IA´s dream diary....

[IA56]

In last night dream I was talking with a man, and I told him about the sexual energy that is is strong but do not mean intercourse.....that can be used for the inner work.

I hear someone saying....there will soon be an after shave in our name??

[IA56]

Last night dream was a little bit different...I thought all happened before I fell to sleep..but that can´t have bean the case...I see a lot of movement on my 3-eye...and Samuel´s word´s came to me....be prepared for a surprise....and yes I was highly surprised...over the movement on the 3-eye .....then I become aware that I was sleeping and dreaming...

I hear someone asking me...Is it your mother crying....No, I said...it is my grandmother......

[IA56]

Have bean pondering about last night dreams, it went like this...
I was in a old acquintance a women´s apparament...I was surprised that she had taken down all the paintings she used to have on the walls...She had a talking photo of her as young..I stopped an
listened what she said...she told me about her dreams she had as young but ske did not fulfill them as an adult...I Went to kitchen an found her there, I saw a bed and when I was going to sit on the bed
I felt there was someone in the bed, I felt it and it awoken fear in me..I approached her and said..there is someone sleeping in the bed...she nodded at me...now my son entered the kitchen and he
sat on the bed...I again faced the women and I said..he does not notice it, so I am not going to tell him...and she shook her head...

In this episode of dream ..I was with someone who did not believe in me..and the common me or the day aware me part and the more aware part of me...looking at this person...me the not that aware or self sure part of me not saying anything to the person who is questioning me and my knowledge...the more aware self secure part of me throwing a book at the person who is questioning me..and said...here...here is a book of proof..the graduation proof...and I go..do I have a graduation book???...here I awoke myself it was too much to take in...

[IA56]

Last night dream I did have at my friend E´s home, I did sleep over after we had visited the Alvastra monk monestry ruin....It started before I fell at sleep..someone like massagen my left shoulder?? I did think ...I will not be afraid...thank you for the massage....I did have several dreams...one was that I was at a bathroom...I hear loud baning...I open the bath-room door and I see a kitchen...I cow was stuck at the kitchen and it awoke such a fear in me...so I went to this dream...I was outside in a garden...I see a shape of a horse-shoe...like a table made of rock....I was looking around and no chaires ..so I was thinking...oh so they just sit on the ground...okay....I did go an dialog with someone but it is so unclear to me what we where talking about it is hard so say so much...but I was like defending something??

[IA56]

I have had a feeling that I have bean in meditation the whole night??..or then it has bean the dream??...I did see much scenarios in my inner vision...I did see my sister sleeping at the right side of the view....and I was thinking....yes she is on the right hand path.....I did see myself in the middle...and I go....middle path...what is that??...am I on the middle path??...is that my path??...then I look at the left...and nothing ....it was white ...and nothing??

[IA56]

Last night dream was surprising to say the least....My father father was sitting on a chair for Kings...like a Godfather...and everyone was greating him by men/boys kissing his hands and women/girls kissing his forhead??...My father and his children be before my fathers brothers family..because my father is older then his brother....When my fathers brothers oldest boy was kissing grandfathers hands...he did mumble...he will urinate on my brothers....my sister did say something what I now do not remember....after what my sister said...he responded...then I will pee on you too.....so I wanted to lighten up the atmosphere...so I said...then I will kiss your face until you be sorry for saying/doing such a thing....

[IA56]

Last night was little bit different...I do not remember dreams but I awoke several times when both hearing someone saying and sometimes me saying...patinjali...I do not know how to spell it but it sounded....patinjali??

[WhiteMonkey]

Hey IA,

I thought about the word patinjali and it sounded familiar to me, somehow. I checked with google auto translate and knew somehow that it will be written "patin yali".
According to them it means "Afraid of pressure in vivo(in the body)" in chinese. - https://translate.google.com/#auto/en/patin%20yali

After googling that sentence I found this article:

Pressures between 10 and 100 MPa can exert powerful effects on the growth and viability of organisms. Here I describe the effects of elevated pressure in this range on mesophilic (atmospheric pressure adapted) and piezophilic (high-pressure adapted) microorganisms. Examination of pressure effects on mesophiles makes use of this unique physical parameter to aid in the characterization of fundamental cellular processes, while in the case of piezophiles it provides information on the essence of the adaptation of life to high-pressure environments, which comprise the bulk of our biosphere. Research is presented on the isolation of pressure-resistant mutants, high-pressure regulation of gene expression, the role of membrane lipids and proteins in determining growth ability at high pressure, pressure effects on DNA replication and topology as well as on cell division, and the role of extrinsic factors in modulating enzyme activity at high pressure.
http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/11983409


So I would say say something amazing is happening to you ;)
What would you say about this information? Does it feels right?

All the best

[IA56]

Hey IA,

I thought about the word patinjali and it sounded familiar to me, somehow. I checked with google auto translate and knew somehow that it will be written "patin yali".
According to them it means "Afraid of pressure in vivo(in the body)" in chinese. - https://translate.google.com/#auto/en/patin%20yali

After googling that sentence I found this article:

http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/11983409


So I would say say something amazing is happening to you ;)
What would you say about this information? Does it feels right?

All the best

Hi WM,
Well, that sure will explaine my feelings of new fear invading me again...I have said to my friend E for some time ago..that soon is something big happening...so...what this patinyali will do for changes ...we have to waite to see/feel :-)
Thank you for finding this explanation....when I googled it only came up...Patanjali...a yoga teacher who seam to have existed for over 2000 year ago??

Love
ia

[WhiteMonkey]

Yes I found that teacher too but something told me it must be a "y" instead of a "j" so I googled it directly that way.

[IA56]

Yes I found that teacher too but something told me it must be a "y" instead of a "j" so I googled it directly that way.

Thank you WM,
It does feel more accurat the preasure fear...because I do have a new awakened fear...and it has to do with the body...I find it most interesting your finding, you are good tracker...:-)

Love
ia

[IA56]

Last night dream is so embarrasing...but I will write it anyhow....I was to a spa and I tried to go to the swimingpool but all the time I was interrupted and I had to do something else, like helping someone....but now I was determined nothing to stop me going to the swimingpool...I started to take my clotings off when I took my knickers off I noticed there was blood, and I felt pain near my privat parts...I was worried, a femal friend come and I was just to ask her if she could look when a male doctor entered into the room...the femal asked the male doctor to look...so I asked if it is okay if I bend over and if he can see clearly...yes he said...and he really took time and I was patient and let him do what he needed to do...now he started to sniff my privat parts...and I first felt that he maybe needs to smell if it is an infection, but when it started to be more subtle to be more sexual then an doctors examination...I standed up and said ..stop...he looked at me and asked why I deny myself nearness....I do not ...but this situation is not that kind of situation what you can call nearness...this supposed to be a doctors examination of me...nothing else....then I said...if you are interested in me..why do you not approache me normally?? not like this to ambuch me...you should give me the time I need and not rusch me.....

[IA56]

The only thing I remember from my dream is that I said...I will read Hesekiel....and I woke up when I was served a extra ordinary meal...I was so surprised that I woke up....

[susan]

IA, could it have been Ezekiel? The prophet.( maybe he's spelt with an H in some languages, don't know.)
Could the meal represent full of goodness.
I usually find when I wake up with a surprise I'm meant to and it's very meaningful and should be taken notice of.

[IA56]

IA, could it have been Ezekiel? The prophet.( maybe he's spelt with an H in some languages, don't know.)
Could the meal represent full of goodness.
I usually find when I wake up with a surprise I'm meant to and it's very meaningful and should be taken notice of.

Hi Susan,
Yes in Swedish it is spelled with H.
This is so huge for me that I can not fathom it, I am here still holding my breath.

I started to read the Ezekiel in the Bible in Swedish, I have the Bible in English too, King James version is different from the Swedish version.
It is so painful for me to read about the wrath of God because my knowledge about God is so different. But I will read it and try to understand why I have to read it.

Love
ia

[IA56]

This morning I was alerted in my dream the TV news about Pope visiting Hong Kong...it was so huge news that I totally awakened from the dream...

[IA56]

Yesterday dream was so compelling to me that I just came off my meditation practis too...I was visiting my ex husbands parents, they lived in a huge house, we where all standing in the livingroom when I hear like a bomb went off...the whole house lifted up in the air...and I was sure we all will be shattered and die, but the house did flew several hundreds meter and landed intact...wow...I asked the ex husbands father what happened, and who would do thing like this...he looked at me and he said...someone wanted to send me a message that the foundation was not build enough stable...I asked who did build the house...and he said...I did.....

Now last night dream was also huge....I was very aware about me being in the altered state...I just wanted to fall to sleep because I had today to meassure my blood preassure, and it will be high if I have not slept good enough....so it went on and I felt someone grabbing my both right hand and left hand...I was starting to figure out who would hold my hands...but before I could think this thought out...they started to pull me towards both directions at the same time...and I was sure I will die....but what happened when my arms did freed from my body...I came out as new...and it was like sleeves went off a jumper...??...Now I had my hands free and I now saw someone hoovering above me...it was a man and he was like compact white haze?? he was like 20 cm above me...so I took my hands and tried to push him away...but I had no strength in my arms....this was so frustrating so I awoke me from the dream...I went back to sleep ...and I was just hearing someone to start to say....the time is up-...when my alarm clock went off...:-)

[IA56]

Last night dream is not that easy to write about....it is a new communication system what I am not familar with yet...so it is like a hunch yet rather clear at the same time but different then what I am used to....but I try my best to picture it out....It was a travelling direction what I had to decide...one of me did the decission for me so I took it that that part was the more knowing of me....so what I understood that if you did not know and went on the journey then you could take a not so safe road....so this went so quick ...but I did catch it...it was a symbol and a colore...it was a specific yellow colore and it had a loong triangle...the sides was loong...and it was called...the prayres path....so this was choosen for me...or I did trust the part of me who knew it was safe...
So the middle prayres path...hm......what can it be...I have to google.

[IA56]

I only remember this seequence from last night dream....I see my cousin P sleeping on her couch...I approach her slowly to see if she is sleeping...I will not disturbe her in case she is sleeping...when suddenly she kicks at me...I notice she has blue shoes on her...I get afraid of the sudden movement...and of course hurt that she kicks at me....so I did not come up with anything in my both fear and anger when I said...what is wrong with you behind-fly....when I hear me saying this to her I started to laugh so I awoke me from the dream....behind-fly.....what did that come from??

[IA56]

Some nights ago I did Dream about a orange card and a green colored card...and I hear someone say....now you have the license to shoot??

Last night I dreamt about my grandchildren...both was in my dream...it was so nice...we where at some party...it is so complicated detaljes so I do not even try to write about them....

[IA56]

In last night´s dream I was waiting someone to arrive....I run out to a field with hight grass...suddenly a thought came to me....there might be snakes in the grass....I had not quite eneded the thought when a huge snake did pass by me....I freeze....but I was able to focus and keep my cool....and only observe it...this was a test dream....I think I passed it...or ...I am nearing this kind of test to pass it...

[IA56]

Who is the one that do not let me sleep?? I usually do wake up early in the morning, but when I go back and try to sleep one hour more I am not allowed??
Or is this connected to the big beating of me?? He did not let me sleep, he kept me awake to be able to controll me, and to brainwash me.
It might be wishful thinking that someone is afraid I might not wake up if I go back to sleep??If it is who can it be??
Who is so afraid that I do not wake up??or is it veiled to make me think someone is caring when it is the opposit, or is it the memory to be worked out??

[IA56]

Last night dreams was few I remember, I had made an appointment with an insurance agent to come to my home...the door-bell rand and I opened the door, outside was standing a huge man...when he entered the apartament his head touched the seeling, I said my name and he breafly touched my hand, but he did walk towards my mother and said to her to follow him...and she did....there where other people too, I was looking out of the window and was asking repetedly, where did they go, when will they come back....and the time passed and I become impatient and Went out to seerech for them, but no-where was they found....

I noticed that I was on a farm, and I see people who do the milking and I look at the clock, it was 5 pm and I was thinking, do they milk at this time?...

I was sitting with some women they where strangers to me, but I did sit with them, I was making some kind of hat, it looked little bit strange, and the females did look but did not dare to comment, so I said, I am going to a party and the theam is ...self-made costyme...so I will have this on my head, and I laughed...they did stand up and Went away...so I said...have fun...one of them looked strangely at me...did not get what I had done wrong??
It did have some fur on it like shamans from some tribes have....

There was some kind of paper bag...some asked me what it is...I said it is death??...I did have some explanation what I have forgotten now....

[IA56]

I am so frustrated and compelled, last night I had again a dream what is coherent to the dream night before...I do not remember what did happen but I did like "awaken" or to become more focused...it was the same paper-bag what represented death....I hear myself say...I can´t give birth to death...someone answered... no not you but Gretchen??

I do not know any Gretchen...and what does the symbolism stand for?? anyone thoughts, please.....

[IA56]

In last night dream I was told to love precocioucly?? All was so clear in the dream, I did even explain to someone but now it is gone, I do not understand the meaning of this line??

[IA56]

Last night dream was again in symbols....I was looking at a sceenary and nothing unusual was showing....but suddenly....it come out as...yellow and green threads...so clear...a consequence....it awoke fear in me....then suddenly someone threw white cotton-balls at me...I did not be frightened...and I remember this test was done to me for years ago...and that time it awoke fear in me...so some changes has happened inside of me...this makes me happy.

[IA56]

Last night dream was a reminder....I had moved back to north and was living in the same house I lived in before, I was asked to be a some kind of book keeper, he who asked me did come by to ask me in person, I was outside working with garden, he drow a big car like a suv....I tried to ask more what was asked me to handle and I tried to figure out how to do this task, so I asked, how do I get the information and from whom, he said, we will use an out caller, okay I said, so the report will have one day´s delay....suddenly I noticed someone inside the house, I said to him to wait a minut I have to check this out...I did hear voices from the upper floor...here the dreem did make a pause...and I was back to the man outside the house...and this seequenze was like not happened it felt very strange because I was so aware of it but the skip was done like deleted from my memory but I was aware of it but the man does not know that I did keep it even he did believe it was deleted...hard to explain....I tried to ask the man how will it be reported to me...if the hunter has shot several species even those
not allowed...he grinned at me...they will be reported to you as mooses.....I said ...no thank you...I can´t become your book-keeper.....

[IA56]

Last night dream is that kind of dream what I have difficulty to dress in words...it is symbolic both in colores and patterns...it did also get other meaning when it was zoomed upon and out zoomed...when out zoomed it did get overall bigger or deeper meaning....It did affect deeper in me and my inner feelings...when I say inner feelings it is other than the usual feelings.

[IA56]

Last nights dreams was as the night before, but one difference...I had bean doing friendship bracelets..so when the colored threads showed up I said...oh I know ..it is because of the bracelets I made...but then it was shown again to me...and I noticed that it was not that colored at all, so it was trying to show me that it is not that....but I did not figure out eighder what it was.....My inner seeing is changing...it is more up-lighted if I can use that way to put it.....before I did see like in twilight....

[IA56]

Last night dream was so stressful...someone did take my car keys out of my pocket and leaving a hole heap of strange other keys?? in my pocket...I looked at the keys and I said, I am sure they will come back with my keys because they do need theirs keys eventually.....

[IA56]

Last night dream is nothing new it is a recurrent theme...before it has awaken such a fear like a terror in me...so I have awoke at once it has shown it self....but last night I was able to look at it before I went awake ...I have not bean able to decide if it is evil or only ugly...so different looking what I am not used to see...last night I was able to look longer time and still I can't decide because I become like chocked still....it has not communicated yet with me...only shown it self...as last night too....I do not know what to think??

[IA56]

Last night dream was a sum up of my life to this point...now the past has been released and are not affecting me so much as before....It was little bit confusing and turbulent to for me too let go even I have wished for this for so long, but when the time has come...it is not easy...get used to even bad things...and holding on to them...so strange...but true....I feel much lighter today....and the future is not known ....has to live and see...exiting but scaring too :-)

[IA56]

Last night before I fell to sleep I did see patterns total unknown to me....I do not know what to even call them...like hieroglyphs maybe.....or if someone uses magic do they make like figures and patterns ??....no clue what to think and why I did see them??

The dreams I had last night was about nurturing both elderly and young people....one young man I was caring and had responsibility to care for....he did not want to eat...and I had to measure and keep booking over his eating and drinking.....a nurse did come with food what he did not like....he did throw it away but was telling me what he did...I thanked him for being truthful...I notised that he did not have any problems to eat what he liked.....the elderly women I had to care for too...was in bed very weak....she did do her needs in bed...I was thinking about the saying in finland if you see feces in your dreams you will be rich...so if this is true then I will become rich....haha.....

[IA56]

Last night dream I was chased again, but this time I was not in total panic so I always did see a way out.....the old stress has eased I can notice from my dreams.....

[IA56]

This lesson I was shown last night in my dream is the hardest one for me to learn....to not to intervene..to let others have there experiences even it is going to hurt them.....

The dream was like this.....I was looking at a man who had 3 bees circulating around his head....he is trying to get them go away....I stand up and go to help him...I start to wave my hands to get them to go away....and suddenly I feel a hand grabbing my neck...and very firmly letting me know to stop...and let him handle the situation by himself.....

This is so hard....how can I learn this?? to stop helping??

I do now understand that it is not helping if I am not letting people have very valuable lessons to learn...but how can I know what is what...when to help and when to let go??
I suppose next lesson is to see the difference to know when to act and when to watch.

[IA56]

Last night dream I was awakened 3 times...??...It sounded like an alarm went off, and I awake and remembered I have not set an alarm, and I do not remember for what I was awakened??...Dream I had was that there was some kind of colored wave I had to follow....I do not remember more of the dream.

[IA56]

Last night I had a dream about a women in the dream she was my best friend, but I do not know her in real life.....her birthday was coming up, and I did see her later on her birthday, she was working as usual, her father did own a furniture company...she was working for her father...I joked and said...why did you not sleep over in the shop, and let them bring you breakfast in bed?? she told me that she had early breakfast fest with people who wanted to congratulate her...her phone rang and she told me that Mariann from Tumba furnitures did call and wish her happy birthday.

I was also wondering in my dream why I do not dream as usual, I usual have many dreams by night...but not now days??

[IA56]

I had this dream the day before this...a talking horse?? I said to the horse....hyvä (good in Finnish) he said in swedish I do not understand what that means...I told the horse that it is bra (good in swedish)....I told the horse that I will learn him Finnish but he said he is swedish and not interested to learn Finnish....the horse was veiled...his mule and half how his body...like the horses could be veiled in knights era....I had to follow them and they ran into a castle to the underground pathway...I was concerned how to escape if the whole horse cluster will run towards me they will trample me down, but I could see that there was stairways up to the castle every now and then...so I felt secure to know I can be safe.

[IA56]

Last night I had a dream that I was standing in a flooding place I had high heals on me...I looked at the water rising higher and higher and I said out loud ...I wonder if I am going to drown......I hear my mother say...No you will be poisoned??

[IA56]

Last night...all night I have bean cleaning the ground...both indoors and outdoors.....I am totally exhausted...:-)

[IA56]

Last night has bean strange...I have in several occations asked...who is for me....and I was shown both situations and people...then I started to ask...who is my judge and who is judging me....every time when I was going to see it...I was awaken and total awake from the dream?? so this was playing on and on the whole night....I never got to see who was judging me??
only who was for me....

[IA56]

Last night dream was about my son, I have given him too big shoes, so my sister did give new one´s, but they where too small.

[IA56]

Last night I had a dream with a blond girl...but the story is similar to my son....he never enjoyed his time in kindergarten...as not the girl eighder in the dream.....the day did come when I did take her out of the kindergarten and she was smiling from ear to ear...the teacher did say...I feel she will not return....and I said...No she will not.....

My son was 7 years old when I did take him out from the kindergarten and hired a day-care ...a women who did send him to school and he did go to her after school until I did come and get him after my work.

So why was is it a girl in the dream and not my son as the story was his??

Ooooh...I see now...the girl is me in the dream...I did look like that as a girl about 6-7 yrs old....so I have passed the kindergarten state...good :-)

[IA56]

The happening of last night shows me that I have really developed more out of my fear.....the experience or what happened is hard to dress in words....so I will not even try....I was able to be in the happening without panic ...I tried to understand....I am not sure I did....but I have a hunch of why it happened.....

[IA56]

Last night I did see as I have seen so many times before...some kind of hieroglyph like signs it was on white background and the signs was more white then the background??...
The feeling was calm and soothing.

[IA56]

Last night dream, my childhood friend T did contact me (she died some years ago) telepathically to come to the adress we both lived as children....when I arrived she was sitting infront of the door to the 9 floored building...she was frozen by fear...and she said....do you not see....first I did not understand but then I turned around and saw a very huge moose....I opened the door into the building and I said to her...we take the elevator up to the top floor...I do not think the moose can climb up the stairs...

[IA56]

I woke up this morning with headache and nausea ....the only thing I remember from my night is that I was with a very angry and negative man....he was very toxic....

from this dream I understand the saying my mother did say....when I asked if I will drown ...she said ...no you will be poisoned.

[IA56]

Last night dream was horrible, I was visiting as a guest a castle, I had to share a big room with others?? I was sleeping and woke up that an old man was lying besides me?? He like dry humped me and I turned around and was surprised that this old nice gentleman did do this, his wife have gone for breakfast...I said...if you do not stop I will yell, he did not stop so I halloed....help...help...he said...omg...are you for real...stop or I will do something horrible...I was able to get free and I said...I will tell everyone....he said...if you do that...then you will see what I will do....I ran out from the room and run into my mother?? I noticed she had make up on her, that was not usual...she was very familiar with the castle....I was wondering why I had to share room with other couples when others had own rooms??....I was so disappointed so I awoke me from the dream.....

[IA56]

Last night dream I was driving my car when suddenly from my left side a white suv hailed me so I had to turn to right as he also was going, he did not even stop to check if all was well with me, he just drove away and I was looking and seeing his tail lights disapeare, I turned back to the road what was going straight forward.

[IA56]

Last night in my dream I have had faced horror and bad happenings, I was feeling comfy that no one other than me and few knew what has happened, but when I went outside of my home someone had placed a news paper strategidly so I would see it, it all was in the news paper, everyone knew....how can I go out when everyone knows??

[IA56]

Last night dream was a bit compelling...I had a man living with me as a room mate, I saw a women and a man visiting him but it was something strange about them so I run after them and asked ....who are you....from where are you....are you from Andromeda....the man did not answer but the women did...but I did not hear what she said...something similar to Andromeda.....I went to visit my sister and she knew about the new place...she said we have to start all over...no electricity and it is to really start all over..??

[IA56]

In last night dream I was focusing on my mothers home care takers...I have suspected they did not treat mother well...I asked a friend to call and ask how it was with my mother, and the care taker did say that they are very thorough to write down all what is happening at my mother home...so she read from the notes ...and they had written down also my mothers responses in the notes....and when she did come to a place where mother did respond.....I do not understand Chinese....I did take the telephone and asked what in reality had happened, if my mother answered that way you must have confused her somehow.....I said, it it easy to write down in notes what ever...and claim for truth....I insisted to know what really had happened,...I did become so upset that I awoke from the dream??

[IA56]

Last night dream was little bit confusing, I did look at my feet´s and I had so beautiful green high heals on me...I felt so wonderful to walk in them....I did lift my eyes and I was met by a gay man´s eyes....I did look at the left of me...and his right....I saw it was a friend of mine...I did not know at that moment that the man who´s eyes I have met was his partner...I did know that my friend was gay..but I did not know that he was together with the other man....so now I see that he is talking to my friend....and I know also how wrong he had interpreted me...my friend do really know me well...so he was laughing when he said I was flirting with him....I was not...but he was not aware of his own feelings so I knew that he did not interpret me eyes energy right....he did be flattered by my straight forward looking into his eyes....he was not used to this kind of behaving.

[IA56]

In last night dream I was asked what is most important in life....I illustrated it with taken a small child in my lap and kissed his forehead.....

[IA56]

In last night dream I noticed a new symbol or a way to look at symbolically shown to me....I know that I have bean fooled many times in life when a person want´s me to help them or do things for them are that they say they do not know how to do things....so last night in my dream there was a little child...but when looking more closely I noticed his very well developed muskels....he was older and more skilled then he wanted me to know...and he wanted only to use me and my kindness.....

[IA56]

Last night dream I was all the time guided wrong..time went and I never got to get to the adress I was supposed to be at....the phone rang and one of my guides did look who did call me...he grinned when he saw it was my husband....he (my husband in the dream) did not understand what has happened that I have not come home...I tried to tell that I have not yet got to the job adress I was supposed to go to for some interview....the first one was drunk...and then the others just did leave me half way and vanished...and now I was trapped in a apartment with an unwilling guide to take me further even he promised??

[IA56]

Last night dream was very very strange??...Police have given me a license to check on peoples mail-boxes??..If they get some items by post I had to take them and bring them to the police office??...One day when I was checking a old neighbours mail-box, it was a smal plate, he opened the door and looked at me, I said...I have right to confiscate this...do you need to see my license?? No he said...I know you have.

[IA56]

Last night I had a dream about a man who shifted into a wolf....and back....I got so afraid so I started so scream ....Help....so he toke a stick and forced violently it into my throat....I did awoke me from the dream it was too violent and horrible....

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In last night dream I was stopped in customs they found my vitamins and asked me what is this and why I have so many with me...I told them that I have just done a cancer treatment and now need to eat much vitamins....it is why I want to do this trip to sun to heal better and need all my vitamins....my doctor have ordered them for me....

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Last night dream I was asked to show my most beautiful stone...I had a big stone collection...I was first sure that I knew what I liked most..but when looking closely I saw a white stone with pink inprint of a Jesus...wow...I did not even know I had this stone....so I choose to show this stone as my most beautiful stone.

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Last night dream was a check list....when I come to the part of list...what to buy home....I knew it was morning so I opened my eyes and yes it was 7.40...time to get up..:-)

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Last night dream I did feel I traveled backwards and did see this big hall ...a bit further back I did see my name written in beautiful pink colors....I did go on floating backwards and now I did see a couple in wine red clotings and I knew they where Germans.....I did travel further and now I could look into a chamber or a tube to get some treatment for illnesses what yet no other treatment was invented...I did see the person be chained with both hands and feet...so they will lye still during the treatment....I did travel further still with being like drawn backwards...I did see some with horses they did get an advice to go and collect grass for the horses.....I did travel on and now I see one women telling that why she did be still married is for she did get the advice to hold on it will pay off and she said...it has.....

This is similar as I did dream the day before this...where I was like reading a check list in the air written with big letters....as my name was written....the check list text was white...

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The only thing I remember from my dream from last night is me shouting....go more to the middle....and I remember starting to think...what does that mean, is it a middle path or what??

I have had so many dreams lately but I do not remember them when I awake, only knowing I have had so many dreams.

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Very strange sequences I saw last night in my dreams....I saw a naked man...what was catching my attention was his privat parts....very small....he started to do some movements and suddenly he had a huge one...I asked how do he do that....and the answer was...he is doing pantomime.....

In this sequence I was shown how to melt ice....I was in a area of deep snow...when I looked down I saw a person lying in the is/snow and I already did see it´s stomach...and the melted is/snow was turning to boiling water....

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Last night dream was a confirmation about what I already know.....My relationship to my mother was never there, I did never cry as an infant and my mother did only feed me and keep me clean, and when I did not cry she never thought I needed nearness....so when I turned 40 I did divorce my second husband and started to see why I was so afraid of women nearness, and I thought that I might be lesbian...so I did take contact with people who was homosexual and I stayed 4 years with them....I did found out that I was not homosexual....

Last night dream did confirm what I had discovered.....the dream was like this....I was approached by a very beautiful women, I asked her if she was lesbian, and she said no...I tried to kiss her but her lips was stiff...I kissed her chest...and it was not a bit arousing ...and I felt that it was the female nearness it was about lacking in my life....so we did stop this sexual act and only embraced each other.....

In this sequence I was looking at some strange bits of crystal plates...it was my sons...and I was surprised that he did know how to use them....I noticed that this area what he did know so well was total unknown to me....

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In last night dream the symbolism was very clear to me from earth view....I had buy a new car...I did test drive it and all seamed to be well, but after I have arrived at home the seller had put a grill what was little bit burned into the car, they did not show it to me before I had payed the car, but followed me home and put it in to the car, so I would never win against them if I wanted to re-cansle the car, they would tell me that the bit has all the time being in the car to for me to see.....it is like this all my life the truth has bean hidden for me, and when I see the truth and tell it, they say I am crazy and sick to say so, always after construction ...hidden until it is too late to get it right.....I can never win, because the truth is always hidden for so long that get it right is too late??...but this is only this way here on earth....on the other realm as in energy level it is not this way....but I suspect that I am being trained all my life to pay attention to details ....but I am no good at all still on this.....it is hard for me....I might never learn this in this life time :-(

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In last night dream I had like a passage on the floor in my apartment .... a white dove did come through it...I tried to say, no do not come, but the dove did enter my living room, I told my son to help me and he said, I will soon show how to put the dove back the same way....as I had to wait the dove did take a small plate and put it on her head...oh I said, you are thirsty..
I took a deep plate and filled it with water, and put it on the floor...she started to talk and I could hear it was some old relative to me....maybe my mothers/fathers granny....she used old language and that gave me the feeling who she was....I now was enthusiastic...told her that she has to learn to go on the newspaper with her needs, and I will leave the balcony door open for her to come and go how she needs....

In this sequence I took care of my cousins child...a girl....she was so cleaver.....I was little bit concerned when the cousins brother did take the child and put it on his chest...he had a bare chest...first I said...yes skin to skin is good...but when I did see how he got goose bumps I got worried??...now he threw the child away...brutally...I asked what is the matter...and he said...look how she looks at me....and I did see total awe on her eyes and face when looking at her uncle....I said to him...but is it so strange...you are very good looking man...and I imitated her..looking with awe on my face....now he did calm down....and seamed to understand.

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Last night dream I was hanging out with 2 men, one of them did leave and me and the other one did go to a place for coffee, suddenly the man who left earlier did come and when he did see us sitting there he went away suddenly, I tried to joke with him about his hair, he had curly hair and it was rainy out, I tried to ask if he got more curly hair now when it is raining, but he did not give any attention to me, like he did not want others to know that we know each others?? I was so surprised and was wondering what about me was so shameful to be acquaintance with me??

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Last night dream I was visiting an old friend who had horses, we visited the horses and I could notice one of the horses was very old and not that long time of life left, the younger horse did joke and keep the old horses mood up, I could notice red on the horses hair and I joked if they have visited and hair-dresser...haha....I felt deep fear as I always have felt against horses....I went into a house several floors up...it was pitch black and I sensed something in the darkness....soon I started to see in the dark and I noticed a huge horse....I have never seen so big horse...I told him that I am so afraid, and he said he can feel it.....I admire horses and I wonder why I can´t work my fear away??...I looked out of the window and the horse was as high as the building, he felt fear also because of my fear....

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In last night dream I was back to a place where I have lived before, this person did not know me so I started to tell him that I have bean married twice and he said...thank god.....we arrived to a cottage it was owned by the church...the boyfriend I was with he was somewhere else, and this other man who did ask things about me was very interested in me, I hold me back because I had already a boyfriend....to my surprise I noticed that my boyfriend was interested in men, and used me as a cover up....it did hurt me deep...that he did not tell me...I had to discover it by myself.....I did notice this when it was time to go to bed...he did not want to sleep besides me but beside a man....I felt deep sorrow what I still carry in my heart now when I am awake....

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Last night dream I was in my childhood town where I grew up, I know the town rather well, I was there with one friend from a course we were taken, we had a break and went to town, I told her that I want to buy some candy, the first kiosk I tried to buy had not what I wanted, I told her that this kiosk was the best when I was a child, they had all kind of candy, we went further and now I spotted a new kiosk, she sat down on a bench and waited for me when I went to buy, I at once saw a wonderful pink fluffy big ones like maschmellows, I told I want two, they took the whole plate with several on it and went out to some back room and came back like nothing has happened acting like I had not ordered anything yet and asked what I want, I told them that I want the pink ones they said we are out of them?? they did show me several others but I told that I only want the pink ones...so I had to leave without anything, my friend had left me and I was by my own and I did come late the the class....

The whole night was like this that I did not get anywhere and I did not succeed to get any help or understanding, I was all the time counteracted....

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Last night dream I was getting a code...I only remember the middle one of the code because it took time for me to get it right....the code was like this.....xxx-T1N-xxx..While I was getting it right I said...oh it is a bad ass....have no memory what so ever what it was about.....

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In last night dream I reveled one pedophile.....Police had said to me that they need more evidence against the man...and they put me to be near the ung girl so she do not get hurt....but I noticed very soon that I was not able to protect her...he the pedophile was so clever....so I had to say it out loud....I was happy that the girls mother was to hear it too....I told everyone that he is a pedophile and that police do know about him.....he did get so angry and he lashed out against me....but off course he did not do anything because there was so many people so I felt protected when I reveled him.....

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Last night dream I was visiting my father, he lived with a new women and her daughter....they had several dogs...I could see clearly my fathers dogs, they where only puppies....the home was a mess...and my father could see/feel my thoughts...so he said....you are not allowed to vacuum cleaning here at all...so I let it be....

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Last night dream started by me coming into a room with a young girl who was like a secretary...and I saw she had booked a custom to me too...(I was feet-caretaker) ....I said to her that I will take over now my bookings...but I did not know what date or day it was...when I was in phone with a custom I did not hear properly and I had problems to write down what I hear...when I went out from the place...I remembered I do not have any tools at all....I was thinking...what happened...why did I think I would go out and work?? why did I forget that I am not that well to work??...I had my sister walking with me...we did notice a pig who was bathing in the mud....the pig was further below us..we where like walking on a bridge....and looking down on the pig bathing......I here in this dream I remembered to have had similar dream 10 years prior to this dream.

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In last night dream I was with a women who was like my mentor....she said we shall ride a horse and she will show me how to succeed.....To my surprise she was sitting very strangely on the horse...she had her right leg up on the horses back....when I looked more closely on the horse...it had his back leg on the right side tied up so he was not able to stand on that leg??...the horse was diving...we where up in the air....now I understood why she had her leg like that...she was prepared to jump off the horses back when of if it became necessary....I did hold on the sadel and was preparing me best I could ...trying to understand the situation.....In one point the horse did not be more than a roundabout horse....

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I was awakened this morning with 3 hard knocks and a alerted feeling...first I did not take any notice ...but the feeling did increase so high that I had to go up and try to figure out why I had to wake up....when I come to my kitchen to make some coffee...the coffee dripper was on?? it was so hot....could have started a fire??!!

I do not remember my dreams at all from last night??

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In last night dreams I was seeing 2 girls 3-4 years old...the younger girl did put powder on her face....and saying...I thought we where going to celebrate the name day....the older said...you have to loose weight...I was chocked to hear what the older girls said to the younger....both girls was so thin....I spoke now to the older girls...non of you have to loose weight...you are nearly too thin.....she shine up and did nearly not to believe what I said....

In this episode I was seeing a little boy could be 3 years old...he was very active and I did see that soon will something happen...and yes he did knock down a big candle stick...it was long green/blue candles .....at once the boy did start to cry and was devastated what happened....I did say and hugg him....nothing bad has happened...it is okay...it is okay...it took long time for the boy to calm down and trust me that it was okay......

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Something different has started to occur before I fall to sleep and also in my dreams...FEAR....I feel something awakening my fear again??..I see very quick images still when awaken but with eyes closed...these images are there to take my focus from what happens around me...something closing in on me...it is so different energy that my heart makes a huge jump....and my whole body tenses totally....this is before I fall to sleep....but I keep me cool and that is shown that I can fall to sleep and I do not let the fear take me...

In the dream happens things also to frighten me...like in this dream I was sleeping on a couch..and my hand did stuck between the cushions...and I comment it with...strange couch...and I do not let the fear take me....but I feel it very clearly...like a terror...

This happened the day before this in my dream...I am shown like a pearl with a like a needle on the bottom of the pearl...I know it is a crystal...so I have a tool to measure the authenticity
with...I press the tool against the crystal and it gives a very clear sound....pling....it is a real crystal....

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Again I was awakened by hearing my father sing (my father did deceased) this song he sang when I was a child and we lived in Finland.....I did not dare to listen more than a little while because the feeling did be so strong that if I continue to listen one relative will die...so I became totally clear awake and get up to make some coffee.

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Last night was a happy night....much laughter and jokes....cute puppies...much love and caring.....I feel uplifted......

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I had the most strange dream....It started that I felt like someone pulled me from my legs...and I thought...oh....I will have a obe now.....I opened my eyes to see who did pull me from my legs...I only see the energy vibrating but I did not see more....I closed my eyes and now when I opened them again I see a man with rather long hair...dark....I asked him how old he is...he said...9...he looks like adult....but I let it be...now I see on his chest like a computer screen but different ...I soon feel that my eyes close against my will....I relax and have no panic or fear...but now I feel such a pain in my liver....(I have 3 cysts on my liver)....It does hurt so much so I try to take the hand away who is pushing and pulling on my liver....after some time...I get my vision back and I can talk to him....I asked why he said he is only 9 year old...he said....because when I was on TV in a program where they cooked and competed ....the judges had call him to be 9 year old when they critiqued him.....He was sure I have seen him and knew him.....
It was so strange dream.....

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Last night I had a strong dream again....I was in a spa...the bathroom was both for male and female...I did shower in peace and without any fear...when I turned around I see a man looking at me...and he was fully dressed, it was strange because it was a shower-room....I feel bad for him to be that reserved not to dare to shower freely...he touches his privat parts to get my attention...it now awakens fear in me...I wrap a towel around me and I see the toilet door and I go rapidly to the toilet...before I am able to lock the door the man violently opens the door and I am not at all getting what he wants....I see him being unsure what he want´s to do next...I say....if you do not let the door go...I will shout for help...he does not let the door for me to close it...I shout on top of my lungs....help....and here I awakens from the dream.....

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Last night dream was me looking into a scenery...like looking some play...I was neutral from beginning...and did not valuate what I was seeing from beginning ...until one women on my right side started comment and making me unsure....
The scenery was about a young women...her father and his girlfriend.....the adult daughter was in shower...the father did turn water to cold...and she off course was screaming on top of her lungs....and the father did laugh as his girlfriend too....the women on my right side asked me if I did notice the fathers erection...no I said...I did not...now when she did comment in this way I started to feel unconfortable and my fear starts to build up...the women on my right side is hinting that they are having a 3 sum....and I can´t believe that...I do not get any sexual vibes from the scenery at all....but when the women on my right side is commenting makes me unsure....and I do protect myself with...the daughter is grown up....she can protect her self and I do not think the father is abusive to her....and here I awoke myself....

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Last night in my dream I was on a campus...we where waiting to get something to eat....the campus dining room had raised the prize from 50 to 68 so I decided to go outside the campus to get something to eat...one did give me a hint that the hospital have good food to very low prize...so I went there but it was not easy to find the dining room but I went lost...it took time to find my way out from the building and I had to go back to campus without eating anything.....

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In writing moment I do not remember my dreams I know I did remember them before I wake up, I was shown a text in a book so this took my attention just before I got up ....so I was in the middle state...half sleep half awake when this man showed me the book and the text to read....I tried to fall to sleep to have a opportunity to remember my dreams, but the man was so determined so I awoke me and went up to make some breakfast....

I know what this symbol says to me, very clearly :-)

I will take up my studies again in spirituality....I have never studied more than a bit here and there but never properly...but I will start now...

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Yesterday was it again...awakened by someone who felt I ought to get up...I ignore it first but it was so determined so I listened and went to make some breakfast...

I have got more energy, my tiredness is gone, and I sleep very few hours??
I did last night have some dreams but nothing what I now remember.....

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I do not know what to call this what has started in my life...when I go to bed, when I am in between sleep and awake, it starts to happen strange things to my body...I can make sounds with my mouth without my control, and I ask...where did that come from...no answers yet....I can feel like a hit on my lower back and at once the thought comes...is this Kundalini based??...No answers yet....this goes on and on...and it has awakened flight and fight mode in me...and fear...but maybe this is the real awakening of my inner and to train me to become in control of my ego´s?? I want to think it is my being showing me how it is...that I have no control what so ever yet....

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This morning just before I awake I saw this dream.....I was inside a house and outside the atmosphere started to change....I said to the friends who was with me to look out....we looked out of the window and in the air it was a skull what was radiating so much energy so it became like a sun....but the radiation was silver.....and with him a horse with human head??
They called me out, my friends said not to go out...but I said I have to...so I stayed just outside the door and they approached me...I put up my hand for stop...I said...do not come too near...they wanted me to follow them but I said I will not....they did respect what I said...they went away...I did follow them with my eyes and a for me unknown women said to the horse...oh I have waited to meet you...and they kissed...

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Last night the theme was that I was not properly prepared for my journey....the dream was like this....It was very easy to go from A to B...but not back from B to A.......I was out walking when a man did want to take my picture, but I just walked on....when I come back home I felt for a walk again....went outside but now I did see the snow on the top of the big mountain, I looked at myself and noticed that I did not have any shoes nor jacket on me, so I had to go back home....and here I awoke....

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I was awakened in a strange way this morning....pulled from my hair on top of my head??...Might be because I overslept.....

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Last night I did remember in a dream a dream I had some nights ago....I had this presence of mind what did astonished me so much...I did put some black leather gloves on me, and whilst I did it I did look around and I did see scared faces and they asked why I did put the gloves on me...I said...with total calmness and I enjoyed to see that they did think so bad about me??...I was just joking with them....and saying....so it will not leave any finger prints....and here I awoke myself...not in this life I have ever had that presence of mind nor wanted to joke with peoples fear....I am thinking here where did this come from?? other life?? or if symbol what does it want me to know...that I have this presence of mind in me...but it is hidden??

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Yesterday when I went to bed, I felt an energy rush into my apartment, and locked the door...first thought was....did I not lock the door, I usually do....I was lying on my right side and face towards the wall, so back was against the room...I feel this women shouting for help...saying my name and asking for help....I took her hand and turned to my back, now I see it is a former nabo who I have not seen for years...she is now on her knees and begging for help...I stretch her arm towards the ceiling and tell her to pray upwards....now some other energy have entered and have a bat in his hand, he is forcing the bat under my lower back...so I have to stand up from my bed...and here I did understand it was only a dream...I did awoke and had to collect myself before I fell to sleep again....

It was so convincing that I was awake but it was only a dream from top to bottom :-)

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In last night dream I had got some post cards one from a friend and one from my cousin P. I looked more closely at the post card from my cousin P and I could see foot prints where she have walked with her male friend...she wrote on the post card...went to Gotland for a swim ....I did be very happy for her to be able to do so, take a small vacation just like that.....
and the other post card was from a friend who have bean visiting Germany...and for that I was interrogated....I never understood why....

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Last night was very tricky to say the least....I was shown me lightening a black cigarette..and then awoken total awake...and I was given time to respond on that...and I said...NO I do not smoke..I said to my mind...stop doing this to me...then I fell to sleep...and again it happened...and I was given time to reflect on what I saw...to say yes or no to it.....and last was I shown a very beautiful dark haired man...he had something around his neck..I took a closer look and I asked...is it a neacklace from India..he grinned at me and said yes...but I looked more closely and I now saw what it was...it was those dog collar what is put on dogs who do not obey so they will get an electrical chock.....

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Last night dream I was moving again. I was surprised how many had come to help me, as I usually are always alone. I was telling everyone what to put where and I did found old rotten things what I have forgotten to clean out...it was horrendous...I was so surprised to see all the hidden places in this home what I was leaving for a new home to live in....I said to my friends that I now hope to be the last place I am moving too, I felt I need to be settled down to get some real peace....The most wonderful feeling was given by my grandchildren who was with me and helping.
The most what I kept with me from this dream was my power, it was back, as I have lacked power for several years, it was fine to feel it again, I hope this is a future telling dream to be true, I really hope.

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Last night dream was a bit odd, I do not get it....I was sitting down somewhere..people passing by and I am looking a bit at them casually...one did touch my shoulder like secretly...I did get a hunch that he thought he be healed if he touches me...I did let go of that thought at once.....then another man passed but brushing my head with spruce twig..he brushes near my mouth and one branch did get into my mouth and I had chewing gum in my mouth and it stuck to the branch...so the man did put it again in my mouth so I could take it back....now I spoke up on him and asked the reason for his doing...he sat down and did put down a blue veil for his face...I had some trouble with my ears to hear what he said, so I did lift up the veil he did tell me it is his call, but I told him I do not hear what you are saying for my hearing I need to see your mouth...so I told him there is no use otherwise totally useless....but he did take the veil away but did not say anything....so I never get to hear his version of his act´s.....

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Last night I was somewhere and I hear my father calling my name and I hear him say to bring a cigarette to him, I did find one and suddenly it was light...I gave it to my left but I hear someone saying in pain...autch....I now look down at him what I thought was my father was someone else...now I look at my right and I see my father sitting in a couch....I apologized to the foreigner man and I did see some burn wound in his finger after the cigarette...I told him that he did reflect my father so clearly that I did mistake me....and after that I turned to my father with the lighted cigarette in my hand...I did see that it will harm him and I said to him not to smoke, I told him that I do not either smoke, so I did get through to him and he did accept not to smoke......

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It is only this dream what stood out what I want to record......this dream was 2 nights ago...

My body was asleep but my mind was awake...a man...thin....tried to kidnap my body...body was total limb and the man who was weak so my body fell over him and he was trapped under my body....I started to talk to him and I said....you should keep you to your own size or smaller not to try to kidnap a bigger one then you.....he looked horrified and tried to found out where the voice did come from as he knew my body was asleep.....

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Last night dream I noticed that my sewing-machine was tampered with, taken out the light system with the lamp...and other parts too...I could see where they belong but I know nothing about the electrical, so I told my son to come with me, to go to my little-brother who is an electrician...we walked in a landscape what was not familiar to me, I saw a deep ditch with murky water, and suddenly my son jumped into the ditch and the water was up to his neck...I was stunned, and I told him that he can not come along wet and dirty, so we had to go back home and change his clothing....and again we walked on the same area, and when he saw the ditch he jumped into it again....now I had it and I awoke myself....

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In last night dream I was carrying a painting in beautiful golden frame, the picture in the painting was a lady in blue dress.....

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In last night dream I was in my house looking out of the window, outside was a monster-demon protecting me, he was fighting to protect me. I first felt good about it but he did become more furious and wild as more resistant he faced, I now was unsure if he has developed out of line and not anymore for me to either to control him? I now locked the window lock, this lock was that no-one can force it, I did feel more fear that he will become more furious noticing that I have locked him out, but he did come to check me out and did notice me locking him ut, he did accept it to my surprise....he knew himself totally.

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Last night dream I was shown by a man a backgammon play but in Swedish it is called Kina Schack or translated China Chess..it is with marbles in different colorer, at least 2 player but can be up to 6 players if I am not mistaken me, this was the only thing I wanted to play as child.
Then I was shown the text I do not remember so I use xx where the text was .....
xxx 3
xxx 0
xxx 9
When I saw the 0 I reacted and it is why I remember it but do not remember the text before the numbers.

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Last night I was with a women, we had water in glass with us...I was so thirsty so I took one glass and started to drink....she saw it and she took the glass from my hand and said it is not for drinking and that it is dangerous ....I looked into the glass and now I saw it was slightly another color then water and it was more heavy and oily...I asked if I shall try to throw it up, so I started to make me throw up...and I did it so hard that I was nearly throwing up for real and I woke up it was so real......
She never told me what it was and why we had it in glass like the real water??...I wonder what it was??

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In last night dream I was shown a book cover...it was in black and gold...and it pictured a man in a uniform....and the name started with J......and it was said he was a socialist....
No clue why??

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n last night dream I was shown a picture of cross section of a head, those what they have in medical books....I was shown the larynx and vocal chords....and some place on the head what I did not catch the name of...

I understand this to be shown the injuries what I have after a surgery when my thyroid gland was removed the vocal chords was injured...I have had episodes in years when I am total bed bound, horrible head ache...since I have eaten pain killers for years because of my body injuries...I had a episode for 1,5 moths ago...it was so severe that I couldn't take any pain killers only the medicin of thyroid gland hormone since I do not have any gland left....my doctor have hinted that my head ache may be because of the pain killers...I said NO to that because I felt it was not that....now I had to stop eating the pain killers and I got an new episode for 2 week´s ago and now I noticed the flash of lightening...what is very common to migraine.....the pain killers did hide the symptoms of the lightening....I am a bit worried that the severe episodes what I have had in nearly a decade have destroyed some part of my brain....or then this has something to do with some kind of kundalini outbursts I have also had.....I have had up to my heart chakra....and then I have felt like total hard tingle in my whole body....it is like if one foot sleeps, but this in my whole body...very hard buzz and tingle??

[IA56]

Last night dream I come home and noticed that my apartments door was wide open, in my kitchen was my uncle sitting with a baby in his arms...he asked me if I could take care for a moment of his baby, he needed to fill his car with gas....I took the baby in my arms...and I looked him in his eyes and said....do you know that I am your cousin....the baby pondered on my saying...and then I continued...my father is your fathers brother....now the baby looked at my flowers and asked....is those sword lilies....we have two of them...and when I looked at mine I hade like a dozen of them....

In this part of the dream I hear one man say...I can´t hire my own voice....and that made me feel....so you are planning someone other to talk to me with your voice...if it was possible, but why?? I never understood it in the dream why he even was thinking about it??

In this episode I saw 3 men digging a grave, and when I come near them they did put theirs hand to cover they eyes...my light was so bright it blinded them...but they where afraid of me??

In this episode I was shot by a gun.......?? I just hope one of my egotistic side´s was shot to death....

[IA56]

In last night dreams was a bit odd...no coherency what so ever....I was with a man who did not have any money...so I gave him 3000 kr for him to take me out...we did not spend so much money at all...we did go to one restaurant to eat...and basically it was that...then we went to one concert it was free... it did show up to be one church event...so they did take collection and I asked for the wallet and he was hesitant...when I opened the wallet I did understand why he was hesitant...there was only two 50 kr bills left...I did not want to ask him where the money went...I did not want to embarrass him at the concert...and when we was out of the concert I did not dare to ask him what he have done with the money....I said to him..we are near your mother why do we not visit her....he was surprised but he did accept...I said to him that I want to buy flowers to her....I saw a bit down a window with flowers so I assumed it was a florist...but suddenly we was at his mothers home...I was surprised that we did not buy flowers..so I hugged her and I said...I have to go out for a bit...but I am back soon....I went to the house what I thought was a florist...but when I opened the door it was a crematorium...I was chocked...I looked around and the arounding was like I was in Greece...wow ...it was beautiful....Now I spotted an ICA store...I looked down on me to see what I was wearing...I had a top and jeans...no hand-bag...I put my hand in my pocket and I had my bank-card with me...so no worries....but suddenly I was again back to his mothers home...and she was cooking...she asked me to help her ...she had whole owen full of food...I said...oh so much food...it is to a whole company...here I awoke myself...I did not undertand at all the dream sequences ....

The only thing what I did understand from this dream is...my fear to ask for answers..I have conflict fear....
When I had my own company, many men lended money from me, I never get back any of them....

[IA56]

Last night dream I was back to a hospital and I was working there, I couldn't understand what I was doing there because in real life I am retired....I did have pain in my lower back as I have in real life...and I can´t stand on my feet´s too long because of the pain, it increases the more I stand or walk, and I have to sit down....So I asked my co-worker what I was doing there but she did not know...she disappeared...so I went to look for her...I did see her standing in a doorway into a big auditorium..I looked into the auditorium and I saw full of people...doctors and nurses...I went away, but I was called by the head nurse and she wanted to talk to me....I said to her that I can´t be here, I have so much pain in my back...she tried to keep me as long as possible for some reason...now she called her 3 children to come and meet me...I love children...I talked to them and now I looked at her and she looked sad...I said...3 children it is much work...yes she said....now I felt that why she wanted to keep me there was to comfort her.....

[IA56]

Last night dream was very disturbing to me...I did share apartment with 2 men who was a couple with a little baby....we shared the washing machine too...I had so much laundry and the one of the men was washing but had got out for shopping in middle of his washing, and now the time was late and he was not ready yet, so I was so irritated and did let him know how bad planning of time...his partner was the one who did finish the washing of the baby´s clothing.....

[IA56]

Last night dream I hear an infant crying hysterically...I open my door and I see my nabo she looks very pale and I say to her...I can take care of your baby...but when I entered into the apartment I see a hospital bed in the living-room ...in the bed is a young women...she has hair tangled on her face and she is shaking her hands in the air...I take her hand...and I say gentle...hi...she stops at once crying and looks straight in my eyes...oh hi...I say...now you went surprised when you notice it is not your mother....she tries to talk..but she is spasming so bad that I have difficulty to hear what she is saying...so her mother interprets....she asked me if I have seen the film Alladin ....but in my mind I did see a sequence from the film Scoopy Do ....

In this sequence I am starting to see something from 1880...but I did become so exited so I was back awake in my bed....

[IA56]

In last night dream I was separated from my son because his father was so jealous so he deported me to another dimention...I was looking upwards to try to find him...and one day I spotted him, he had build a device so we could see eachother..suddenly I saw his father behind him and he switched quickly so it looked like he was looking at a bird in a cage...and then when his father left the room he switche back so we could look at eachothers again....

[IA56]

In last night dream I was talking to a Young man who was suicidal...I told him that parenting does not come with a manual, everyone has to just be there for the children...I told him that he have got a divine responsibillity...he listened and started to put clothings on him....and he said...it is his feeding time...so he went to take care of his child.

In this episode someone called me by my name...I couldn´t locate it...so I asked...where are you....here the voice said...and I looked at the parking place and saw a man sitting in a car an wawing to me...I saw 2 cars with criminals....I felt it was a trap....He tried me to say that I know him....I looked at him...but I did not at all know who he is...I said...I don´t know you...so if I had said I know him...or pretended that I did...then something bad would have happened....but I did not lie...I did not know him...he wanted me to buy stolen things.....

In this episode all our relatives was having a some sort of celebration...I saw my sisters son outside the place...He did not dare to come in for some reason...I Went out to him and I hugged him and told him to come in...he hesitated...I embraced him and started to take him with me in...he said...stop...wait....I have no socks on me....??

One white cat tried to say something...but he just shook his head...I did not make anything out of it....??

[IA56]

In last night dream i was at my mothers birth-home...I was there with my gf...she told me that she have invited a friend of her to come over...I asked if she have bean togeather with her...she did not want to say...but I insisted and then she said...yes...but then she is your ex-lover...how on earth did you invite her to my relatives...I told her that pack her things and go with her before I make a huge scen...she tried to hit me...but I said...stop...do you want me to yell at you so my grandfather will hear and know about you....when I looked at them leaving...they where just mist...

[IA56]

I was in shock in my dream last night...I felt arousal and suddenly a whole bunch of birds flow into my room and stopping my arousal??..they waited until I was normal again, before they left....

This seequnce I was looking at tools you use when skulpting...In the dream I knew how to use them...but in real life not...

[IA56]

In last night dream I was outside my house, I saw in front of the house a big beast..bear-like...huge like a grizzly...I knew my uncle T was back-side of the house...I run to him and told him to come inside the house...and when we entered inside the house I told him that in front-side was this huge beast...the big window wall we could see the beast but my uncle went outside..I was in panic...but to my surprise he did bend the beast jaws and overpowered the beast....I was flabbergasted and in awe...wow..I have never seen him as that strong and fearless.....

[IA56]

Last night dream was about not letting me take the train...I tried on several way´s to get ombord the train...I was not getting the ticket, people did make it hard for me to get to the ticket booking office..and when I reached the booking office, train Went, and they told me that the next train tickets are not awileble yet, I need to come back...and when I come back it started agaian people making it hard for me to get the ticket and the train Went....

I tried to take Another way to get to buy the tickets, but it was so hard....and I did not get to travel...I had to stay....

I am sure this is a hint for me to stay and sort out what is bothering me...and I will get to it...seriuosly....the thread of Good and Evil....but I need more time to get to grief...I am crying inwardly...and must let it to surface outwardly to tears....I have a fear...that what is beyond is to get back to basic...and with it I mean...the atoms what my innermost is upbuild up from....when they have done all what they do when they manifest...when the manifestation is done in evey lever...it is done..and it retuns to its origin...tears is burning ...I will drown .....

[IA56]

Last night dream I was to afterlife....My purpose was to map it out??...But I was distracted by my first husband A....He come so near me and I felt arousal...he called me Eva...I said...my name is not Eva....oh sorry he said....he started to plan our life together now when we met again....it was hard to keep focus what I was doing there and soon I forgot it ....I noticed that I had feelings still for him...I never thought I had....I was surprised.

I called me Eva in my teens, I never used my own name...but my first husbands first women whom he had 2 children with...they where never married...her name is Eva....he went back to her after our divorse...

[IA56]

In last night dream I was counting my birds...I had 8.....my cousins P had got one wild bird from nature to mate her birds...I had my balcony near her´s so this wild bird did flew into my apartament....I did notice that I had spruce trees in my apartament a whole wall, the wild bird did flew into it...I told my son and his son to get the bird out...but it was not easy...I told them to leave the balcony door open it will soon flew out.....

[IA56]

I awoke this morning with nausea and head-ache....The dream I had last night was about my meeting with the yoga instructor R.....in the dream he said...Close your eyes...and I did...I did see him more clear then with my open eyes....I told him that where shall I look...I see you so clear....he said...you are so talented??....he was pure kindness....it did chock me in positive way....as I am ready to meet un-kindness...I do believe he will do difference in me and my life....I am happy.

[IA56]

I still have head-ache and nausea....Last night dream was bizarr....I was with my childhood friend T (she is no longer with us) we where on a Cruise liner...we was naked?? entering into a room where everyone was naked...my friend T did hug and kiss the nearest couple...and I backed out of the room....I thought we where going to sauna...so I Went back where whe have left our clothings...I had key to a cabin...but I was not able to see the number so I asked one man if he can see what number it is...he said it is number 10..I did find it and the key did fit....the man asked me if I was (he said my sisters name) I was so surprised so I did not correct him, I let him think he was right....the cabin was very small but it had 2 beds...I did see my white pants was wet...I notice there was a towel dryer, I did put the wet pants on it to dry....I started to make the beds, I was thinking she might come late and it is good if the bed is done so she can go to sleep easy.....

[IA56]

Last night I have slept bad...I was so easely choked and spooked??...like...I saw a green plant what wibrated....that scared me....I hear someone say...Tommy is not at home...and I felt fear?? ..like this was my whole night...I am exhausted....

[IA56]

Last night I was visiting a heart doctor...it was one male and female...the male was my doctor...the nurses told me that they shall switch me to the female doctor because they knew the male doctor was fond of me and it is not ethical for him to do that because me being his patient....so the nurses wanted to help both of us....I was surprised how deeply they have understood the situation, more then me...it was critical when they shifted me to the female doctor if there willl be some difficulty if she would understand the dilemma...but all went well...

[IA56]

Last night was what was happening in my deam state informativ but I am so sad I do not remember more than this....when I was sleeping on my left side it was important for something i do not remember no....likewise when I was sleeping on my right side...or on my back....it was helping properties both in my body and energy levels or energy bodies....frustrating that I do not remember more...but I am sure it will be clear one day ...so patience be disired.

[IA56]

WoW..last night dream did take me to the place in me what I assume to be my personal belief world....as I see myself to be in acceptance of others without judging.....accept others choices in Life without judging....feeling happy for them and hope others not to judge me and let me make my choices and accept them as I accept others choices ....

The dream was me being present when people did be babtised into religions...I was happy with them they have taken stand and marking they path so to speak....I was total okay with that....but I become very angry when they sudgested me to also babtise me into theires religion....I said NO...

I have made my stand point as I have not heard about other than Jesus Christ to free all and not judge anyone...I know that His message was to say...to take heart in theires belief....and be faithful to it...because every religion has the same core...LOVE....Jesus did not come to start a religion at all...He had to come and show the way to freedom...a new way to be....free.

I have in this lifetime faced this dilemma...the first time was in the 90-ties with my second husband...I opened my heart for the LOVE and deliverance...we did move up North and that city had all kind of religions represented...they did visit us and asked us to join theires Church....I was so happy to get so much attention...and I did visit all of them....but my husband was furious...he did say with Power in his voice...that I was not allowed to join any other Church but the state Church...and it was end of discussion....I joined that Church what my husband apointed for me....
I am happy to have made this journey of religion...

Second time this happened for some years ago...now my personal stand point was developed in me....NOT to join ANY Church what so ever....because what I have learned it only make false signals to others....in my world all religions are the same....all religions have the same core...LOVE..not to judge and not to exclude....

So last night dream did make me angry that I was asked to be babtised into a specific Church....

I was also in one seequnce seen several bottles...and was asked to choose among them....I understand this symbol totally...it is to one by one release my up bound energies in me...and free them.

It has begun....

[IA56]

Last night dream I see a women left to sleep on the street...I decided to have an eye on her...I was nearly sure at one point that she is dead...I said so to several persons but no one reacted...I did not know what to do...but then one day she moved....oh...she is not dead....I approached her and she told me that she has terrible lower back pain...I asked if I can give her massage...and she said yes....I gentle moved her on her side and massaged her lower back...

[IA56]

In last night dream I was protecting my child...I hold him in my arms and I was bend down nearly to the ground...I was in a hut or under a tarpaulin...I did see throgh a little slit...a huge grizzly...putting his paw on my neck...I did tensen up and I was waiting for it to tear me apart...I relaxed..waiting...nothing happened..

In this part of the dream ...I was standing on a latter and looking down...it was a horse farm...a man asked me what I was doing there...what kind of chores I did...I smiled and said...no I am not a employee of yours...I just visit a friend here....

[IA56]

In last night dream I was asked what I am....I said I am bisexual...but I choose to be hetero...they said I have to give my clotings to them...first I said NO but they said I can´t resist, I have to do as they say....I noticed I hade a male shirt on me...this did surprise me...and I was little bit curious what I had under the shirt...I had my female body... felt relieved because I felt like female in the dream....I was very surprised over my clotings.

[IA56]

In last night dream I gave birth to a child...soon I was preagnent again....and it was time to give birth again...I was surprised because I had no stomach what so ever....I never saw the second birth...

soon I was in a new dream....

eating breakfast with a man who said something...that is good to my collection...I asked what is...he avoided to answere me...he said a womens name...I tried to ask because I was providing for him and he want to spend money on something he do not want me to know...he did become irritated and he called me fatzo...wow I said....I like to be fat...so I think it is better you go back to her...I followed him to the door...

[IA56]

In last night dream I was helping people who lived on the street...we collected things others have thrown away...I was looking at a mother with her child...the child found a branch with beautiful white flowers on....No, she said to the child...put it back...only gambolas are allowed to collect them...she was afraid that some kind of guard will see it and they will be puniched.....

[IA56]

In last night dream I reached out for help...some said you can call Mike and Roland...I did...but they did not want to help me....woke up this morning with sore throat??

[IA56]

Last night dream was crazy... I had rent a cabin for my holiday...when I come to the cabin there was the old owner of the house, sitting in a Wheel-chair...dement...and no Communication what so ever...I noticed there was Telephones on the table...olde ones with wire....I did take the old owner and did rent a Place for him in a nursinghome as long as I had the cabin...I was irritated how someone can do this to an old person....one day I noticed that someone have taken my car...and left behind same colore then mine...but it was an old Volvo...without engin...and without registrating plates....insted of an registrating plate there was a decal with some numbers and letters on...I tried to write it down to call a police...but I did not be able to write it down properly, I was so upset...one nabour did come and I asked for her help, but not eigher she could write it down properly...so I did take the decal what was as a registrating plate....and Went inside the cabin to call police....but those Telephones was not ordinary phones...it Went to one nursinghome ...they did not know this man´s cabin was out for rent...so those people who did rent this cabin to me was criminals ...

it was so stressful and awful Dream what was so hard to sort out so I did awake myself from the Dream....I still feel bad because this Dream do show how I have bean fooled many times in this Life and Money have bean taken from me in wrong way....I do still feel insecurity and wondering if I really can protect myself against the World....

I had now a Heureka moment....wow....now I see this Dream clearly...of the parts of me who are unconsious of the criminals/negative parts of me whom I have to awaken and bring out of the negative state to elevate them to positves....the dementia man in Wheel-chaire is part of me who have given in because of all hardship I have had in Life...also from other lives....parts whom I have not succeeded to awaken....and they have give up...and become dement and no mobile....sitting in Wheel-chaire....wow...I see it clearly now....but how to help all them??....I Believe yoga helps.

[IA56]

Last night dream is the closest way for me to express it...this.....There where 2 groups...one of 16 and one of 70...the group of 70 asked me if it was not better to be in a bigger group than in a smaller one....there would be better protection.....I asked...why can´t we all be together??...so I left them and joined a group of 25 whom was a freelance group....sort of...

[IA56]

Last night dreams was so strong and impossible for me to be in more than few seconds ...it did repeat several times but I did not catch the deep meaning ...crownchakra was very much involved.

when I woke up my top of my head was feeling strange and I was so dizzy, I could not walk straight had to hold on walls when going into bathroom??

[IA56]

Last night dream had the same theam what has bean up lately....old ways or new.....I said in last night dream....vinyl....at once some said...No...said something what I now do not remember but it was something new....

This Dream takes me also back to 2002....I had 2 roups of energies visiting me...not in a dream but day-time when I was awake....the light was so bright that I had to cover my eyes...and not open them at all...I sat on a chair...eyes closed...and my hand was upraised from elbow up...when the groups did communicate with me...my right or left hand did schake....so I could decide or know what group did comminicate....that time I took that the left side was old time...and the right hand...new time.....so I did choose right hand group.....but until today I do not know what groups they where??...I did decide intuitivly....

[IA56]

In last night Dream I hear a conversation between me and someone else....the other says....why do you not let them do it....I hear me say....but I do not know what they will do...how can I just let them do when not knowing what they are going to do??

It is like this everytime...I am asked to let something happen and it is not explained the content of it....how can/must I decide blindlly?? ..why is not things explained so I can take a decission if to say yes or no??...I have so many times said yes or no to things what is revieled first after my answere....and I have Always felt...why did they not represent both options ...then it will be more fairness for a choose....

[IA56]

In last night dream was shown to me a black maxi-skirt...I know what symbol this is for me...I will give you some background info...

My mothers grandmother was born gypsy...but when she did fall in love with my mothers grandfather..White...she was thrown out of her own family...it was not accepted...and there customs are such that if you do something like this you are dead and separated from the family...you are not allowed to tell anyone about your past or your roots...so my mothers grandmother never told about who she is or was...my mother was so sad that they did not have relatives from her grandmothers side at all....she tried to ask but she just kept silence....the grandmother had gifts....the village people come to her for help...storys are told about her doings...if someone did cut bad and blood was pouring she could stop the bleeding...and one boy had haemophilia as long as she was alive she was able to keep the boy alive too but when she died the boy did die too from bleeding.....

So my dream is telling me that I am a part of this group too, by inheritance...even I do not know anything about theres customs or else....I could never wear theires clothings or follow theres customs.....I am rebelling against all kind of inboxings.....

So quostions are raised in me....who am I.....what is my core....can I be other than my core??....if a seed is of a tree....it can´t be a flower or anything else?? or can it?? Transformation...can it transform to Another shape or being totally....or is it already decided who or what you are or can be??...and that all is about accepting...even your own decire or dream is totally different and what you ever can be??...Can I by my deep decire and wish transform to what I feel or decire to be?? or is it only dreams and fairytales??
Is it this way we collect experiences?? by incarnation into new Cultures and inviroments??

[IA56]

In last night dream I was visiting a male friend...he had a house, several floor house...we where in a room on the top floore...a plant was growing in middle of the floore...I was just looking at it and he said...� want to give this plant to you, if you want to have it....oh yes I said I do want it....but how is it possible for the plant to survive...it is so high up, it can impossible have it´s roots down to Earth from here high up??..He took the vinyl mat away and under it was wooden plank and when we bended it up the plants roots was under it...no soile what so ever on the roots...how has it survived??...I put the plant in a jar with water, I could see the plant be filled with water, it was just amazing...all the detailes was so clear now when it was water filled.....
The plant changed totally when I did put it into the water...it was not the plants normal inviroment....what had happened to it if I had planted it into the soile??

In the dream I was thinking...what will happen when I put the plant in soile?? but the dream did end before I had planted the plant again....so I am just thinking....what does this dream try to tell me??

I feel this Dream are trying to show me other way to see out of the box ....as I have bean thinking about the seed....the same seed will react different on different inviroment...it do not have to be soile...it can take nutrition from air too...depending on what dimention it is in.....

[IA56]

In last night dream my aunt (she is 85 yrs old) asked me if I have some good news to tell her...I said...Nothing new on the west front....I noticed that her face was total White and cold...she was sitting on one persons lap what did surprise me...it was a couple...I had never thought they to be friends...her daughter showed what her mother gave her...puple ballerina shoes....

One Young man asked me what my take on buffer is...I asked do you mean kunda-buffer...yes he said....I was thinking how to say it...so I choosed to say it on the traditionell way....It is the devil....I said....my feeling was it is the lower dimentions....

[IA56]

Last night dream is again difficult to dress in words, but I try....I was in a huge building...church feeling...as a catethral....I knew that my very best friend was living in this building....I entered into the building and I was in such an awe.....I was looking up to the seeling and around the inside of the building....suddenly the whole huge room was filled with dogs....my heart drop...I am afraid of dogs....I hear my friend hallo to me and catching my attention....I hallo back and I said...you may not remember but I am so afraid of dogs...but to my surprise the dogs was not as I am used how dogs approach me usually....so my fear started to sease.... I suddenly was outside the building and in some kind of village...I remebered that I had parked my car outside of the friends huge building...the Church like one....I tried to ask if people knew and show me the way back to the Church...No one did understand what building I was refering to....they said there is no Church here....

This dream gives me the feeling I have in all day feeling...the Words I have to try to be understood is not here...and how I try to express my inner surroundings...I use eighder wrong way to Picture it...or no-one have ever bean in the same dimentions as I have....and therefore I am not understood in right way...

As in this dream I used Word Church for the huge building...maybe it was know as a casle...and therefore no-one did understand what building I was reffering to....
In the dream this knowledge felt total true to me....

A thought come to me...maybe I was in Another dimention...and in that other dimention is so different that the Words I used is unknown to them??..the first Dream was in one dimention and then I suddenly was in Another dimention...but I thought I was still in the same dimention as in the beginning of the Dream....yes...that sounds right....

[IA56]

In last night dream I was with a group rescuing children whom had bean kidnapped....we had to hide in a place where it was huge risk to be caught...we had to waite for an ambulance to help us to transport the children securely away....they did not stop ambulances, it was the best way to do it....but it was hard to keep the children quiet...they where children...

This seequence is strange...the question was ...who is Jesus in the animal world...the answere was....Joe the Panda....

[IA56]

Last night dream was much disturbing...I was in an inviroment what tried to be something else what it was....what was disturbing was that I was not able to control my thoughts or my feelings....I was like paralysed....I could only observe..I was like dragged backwards...and noticing things..but I couldn´t react.....even that the inhabitants was white...I could see them as lower and like bacterias or hellish....when I was out of that habitan...and feeling "normal" I noticed I had a lumb on my back...it felt like rubber...and it had strong arms and hands...holding my hands...around my wrists....and being all over my back...it´s head was much like a otctopyssy....and I could not see any eyes...but a big mouth...I could not use my hands to take it away...when I tried to use my hand...he did hold them apart and I could not use a prayre he did disturbe my mind....I tried to lie on my back to smuther it but it did survive because of its rubber consitence....so it is flexible....I have now pain on one spesific spot on my back...I think he is connected into me through this spot......I need someone to help me get rid of this creature...

I have now ponder over this dream, and I understand why I saw all the creatures as white..it is because there was no light, it was total darkness....and why they did not have any eyes...they do not need eyes in this inviroment....

When I think about this creatures on my back, it feels like I am strangeled....I need it off me.

[IA56]

Last night has bean like a retrospekt or overview of things....this one I have on my back...was put this way....like a question....how do you think you can see in darkness??...I had a very strong feeling ....it is because of the thing on my back...and it was put in a way...that I should feel greatful and see the value of it.....and ask myself...what for do I have it....

I did see many different places.....all kind of life´s....

[Honeybadger400]

Ia,
Sounds like it might be a parasite of sorts. What do you feel like it is gathering? I think knowing that answer is the key to knowing how to remove it. If you can prevent it getting access to what it wants, then it loses its reason for wanting to stay attached. If it's connected to you, perhaps you can probe it through its connections to you.

I'm not sure how to handle those sort of criters, but I'd say if you use your will to remove it, you may find better success if your focus isn't to destroy it. If it becomes a life or death fight for the critter, the critter tends to put up the fight of its life (as it is in nature)

[IA56]

Ia,
Sounds like it might be a parasite of sorts. What do you feel like it is gathering? I think knowing that answer is the key to knowing how to remove it. If you can prevent it getting access to what it wants, then it loses its reason for wanting to stay attached. If it's connected to you, perhaps you can probe it through its connections to you.

I'm not sure how to handle those sort of criters, but I'd say if you use your will to remove it, you may find better success if your focus isn't to destroy it. If it becomes a life or death fight for the critter, the critter tends to put up the fight of its life (as it is in nature)

Hi Honeybadger400,

Well, it is giving me several thoughts....when I in the dream tried to smudger it by lying myself on my back....it did tell me that I have not made it without it....and I have bean several times in danger....Life threatening danger in this Life....so it may be it´s strategi to me keeping it.....like this night Dreams...it does remind me and give me the feeling of Gollum.....??....

I do not know for sure...but I think someone is trying to remove it...I did get such a pain in my back where it is attatched into me....If there is someone trying to help me, please let me know so I can feel more secure when the pain increases....

Love
ia

[Honeybadger400]

Ia,
I guess it comes down to your discernment then. Do you think it is being honest about its benevolence to you or is this it's trickster play to stay attached?

either way if I read into this correctly, it's probably something fairly easy to remove (otherwise it wouldn't try to psych you out of attempting to do it)

[IA56]

Ia,
I guess it comes down to your discernment then. Do you think it is being honest about its benevolence to you or is this it's trickster play to stay attached?

either way if I read into this correctly, it's probably something fairly easy to remove (otherwise it wouldn't try to psych you out of attempting to do it)

Hi Honeybadger400,

I can´t answere yet ....I am investigating it....as far as I now can see/feel I have had it at least since the big beating of me in the 1980-81...so I am starting to understand why I have survived all horrors and "murders" what I have faced in this Life....

Yesterday I did wake up from a dream because a man was trying to strangle me....and this "thing" did help me ....so ....so far it has bean good for me....I did not recorder this dream because of this investigatation I am doing ....but now when you asked I come forward with it....When and if I get more proof I will write about it...
I woke up this morning with nausea...I am thinking the reason for it....but I do not know for sure but I suspect that other unknown energies what I am not familiar with is causing my nausea....I hope it is "good" ones...

Love
ia

[IA56]

I have bean encurraged to write this....this "thing" or entity I have on my back...did decide to "protect" me...against it´s own species so to speak....He/she does feel born in wrong "family" like me...and it felt that I might understand it too...even it is against all common sense so to speak...I am Crying now because it does give me so much curage to go on with this telling even I know I take a huge risk....but it say´s it want reach the light...but he is bound to live in darkness...and it is crying to me to let it reach light.....If it is up to me to decided...of course I let it reach light...I want everyone to reach light and love.....I hope we both will reach light.

I am thinking about the nausea and dizzyness I feel if it is someone trying to help me get rid of it...and it does fight back and this causes nausea in me....and those who try to take it away is fighted back so bad so they think I am dangerous??..and it is this what make´s people think wrong about me becaue of this thing??....just a thought...but a strong one...

[IA56]

Last night I had so many dreams but I will write about some of them.....I saw a lorry driving amok...it did crach into a car and the driver did be thrown out and on top of the lorry....I saw he was bleeding....I shouted to him...do not stand up...be still....ambulance is comming....waite.....when I had climbed up on the lorry there was several others injured too...I was so surprised...one women did stand up and I tried to stop her...I said...waite for the ambulance for a check up....but she did not want.....she said she has to go to work...I asked her to call me when she got home that I know she is okay....she said...but I stop working at 4...it is okay I said....I wrote down my name and my phonenumber....(what I have in reall Life)....

In this seequence I was with a man...I was in love with him...we had moved to a new appartament....by accident I did see him in clotings I did not recognize so I followed him.....to see where he is going...he Went to visit a women....I waited outside for him so he would know I know....he was not even embareced at all....like it was the most normal thing to do...well....it was normal for him...but not for me....I told him he has to move out at once....he bring a flower to me but I told him it does not help....I get to know that he was married already ...he had several others too.....a real swindler...

In this seequence me and my son did go into a wrong appartament...my son started to peal potatoes...and I noticed that it was not our appartament....when we Went out we where in number 33 and our was 31....the old women who was living in the appartament was not at all angry or chocked...she was happy someone had pealed some potatoes to her...:-)

[IA56]

Last night dream was again me moving ...I had all my stuff in dissaray....I noticed my grandmothers rockingchair...and I was thinking...did I inherent her rockingchair....(in real-Life no)
I noticed several small items on it...I did pick them up in my hands and sat down in the rockingchair....my sister noticed all the stuff in my hands and she said...you have some of mine there too....oh I said...and opened my hands for her to see and take it what is her´s....I was curious what she took...it was a small toy ...green plastic boat??

[IA56]

Last night dream was about me working within the church in 1790...interesting....since I did in this life work within church in 1990....200 years has passed and I think the same of it....in the dream I asked...do any of you have a belief....they sure did act like without it in both centuries....

In 1990 I asked if we could have a young boy as a teen leader for our churc-camps..he´s mother was single mother with many problems...and my idea was that the boy would feel valued and get better self esteem to be with growups without his mothers problems....but the answere was from Church....we can not take in Tom Dick and Harry....so still church is for the rich ones...as it was in 1790....no change ....not for common man to work within a church....that did make me leave the church and I will not return...

I was married to a rich man at that time...if I had bean single mother the Church had never asked me to work within the Church....

[IA56]

Last night dream I was in a big river..it was rushing me down river and when I looked up river I saw many people and animals coming down towards me...I spotted a sand bank and I guided me towards that and was saved...I was shouting to others to come this way...to be saved.

[Timothy]

Last night dream I was in a big river..it was rushing me down river and when I looked up river I saw many people and animals coming down towards me...I spotted a sand bank and I guided me towards that and was saved...I was shouting to others to come this way...to be saved.

Saved from what..., fore thanks be to the big river for having banked forth upon your deliverence. Time's Timeliness Timelessly Timely

[IA56]

Saved from what..., fore thanks be to the big river for having banked forth upon your deliverence. Time's Timeliness Timelessly Timely

Drowning....

Love
ia

[IA56]

In last night Dream I hear a voice asking me...who will carry your suitcases??....I was surprised by the question....I have always carried my own suitcases...so I answered...I carry my own suitcases....

[IA56]

Last night dream was about testing me and my desire....I opened a cupbord...there was a glas of whisky...I closed the door to the cupbord...and I was thinking....whose cupbord is this??...I look at it and let me be still and think....oh it is my mothers....now I open the cupbord door again....and no whisky glas ....so then I know it is mine...someone asked me why do you have so little things in the cupbord...I said...because when I moved into this appartament the landlord said to me....please do not bring in so much stuff...so I did not...I have the most of my things in the basement storage....

[IA56]

Last night I had so many dreams again....but I will only write about this...because it is a repeating theam....I was a speactator in this dream....I see 2 men doing a big trap for someone....they have a armour car..a big one....I am in front of the car....when I see behind the car is a huge grizzly bear coming...he is huge...it is winter and much snow...the 2 men did not expect the bear coming from this way...so they where taken by surprise....the bear is pusching through and tipping the armour car aside....here I awoke myself...it was too much....

[Timothy]

It is a Good Dream. To say that there are some that have captured Creation, and would none other that divide it into trade-marked properties toward rendering it into null and void copy-righted [cloned] sterility. She persists...She bear's up all THAT was~>is<~shall be. Matthew 6:13

[IA56]

It is a Good Dream. To say that there are some that have captured Creation, and would none other that divide it into trade-marked properties toward rendering it into null and void copy-righted [cloned] sterility. She persists...She bear's up all THAT was~>is<~shall be. Matthew 6:13

Thank you Timothy for your input :heart:

Last night I had those dreams what do not seam to make any sense...me flying around and noticing...like one car parked outside of a complexe and me wondering what does he do at that place??...one side of me understaning but not reveling it to my understanding??

Love
ia

[IA56]

Last night I visited an old lady....if this lady is me...I will become very old :D...if it was something else...the dream was like this...

I visited an old lady...she was nitting a very difficult and new tecqnic...I was so impressed and I wanted to learn it too...so I visited her often....one day her daughter did come and asked me if her mother have had something to eat that day...I have only seen her drink tea...I knew that a person have come with food parcels and put it in her frigerator but did not tell her anything....I did notice that the lady was very thin but felt strong...

In this part I was feeding a young boy with banana....he had difficulty to eat for some reason what was not known to me in the dream....

In this episode I was told not to forget the children...I promised not to....

[IA56]

I have had dreams about twins....and last night was it again...it is why I now write about it and record it for future....

Last night two girl-twins gave some kind of sound...there where in total balance with each-other....it sounded like...ta di...and the other said...di ta....it was high pitched...sounded like crystal.....

[IA56]

In last night dream I was making bird feeding items.....I took a pet bottle and made a hole in it and put birds seeds in it and was walking into a small forest near the house I was living in....a fox was coming my way and we both was so scarred ...we both freeze and looked into each others eyes....the fox was trying to tell me to not be more scarred...and now I did understand what he was trying to tell me...an animal what I have never seen before...looked very scary...instantly I shouted ...go away....and made with my hand a gesture to ...go away....now I looked at the fox...and he was trying to make me calm....and it did help...I now was able to look at the animal more calm.....and now I saw it had 2 cubs....oh how small they where....I did become total warm in me and I did send love towards them....

[IA56]

Last night dream I was both participant and spectator....The dream was like this....I was with a group of people helping a man down from a hugh high building...The man we helped had thick rope around him from his knees up to his neck....we did carry him on the outside of the building, we reached a plataeu and I had noticed for a time that the man tried to say something but somehow was not able, so when we reached this plataeu I asked him what is wrong....he said...I have forgot my key...the others in the group did sit down and felt defeated...the man said...this building is so huge so I can´t just say...to some nabo to help and bring me my key...he was looking up to the sky...and down come his key...dropped down....and we all in the group did look at eachothers and felt...YES!!

I am so happy to have this dream...I do understand what it is saying to me...this dream gives me more strength...it is giving me hope that my effort has payed off...thank you Jesus our GOD.

[IA56]

Last night dream I was sitting behind a man who was driving a motorcycle...he did fainting-fit...frist I did think he is joking with me as he is such a person who do pranks...but soon I noticed that he was totally unconsious....I had to manuevre the MC and I did get it down without us be hurt....he was totally passed out....

[IA56]

Last night dreams I was in some participant and in some I was only spectator....

In this seequence I was testing very expensive shoes...high heals...and I just said...yes, there is big difference between sheep and expensive shoes....

in this seequence I was with my childhood friend T (she is not longer with us) I was visiting her and her husband...I noticed a picture on the wall and I was thinking if she has painted it....one man came and visited them at the same time...he was very Ã♥nterested in her...I was looking at her if she did felt the same...but I couldn´t decide becasue the husband did intervene and I lost my concentration....

In this seequence I was looking at a group with persons with cloaks...the preast said...everything is changing...I was thinking and trying to understand what he meant....I could sense that not everyone did have same belief...some was very much believing....I wondered if this was what he meant...I could also see that some felt very much they had more value to be in this group not nessesary becasue of believing but of the status they ganed by being in the group....

In this seequence I was somewhere inside an appartament....I was just taking my coat off...when a man did come in like a hurricane....I told him with what an huge energy he did come....he said...you do not have to follow me...I said...I am not....just taking my coat off....

[IA56]

My dreams have changed lately it does frighten me...2 dreams about knifes...I am against weapon....the first dream was....I was with a man in an appartament....we did hear that someone was breaking in...like a burgaler.....I took a butter-knife...and I told the man that I will fool the burgalor with it...in Quick glance it will look like a real knife...the man took a big bred-knife and told me that he will use it...NO I said...with that you will do damage and hurt....

the other dream with knife was....I was walking out...I was going somewhere and had the butter-knife with me.....I passed by a buss-stop...I recognize a women and when I had walked by I was unsure if I could have the butter-knife with me to Town....so I turned around and Went to the women and asked her if she could hold the butter-knife for me...I saw that she did put it into her inner pocket of her jacket...I had walked a bit but turned around and told the women that I did not give the butter-knife to her only her to hold it for me...she said...she had undertood it right...she showed my cardigan hanging in the bus stop and she showed she had put the butter-knife inte the cardigans inner pocket.....

last night I had several dreams what did not make any sense to me...only two seequnces......I was near a man who was working in a factory...making fabric....he did trample me down on the ground and stomp on me??....and in one seequnce I asked if we will be treated as individuals or as a group??

[IA56]

Last night dream is very significant and helpful but I do not understand it totally...I understand it on one level but not on the most important level....so if someone have some ideas I would be most greatful....

The Dream was me and others sitting in a merry-go-round....I hade pedals to keep the merry-go-round moving...I was terrifyed to let it halt....I was totally exhausted and half dead...but with one foot I still did paddle...it was here I woke up to remember the dream....

[IA56]

I have had dreams lately what is diffcult for me to express....I know I irritate few here when saying like this, but this is important for me to express that I have registret them in one level yet not understandable to my day-consiusness or what to call it?

What I remeber but do not understand the meaning of it at all....I noticed that my toes was full of larvaes...I freakened out....a man said...be calm....I had to have them for a while....then I was allowed to wash them away....and I started to wash them harsly away...they did turn to some kind of slime and the man said....see...you have to be more careful and not that harsh....but I was so disgusted and in panik so I wanted them off my toes quick....the man did explain to me that he wanted to show me more how I am....he also told me to keep my ground...and I did understand that to keep me at Jesus that is my ground...he reminded what happened when I did let me talk away from Jesus....yes I remember I was attacked att once and I was not able to stop the attacks until I did return back to Jesus....so as I did remember his lesson to me was to show what is important to me to keep me at.....to start to build up a solid foundation...

[IA56]

Last night dream is those what I register but do not have Words to express...yet....the only thing I remember is a green jello desert...I am very happy because I saw the green colore, it makes me very happy for some reason I do not know now.....what it represents...but something good....

I have also noticed that my tolerance and acceptans has withened and deepened....I notice this when doing the yoga exercises I got from the yoga teacher...he is a person who accepts and respects all religions and all philosofies....his energies have helped me to see my feelings about these issues....I am not yet that accepting but I have same values and wants to become total accepting of all kind of movements...

[IA56]

Last night dream I was in a hotel...I was going to buy a big cup of coffee....I knew I had some coins in my pocket but suddenly they where gone, so when I reached the cash register i had a man infront of me and he told the cashier to put it on his room bill...I was happy to hear this...I will also do that...he turned against me and now I saw who he was...a man I have had a fling with...he did give me a kiss and was going to wait for me....but I said...no...go ahead .....now I looked at my left hand and I noticed a ring on my ringfinger...I was confused....was I in a relationship already...and here I am flirting with someone else....I did not know what to Think....how can I have forget that I already had a ring on my finger????.....What does this mean?? anyone ideas??

[IA56]

I had a dream me standing by an ATM maschin, 2 wimin standing so close behind me that I was worried they could see my code, so I turned around and faced those wimin and asked them nicely to back-off....they just stared at me and no effort to hear my wish to have some privacy.....so I said...Okay...and left without taking out Money....

In this episode I was helping my father to hospital ( he is no longer with us, he passed away little more than 1 year ago) in the dream I was aware of this, that I was on the other side helping him, I did think in the dream that what would they think here at the nursery home he died at if I told them this??...

I do interpret this that for my father to Wake up he needs help also on the other side, he did tell me Before he passed that he had same room at the other side as he have here, so I said...good then you feel familar when transit....me and my father did talk about these things often, he had very severe anziety for Death, that he will get hars punishment, I told him that he can not have bean in such way that he would have to be ashamed infront of God...he felt relived he told me that I had such a comforting way...I hope so too......

[IA56]

Last night dream I was in antarktis inviroment, snow and ice....the house was also of ice...I wandered from room to room...I noticed a window with curtains down...it trickered fear in me so I went outside and said to myself...go home...when I come outside I saw only white snow/ice inviroment...without any horizon..I noticed one red helicopter...and I thougt they will find me if I do not reach my destination...they will use the red helicopter...I felt confident that I will succeed...

[IA56]

Last night I was on a journey...I had a ticket and I got onboard a bus...asking the people on the bus if they knew if it will stop on the middle plan?? no-one knew...so I went to the bus-driver to ask ...but the dream ended for some reason and I never got to know if I was onboard the right bus...

[IA56]

I had few dreams last night...I was visiting up North and met some I knew when living there...some vas very happy to see me again, some not so much...I tried to get ride to town from the place I was at...I saw native American a man with his family....I asked if I they could give me a ride to Town....he said yes...but the wife said...they had all theires children with them and there was no space for me.....I said okay, it is okay....soon I felt arms around my choulders and a women I know told me there is a bus stop just outside the building...I was so happy to get some help....

In this episode one ex boyfriend come to my work and asked if I could go out to lunch with him...first I hesitated but said yes...he picked up me and we drow away in his car...he said we was not able to park on the parkingplace they was cleaning it....he left the car engine on the parking lot...and I could not see the coashwork at all...I asked him if he again are doing trixs to fool me...he never answered...when we come to the appartament a child called him father (he had no children)...the child said...father...it is forbidden to touch that place...I did not know how to be ..to say or not to say..so I said...I have to go back to work...took the elevator down and the child run down the staires to hug me...she was sweating so I stroke her forhead and said...you are sweating...she said...am I....

I had to make protection over me...some energy did try to invade my speace....I felt it when my heart did nearly burst ...felt like I will get heart attack....Protection worked and my heart did be normal.....

[IA56]

Last night dream I only remember the content feeling ...I had to make protection over me again, my heart was rushing because of strong alien energies what I am not familar with intruding my space....I remember me saying...if all is ruined I just hope my son get help...I accept ...it was not like me sacrificing me for benefit to my son...but that I am aware of someting what my son is not...and therefore he must be helped if there is only one to be saved/helped...I choose my son to be saved/helped...

[IA56]

In last night dream I become so unsure and when this happens stress increases to so high amount that I can´t think clearly...The dream Went like this...

I am somewhere in a group...I know this ..but do not see only hear voices to know and by feeling...the teacher asks the group...Do everyone have a doctor...at once I get to remember my doctor in real life..(.I have a female doctor, she is brilliant) the teacher sayes...now call your doctor...but at the sametime I got to feel/know it is not the this doctor the teacher refers too...so I say...in that case I have called the wrong number....here I become so stressed because I was so unsure who is my doctor becides Jesus??...I am unsure if Jesus is included as a doctor in this senario??...or if I should think my yoga teacher is my doctor....nothing is cleared for me so I awoke myself ...and I have to really ponder on this deeply....

[IA56]

In last night dream I was suported by a man standing on my right side holding me up from my arm.....I felt that I did not have good balance and could not co-ordinate my body well...so he did hold me up and guided me...he took me to the dancing floore....and did leade me to face a young girl...my braine did not function well, but I could notice and he did give me so much time to have a chance to understand what he wanted me to notice....it was not that I had to dance with the girl...it was to see her joy and energetic movement....she was smiling in pure joy against me...and I was like stiff and very much emotionless....I was surprised to see me this way, as I have thought I was as joyful and energetic as this young girl....this was somehow a lesson...when the man did let go of my arm...he said...next week same time...do not forget to be cautious.....I was in full control again of my body and could run...I run down-staires with my whole class to second floor....

[IA56]

I had several dreams last night but I will only mentioned one....I saw a white and blue swan from below...I was thinking if I was lying on my back and looking upwards...because it was such a strange angel.....and I was also thinking about it´s colore....if someone had painted blue colore on the white swan...

[IA56]

Last night dreams was compelling....I drow a car when the stearing Wheel was on the right side I felt care free and happy...it was easy to drive and I was not at all worried it flowed easy and I could drive rather fast.....when the stearing Wheel was on the left side....I was more careful...stiff....and drow slowly...I had difficulty to understand the road ....

I was observing 2 men going out and in houses...they where carrying pot´s in both hands....water in one and coffee in one....one was Little bit shy and the other man did seam to be the one to learn how to do...he make a gesture with hand for the pupile to go into the house and he said....sipp sipp......and showed to gesture of pouring from the pot´s...

I in this episode did look at my ring-finger Nail....I saw under what I thought to be a thorn....it was very Deep...and I was thinking how to get it out....if it had to be operated how would they do, cut the Nail in half??...or should I let it be and observe it Before making any decission what to do....

In this episode I again was observing 2 men looking for something in cupboards...they found what they searced...lot´s of alchohol....they where so happy to find a bottle with bubble...label on the bottle was....Life??...the bottle was Deep/dark green...

[Neophos]

This is somewhat easy to interpret, as the higher self and particularily subconscious mind (the superior part of yourself) communicates through symbolism, this is also why in magick they use symbols to access the subconscious. Symbolism is a universal language.

In your dream, you changed positions to the "left position" indicating the darker side as oppossed to the right, its adressing an issue. The two pots, water and coffee is suggesting to you to drink water instead of two much coffee, the thorn under the nail represents a suppressing urge, which "is currently" or is a "potential problem" it could be indicating either alcahol or coffee, this thorn needs to be removed from your mind, find the route cause, and eliminate it. The subconscious is telling you to drink from the bottle of life, and is warning you about your health. You need to observe you inner urges and temptations and there are things you can do to help this.



Peace, Neophos

[IA56]

This is somewhat easy to interpret, as the higher self and particularily subconscious mind (the superior part of yourself) communicates through symbolism, this is also why in magick they use symbols to access the subconscious. Symbolism is a universal language.

In your dream, you changed positions to the "left position" indicating the darker side as oppossed to the right, its adressing an issue. The two pots, water and coffee is suggesting to you to drink water instead of two much coffee, the thorn under the nail represents a suppressing urge, which "is currently" or is a "potential problem" it could be indicating either alcahol or coffee, this thorn needs to be removed from your mind, find the route cause, and eliminate it. The subconscious is telling you to drink from the bottle of life, and is warning you about your health. You need to observe you inner urges and temptations and there are things you can do to help this.



Peace, Neophos

Thank you Neophos...yes...this dream is giving more clarification to what you already did mediate throug your post where I told you that I did get the message about alkochol to stop drinking in 1989....about tobaco in 2003 and about unhealthy eating through you....I do drink coffee only on time a day...and not every day...but then I ought to stop even this Little intake of coffee....I have started to change my eating temtations what is bad...I have a sweet tooth :-)....

What do you Think about the left and right positions?? I was more happy when I drow the car stearing Wheel on the right...and was more stiff and slow when driving the car with the stearing Wheel on the left side....??

The thorn was on my left hand ring finger Nail....I have had 2 bad marriges....and other bad relationships too....but I feel it is more deeper than this....The man who did beat me up in 1980-81 did do a ritual where he said....that not even death can part us.....he told me that time is working for him...and he has time to wait??...I Believe it is refering to this fear in me that he did claim me for ever so to speak....is this possible??

Love
ia

[Neophos]

This fear, is the thorn that you need to remove. The left can be symbolized as the negative side. In the Occult they call this the "left hand path" and even left hand kundalini. that is why mans physical heart is slightly to the left of the chest, because man is more inclined to do evil rather than good. But dont take this symbolism of left and right to seriously, this is just a simple communication.

The car can also symbolize, the journey of life and how you are steering this. Dont go to the left side, take heed of how your inner life is effecting your outerlife.

this fear inside of you is controling you both subconsciously and consciously, or atleast is occassionaly effecting you, and is the reason why in times past, and possibly now, that you may have had bad habits With health. This curse your ex husband put on you is nothing but an emotional outburst, and you need not just realize but "know" that there is no inpending danger. When we give fear to a thought, the thought itself becomes something like an entity, and it sounds like you have been feeding this beast for years, and now have made it difficult for yourself. It started as a little baby snake and now it has grown to a dragon you have to slay. We all have our inner demons. But surprisingly, this is not difficult to overcome. Humans are creatures of habit and patterns, the most difficult time is in the beggining. Starting from tonight, you shall no longer feed this thought. If you starve an animal it will become weak and die. If you starve the entity, it will get weaker and die.
Nothing in nature, will undertake a proffitless undertaking.

the dragom to slay is fear, and you must always remember that you have always been free, and in control. It is fear that destroys, we live in a cosmos of order, if you believe in what your husband did you are not showing faith in the universe. Yoir thoughts determine your reality, think that you are powerfull.

remember these words, faith is the remedy, and fear is the poison.

[IA56]

Thank you Neophos :heart:

I did be born to this Life with my Eyes closed and total fear/terror about where I did be born into...I felt total alone....and longed after my real family??...This feeling of fear I was born with...it must come from pre Lifes too....so it feels like it is so Deep and compact and in many layers and dimentions....I have really pondered about this in many many years, but have not found the real root yet...I have a hunch that when I find the real root I will be liberated and the bound energy will be free and I am huge then...

Love
ia

[Neophos]

I understand this problem well. I am going to write a post about meditation, and what this really implies. This fear is a controling agent, and i know that too many people suffer of this. I was born to spiritually help people, this is my purpose. I have been to hell and back in life, and i have come out with a suit of shining spiritual armour. I can transfer my knowledge to people, but it depends on there state of consciousness, if the individual is to weak there is nothing i can do, if there is potential the words i say will spring up like a flower and roots.

One positive cause, will produce multiple positive effects, and same with negative causes and there effects. The universe was created through two oppossing forces, one acting upon the other. But if the balance of the scales, is to much to the left, then a downward spiraling motion in life happens. But intrestingly enough, it is the suffering in life which forces us to spiritually evolve, because life forces you in this situation. And the negativity in life becomes a blessing, (if we steer this experience forward, and learn from mistakes) thus, the mystery of negative energy is revealed. So be happy in your suffereing, Take it as a test, that if you pass you grow that ever more closer to the creator.

the world is a place full of spiritually unevolved beings, that are slaves to the flesh and its senses, if you resonated with them your life would be blissfull and wonderfull, but its because your closer to god, the world does test you. Take suffering, as gods exams in schools if you handle it well, you will be that much more illuminated. This life is extrememly important, its such a privellage that we are all here. With spirituality, comes the true unfoldment of powers. People who want to take a short cut to greatness, will ultimately find themselves in trouble. Because only the purest hearts and minds of god are the true warriors in the universe, there is a great mystery. And this kundalini, or the holy spirit will not be given to those unworthy, this energy will not be given without true spirituality. Because this energy comes from the source, if however people recieve power without work, there power does not come from where you want it to be, they find themselves in trouble.

work for the power, sacrifice selfishness for charity. But its the ego which seeks power without sacrifice. There are some, born in this world where there roots go back to heaven. We dont know exactly for what reason each individual case may be, but for some they are born with a connection to something they dont yet fully understand. Behind, the flesh there is a difference in the spirit (consciousnes) between two people. An example is in different personalities, one is an artist another a business man. We are drawn to different things as people. There are different levels of metaphysical development and spirituality, some consider themselves spiritual, when in actual fact they dont know the first thing about sprituality.

If an individual truly is spiritual, there is a number of ways we can see this. One particular way, is searching the heart. Where your heart is, this is where you give most focus and energy in life. Name 3 things that you desire more than anything else in life, are these 3 desires of an earthly nature or of a higher nature?

Deep down, i know inside of myself within the deepest depths, there is something to be gained beyond this world. And everything this world has to offer is incomparable and dead compared to this thing in which seek.

This is why, the greatest teachers of the past, are, What they are. I am not a cristian, neither am i part of any religion. But this is why jesus said, behold wide is the path that leadeth to destruction, but narrow is the path that leads to life, and very few people enter it. Within simple words, lyes the mysteries of earthly existance. You see a mind, which is not illuminated cannot actually "see" the truth in spiritual sayings, they think they do but they do not. They are literally spiritually blind.

If we want to evolve even metaphysically, we must take the spiritual into account. Without the spiritual our attempt to evolve metaphysical will not go very far. "Energy" without this, god energy, kundalini, holy spirit etc... We cant go far. And this energy can only come, and will only come through the unfoldment of spirituality and consciousness. And the first fruits of spirituality is doing that which is Good. So you see it doesnt matter which way we look at things, we can not escape the natural laws of the universe.

ps.... I did a lot of expressing myself, this post is for everyone not specifficaly to IA, peace.

[IA56]

Hi Neophos,

I want only react on one thing you write...this....I can transfer my knowledge to people, but it depends on there state of consciousness, if the individual is to weak there is nothing i can do, if there is potential the words i say will spring up like a flower and roots.

It is good you "know" whom you can help...those you classifye as weak is on total another level and they need so much love and understanding to grow....and it might be that they do not seam to understand but what good seeds you can sow will grow and flourish so all patience and love you can give is never in vain....

Love
ia

[IA56]

Last night Dream is only one I want to mention.....I was looking at persons who did weight Babies....with a old scale....the baby on one end and weight on the other and balancing to know the weight of the baby....

[Neophos]

So the baby was being "weighed" with a pair of old scales, was there a physical weight on the other side?

What other details can you provide, try and remember just before and after, or any other detail.

What was your emotional state in the dream?

You tend to dream a lot at night, and you have good recall. A lot of symbolism in your dreams.

[IA56]

Yes it was an old scale....my grandfather used one to weight fish and stuff with....it has a weight on the other end and a hook on the other and in middle scale to see how much more than the end weight.....I do not know what this scale is called but in Finnish language it is....puntari.....the baby was very healthy and robust...strong and blooming.....

Love
ia

[IA56]

Last night dream was those ...valley...dreams ..I have not had them for years so I am little bit compelled....

I was walking with a big group in the valley...it was very calm and joyful atmosphere...I was front walkers when I suddenly turned around and spotted wild horses...the first one I saw was big white horse....I started to run ...I saw a lodge and started to run towards it to get some kind of protection...I hear a soothing song and I suddenly realise that my panic will make all go amok....so I stop running and turned around and see one driving a horse with carriage...and have a lot of hay on a carriage and I realise that they are feeding these wild horses....and I feel rediqulious for feeling such a fear of the wild horses.....

For several years when I had these valley Dream in them I was a look out on the hills to warn the valley people when wild horses was incomming....I shouted horses incomming...

[Neophos]

Alright i will make an "attempt" on this one

the scales weighing the baby indicates that your are trying to examine an aspect of yourself. In your daily life lately, you are observing a part of yourself that you deem inmature (the baby) and you are weighing this inmaturity up. So this means, you are "self observing" this does not mean by anyway that your inmature. It means "an aspect" of yourself may need attention. It could be anything, from spending money unessascarily to a weakness of a certain temptation (all us humans have this) its called spiritual growth.

I will leave this for you to decide, also the fact that your father used to use those could indicate something (or not) you know yourself, so you decide and "think" carefully, about what you have been examining about yourself lately. peace, neophos.

[Neophos]

Who was feeding the wild horses?

And what colour was the other horses and how many?

[IA56]

Alright i will make an "attempt" on this one

the scales weighing the baby indicates that your are trying to examine an aspect of yourself. In your daily life lately, you are observing a part of yourself that you deem inmature (the baby) and you are weighing this inmaturity up. So this means, you are "self observing" this does not mean by anyway that your inmature. It means "an aspect" of yourself may need attention. It could be anything, from spending money unessascarily to a weakness of a certain temptation (all us humans have this) its called spiritual growth.

I will leave this for you to decide, also the fact that your father used to use those could indicate something (or not) you know yourself, so you decide and "think" carefully, about what you have been examining about yourself lately. peace, neophos.

Thank you Neophos,

I have alwasy things in my dreams from this Life like here I was weighded with this kind of scale when I was born at my grand-fathers house where my parents lived on my birthday...countryside and born home....and you are right about the self aspect...what need to grow....and the valley Dream is a good Dream to show my growth when comparing the older valley Dreams....what has to develop or grow out of me is fear.....and I am happy to see my fear is much lesser then Before....and that now Days I do notice soothingness when it is apointed at me and a dare to listen and take in so to speak....if this makes any sense to you....it does a lot to me...:D...thank God.

I have bean self observing my self since 1981....not to say much have happened but enought for me to notice the difference.....and that is enough good for me...I am growin.

Love
ia

[IA56]

Who was feeding the wild horses?

And what colour was the other horses and how many?

I am not sure who the feeder was, but I Think it was the people of the valley...or I accepted that the valley had accepted the wild horses and helped them to survive....my first notice was the White colore it did not do any difference first to me....it was still a wild horse no matter what colore they have.....and the others was White with light Brown specks....It was a big Group I did not see all but felt them to be many....
when the hay vagen pulled by the horse...I thought it had bean a wild horse from the beginning but was tamed.....so I was so surprised how my fear had blinded me Before....but the soothing song did open my Eyes and made my fear leave me to see more cleare.....

Thank you again Neophos for making me Think deeper....

Love
ia

[IA56]

Last night Dream all was about my lower back...I was worried about me lying on my stomach and feeling that on my left hand 3 fingers gone numb...I hear myself saying to me....do not worry I am here.....

the part where I did say to myself ...do not worry I am here...the sayer was more real than my body....it was interesting experience...never felt it that way.

[IA56]

Last night dreams I hear a male voice say....pray for the liberation of Hindus.....I did woke up from the sleep it did have such a strong impact on me....

I associated with many persons in this episode....I tried one man to tell me something....do not remember....but saying to him...please tell me....
and then another man we decided to have a try and we decided to write some questions we want to know about eachother to answere when we see next time.....I did have one renting a room from me....

so there was like this on and on in the dream....

[IA56]

Last night dream was very strong to stirr up my fear again, I have noticed that when my fear invade me I can´t judge in right way if it is danger or if it just awakened my unsolved issues of met so much violence in this Life....when I did see the tatoos on the mans arms...I assume it was a man because of the strong fear it awakened in me....it was round circles in black like roundles tatooed on both arms...the spots was with 10 cm apart from eachothers....

Like to balance up this fear scenary I in this episode met softnes, kindness and I said...I am the yellow colore....I felt so happy in this dream...total safe and secure.

[IA56]

Last night dream I met a man who was interested in me....(I am not interested anymore to go into a relationship) he had learned to know my son too...he asked me if I wanted to travel to his cabin ...he said it is located in the wilderness so no disturbence what so ever form others....it sounded to be a place to rest properly in...I asked about the cabin...he said he have constructed it by himself....I hear him speak with a friend to him and he said the cabin did cost him 400 miljon to set up.....seam to be more a casle than a cabin in my ears....

[IA56]

Last night through the whole night sound of alarmclock goes off and wake´s me up several time from my sleep?? was I going too far from my body? or going into that kind of sleep what makes me not to Wake up in my body? these questions did come to mind ...I was awakened several times by this alarmclock going off ....feel exhausted and not rested...

[IA56]

Last night dream was strange....I saw a young girl faced at me (I did be a spectator) and a young man had his back at me so I did only see his back and he was infront of the girl....I had to go nearer to see what they where doing....he was blowing air into her nose?? she did look at me and total calm manner she did let me look what they where doing....she had a very little pretty nose and she did with her hand/fingers open up the nose to be better to get the air to go into the nose....now she did take her hand at her right cheek...I had to go more near to see what is happening...to my surprice I saw a hole on her cheek and she wanted him to blow air into that hole too??
She did look total human but that on her cheek did scarre me so much ...I at once get a feeling they are alien??...I did awoke from the dream feeling a bit confused what to think...fear did linger....

[IA56]

Last night I again was in a winter landskape....I was just to begin to take the snow away with a shovel when from both sides of the house 2 snowploughs come to my help and the snow was taken away in a heart beat....thank you.

[IA56]

In last night dream I was helping my son to find new shoes to him....but every shoe we tested was to small??

In this episode I build a wagon with wheels to travel with?? I asked for help...if they could build me a construction like upside down umbrella...but they did give me like a squer one....I said...that will be difficult for me to travel in?

The sound of shewbacca ...(the hairy one from Star Wars who did be with Hans Solo)... did wake me up this morning from my sleep?

[IA56]

Last night dream started me seeing my hand infront of me like floating towards somethÃ♥ng I am in a relaxed dream state...I see a plate.......My left hand is mad to touch to plate...I got a huge electric shock...now I did awake totally...felt such a hard pain in my brain...like migraine...I was surprised that it was Electric...it really made me woke up from the relaxed but very ordinary feeling...like I needed the shock to wake up and make me more clear in my appearance....like first all was like grey...after the shock colores did brighten up clearly...

[IA56]

In last night dream I was with a man who instructed me how to shave the pig´s legs....they where pink and not yet cooked so they have to be shaved the hair off....On alive pig did also come to look what I was doing...I felt fear and I now had to shave one pig on it´s face...I said to the man...this is alive...he said ...no it is not....keep going....but why did it bleed when I shaved it´s face...I could clearly see small pearls of blood...I did not dare to disobey the man who ordered me to shave the pigs....

[IA56]

Last night dream started with me sending a poetry book to my mother to the other side.....then the dream turned to be me and one aspect of me was on the beach looking out at the sea and a big wawe did bring a white bat to us...we did communicate and said ...how lucky we are to get this white bat...suddenly we lost it and we did wonder where did it go....we looked at the sea to see if we could locate it...and soon we saw it on a boat...and I zoomed to look closely who it was that took our bat...when he did feel him watched he did threw the bat in the sea...and soon a wawe did bring it back to us...and we did feel happy....now mother came through and asked me what I did send to her...I said...you tell me what you got....and she comfirmed to it was a poetry book....we hugged and I asked her to sit down on a chair so I could go on my knees and hug her...she did give me a kiss on my mouth what I never got from her when she was here.....she did mirror me well....her eyes was yellow...because I have the cysts on my liver....I know very well that my liver do not function well....I hope she did bring some healing to that issue...Thank you mother...I love you.

[IA56]

In last night dream I was visiting my father on the other side...I was happy to hear that he was living with a couple and was not alone...he gave me 5 x 500 kr....first I felt that I can´t take them but he insisted and told me he had lots of money....I asked what time table the bus had...we went to the bus stop and I could see that every 15 minutes the bus would run... I did see one bus on the stop and I went inside to aske the driver something...and he took off....I shouted open the door...and he did I jumped off the bus and felt like he hidejacked me....

[IA56]

I have had several dreams but only this is worth journaling...I was buying new clothings...The jacket did fit but not the skirt..it was too small....carpentery clothing in jeans textiles I also did buy....

[IA56]

In last night dream I was in a labyrinth of barn´s...I was lost and did not find my way out...after a while I met a girl and she said she will help me out...when we did come to a place where a bull was in chains and he did tangle him in the chains and we did hurry to help him...he was fuorious...whe had to be careful not to be rammed by him....we did sort out the chains and went out...soon I saw a spider gliding on it´s thread in front of me...suprisingly I was not afraid of it...just noticed it....and went on....soon we find our way out to the sunshine...I had my car parked outside and I took off...

[IA56]

Last night dream is little bit hard to put in words....but the content of the dream was that negative essence do not take over the positive...

[IA56]

Last night Dream I had few symbols some made sense some not....for instance....I saw a stone Foundation with Greta Garbo´s face skulpted on it??...I saw a man with Heavy chains around his neck and it was broken, this made me happy....I have missed emerald green colore what I did see often in my childhood...now I saw olive green...maybe it is a start so I can feel happy about that...

[IA56]

In last night dream I was again traveling with bus....In the bus was only male (foreigner) I knew the bus-driver...the door was narrow but I pushed it more open...the bus started before I got to pay the driver, I asked him when do you stop for payment...he grinned at me and said...I do not know....he implied that I got the ride for free.....

[IA56]

I had a dream where I had a bf, he was going to work, I hear a neighbour ask if I was at home, my bf said, she is sleeping. I was in bed but not sleeping, soon I hear that someone is breaking into my appartament and my heart did jump up to my throat, I felt fear, I did close my eyes but I did see though my eyelids. I see a man coming in, he takes his trousours off, he is naked from waist down and he is going to come besides me. I sat up and shouted, what are you doing? Out, out from my appartamen, he did be so surprised so he fell on his back, he grabbs his trousours and he puts them on him and he said whilst he is opening the door out of my home, he said: you are dead to me now.

In this episode I did see myself having thick plaits 2 on both sides of my head, I was so happy to have them :-)

In this episode I did hear a girl shouting ...give my Money back...I Went to see what is going on....I see a boy holding a cellphone in his hand, he is looking at it, I see 1170 on it...she said....I want my Money back..I knew he did owe her that amount and I said...you have to pay her back...he wanted me to hold his hand to give him curage to send the Money to her....when I hold his hand he could push the send buttom.

[IA56]

Last night Dream I was to a bathhouse...I was full dressed and needed to find a rest-room...I first Went wrong to the male side...and backed out quickly...found the ladies side and had to open the door to the sauna and appologize for doing so but needed to find a toilet...one women said...to the right...but there was only a solid wall....she said...oh they have not fixed it yet...but then she told me how to find it....

in this episode I was with one ex-bf and his male friend...the ex did behave badly...he throw pillows around him and hit a women...she did only laugh....I was looking with widh open Eyes his rampage...then he took of with car...but what I noticed about his skin was it was glimmering like in the twilight saga vampires skin??...I looked at his friend and said to him that we can take my car and go out for a ride but he said no...I felt bad for him to be left behind by his friend....

[IA56]

Last night I did dream that my father (is no longer with us) was in bad shape....he have bean partying heavely (he did drink but stopped like 10-15 yrs before he passed) ..He was in bed and shouted....I want coffee....we did put coffee on and soon I see he is not breathing....I gentle pat his back and he started to breath...I noticed that his hair was painted yellow??

In this episode me my sister and my mothers sister (she is still here, mother not)...we where on a bridge..it was storming and the bridge was bending and wobbling...I did see my sister holding my aunts hand to keep her on the bridge....I saw big holes on the bridge and some dynamos??...we did manage to the other side....

[IA56]

The only way to explain what happened last night is....I did see me in White clothings or of light....and I was 3 besides myself and I did see me at the same time being a spectator to notice this happen and me being in the White clotings not feeling like 3 but one??

[IA56]

Last night I was awakened from the Dream when someone took it´s refuge with me....I was sleeping on my left side so I felt on my back that the one hide behind my back...I told it to be still it is okay...

In this episode me my son and his father (he is not with us anymore) was Walking upwards on staires...I noticed him and my son having similar hair....he had his motocycle and he took off.....

[IA56]

Last night I did have dreams about spiders and what deap meanig they had...but I lost it....then I hear someone say...she is the first greap-fruit girl....??

Love
ia

[IA56]

Last night dream was a bit challengin because I did not get it....the dream was like this.....I was with a man I do not know....there was like pillars with pictures on them....I asked him who have put up the pictures....and whom they are.....he get annoyen by my askings...I had hard time to understand what did annoy him so much...he did play that he do not hear my question....I did come up with few propousals and that did annoy him futher more....I was trying to find what was going on....now he was getting more frustrated and starting to throw things around...I did not feel any fear just wondering what is going on....and the only answere I have found is that he did not know or not even noticed or even wondered about because he have not seen them at all....and he was to be the cleverest of us 2.....

In this episode I was so happy to see that the nature and specially the plant was protecting her.....

[IA56]

In last night dream I got to know that I have done enough...it is time for me to relax...Thank you God for that.

Love
ia

[IA56]

In last night dream I did see me lying on my back and my stomach was wide open and out of it come a huge brown nut??...it look-liked it at least....

[IA56]

In last night Dream I was again moving and I had a bunch of people whom I said to be my work colleagues...?? (I did not know any of them in real Life though....)
The Company where I was working in the Dream had some Connection to Denmark...the female owner of the Company told a colleague to cut of the vire to Denmark because they where doing
something to Control her Company....and she told also that she is going to move to Jerusalem...after they have helped me to move to my new appartament...

[IA56]

Last night I woke up because someone tried to choke me...whilst he had his hands around my neck...I said to myself...fokus...I felt that the hands just hold my neck...did not squeeze hard at all...after this the Dream changed...I was told to go to ATM and put a package into it...I noticed there was Money put on the roof so to say of the machine...I did call a man and asked if I should just leave it ...and I felt that he is the one who put the Money there...he said...just hurry back...let all be as it is....

[IA56]

Last night dream was strange and I have no idea about the symbolism to what it is reffering at....Donaldd ♥♥♥♥♥ was my bf in the dream...it was winter and snow deep so there was roads like a maze and had to walk in the snowploughed cleared roads....DT was going to left so I had to say to him..no we have to go this direction to the right...and he followed me...we where going to my gynaecologist apontment...and DT followed as support ....??

[IA56]

Last night dream I did strangle a man?.....It started that he did abuse me hard....I for the first time did do something I never thought I would do...he had a robe on him....and he did give me the belt to the the robe...and he helped to put it around his neck...and I did try to strange him...but the belt did break....even that he did help and like gave me the permit to stangle him..I am amazed that I did it....this must have some significant meaning of me chancing...

[IA56]

Last night Dream someone poked my forhead and said...deeper....soon someone showed me a can with sausages and asked ..was it this...No, I am not sure I said...felt that it was not it....I felt nausea when I woke up and with trememdeous headacke...??

[IA56]

Last night I met people who did leave me when I Went bancrupty with my Company because of sickness.....the most of them said...we will be your friend when you start again a Company...I told them that I am on disablement pension...only one or two said...I will soon come back to your Life...

[IA56]

In last night Dream I was visiting a yoga class...there where many people they where waiting for the yoga teacher...I did get a vision...a man had some kind of headgear made of feathers....I did assume it was the yoga teacher...so I told him...I am not able to partisipate in your class...and I left the yoga studio....then when I was outside the class I noticed that the yoga teacher was not physically present that I did see him in a vision only....

[IA56]

Last night Dream I was awakened by a big explotion??..imediately I started to pray??...I did not let my imagination take over...it was why I did go into a pray to find peace inside of me...and not let the fear ride me...

[IA56]

What a strange Dream last night...I was with my bf (I do not know him at all) doctor was on visit at our place, I was just starting to ask for advice about my son and his medication...but he took off and I said to my bf that now I missed the opportunity to get some advice....my son had furtilised eggs (it looked like a membran with the core pulsing I did know it was a furtilised egg ) and I did wonder where do he inplant them...he did take one in his mouth and did take it out and I was amazed how it did look and how it looked like it to be alive....
suddenly my bf was naked...with full erection....I was afraid that someone would see it...so I said to him....hurry cover it up...and I hold a blanket for him to wrap him in...

[IA56]

Last night Dream I was visiting someone (I do not know who) I was looking when she did give water to her plants/flowers....one plant was odd...like round boll...water did rise and sink around the plant...when I looked it was water filled...I told her not to water the plant it will rotten of too much water...but suddenly the water did sank...and now I looked outside...the house had glass walls...and the atmosphere looked like water...all kind of animals (not like here on Earth) we Went outside and when I looked at my side I did see Crocodiles piled up on each others...I did get so scarred and open the glass door to go inside...one Little Crocodile did slip inside but when it did notice where it was it Went out by it self and I was so happy and I was safe inside again....now we had to go outside and I did see more Crocodiles huge...they where huge...and the biggest one did lanch at us...we ran into a building with glass walls...it seamed to be a bank...I did lock the doors but had to open because it was a bank and people wanted inside to do there buisnisess...soon I do see that 2 of my male friends have caught the Crocodile and I am amazed of theires bravary and I am proud to know them and that they are my friends....

[IA56]

In last night Dream I was visiting my uncle he have a farm....I was looking at the house...3 store high...I had my room on the top floor...I did see a cow inside the house...I told my uncle and asked...how do we get her from there without harming her??..but soon I did see she have made it down and was coming out from the house...it made me very happy....

[IA56]

In last night Dream I got to know that the car-sales man did know about my car ...but he did act like he knew nothing...and he wanted me to pay for his valuation of my car...I tried to get him to confess that he did know my car...but he denied...I said...I know I have a good car....he said...acording by whom....me I said....I did not want to tell who told me that the man did know about my car because he had had it in his shop also and done valuation, but now he wanted more money from me even he already did know all about it....

[IA56]

In last night Dream my ex husband did show his coat to me...he have sew a lable in black and yellow with a White thread, made a huge knot with the White thread, I said to him that you should have use black thread then it wouldn´t have shown at al what thread you sew the lable...so he asked for my help...and oh what a struggle I had to sew the lable on the coat...first a cushin did be also sewed in with the lable...so I hade to do it again...I had to do it several times Before it was done properly....but I did not give in...I did make it well....

[IA56]

In last night Dream I did ask help from a part of me who was only lying down and not moving...this part did see without opening Eyes ...and it could see 360 vision..the .one part of me who is screaming to this lying part for help....I am desperat...and I do not know if this is on 4 separat plans or if it is on 4 different angels....

In this episode I am listening to a mother who is telling her friend about her daughters boyfriend who is very sensitive...and crying...the mother told that the daughter had to say to the bf to give the paper to her to read...he was from west Germany and he have got deportation order...

[IA56]

In last night Dream I was riding a horse...I did not sit comfortable on the sadle and I did fear because it was Winter and the snow was Deep...I tried to sit up more properly but it was hard....I feared that the horse will fall and injure itself...but my fear was total unnecessary the horse did manage the high snow very well and we did reach the destination unharmed and healthy....

[IA56]

In last night Dream I was going to exercise on a exercycle but there where only men in the pool and I was topless...so I turned around and Dr Phil did ask me if I give up to exercise...I told him that now when I am topless and the pool is full of men...I tried to get some help from Dr Phil...but he was just standing there neutral...for myself to make the decision....so I told him that I will get dressed and I will come back....I Went to the dressing-room and I was now going back to do the exercise when a boy asked me where I was going....I told him about the Dr Phil and his crue had invited me to use the exercycle for free ...and the boy was in awe that I knew Dr Phil....

In this episode I was looking out of the window and I did see a big grixzzly bear ourside....I did prepare someone with advice how to manage out there and how to survive in the wilderness??

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In last night Dream I was shown what I knew in real Life but the involved did deny it....I was with my bf and he wanted us to visit one female friend of mine....he was more interested in my female friend then in me....and she was also interested in him....when I asked both denyed it....I did felt it right when it happened.....I have to start to trust my intuition....

Now I know more how pain is developed in me....when I deny what I feel is truth or right....it developes pain in my body.....

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Last night Before I Went to sleep, I was in long prayre and in the end I said...please let me know how I am guided....my Dreams was so totally ordinary that kind of Dream night what I never recorder...and I was like comenting the ordinary happenings when I got to know....this is guidence....I was totally perplexed.....so when I Dream and I recorder the feeling in the Dream is more then ordinary...but all what is ordinary does pass me by....??

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In last night Dream it was Winter and outside was a bed with steel Construction...a man did bruch off the snow and I asked where are you going to put the bed...in the big sleeping-room ...my brother did take the smaller bed-room...so I have the big one...this is a big bed... it will be perfect in that bigger bed-room, your wife sure is happy to have the bigger bed room....

Total random Dream, have no clue what it means??

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The only thing I remember from last night Dreams...Zohar....I hear it repetedly...Zohar...Zohar....??

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In last night Dreams I was pondering why I can´t sleep...but suddenly I fell a sleep in the Dream...and it was here I noticed that I have had a Dream about me not sleeping??...haha....so strange...

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Last night Dream was disturbing ...I was looking into the Dream senario...like I was standing behind my own back....I saw me being physically silenced by force....my hair was in disaray....I was bend down on my knees....and then I saw a man coming from the right into the senario...his shoes was highlighted ...he had some kind of cowboy boots on him...he was looking down on me and he did let me feel that I have done something what he did not like...and he like made a gesture with his hand to hit me...when he did that...I rose myself and looked him straight in his Eyes...and asked what have I done to make you so mad....he did not answere....just looked at me like I ought to know...but I did not...and he did not tell me....How can I learn anything if I do not got to know what wrong I am doing???

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In last night Dream I was looking out of my appartament through the pephole in my door...looking into the stairhall...a big comotion several people was fist fighting and it did arise tremendeous fear in me...I did not even dare to look if I knew those who where fighting....I was thinking to call the police but did not do that because of the fear to be dragged into others negative actings....I do not want to have anything to do with that kind of commotion....so this Dream do tell me that the World is full of others making fights and making others be dragged into the drama....I just do not want this anymore....

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Last night Dream was funny...I did hear mumbling...and I tried to listen but had hard to hear...so I did turn up the volume...and all Went silent...I listen and listen...just silent....??

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In last night dream I was asked...."How do you want this to end"?....I went so perplexed so I awoke myself from the dream....I should have kept my cool and asked more what to end....it is a wide question....

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In last night Dream I was in an appartament I do not know if I was moving in or out ...but I could see from the window buss number 18 pass by...it was new to me...as I do not today live ner a buss stop....

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In last night Dream I was working in a home for elderly people...I did observe my co-workers giving wine to a old women...and also giving her morfin tabs also...I was worried...I Went downstairs for a coffee break...my co-workers come to take a brake too...one said to me to go upstairs and give more wine to the women...I said..No I will not give any wine but I can go up and see how she is...I was Walking upstairs when the doctor came and she asked me what is her name...I said it is Karin....she was awake and sitting in her bed...it was dark and I said...oh I will put the lights on...she wanted to hold my hand and I noticed how Cold my hand was...I was apologizing for that...she wanted me to take out her denture proshesis.....here the Dream ended and I did awake...

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Last night was terrible...I was around several men who did be on drugs...they worked with wild horses...tamed them...I was hiding me for the men ...I was sure if they did see me they would be violent ...but to my surprise they did not see me...they where like manic...and in theire own World so to speak...it took me long time to calm down when I did understand they did not pay any attention to me....their energies did awoke fear in me because they where on drugs....

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Last Days night has bean hard on me....I have Wake up with nausea and trememdeous head acke...today my 3th Eye is throbbing...I have had vision flashes..not sure if it has bean Dreams or real visions...it has bean like this...I see a female floating at me and when she do notice me she freakens out....I see a shoulder and a hand touching the shoulder...it seams that the hand to have some kind of decease...it has like bubonic plague...

I feel really sick....

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Whole last night had bean about....cause and effect...if there had bean real support in right way...things had happened differently...so ...the Dream was about to show me episodes and they said...because this happened the outcome was this because of the cirkumstances was like this....and so on....

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In last night Dream I did understand how I was interrogated ...this person tried to get information about a third part....I am so proud that I did see this....so I did not say anything...and this person did try to make trouble for my breathing....but I did cut this Dream short and did awoke myself....