Long-standing torture by astral (insectoid) parasites.

[Voluspa]

Hello,

I'm a new member who has for over a decade been tortured (literally) by invisible "bugs" (though I can vaguely see their typically astral oil-on-water-type "energy signature" as they escape from my skin, shooting off in response to my scratching*), depriving me of my sleep and dragging my life down into hell. Actually, things are not as bad as they used to be, but that's not saying much. And there seems to be no end to it. In spite of lifelong (and current) vigorous health (notwithstanding the sporadic abuse of alcohol which initially resulted from this torture), I am now unable to work more than four or five hours at a time because I haven't had proper rest. I am involved in very demanding writing and research projects, but I'm not up to the requirements of sustained concentration and a full day's work. I try to get naps, but usually this doesn't work because the "bugs" won't leave me alone. My Circadian rhythm is being regularly disrupted, and my energy level prohibits living the active life I've always lived.

DISCLOSURE: There attacks (and other extremely serious psychic attacks) were precipitated by the sustained practice of sex magick, along with the considerable intra-vino use of methamphetamine. No "black magick" on my part whatsoever was involved. I have tried all the banishing rituals and magickal weapons I know, and nothing works for very long. I know that I opened a portal to some very nasty entities, and obviously without adequate protection. And though I have succeeded in ending most of their attacks, the "bugs" persist. Without going into more detail, I strongly suspect that I am the victim of a rather powerful curse. I'm still working on possible counter-measures -- but meanwhile, I'm very tired!

Thanks in advance to anyone who dares tackle this one --

Voluspa

*Note here, as a matter of "subjective evidence" (contra the "delusional parasitosis" diagnosis that seems to be the knee-jerk response of the medical community), that I can also very definitely feel these things shooting into my hand as they are evicted. ( I have further compelling evidence of their non-delusional nature, as well.)

[SoulSail]

Hi Voluspa,

Welcome to the forum.

You'll find that several members here, myself included, have had to deal with some fairly intense activity from hostile entities from time to time. And some more than others, naturally.

But before I even dare to venture in here, I think it would be beneficial for the forum to get some clarity on a few things:

1. How long have you been off meth? I'm assuming ten years, but I've known a few who've hit the law of diminishing returns that kept using despite the rapid onset of misery.

2. What compelling evidence do you have for the "non-delusional nature" of the insects?

3. Have you had an MRI performed? If so, when?

You are no doubt aware that "bugs" under the skin comprise the most widely reported and documented side-effect of long-term use, but please understand this isn't an attempt to suggest anything, only get a few things cleared so others can also contribute here knowing as much possible up front.


Soul

[CFTraveler]

Do you see the bugs or just feel them?
Have you tried a mega salt bath?

[LPCF]

Sounds like Morgellon's disease to me. Lots of people have been diagnosed by traditionalist doctors as suffering from delusions, etc. and there are lots of articles on the net by people complaining that their doctors did not believe them and specialist examinations found nothing. But this article should show you the way:
http://www.telegraph.co.uk/health/8626767/Morgellons-Disease-continues-to-defeat-scientists.html

Astral negs do indeed exist, but in your case I think you should consider physical causes: tropical rat mites. (They are everywhere, not just in the tropics). Every best wish to you.

[DAN]

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DISCLOSURE: There attacks (and other extremely serious psychic attacks) were precipitated by the sustained practice of sex magick, along with the considerable intra-vino use of methamphetamine.

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Sorry to hear about your probs! I was a meth addict until the attacks got so bad my mind couldn't take it anymore. On meth you are so open to suggestion. The mind of the neg plus your own mind can feed this.

The countermeasures on this site are a must, to weaken the grip.Then I ended up walking away from spiritual stuff / beliefs and my life finally got back to normal.

[Voluspa]

Hello SoulSail,


I tried several times to post the following message a few days ago, to no avail. I'll now try again. If it doesn't work this time, I'm outa here.

Thanks for your prompt response. I will now answer your 3 questions in the only way I honestly and responsibly can.

1. I was never addicted to methamphetamine, nor have I ever been addicted to any drug. I used methamphetamine in conjunction with my magical activities. I have not used the drug for over 10 years now, nor have I been involved with sex magic.


2. The "compelling evidence" to which I refer would not be considered as such by the usual medical doctor, which only goes to show how inextricably stuck they are in the mindset of scientism. As I am dealing with (what are to most people) invisible phenomena which are in any case not detectable by present technology (imagine! something undetectable by our marvelously advanced technology!), there will be no evidence in the usual "empirical" sense. Hence, any evidence I present would be immediately disqualified by the so-called "scientific" mindset as being "subjective" experience and irrelevant to any "objective" perception of the "truth" -- and moreover, will be considered as evidence of pschopathology, since such phenomena as in undetectable "bugs" producing effects upon the human nervous system cannot possibly exist in reality. The subjective evidence I speak of, is nevertheless compelling to any truly open-minded, intelligent person, as you will see: The feeling produced by the "bugs" -- be itching, stinging, burning or, most commonly simply the sensation of something inserting itself or having inserted itself under my skin, will of course immediately result in my scratching what I perceive to be the place of the "bug". However, my perception of the exact location of the irritation is sometimes incorrect, causing me to move to a slightly different location, which usually (in one or two tries) results in the feeling of the "bug" escaping from under the skin and shooting into my hand (etherically or astrally speaking, of course). Presumably, you have better sense than the psychiatrists who are content to wave off everything as delusion and evidence of pathology. What can be more ludicrous than to attribute the just-described experience to "delusion"? There is absolutely no question whatsoever that these are real things. The only "delusions" are in the minds of those who, "blinded by science", refuse to see.


Incidentally, I should remind you that, with regard to drug use and paranormal experience, correlation does not imply causation, and that while serious abuse of methamphetamine or any powerful drug may produce psychotic (or psychotomimetic) symptoms, the psychopharmacological effects may also be the facilitating factors for very real, paranormal experience. Though I am perhaps being longwinded here and digress from the immediate matter at hand, I feel it is important to make this point for those who have ears to hear, regarding the prevailing "memes." Those of us who care about truth should guard against becoming subject to the hysterical attitude of this society -- reinforced unremittingly by government and the medical and pharmaceutical establishments -- regarding mind-altering drugs and paranormal experience, fueling the mendacious and self-serving over-medicalization of of so-called "psychiatric" disorders (eg., "delusions of parasitosis," "psycho-cutaneous disease," etc) and resulting in unnecessary and harmful medicalization in lieu of real answers and real help. Anneliese Michel's doctor administered Tegretol, a powerful anti-convulsant and mood- stabilizing drug right up to her tragic death. Without such a drug, she may well have been able to fight off the demons which were attacking her. Instead, she was murdered by them, and the priests, instead of the stupid doctor, stood trial and were convicted of negligent homicide. That was a case of demonic murder which could have been prevented had the psychiatric establishment and its delusions not held sway in "enlightened" Europe -- as it does here. Ignorance and stupidity, fueled by religion, ideology and powerful economic interests, has consequences for real people.


3. With regard to an MRI, obviously it was considered unnecessary by the doctor whom I saw dozens of times for this problem. He is associated with the UCSF School of Medicine and is one of the most eminent physicians in the country, the recipient of numerous prestigious honors and listed ini the Who's Who of Doctors. He is licensed to practice in the dual specialties of psychiatry and dermatology. Presumably, had I had any history of psychiatric illness or were there reason to suspect a brain lesion, he would have ordered an MRI. But I have never had a stroke, and am in fact -- as my friends are won't to jealously point out -- "disgustingly healthy."


I hope I have satisfactorily answered your questions. Thank you again for your very responsible response.


Cheers and Blessings,


Voluspa

[Voluspa]

DISREGARD THIS POST, PLEASE -- VOLUSPA.

Your system is not working properly, and I'm out of patience with trying to post an answer to SoulSail for the last few days. If he wishes to correspond with me privately via email (below), that's fine. But I'm outta here.

Voluspa

projectvargold@gmail.com

[Voluspa]

SoulSail,

Sorry about the delay in responding, the system wouldn't work. My response was posted yesterday, Thursday.

Voluspa

[CFTraveler]

DISREGARD THIS POST, PLEASE -- VOLUSPA.

Your system is not working properly, and I'm out of patience with trying to post an answer to SoulSail for the last few days. If he wishes to correspond with me privately via email (below), that's fine. But I'm outta here.

Voluspa

projectvargold@gmail.com
I'm not sure why you say the system didn't work? The message clearly says it was posted yesterday, and I saw it yesterday. Perhaps there is a problem with your browser?

[SoulSail]

Dearest Voluspa,

You've been on my mind a great deal today (and since your initial post), and I was one step away from reposting on your original thread in hopes I'd signal you. So I'll take this as a grace. Your post came through clear. Thank you for hanging in there with me and us.


First, I fear I may have revealed a false hand in how I responded--a hand that doesn't accurately reflect my thoughts, hunches, or senses on your situation. For that I apologize.

I'll save us both a lot of typing by saying this: I read your words carefully and I see clearer now. And in fact, we are in almost 100% agreement on your points, point for point. And instead of elaborating on all the major (and minor) ways we can approach this, I'm curious if you've had the chance to read Robert's book called Psychic Self Defense. Please understand that I'm not advocating Robert's work on this topic for any other reason than that it saved my sanity. In fact, that book is what originally brought me to this forum when I began dealing with a serious neg in my home and beyond.

It's scarcely possible for me to describe how many manifestations I endured two years ago. I woke daily with snakebite all over my body, mostly my head. Yes, I measured fang distance. Every day the same thing, punctures on my forehead, neck, feet. It was horrific, yet nothing is insurmountable. The Light is supportive, no matter what we've done, where we've been, etc. Before I get to sounding like an evangelist here, just suffice to say that I've shot video of my sheets moving before bed. I've come face to face with tormentors in the form of black smoke. I've heard voices threaten to consume me alive. Voices that if I were to express to a Dr., I would be dismissed as exhibiting psychotic features. Sad, I know.

So that's that.

Onward from here I highly recommend Psychic Self Defense as a starting point. It's got excellent quick-start steps up front to just get you sleeping again. They worked for me. The fight was long, but taking a multiple-front approach worked.

If you cannot afford the book, I will send it to you for free, along with any other material that may help. I've got a few on my shelf for this very purpose so I can recommend more as well. You'll need to send me a personal email here with shipping info.

I'm on your side and I know I can speak for many here.

Fair?

Soul

(p.s. If you're not a published writer, you should be)