December 2015, 11:08 PM

Woke up hearing Adel singing her new song but the verse was " See you on the other side".
Recalled dream. It was one of those short ones after main sleep and drifting off for a while.
This is the second time this week the dream has had me in one of those narrow river style pools you get that goes around a hotel in a circle.
Working the dream backwards it ends where I'm in the pool with a lot of other people but others are out of the pool and leaving. I wanted to go with them but have been put in charge of some young children and one of them needs tidying up . I can follow on the later flight.
It's this type of river pool I'm more interested in . Is it the case of if I didn't get it first time it's repeated in an altered way? Cannt find anything on the net about this type of pool, river?

Also pleased with Aura practice today.
Connifer tree in garden. The outline perceived first could be cloudy whitish/ pale blue but then large wide clumps of vivid blue .
The thing about this though is the sun was trying to come through the clouds but wasn't visible from the window I was standing at.It had me wondering if maybe my physical eyes were somehow filtering the white cloud and seeing the sky above the clouds. Viewing normal there was no blue sky visible.

This morning in mirror saw pale green around head. Just the one colour but my hair is auburn so incase this was the aura of the colour of hair I pulled it back out of view and pleased the green was moving down the neck and along shoulders with no hair..
Right side is working better than left side.

susan

12th December 2015, 12:47 PM

I think I get the dream now. Last nights dream ended with me wakening up to another song with me looking after a young boy I was caring for. Problem was he said something only my husband would say. I won't elaborate more butI think I get it.
Still too early to get up so was thinking that I should stop trying to analyse dreams because we know a lot could be just mixed up emotions and thoughts and I could be way off track and many people who do not put any importance on dreams reading this could form an opinion that I'm away with the mixer.
So decided to just go back to sleep, no thoughts when just in that liminal stage I thought.

" OH, TO BE A POET AND A JUDGE".

( I suppose to pick up these short sentences recently recorded in the journal including the ones used for my signature could be the reference, eg " your Peter Pan, that I am" and my thoughts on dreams I've just written)
Then just in that liminal stage again I picked up,

" DREAMS ARE THE DOORWAYS TO THE HEAVENS".

Nice like that one.
In fact think I'll use it .

susan

19th December 2015, 10:37 AM

Just as I'm wakening I thought and saw.

66 99 88

This may be because I went to bed having tried to get a grasp of Fractals. The book I'm reading is about Indra's Net. Alchemy and Chaos Theory.I think this is something I have to get an understanding of. I need to move forwards.
It's said we come here to learn and if I want to learn about the other side I have to put the effort in.

Last few nights have been very unsettling. This was since spending just 30 mins talking to someone who told me all about her husband's attempted suicide and their bad luck in the last two years and the struggles they are having. These are two lovely people I've known for a few years so was very sympathetic but it has realy affected my last few nights sleep.
This morning decided must get back to News, specially after the last few nights . 10 mins into it had to pull off the bed sheet. Felt I was burning up about to go into a sweat.
Going to have fun playing with paper and pen and 66 99 88. Might even hunt out the compass and ruler and try the shapes. Cubes, squares, triangles, pyramids circles. I think for me this is the best way to understand this concept. To actualy draw these shapes, build up the shapes as they instruct.I want to try the snowflake , it looks beautiful.Like going back to school.

susan

22nd December 2015, 09:28 AM

2.35 am
Woke up to singing again. Sounded quite a droning low voice singing

' visit the heavens to the universe.'

Recalled dream immediatly and was just something from a television program I'd been watching last night.
Nothing in the script with any meaning so bathroom visit then decided to raise energy .
About probably 45 mins then must have fallen asleep wakening up this morning to viewing just black and white but what seemed heads, faces, sketchings like busts of heads just turning around getting closer then moving away , them a square got closer then eyes, then ears .
This was so faint and just like a black background with very faint white sketches.
Went on for about a minute then I lost it.
Recalled dream seemed to be some instruction and was given a hug by someone.

Note.
Back to correct. On reflection it lasted about 10-15 seconds. Slight miscalculation there.

susan

31st December 2015, 05:02 PM

I think I was given some good advice this morning just upon awakening.

" DETACH YOURSELF FROM THE OBSERVED."

I recalled dream straight away and this was I think to do with a situation I found myself in recently .
I knew this was unsettling the peaceful mind I was trying to keep to, but was not my doing but I was involved.
As I was going over where this advice fitted in and how it made sense and how I could try to "detach myself" if it should happen again I suddenly thought

"THANK YOU".and saw it written in tiny tiny writing in silver.

This thought came before I had even finished summing up my own thoughts on the matter .
This should have been me saying thank you as I had woken up too early so before going back to sleep I asked for some words of wisdom that would help me . Some good advice. Seems I got it but I was myself being thanked.
This has had me exploring much on the internet today about reaching that inner peace and the balancing of Ida and Pingala and Sandhya ( the wedding) .
So much is written and spoken about being 'The Observer and The Observed', -- 'Detaching yourself from yourself ' --- 'Being the Observer'.
This is something I had not come across until recently when I wrote of the image of me in a situation with a child watching on when a large finger points to the child and says "THIS IS YOU". I worked out that I was both the child observing the adult and I was the adult being watched by the child.
Need time to understand deeper what this all means but it's slowly coming together.
Will add to later.

susan

2nd January 2016, 05:22 PM

KRISHNAMURTI?

I want to remember this name so logging it incase.
This afternoon I had a break so googled ' observer is the observed ' and listened to an 11 minute u tube
talk on this by this man Krishnamurtis. Loads to listen to and the one I heard was about 'THOUGHTS.'
It was very good and inspiring.
I've just decided to put another one on to listen to whilst ironing instead of music and had a quick thought to try writing something on notes as its been a while.
I asked what should I listen to on u tube?
Closed eyes and this is what I wrote.

Hindu k guy k but

This man was born in India and when I saw a picture of him when young he looked Indian so I just thought he was Hindu.( daft but I did) From my quick search he did not fully associate himself with any particular religion.( makes sense )the point is I thought he was Hindu.
A lot of his work out there to read.

susan

5th January 2016, 07:10 PM

Had a picture show viewed in the brow this am. 3 scenes leading into each other. Not a continuation of a dream as it got my attention first before starting.

6.35 am. Decided to start raising energy from feet upwards, brushing, stroking stirring. Up legs to 1st chakra. Could feel my legs tingling all over. Worked my way up to the heart and got no further when felt energy from base chakra move up as far as heart/ throat area. Been a while since felt this. Continued up the chakras then just circled and circled feet.
Very soon I see what looks like a white circle spinning in the brow but at a distance. I've seen this before. This gets closer to view but there was like a silver clip in the middle. This got my attention because it was like an imitation paper chakra. ( great for getting my attention, like the ballet shoes before being shown what was concerning my aunts death that day)
Focused on this when vision screen goes fuzzy. Then a scene appears and I see 2 famous actors from years ago on a train. I'm trying to think if their names and see that they start to wrestle with each other. This scene then fades but very quickly a new scene starts up. These are people in army uniform and there seems to be a battle going on.( there was no colour to any of these, just black and white.)
This one also fades but then the most vivid black and white. I'm watching in deep black space and a spacecraft opens its doors suspended in space and out flies people in armour and start fighting. When I saw this one starting up I had the feeling it was going to frighten me but knew it couldn't harm me so saw it through to the end. Some came close but then it ended very abruptly. Pleased at that.

So , I was pleased to have perceived something in the brow but it wasn't exactly what I would have hoped for. It didn't take me long to understand why.
On Sunday I had been listening to Krishnamurtis on U tube. I became very disturbed at his advice to not get involved in any religious order, that so much was just money making and controlling.This was heavy going and very thought provoking so decided to go slightly lighter and watch talks in Buddhism. I viewed this differently this time. All I heard was Buddha said this, Buddha said that, we are to do this or that.( I love being around them as they give off such peace and calmness) but found myself feeling that I was being lectured to instead of deciding myself.
This man also took on a discussion with religious leaders of different religions in one clip. He was very thought provoking but would not be swayed off track to his beliefs.
My mind was all over the place Sunday night. Admiration for the man, but feeling there was a little arrogance there stating his own view as ' THIS IS HOW IT IS'.
I felt disturbed all day also .
So these 3 scenes were all fighting scenes. On a train, on land and in space.
Was this letting me know that when the mind is in turmoil through the day we will experience the same turmoil whether in the dream state or OBE. We create our own wars within dreams.
I think this re-iterates the importance of not attempting any kind of exit whilst the mind is disturbed.

susan

10th January 2016, 06:47 PM

Deepak Chopra has helped me understand more about the observer role which was pointed to.

He talks of Cosmic Consciousness and the different stages.

5th stage according to him involves the alert witnessing of all the different roles the body and mind play at all the time, with a clear separation between body and mind.Being a Detached Observor of the Roles Played.He examples the roles he has played in daily life. For me it would be child,mother, wife, cleaner, cook, fixer, organiser, counsellor, nurse and on and on and on...... This is the body mind but Have an awareness that my spirit is not the roles I play in body.
My spirit is an alert witness of the roles I play. Whilst it may be my destiny to play an infinity of roles I Am Not these roles.
The detached observor ( me) of the role has woken up, even when sleeping.
We can be engaged in a role to currently perform , even passionate about the way we perform it but detached at the same time.
He talks of the actor on the stage of life with us being the actor, director, everything and everyone.
This all adds up to what I've written over the last few weeks, stage, puppets, Observor.
He also classifies the 5 th stage of consciousness as Christ Consciousness.
( it's easy to feel embarrassed about writing this last bit and I even thought I would leave it out )
But it is just a level of understanding. A level people here reading this is at also.
This will explain why during my holidays in September I received that very formal type announcement.

24th Sept.
Monday 5am.
Dream with Dream characters recognisable from telly when suddenly....

" YOUR BODY IS THAT OF THE LORD'S AND EVERY ONCE IN A WHILE JESUS'S FACE WILL COME DOWN AND SHOW WITHIN YOU."

Wow, this was like an announcement interrupting a dream. There was no familiarity with this announcement. Just like a formal statement being read out. Very clearly perceived.

5th Dimension also referred to by others as the Mental Plane.

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=b22VMuHQ3UU

susan

16th January 2016, 10:32 AM

Tuesday am, very TINNY words heard upon wakening.

" higher intelligence communication".

3 short dreams could be suggesting this but it's the tinny voice I'm interested in. Why sometimes a low droning kind of singing or maybe a tinny sound. I've had this before. Maybe something to do with vibration. Will have to look up see what I can find.
Very tired physically and mentally this week with work. No meditation or energy work carried out. Will try 2 hours NEWS this afternoon. Must get back into it.

susan

16th January 2016, 04:15 PM

susan

22nd January 2016, 08:52 AM

" KNOW YOUR DIVINITY".
Clearly heard upon wakening this morning.
Also 12.03 am .I heard my mobile phone alarm go off so loud but when I checked it it hadn't. It was still set for 8.00am. Too tired to try for anything. Back to sleep.

Yesterday.

Multidimensional Man back out of cupboard and watched u tube talk by Kurt. He talks so much Of Annie Besant so googled book with intention of buying next day. Woke up to dream of me walking into a large hall and asking for an entrance ticket to the hall where we were going to listen to the Dalai Lama give a talk.

susan

23rd January 2016, 11:39 PM

I like this man but he's not keen on New Age or Aura Focus.
I get his point though.

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=fs8zCOeKFss

susan

25th January 2016, 06:22 PM

Been spending much time looking through u tube talks by Krishnamurti ( great person to keep you grounded), the guru posted above, Dalai Lama and younger generation advising ' How to open the third eye.'
unfortunately Krishnamurti mocks the Gurus of today. The Guru mocks the New Age People and people who want your money. Sunday discussions on tv with different religious members and they all argue their point that they are right.
However I did listen to a few from the Dalia Lama( mainly because of my dream where I was going in to a lecture) and I did enjoy his talks. He makes me laugh. A Good one on u tube on stage with Russel Brand of all people. ( tried to copy and paste but wouldnt paste)

So coming to the conclusion that there is no one person to follow who will guide me and give me advice without criticising anyone else's methods or reasoning , I realised that there is .

ME!

In my dreaming mind or semi lucid state I have been guided in many ways and indeed reprimanded when my thoughts have not been so good but never has there been any mockery of anyone else. Everything has been focused on how I can improve my health, improve my exercises for the third eye. Improve energy exercises ( to raise the garland increase the level of cadence) . How to understand from someone else's perspective. I've been rewarded when I've done some caring work .

I am my best guidance , therefore because of a dream last night I'm going back to focus on geometry.

Dream.
This dream contained a member of my family . I'm watching my brother-in-law jumping from one edge of a cliff onto another edge of a cliff with a steep drop down. I'm watching with someone. The shape of the cliffs resembled the outline of a Pine tree.( not far apart)
I'm watching this from the sky.
Now me and my companion land on the ground and observe a small dark skinned young boy ( he crops up from time to time) standing infront of a large blackboard where he has people listening and watching him.
As he draws on the board he doesn't use chalk, instead he is using an AXE! As he draws with the axe he is cutting through the board. As I watch the tears I realise his tears form shapes, triangle. Square etc.
In the dream I say to someone ' why is he breaking through the board?"
The person replies ..." I haven't a clue".
Woke up.

I had to think on this one but is the last statement actualy a clue. It's been a bit since looking at geometry

susan

30th January 2016, 11:13 PM

susan

5th February 2016, 10:54 PM

I have to start somewhere so keying in relevant words that I feel I'm being encouraged to learn about,
' Geometry ' and
' Divinity
has had me search u tube. Learning the mathematical equations, the shapes, the exactness of nature still had something missing then I found this one on U tube. It's an old one some clips seem very old but it gave me what was missing.
Instead of learning the Geometric patterns within nature within the universe , I needed to understand first how the shapes were formed and this one explains.

1) Everything in existence is energy and the result of a frequency.
2) Ancient geometric patterns symbolise ' how energy flows and manifests itself'. That's why certain flowers grow the way they do. The energy that manifests itself obeys precise universal laws.
3) Substance of the universe is consciousness
4) The higher the tone the more complex the pattern.

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=PpQTF_46pks

20 mins into..... Effect of sound on matter
25 mins into.....Sacred geometry found in water droplets using the right sound frequency.
38 mins into...Fibonacci's scale
40 mins into.....The brain uses the same maths to decifer the sensory world that it does in the making of
a hologram.
...... Intelligent design of the cosmos
....... Divine imprint.
51 mins into......DNA.
52 mins into...... Digital link between emotions and genetics.
An individual living with fear is limited to the number of antennae available to them
compared to an individual living in love in a higher frequency.

susan

8th February 2016, 09:23 AM

Back to school.
The best way to learn for me is to write it down so I can go back to it and digest again.So have started a folder drawing as I learn.
Every time I come to the meaning of a symbol I get drawn back to first address this from the beginning.
Pythagoras, Plato, Aristotle.

Pythagoras " Reality is mathematical in nature"
All is Number.
The Golden Ratio".
PHI.

Plato considered PHI as the key to the understanding of the Cosmos.
So out comes the compass again, retractor, pencils and a very much cleaned up chopped up rubber.A lot of rubbing out even just drawing the 5 pointed star.
It's hard to stay away from the easier stuff , just learning the meanings but I need a thorough understanding first of the background. To learn the connection to shapes in nature, the musical note, vibration, formation,or at least as far as the capability of my brain.

This is fascinating and challenging but if I have the occasional symbol thrown my way , and if ancient geometrics is known as a form of communication I want to know immediatly what it means .
( of course this goes hand in hand with the theory ' energy flows where attention goes.'
I want to see those black and white cubes and vortexes again.

https://ancientexplorers.com/wp-content/uploads/sites/6/2014/02/pyramid-1-emoto-water.jpg

Is this true? I don't know how reputable this site is but the thank you and prayer and I love you they are exquisite.
If anyone knows this to be fake please let me know so I can delete and be more careful infuture.

susan

12th February 2016, 09:31 AM

Woke up at 4 am just seeing a scene very quickly dissapearing.
A massive sparkling silver ship docked in a sparkling harbour.Im heading towards it with some people to the side of me.
Awake now. There was no other colour to this and I couldn't recall any dream at all.
Beautiful to look at.
I don't know if this could be symbolic or actual but it doesn't matter, beautiful to look at.
For 2 mornings in a row now I've had funny scenes all related to the crown chakra. They've made me laugh but in the past I've been wary of working the crown but since then the last two days I've been spending time bringing in crown exercises. I noticed yesterday that Im seeing the blue around my arm and tree outside as a deeper blue.
Must keep up brow and crown work.

susan

13th February 2016, 11:39 AM

Been awake since 2.38 am and am whacked!
I'm giving myself 10/10 for effort even though it ended in failure. It's Saturday so not a problem.

Yesterday 6-7 pm 1 hour NEWS including bringing energy up to the crown . Also working brow.
Bed at 10. More NEWS . Fell asleep.

Woke up but didn't open eyes straight away. Was just wondering if hubby back from work yet. Opened eyes to see the time and FLASH!! Like 2 live wires put together . Big electrical white flash infront of me.
No noise, no headache. Was this another Strobe? I've only ever had them within the brow with eyes closed.
I wonder if it was just a co- incidence that I opened my eyes at the time it happened and I thought I was seeing through my physical eyes?
Checked clock . 2.38am.
So now I'm in the mood to have a go.

1st attempt....NEWS ending in circling feet and looking into brow.... Hot...turn over on my side .....
try to look ahead.. feeling dozy....falling asleep when jolted awake with a vision of me with a blade in my hand but my neighbour has moved and I cannt continue until she turns round again. People are looking on.

( I spoilt the attempt by moving)

2nd attempt.... Started just the same ending with just trying to stay awake and looking into brow....start to doze off when again.. Jolted awake with a dream vision of me having cut someone on the foot with the blade and it was bleeding heavily...I'm trying to stop the bleeding.

( I have an understanding that blood loss represents energy loss and the need to work on that area. Well I had forgotten to continue stirring the feet as Robert suggests.

3rd attempt..... As above but realy tired and hot... tried to stay still...dozing off when awake with a jolt again seeing someone's foot and circles going round the bottom...

Okay I couldn't be bothered to circle feet I'm too drowsy.

4th and final attempt and just dozing off deciding I need to get some sleep when I see a policeman placing a mobile phone on a podiatry foot tray.

I think this is pay attention! Keep the energy going in the feet.I think of a policeman as higher authority.
Then I see a group of army people looking at me all with their arms up displaying a sign with their hands. I had been reading Dontco's post on Mudras but even though I don't know anything about them I had been looking. Had to look up which one it was they were showing and it was the third eye one.

Gave up, just dozing when I see a pair of wide looking shoes( I have wide fitting) .
one is black and one is white! And thought ..test run.

I realy realy feel I've had assistance here but am whacked.
Going to try again over the week end.
I award myself 10/10 for effort.:)

susan

14th February 2016, 03:47 PM

Still not the success I'm looking for . Very similar result to last night but I think I know where I went wrong this time.

1st attempt....
11pm ...Bed NEWS fell asleep . Not surprised after last night.
3am....Woke up to the song Old Lang Syne and thought the words ' Let's do it in order this time'.

So 2nd attempt.....went through the order I've read Robert suggests, made conscious effort not to turn over and cool enough not to overheat. Fell asleep.
Woke up to the song Too Much Too Little Too Late To Try Again With You by Johnny Mathis and Denise Williams.
Saw a black cat facing me with a jig saw piece sticking out of its ears but there was no picture to the piece . It was blank. Thought 'No Flowers'.

From this the Johnny Mathis song speaks volumes and the cat. I spent all my waking time raising energy then was too tired and went to sleep. I didn't leave enough time whilst awake to just clear the mind of thoughts and focus behind the lids.
Plan shortly 4.30 -7 final session. Got busy week ahead so this will be it I think for a few days.
If anything it's still good energy raising sessions I'm putting in.

This is what I'm going by.
Roberts Astral Dynamics 1999.
Higher level projection.

32. Higher-Level Projection

Higher dimensions are similar in structure to the astral dimension, but exist at much higher levels or vibrations of consciousness. Like the astral dimension, each is a completely separate dimensional area, although they can all be said to occupy the same space. Between each level is an intermediary area, or buffer zone, similar to the color-tinted buffer zones that divide the major planes of the astral dimension, but wider and harder to traverse.

Each major level of consciousness corresponds with a particular dimension, and each has a subtle body to match it. Higher levels become progressively more abstract and complex in nature, as do the levels of consciousness associated with them. We all reflect, to a greater or lesser extent, an energetic facet of ourselves into all higher dimensions and levels of consciousness, at all times, just as an aspect of the astral body is constantly reflected into the astral dimension (see chapter 2).

The strength of these reflections, and their effect on inner and outer realities, depends greatly on the energetic development, intellect, spirituality, and natural potential of the individual.

High-Level Technique
To project into a higher level, aspiring projectors must first raise their energetic value to harmonize with that level. This is best done before the exit, but can also be done during a projection, and can happen spontaneously. The most effective way of reaching higher levels - barring natural ability - is through the practice of consciousness-raising meditation, energetic development, and other related spiritual practices.

The generation of a high-level projectable double is affected by the level of consciousness, by the active configuration of primary energy centers, and by the quality of energies they produce. The higher-body generation process is therefore limited by the projection mechanism's ability to generate the energetic qualities required.

Projecting consciously into levels higher than the mid to high astral, say past the high fifth or lower sixth astral plane, takes either a high level of skill and development or strong natural ability, or both. A projector usually needs to be proficient at both consciousness raising and energetic stimulation to do this. There are, however, ways to achieve this that take advantage of latent natural ability.

Ideally, an aspiring higher-level projector needs some experience with projection. However, it is possible to begin right here and use the following procedure as a stand-alone projection technique. If you have failed at projection using other methods, try this. It may suit you and work better, even for a very first projection attempt.

Note: All the skills and techniques required here are given elsewhere in this book (see parts 2, 3, and 4).
Stimulate feet and hands, as per NEW system, then use a full-body circuit for ten minutes or longer.

Use a deep physical relaxation technique, then attain the full-trance state.

Stimulate all primary energy centers.

Use extra brow and crown center stimulation exercises.

Raise energy through the whole body, including arms, and up through all primary centers in one smooth action to the crown center on the IN breath. Hold awareness in the crown center and feel energy flowing into there all through the IN breath and all through the following OUT breath. Flick awareness back to feet and repeat at start of next IN breath. This exercise is designed to draw and accumulate energy in the brow and crown centers.

Continue the above exercise for at least ten minutes, or until you start seeing a color suffusing or tinting your vision behind your closed eyelids. Purple is the best color to see for this, but any bright primary color is a good sign. If you see nothing, continue with the next part of this exercise anyway.

Using your body awareness, generate a continual "Aummmm" sound in your heart center. Imagine it and feel it growing stronger and stronger in your heart. Once this is established, slowly move this awareness sound up to the throat center, and from there up to brow center, and finally spreading to the crown center. This is a fairly deep tone, as if vibrated softly in the back of a mature man's throat. Feel it humming there and let this spread and fill the entire head. This sound may continue on its own accord, or even spread through the entire body, or it may not. If you can hold this tone without too much effort, try to continue it throughout this whole projection attempt. If this part is too difficult, try to hold the "Aummmm" sound in either the throat or brow center only, whichever is easiest. Just do the best you can with this for a few minutes, then proceed to the next part of this exercise.

From behind your closed eyelids, look for a distant point of light, or a small pattern of light that is brighter than any other you can see. This may appear as a tiny bright dot, star, or multicolored structure, or even as a geometric pattern. It may also appear as a distant scene, single or multicolored, as if seen through the wrong end of a telescope. Gently lock on to and hold this target firmly in your mind's eye.

Shift your awareness toward and into the target and feel yourself moving toward it. Feel yourself as being there already inside it. Imagine and feel a strong spiritual love connection with the target. Love the target and want to be there with all your heart and soul. Use the point shift technique at this point and feel yourself moving directly toward the target. Rope or other projection techniques can be added or alternated as necessary.

If the above method cannot be made to work, I suggest that the secondary full-body circuit be used for half an hour or more, added to step one, and that step five also be continued for half an hour or more. This is often necessary to provide the quality of energies required for a high-level projection. If, at any time during the above process, the brow center strobes, and you see a heavy flash of bright silver-white light in your mind's eye, go straight to steps eight and nine and complete the projection.
When you succeed at projection using this method, you may experience any of the normal variety of projection-related sensations, or you may feel none at all and just find yourself instantly there inside your target. This method will always cause a higher level of projection than would otherwise be possible.

Usually I feel a moment's disorientation, a brief upward-falling sensation, a flash of light as my brow center strobes, then I suddenly appear wherever it is I am going.

( not following to the letter)

susan

15th February 2016, 08:41 AM

Woke up through the night aware I was loose and seemed to be just above body. Mid to heavy vibrations and very loud engine noise.Tried to focus on noise and vibrations but so tired I just fell asleep again.
Taking a mouth full of apple cider vinegar with manuka honey every morning. Apparantly good to help de - calcify pineal gland, ( don't know if I need it but every little helps.)

Tuesday am.
Had to stop NEWS last night. Legs were on fire and wanted to scratch inside of legs. No rash visible this am . Went away when stopped energy exercises.

Woke up to seeing a drawing of a kings crown with red arrows pointed upwards and thought the words
" the move".( these two words are relevant)
last night had sent out a request/ prayer for help in something that so far has me thinking that what I want will not be possible. For the last year I've wanted to do something but I've ended up with very clear indications of this not being possible, or to be more precise 'She was very brave to do this because.....'.When I decide to ignore this I end up getting more information re-confirming. But my understanding is that nothing is set in concrete , so I'm going to keep asking.
So I see this as work the crown and information may come through.

susan

21st February 2016, 07:12 PM

Instruction upon awakening this morning seemed to suggest some reading I think.

Picked up .." LIFE IN THE FIFTH".
Then I saw the screen of my I pad with its numbers for keying in the code and a card swiping it.
This was followed by a blank screen with a long floaty line being drawn across.

So my code for access to I pad is keyed in, then swiped? Don't know .The long floaty line didn't form any shapes so could this have just represented the action of reading written words.

Edit 22/2/16
And when I'm not thinking about the question- the answer comes. This is about previous post 15th.
Although I will not completely give up hope, too much has suggested that this is something that I must accept. I have faith that somethings are out of my control and something good will come out of it in time.

susan

25th February 2016, 02:06 PM

"IF YOU ADD THE LAST NUMBER TO THE BOX TO REMOVE IT 1571".

Woke up to this instruction. This was one of those formal type announcements. Woke up quickly as if with a jolt. When this happens it's usually something to take notice of.Dream recall vague. Time 3.08. Got up to write down for morning.
Tried little energy raising but fell asleep. Woke with a jolt again and thought," It will be worth it"and I see someone putting a handful of pastel coloured miniature chocolate Easter Eggs in my hand.( I've had them before.)

SO..... By following the instruction of adding the last number To the box I can have it. What is IT ?
I think it could be the mystery, knowledge, information.
*****1571 is the telephone number in the UK to find out the last caller.**********( my mistake, corrected in next post)

I want to bring in FIBONACCI'S code now related to sacred geometry.
1,1,2,3,5,8,13,21,34.....etc.
Each number in this sequence is the sum of the previous two.
As the sequence continues the ratio between each number gets closer to 1.618.The Golden Ratio also known as PHI.This ratio being found throughout nature. Apparently, according to Genesis 6:15 NOAH was instructed to use this ratio to build the ARK.( could explain why the other morning I picked up the name NOAH EDMUNDS , I think just a bit of humour as we have a tv personality called Noel Edmunds)
This ratio is also referred to as the building blocks of nature.

Back to 1571.
1+5=6 but if I add the last number to it (1) I have 7. So it isn't exactly Fibonacci's code but the idea is the same.
I think by following my interest in this area I could gain something that would be worthwhile.

In plain old English.
Once again I'm being encouraged to focus on Ancient Geometry and the mysteries of the Universe.

I'm still thinking back to being told a while ago " THE CODE WAS NECESSARY FOR THE PLANET".

susan

26th February 2016, 08:30 AM

I just want to correct something but making this as a new post incase anyone who read the last post from the uk saw the mistake.
1571 is the number to receive any messages left for you on the phone.
That fits in even better for my understanding.

susan

1st March 2016, 09:15 PM

Monday 4.28am.

"CHOOSING THE WILL TO LIVE IMAGERY SENSORS PROVIDE?"

Heard this as I woke up. It was a softly spoken voice.
I had gone to bed with no intention of trying anything as had busy day ahead but I had sent out a request for some words of wisdom to help me improve my clairvoyance and clairaudience.
Tried to make sense of this. On Sunday I had been practicing auras seeing with colourful flowers. Pleased with the merging of beautiful colours and that some were spreading 2 feet away against the white wall. Had been thinking that I realy wanted to step up the visuals and try to incorporate day time working life with exercises. Not just after work. Would love to see people's auras through the day.
Last night took another look at the words. I think this could be aknowleging my wishes. It's just a strange way to put it but then that shouldn't surprise me.

Tuesday3.20am.

"YES I THINK YOU COULD BE RIGHT!".

I then see an I pad with the same looking pen drawing a long floaty line across the screen that I had seen and posted a few days ago.
I think this was confirming my thoughts on the previous post on sacred geometry.

( back to edit this mistake. The previous iPad with the pen drawing a long floaty line was connected to ' Life in the 5th.')
Back to sleep, not trying anything.

4.20am
Woke up to same soft voice

"WAKE UP! AUMMMMMM SHAMPOO."

Didn't take long to decide that shampoo is massaged to the head so I see this as tactile action to stimulate the crown. The AUMMMM surprised me as this was something I had decided not to bother with even though Robert suggests this as posted in previous post. I'll read up more on this to find the benefits, after all I got this for a reason.

So to sum up from the last few days.

a) Sending out requests for advice before sleep brings results but it could be a day or two in coming.
The voice could be said to be me but I've learnt the difference between a very strong sudden thought and hearing a voice. Sometimes the voice is very matter of fact tone but not the last two days.
Mostly it comes as a riddle

b). Advice to make the choice of trying to develop seeing energies.
When raising energy in the crown and meditating try tactile massaging actions and start using the AUMMMM sound.

C) learning.
Ancient Geometry.
Learn my Divinity.
5th Dimension.

susan

10th March 2016, 12:29 PM

My questions about sound/ vibration during meditation have been answered.
Samwise very kindly linked a book by Samuel Sagan( in the meditation section) and it is just exactly what I need right now.)

He talks of throat friction describing how to breath using a sound coming from the larynx when practised properly. This sound produces vibrational energy. By focusing on both this and the third eye this quitens the mind leading to a tuned in state of consciousness .The simultaneous awareness leads to resonance then vibration between the two.
There are claims that practicing seeing auras may be boosted when combining throat friction with vision.

So there you go....picked up to use the Aummmmm...... but also noted that advice comes in riddles .
Intended to find out more info on this as I had decided previous to this not to bother with sound.

I posted this in psychic experience section a few days ago. Want to bring to journal as it's all part of the journey,

6/3/16
This afternoon I had an experience I want to share here rather than the journal incase someone wants to try it.
Having the day to myself I decided to practice auras and other spiritual related learning.
After about an hour of this I got a mirror and placed it infront of me to check aura.
Looked for a while seeing vaguely just the one colour needing to focus eyes each time because of blinking. Just when I decided that was enough I looked at face in the mirror. First thought was could do with a more flattering mirror, ah age is creeping up, could do with some eyeliner on.
Then I got more inquisitive and looked seriously into my eyes. Just who am I ? I remembered the phrase I picked up one morning that I have on my signature and said it silently looking deeply into my eyes.
" look into your eyes and I see mine".This person is seperate - but part of me.
I felt the most profound love fill me just for 5-6 seconds. I did it again and the same thing happened.
Whether this was a connection to spirit or a connection to my own spirit it certainly wasn't what I was thinking at the time.

So looking through Samuel's book if I had looked into my own eyes in a kind of meditative state and lingered there with no thoughts I may have been able to take this further.

Just need to note now that sometimes when I find myself in deep thought in any room of the house and seem to be coming to an understanding of something I get startled by big cracking sounds . It could be said that if in my bedroom I may be in that sleepy state and physical sound may be amplified. That's why I didn't record when it first started hapenning but today I was fully awake in my conservatory and reading part of Samuels book and as I was thinking something through and coming to a conclusion a loud crack sounded as if the frame. I'm hearing this more and more now and although it can make me jump it makes me laugh as well because it's becoming so predictable.

susan

12th March 2016, 10:30 AM

Just had a visit from my cat. ( I think)
Awake, not ready to get up, thoughts everywhere. Planting more veg seeds today, try to pull out some weeds. Day planned. Then once again frustration setting in wishing I could just switch the vision on like a tv. Silenced mind and observed vision. No NEWS this time.

After about 10 mins Thoughts were creeping in producing vague pictures but they were related to my thoughts. I wondered if there was more I could be doing that I'm not. Saw an ariel view of planet earth but instead of the colours you would expect it was a beautiful deep rose/ purple with a pinky tone emanating away from it. Wondered why I made it this colour and just thought if resembled the expression 'seeing the world through rose tinted glasses.'This was as my own thought not like when I clearly pick it up. ( loud crack in conservatory again)

Stared more into the brow area when flickering started up . Focused and waited incase.....
Then I hear something on the wooden floor boards coming near me. It sounded like cats claws. Next thing something has landed on the pillow above my head and is walking to the other side. I'm aware this is small and my husband is just next to me with his back to me.I could hear the purring now and gave out a thought that this was my deceased cat.She was close to the side of my face as if sniffing then walked over me a was lying at my side. I wanted to see her but I had no vision. I took my etheric arm and stroked her. She fell slightly fatter as she had always been a very thin cat but near the time I had her put down she had gone realy skinny. I wanted to see her but all I could see was grey blank nothing.
As I stroked her I felt her paws touching my upper wrist drawing inwards as they do. She was still purring then it stopped and she was gone.

Opened eyes and although I was delighted I couldn't understand why I had no vision. Checked clock 8.20 am.

Thoughts.

If I had fallen into a lucid dream why the cat? She left us about 6 years ago. I've twice since had a visit from her but both occasions I could see her.
I had not been thinking of her . She was not the friendliest of cats as we had got her as an adult and had her for about 14 years but she would never let us pick her up. My thoughts have not been on her.
Also if this had been a dream then I would have produced a vision of her I'm sure.
I knew it was her but couldn't see her. Or this was set up for me .

Not going any further with this one but delighted to have experienced it.
It's recorded anyway.

susan

12th March 2016, 09:29 PM

This was January 2014.
I want to bring this forward to be near the above post (10th March ) about looking into the mirror as there seems to be a connection here.

January 2014.

Lay in bed wondering just how many times I've had an experience thinking it was a guide helping me, taking me , showing me ,when in fact it was this other part of me. I'm still open to the idea of higher guidance assisting but I've had a hint before that I didn't realise who it was helping me.
So while these thoughts were trying to make sense I felt energy travel right up my body 3 times.
I then sent out a thought that if there is anyone listening, am I right? Am I connecting to ME.
I then felt warmth and intense love travel through me. Not upwards but from inside as if building up with intensity then I felt heavier and heavier AND I FELL ASLEEP!
I had had so many thoughts going on in my mind it didn't make sense to fall asleep.
Woke up hearing myself say ' that was beautiful, can I see some more?"
The reply was ' maybe , we'll C " .I even saw the reply in writing using C instead of see.
The feeling of peace and harmony stayed with me for a few hours but I have absolutely no recall of anything between that time. ( bit like going into the white room in what I perceived as a space station when I had no memory of what was said, but I did recall coming back to body.)

susan

17th March 2016, 10:18 PM

Skin rash on chin has cropped up . I don't know if this is related to energy work but it has just come in the last few days after starting Samuel Sagan's 'Throat Friction ' technique.
I've had this kind of rash before but a few years ago and I always knew what had caused it but this time I'm not using any different products on skin and I'm not stressed.
Co- incidence or not but recently I started focusing on the crown more than in the past and a couple of weeks ago I developed a rash around the temples at the hairline and behind the ears and a bump at the top of the head. Lasted about 4-5 days then just went.
I can find no alternative reason for this so will put it down as Energy related.
Intend to continue with throat friction regardless.
Yesterday morning as I'm waking from very light sleep saw a pair of hands in the prayer position then focus moved upwards to show a woman's face with a brown tanned looking face but it was covered in sparkling stars.
Could not recall any dream. The brown tan of the skin reminds me of the lovely image of the boy I saw lit up by stars with what looked like a turban on or some kind of head gear from years ago. His face was very tanned like toffee.

susan

18th March 2016, 09:15 AM

I wish I could draw but have no artistic skills. Saw a lovely scene upon wakening but this was blurry .
Everything was white as if within the sky. A very large image of Jesus in robes stood facing me but directly behind him were 2 massive white wings. The wings were not part of him but positioned on either side behind him stuck seperatly into the White ground so the tips of the wings were pointed upwards. They were positioned seperatly so from a distance they looked as if Jesus was the body of the wings.
Above his head coming from the sky was a long white pole positioned verticaly.

I don't know if I could have seen this published, don't remember but is the kind of scene that stays with you.

susan

26th March 2016, 10:32 AM

3.20am.
I've just seen a dark haired Highland Terrier dog floating in black space wearing a red tartan kilt, a red tartan hat holding a pair of bagpipes!
It couldn't be any more opposite to the last post.
Recalled dream but had nothing to do with this. Okay so this was amusing and strange. Visit to bathroom.Tried to stay awake looking into brow to see if I could pick anything up but fell asleep.

5.30am
Woke up to the vision of seeing a fresh faced ginger freckled, ginger haired young man just grinning at me.
No dream recalled. I've seen him a few times. I'm sure the ginger hair represents me. Always a boy.The face is similar to previously seen . I must look in the journal and see what circumstances are related to seeing this boy. Will add to this post when do the check.
So awake thinking about this and found them both amusing I slipped back into a very light sleep just in that receptive state.
The dream that followed has cleared my mind in something that I want to do in two years time but I was getting dreams suggesting I would be very brave to do this.
I now completely understand. It isn't out of my reach but I I'm sure I understand now the implications.
Thank you!
If I have understood correctly then this topic will probably not be brought up again. It's my decision to make and I understand possible complications and stress that could follow.

Back now to the dog in space.
I had hoped to be able to stay awake this week-end to try to have a projection but I've had such a grounding day gardening, planting strawberries, loved it. Two Robins following me around to get the insects where I'm digging. I just wanted to sleep. So, I saw the dog in space. All my side of the family originate from and still are living in Scotland.There is humour in both images. The boy with my colour hair was grinning at me.
What followed after was some important information in a dream for me.

Will add to this later when I've done some searching on this red haired boy.

susan

27th March 2016, 03:25 PM

Searched the journal using key words and found the relevant posts but I realise I'm just going over old ground.
I've already wondered the same thing but by doing this it has highlighted the fun I've had Since this all started. There was so much fun but recently since the cleaning up of body and mind I feel things have changed to a slightly more serious theme.
So for my own indulgence I'm going to group what I found together here in the journal but first I want to write a reminder of Robert Munroe's words I wrote 22/5/2011.

" Every beam of light was one of me, one of my I There personalities complete with different life experiences."He talks of communicating with them. They had their own personalities that spoke to him at the time and discovering the times they had shone through him to help in tasks required if they had the necessary skills to help him.
So our past personalities aid us through our life, communicating with us in our sleep, thoughts in our waking life.
Robert Munroe was a pioneer in his time giving us access to his experiences and discoveries helping us to understand what is going on within our own spiritual experiences.

Where I say OBE these are consciously enduced without loss of awareness.
I'll start with.

17/12/12
Recorded page 11 . 15/8/13
OBE delivered as a baby on to a veranda with child's furniture and asked.
" Haven't you ever been to a boys Kindergarten before?"

9/02/13
Very first post of journal the beautiful boy with my colour hair whom I loved from the bottom of my heart.He was recalled as shimmering/ translucent my colour hair.

19/03/2013
OBE .Hologram 11 year old boy blonde curly long wig wearing period costume.( around time when I thought I was being shown past lives.)

Page 11. 13/08/2013
Woke up to ringing of an old fashioned telephone . Awake, thought out Okay you've got my attention"
Then a quick flash of a young boy about 11-15 yrs old . I'd seen him before- very innocent and gentle looking. Wondered at the time if be was me, should I know him?

Page 14. 03/10/13
Dreampt of an OBE.
A young man with red hair once again looks directly at me. Physical appearance. Choir music in the background, . I'm dancing with someone and an arm appears as if giving communion .

Page 31. 28/07/14
Same young boy from 19/03/13 but about 16-18 yrs af age now. He had the long blonde curly shoulder length hair and in black and white period costume but this time the hair was natural not a wig.
Around 1780s they did away with the wigs. Time period matches the period costumes.

And then finally the above post.
It's nice for me to have a bit of humour back.
Now if I was to search out the times I've had the theme Black and White....... .

susan

28th March 2016, 11:43 AM

Picked up an image of Jesus standing infront of a high red brick wall. The wall was higher than him, and the words ' The red brick wall will lead you home'.

Why does everything have to come in a riddle?

I need time to work on this as all I can think of is Elton's song Yellow Brick Road, and The wizard of Oz that the song was taken from, both being yellow.
I need to think what red means to me and what's out there on the net.
Will get back.

susan

30th March 2016, 08:00 AM

[QUOTE=susan;140005]Picked up an image of Jesus standing infront of a high red brick wall. The wall was higher than him, and the words ' The red brick wall will lead you home'.

Why does everything have to come in a riddle?

Okay had time to think and I think could be more than one interpretation .

I saw an image of Jesus!
A red brick wall, home.

Previous day spent much time trying to work out a way I could retire before state pension kicks in. Pen and paper came out and the only option I could see would be to sell my father's house I rent out but my problem was this would not be a popular decision with others. I just cannt see any other way .

I had also spent a long time watching a guru on utube and dissapointed that in a very gentle manner he would make fun of the questions put to him and I was feeling gentle arrogance. I've thought this before that some who are looked upon as Enlightened have people hanging on to their every word which I feel is wrong. We need to find out for ourselves but somethings missing. I feel lost sometimes.

So could the image of Jesus be a little thought to follow the teachings from Jesus rather than enlightened gurus who know it all.

The red brick wall will lead me home. It was a wall not a road so I think whizzard of Ozz is out.
Or could it be multi meaning. Also I noted how high the wall was. It was much higher than Jesus.
Maybe that selling the house ( red bricks that would look high when standing infront of)will be the answer .
However just as a twist I've found tucked away in the I pad cover a leaflet I'd forgotten about.The whole front cover is a high red brick wall with someone standing infront of it with a sign of my house postcode on it. It's the post code lottery.
Riddle after riddle.
I should be so lucky, NOT! ( however no harm in trying but am 99% that the sale of the house is the direction this image was suggesting)