Sinera's Lucidiary

[Korpo]

Ah yes, here t'is:


“The most usual use of the lower mental plane is as a library of cultural history with access to the world views of the living, those of the dead in Deep Life Review, and those of the famous dead, as well as works of art, literature, music, philosophy, science, and history, and the belief systems of the world’s religions. In short, any collection of thoughts, beliefs, and values organized and charged by one or more persons as a way of perceiving, understanding, and guiding the choices of life will be found on the lower mental plane.(http://www.kurtleland.com/astral-projection-log/2007/188-the-human-culture-zone-causal-body-lower-mental-plane)

[Pneumismatic]

"Platolmec" Head Monument In "Busaki (?)" [one translation: "The Original Wisdom is to be found whole in the source (mother temple) of Hindu Music, AUM (C#)"]

I seem to have developed a combination of techniques where I get more often lucid in dreams than to have vibrational / phasing exits out of 'the state'. Well, I don't want to complain as far as I have lucidventures at all despite them being my 2nd choice only.

This one started from dream-state where I was in a small class [dreamer is intensely focused on his own learning as his psyche takes the form of a classroom, concentrated on a small number of students, implying a quality education. The dreamer is focusing intensely on his own development.] of 3-4 [3 and 4 are the numbers that indicate a movement toward balance and achievement of balance, where three represents incompleteness and four represents completeness as there are four seasons, points of a compass, quarters in a whole, canonical gospels, fingers on a single hand, limbs on the human body, functions of consciousness (Active, Passive, Leader, Follower) etc. This is the meaning of the squaring of the circle in Alchemy, wherein Pi, 3.14 (not 3 or 4 but "3-4"), a number strictly associated with a circle, becomes 4, a number denoting a square, denoting wholeness, well-roundedness.] students only. I noticed I had forgotten my stuff [dreamer realizes he has lost his ancient core, his true beginning, his true substance, or stuffing] and asked my neighbour student for a pencil and sth ["something" rendered as "sth" in other words, it's not OMing. See Busaki] to write [right, aright, rite] on. [The dreamer seeks a true ritual] Then I am directed to a desk behind me with some material. [Behind the dreamer, in a place he does not see because he looks only forward, thus in the unconscious, there is material, materia, "stuff," or substance] I take one ["one" what? one-ness] but when sitting down again at my desk I notice I got a screwdriver (or a similar tool) instead of a pen. [the true writing, the true Rite-ing, the true ritual is manifested in the form of a spiral, "drive"-ing along a circumambulatory screw-shaped pathway around a mysterious center, like the stairs in a ziggurat which lead heavenward] (The teacher resembled the "healing angel" woman I did the singing with lately, but I cannot be sure of that.) [Prelude: The song will reveal itself to be singing teacher's lesson]

Then I somehow got out of the room and in the hall I try to fly up asking a guide to lift me [the dreamer's psyche attempts to put the ritual into practice, immediately ascending] (a usual strategy of mine). Only after a few seconds a hand comes. [guidance] I asked for Tom Campbell to be the guide Before, I once subconsiously used him before as a "vessel" to be guided by another helper to the "Human Contact Zone". I saw (like then) a video of him before going to sleep. This might be an influence. He also put out a promise to help people in NPMR as much as he can. So that's why I remembered to 'call him up'. I only see the hand that reaches from the ceiling. I am then being drawn up and it gets dark. [The top of the mountain is gloomy, obscured by the clouds, and only darkness to the conscious mind of the dreamer, a false beginning through "The dark night of the soul," leading ultimately to the Truth that awaits on the other side of the darkness, the true knowledge of the dark Center, as the top of a perfect mountain, viewed from above, is actually the very center of its circular foothills]

Somehow there seems to be no movement. [There is no change, no death, no time to flow, it is an eternal realm] Then it occurs to me to give a direction of where to go and shout the first that comes to my mind: "Back to the Library!". Then there is some movement and I notice I can see again and am in a kind of different lobby of a building. It looks like an kind of office building (maybe of public authorities), resembling the one I was in when I went to the "Nine-O'clock-Heaven", but this is not certain either.

I take a look at the hand that had drawn me til this moment. I notice that I hold a hand only and the arm is already a kind of stump and there is no person (guide). It looks like an arm-prothesis. I throw it away then without giving it more thoughts. [The dreamer becomes dissatisfied with his previous mode of self-exploration, realizing its automacy. The dreamer is defiantly rejecting his programming, the next step of which is to become the programmer.]

After a while of searching for an exit to get outside I succeed [the dreamer has become his own guide, his internal compass, his squaring of the circle, his movement from 3 to 4 is complete] and am in a kind of forecourt [Pun: forecourt = fourcourt = 4-court the dreamer is in the presence of a King, which he will soon meet, as all courts imply their king, as they are 'the king's court'] on a sunny day [True Light shines, as it is written, "But unto you that fear my name shall the Sun of righteousness arise with healing in his wings; and ye shall go forth and grow up as calves of the stall." - Malachi 4:2] in an unknown city. [The Home of True Mystery, which will always be unknown to the masses] There is a monument. [A great symbol] It is a huge colossal head carving. [The head represents the ruler, the King] A bearded man that mostly resembles the Greek philosopher Plato. [Plato represents the four university subjects, the Whole essence of the universe, without which a university becomes simply a college, namely Mathematics, Music, Rhetoric and Philosophy.] It is a little greenish and with some leaves or blots on it. [the color green and green leaves are symbols of life. The dreamer is becoming truly interested in the four highest subjects in western culture] However the wide, bulky, angular and colossal nature of this head reminds me also of the mysterious Olmec stone head carvings. So it's Plato's bearded face but in Olmec-style. It's in the size of a person but of course also very wide and might still be placed on top of a kind of socket-wall (not sure though). Mix these two together and you get the 'picture': [The Olmecs are the first civilization in Mexico, the ancient beginning of a mysterious people, representing the hidden mystery of existence. The Olmecs practiced the mysterious ball-game, which reminds one of the other circular symbols so far encountered, which was a most serious game of life and death, as only the winner survived. The ball game points to the Self, conceptualized as a sphere in the work of Carl Jung, of which the ego was merely a "blot" on its surface, whereas its true nature of the Self is to be found only at its dark core. This is highlighted by the fact that the Olmecs were the first inhabitants of Mexico, which means "heart land" or "central place." The Olmecs were the beginning of "the center," fitting representatives for the Mystery of mysteries. Thus the statue represents the union of conscious knowledge and unconscious mystery]



I wonder where to go and then have the idea to ask the monument where the library is. I am aware of the astral and think that I might 'bring it to life'. But that does not work. ["I" is the ego, the "blot" on the statue, a surface feature of the Self, from which the "I" or ego gets its life, the reversal of which "does not work," as rain does not fall upward.] Then a tall guy passes by and I ask him where the huge 'akashic' library is. [A True Guide appears, as the dreamer has outgrown the nanny-hand]

He looks 'down' at me (he's tall) [Tall = high = one with the tip of the mountain, the Center of the circle, enlightened] with a friendly smile and asks why I would want to go there. He asks me if I 'messed it up' somehow because I wanted to go there. [The akashic record only records what has passed, of which there is no reason to review, if one knows they are going in the right/rite direction. In other words, the Guide is saying, why go back when you're making good progress now?] I do not understand what he means by that. Probably he tells me that there are other libraries around here. I insist that I've been to the 'akashic' library before (not yet aware of my mistake that it necessarily wasn't the 'akashic' library at all). He then looks again at me smiling. His eyes seem very agile, stangely moving from left to right, [What's left is what's 'left behind,' while what's right is what's 'rite', ahead] they also have a strange colour. Something like a brownish-red or so. [Red is the first color in the visible spectrum, the 'beginning' of the visible light spectrum. 'Brownish-red' is also the most accurate translation of the word "Adam," the primordial man, the First, the mysterious beginning, as "Adam," strictly speaking, means "red," though it also means "earth" because the clay appeared to have a reddish hue to our ancestors, so they called the soil, which is earthy or 'brown' to us, "Adam." Edom, whose name is another form of "Adam," was so named because he appeared reddish at birth, thus he had two names, Esau and Edom. The guide looks to the primordial beginning, and the dreamer sees the color of the primordial beginning reflected in his eyes.]

Then I ask him the name of this place. First he kind of whispers it. I understand the word "Busaki" (pronounce boozarkee in English, wordstress on -ar-). [Pun: Stress on the -ar- = stress on the "are" = stress on the "being." What is being offered is the key to relieving stress on the being, of which the western world is in serious need.] But ask again and he repeats it louder. At his third (and loudest) repetition I start to fade out of the scene. ["Busaki" is an amalgam of the words Besakih, and Busuki. Busuki means simply "music" in Finnish, the word "Finnish" also being a pun on the word 'finish,' denoting a completion of the movement, the end is the beginning, to which the 'music' leads. The three repetitions of "Busaki," which increase in loudness each time, indicate the musical technique known as "crescendo," which is an increase in volume over the course of notes or measures, the symbol for which looks like this: "<" Besakih is location of the greatest Hindu temple complex in Bali. Bali is a pun on the word 'Bally,' or 'Spherically,' or 'centrally,' repeating the central theme of the vision. Taken together, the word Busaki logically would mean The central music of Hinduism leads to the center of our sphere, the Mystery of mysteries. All great Hindu music is played in the key of C#, also known as OM/AUM/AMEN. "I" fades out of the scene because the dreamer realizes that he is not his ego, but the Self, and finally achieves Individuation, Self-consciousness, Christ-consciousness, Brahman, and oneness with all that is, transcending the ego, and most likely has this realization while listening to some sacred Hindu religious music, probably performed on a sitar.]

[Sinera]

This one started from dream-state where I was in a small class [dreamer is intensely focused on his own learning as his psyche takes the form of a classroom, concentrated on a small number of students, implying a quality education. The dreamer is focusing intensely on his own development.]

Yes, this was my idea too. The smaller the class the more specialised and 'advanced' it seems to be.


I noticed I had forgotten my stuff [dreamer realizes he has lost his ancient core, his true beginning, his true substance, or stuffing]

Actually, I thought is is more simple, just showing that I was 'not prepared' for the lesson(s) of this course. (Forgetting instead of not having the school material means, on a positive note, that I already have it back at home and just need to bring it along next time.)


[The akashic record only records what has passed, of which there is no reason to review, if one knows they are going in the right/rite direction. In other words, the Guide is saying, why go back when you're making good progress now?]

That's a good question. Problem is (well, if it's a problem) I am fascinated with the past. This however, does not apply to this life I am leading now. Just past lives and past humankind / (pre)history. Hinduism might be the offspring of one of the oldest religions on Earth (Sanscrit writings are one of the oldest religious texts in existence today, iirc) and this might be one of the reasons that brought me to this 'astral Bali temple'. Combining my '(pre-)history obsession' with my personal spiritual advancement maybe.

[Sinera]

As the topic is advancement (dream-state or lucid) here's two relevant dreams from tonight that might fit in again:

Drawing Of A Smiling Buddha In Class

I am in class again. We do a test or exercise that includes drawing. I use a template or some pre-drawn lines to fill in the entire rest with my pencil. It is an ancient eastern man, maybe a monk, maybe even a buddha figure. I draw the head (iirc there was maybe only the upper body part to be drawn) and I recognise that I need not draw the mouth as it is already there. It is smiling. So I draw a (rather huge) nose above it.
On a second page (another paper) there is another similar eastern monk or a sage figure who is moving or dancing, one sees the whole body this time. I look at one of the other students next to me and am worried that I won't make the test in time as the other students seem faster than me and almost ready.
There are also questions to be answered. (It looks like a multiple choice test). Somehow the answers for these text questions 'come to me' in a flow and are spoken in my mind. I do not however remember what it was about, neither if they were the right answers or if it was just a discussion of the questions.

Interpretation: Maybe the smile just shows me to lighten up from time to time, also during my spiritual progress (maybe it is even a necessary part of it as the smiling 'buddha' shows). Me being the slowest student (apperently) shows that I might still be the 'newbie'. But hey, at least I am part of that class.

Doula

I am at my old university in a corridor next to some of the elevators and am speaking to a fellow student. Maybe she is also a tutor herself, not sure. We had a course together jsut before this chat. She is a very good and eager student. I think she even gave a talk in that class. I know her from my very early school days. She was an eager student then, too. We somehow agree on a 'date'. It might be for a workshop or to be studying together. Maybe (since she is an over-achiever) she also wants to help me (private tutoring, don't know exactly).

Interpretation: It might be another chosen form of the "Healing Angel". I haven't seen this lady in physical life for far over 20 years. Don't know if I ever dreamt of her before, rather not. So it is interesting why she as a figure was chosen for me to be a kind of mentor in the dream. Her first/last name combination is rare and so I used google for research. The finding is indeed interesting with regard to my healer path. I really did not know anything about her (since leaving that school in the 80ies) at all, so this is new for me:
I found out she then went to a high school and there achieved a student's award with a project in biology. She might nowadays be working for a specialised publisher of medical (!!!) books. And moreover, she also seems to work self-employed as a 'doula (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Doula)'. I admit I had to look it up as I never heard this (Greek!) word before at all. Hm, so maybe she offered to help me in giving birth to ... well, what? My spiritual awakening? Becoming a healer? :idea:

[Pneumismatic]

Most of your inclinations seem to be heading in the right direction and logical to me. Drawing a big nose on the guru symbolizes choosing him for a leader, as leaders often have big noses, which is simply one of those peculiar quirks of humanity. The Dreamweaver can appropriate some dreams for the express purpose of spurring us on, 'lighting a fire' under us so to speak, of which kind the first seems to be. I'm sure you're progressing just fine, though, in certain situations, it pays to invest a little more than normal, especially when the return is astronomically disproportionate to the investment. You could be in one of those rare places now, which would explain the urgency you felt in the dream. There are stories of an common, everyday lamp that appears worthless, but whoever possesses it may have whatever they wish for. Did you know that humans, on average, burn most of their daily intake of calories with their brain alone? Might I recommend burning a marginally larger percentage for a while? :thumbsup:

Doula is such a beautiful word isn't it. :angelic: Your doula may be helping you give birth to both. They say, "God is in the details," for a reason, and you said you have this woman's first and last name, which are no doubt pregnant with meaning. I can only give you my full interpretation if I have all of the information. If you wish not to reveal it on this thread, just send me a pm.

You know, some of the dreams we have are for other people, which their higher selves lend to ours, knowing their incarnation will read it after we post it publicly, causing some priceless lucid moments in their lives, for which we are rewarded. I say this because some of the information in some of your dreams, may be purely for the benefit of others, in which cases, there is truly no need to worry. Oliver would probably call this phenomenon "permeation," right Oliver? It pays to have faith in the Dreamweaver's deep, intricate and far-reaching understanding of Karma.

[Sinera]

Another progress dream in a 'dream' place where I am so often.

University, New Semester, First Day

I'm in one of the buildings of my uni (I went to in the 90ies) of the Hispanic faculty at the first day in the morning. I notice I still need to get a course catalog book for this sememster (I'm not a fresher, it's just a new term, maybe 2nd or 3rd). I want to take lots of seminars this time, also to get to know many fellow students and make friends (well, maybe also to get some 'dates' with some of the girls :mrgreen:).

In order to get the course book I get to another campus and am inside the huge building where there is a university book store (it's all in a real place I know from my uni). The shop is familiar, only counter looks actually like a bank counter and not as I know it.

The woman behind the counter (in her 30ies) jokes with me and says that she is married and another customer girl next to me says the same. I laugh but also wonders since I cannot remember asking her out for a date actually, :oops:, since I just wanted to buy the schedule of courses for this semester.

She says it's 3.50 (or 3.80, don't remember exactly) euros. I open my wallet and (as always) it is filled with banknotes. I take out a 5-euro-bill (there are several). But then it does at first not look like one. It's rater greenish like a dollar. It also has inscribed "Avatar" on one side. I give it to her then.

Then I am surprised because next to the course catalog she hands out an identity card. It looks like a German Id card (http://www.google.de/search?q=German+ID+card&hl=de&safe=off&prmd=imvns&tbm=isch&tbo=u&source=univ&sa=X&ei=qEUNUM_wBM3csgaxzbycCQ&ved=0CGEQsAQ&biw=1026&bih=688) but in upright portrait instead of landscape format. I see what could be my passport pic at the top right. Then I also see a star somehow in the middle. Without any further comment I take it. I then almost forget to take the course book and am called back by the saleswoman.

I take a seat in the nearby cafeteria then. Strangely I am at a table which is not there in the physical at an unusual place near the coffee machine. I got a coffee from the coffee dispensing machine and am about to leaf through the course book in order to draw up my schedule for this semester and also to know which first course to go to later on that day. I then sip at the coffee mug but it tastes awful, too sour, stale or even completely rotten somehow. I spit out the mouthful I took before into the mug again. I am not a complainer so I just leave it standing there on the table. Don't remember more.

Interpretation

Dreams about Spanish courses at the university is (as well as my being back in the student's hall of my semester abroad in Oxford) related metaphorically to the study of Healing in general. But, as Korpo pointed out, the language courses (English, Spanish, and recently even French) I dream of also mean learning to communicate in NPMR. For me both concepts are not mutually exclusive at all.

What is it with the 'avatar' and the 'id card' in exchange? For me, the 'avatar' is the incarnated ego. So is the ID my higher self maybe? I know that 'avatar' has the spiritual meaning of a kind of descended deity. But why would I hand this in as a tender for an ID (= the 'real' me?)? Surely it is full of symbolism.

And do I have access to sth now (card = permit for some areas) where I could not go before? Hopefully it is also a university library card in order to access the Akashic and/or my Soul Records? The night before I really asked God / my HS to help me even better in retrieving detailed information about past lives I've seen so far (especially about supposedly 18-19th century 'Lady Sinera' or the 15th century Ecuadorian indigenous 'indio' man). Maybe this is the help granted now?

But what about the spoilt coffee? Maybe it is simply telling me not to ingest (too much) caffeine anymore?

Some dream symbol meanings provided by Dreammoods (http://www.dreammoods.com/):

ID card - To see your I.D. in your dream signifies your own self-confidence.

Beverages - To drink a beverage in your dream represents your ability to understand and take in a new idea or concept. The dream may be analogous to your thirst for knowledge. Consider the type of beverage for additional meaning.

Coffee - To dream that you are drinking or need your coffee suggests that you need to gain some insight and knowledge before making a decision or tackling some project/relationship. You may be acting too hasty and need to slow down. Alternatively, it may imply a need for you to change your routine.

Hmm, interesting again. Maybe I 'bought' self-confidence with the I.D.? Confidence = trust in or knowledge of my '(higher) self'?

Drinking as expression of 'thirst for knowledge' hits it perfectly. But the bad coffee might indicate that the ingestion of the new knowledge (about my"self") might not at all be good then? Maybe it relates to knowledge about the other avatars (egos)? Or I am just to hasty with this? Maybe I wanted to take too many seminars? To learn too much? (In another recent projection I met a waitress that might indicate I have to "wait" and be patient for certain things to arrive).

Waitress - To see a waiter in your dream indicates that you need to be nurtured and to feel special. The dream may also be a pun to be patient. Learn to wait.

Food for thought.

[Korpo]

An ID card in a dream represents your identity. You note that both values (money) and identity (ID card) are different in nonphysical reality than you experience them in physical reality. In this case the ID card might indeed be about getting access - what you can access in nonphysical reality is encoded in your energy field. You're in a sense getting a read-out of that. This is different from a Gatekeeper, which would normally check your ID instead. An avatar means embodiment, so maybe this refers to you as the incarnate, giving energy (current-cy ;) :lol: ) / attention to gaining access to information (as laid out in the catalogue).

[Sinera]

01/Aug/2012
Whispery Being

Already 2 days ago, I was told I have a decision to make til or before "the 9th". The month was not given but I assume that it might be this one. (Btw, I also had a dream 4 months ago where I had a ticket to a nice concert and went there. On the ticket I saw the 19. August as a date. I'm now curious what will happen on or from th 9. to 19. of this month - or if anything happens at all.)

I was also told the name of two of my guides, but only remembered one completely. As I asked for Sinera's year of birth I was told I would not have more birth dates. I asked if that meant I wasn't here before at all but received no clear answer.

Comments / Afterthoughts

All were "answers" to questions of mine except for the "decision til the 9th" thing. I don't know however if I can believe the being that told me this. It was in exit blindness and I did not gain clarity/vision, moreover I do not have the impression that it was a guide (althouth another helper of mine, a girl, uses indeed a 'whispery' voice too, yet it wasn't the same one I suppose).
So it might even have been a subcon-aspect of myself or any little astral wildlife thingy talking any kind of senseless BS to me. I also had the impression it was smaller than me when I held its hand while it was talking to me. Also first it only whispered and only spoke up a little when I asked it to do so, as if it was a little shy first (reminding me of the fairy-like helpers from my 30. June lucidventure).

[Korpo]

Exit blindness in my book is a hint at being in a higher body than usual. This would be for you the mental body. This would explain again the lack of sight and the lack of clear communication - not yet developed inner senses and chakras of that vehicle of consciousness. The quality of your access to the mental body will vary, and only improve over time.

In the mental body it's unlikely to "get conned." Even the undeveloped mental body does not have the same limitations as an undeveloped astral body. Both shyness and small size need not mean anything - a higher being would try to shield its true magnitude from you, both in terms of appearance and speech, so that you can adapt. The presence of higher beings can be overwhelming. Kurt once quoted Rilke with "Every angel is terrifying" to express this - a higher being needs to carefully regulate how much of itself it will expose to you to not overload the sensibilities of your present stage of development. You're still adapting to being in that body, after all.

[Sinera]

Exit blindness in my book is a hint at being in a higher body than usual. This would be for you the mental body. This would explain again the lack of sight and the lack of clear communication - not yet developed inner senses and chakras of that vehicle of consciousness. The quality of your access to the mental body will vary, and only improve over time. (...) You're still adapting to being in that body, after all.
Given the frequency of my exits into blindness (I'd estimate it to 30% or more of all exits) I'd say that I am in this body quite often. ;)

Sometimes I gain vision then by certain techniques (affirmation "clarity now", grabbing things around me, the temples (http://www.astraldynamics.com.au/showthread.php?11852-Volgerle-s-Lucidiary&p=106081#post106081) technique) but sometimes not even this works. Actually I'm a bit clueless and also unnerved by it. Recently, I get more and more impatient when it happens (also I quickly get into a kind of :roll:-like mood). It's becasue I always lose too much of my precious time since my lucidventures are already too short anyway. :|

So you think that always when I gained sight I am in the mental body? Does that mean that my 'environment' is the mental plane (e.g. the 'astral portal' I often jump into would then also rather be a 'mental portal' instead)? At least this could maybe motivate me again when 'blind' next time (and hopefully remember your words then ;)).

[Korpo]

When you're blind on exit, see what you can do, what you can feel, and pay attention to what is coming to you. The mental body will develop at a certain rate and you cannot force it. Kurt once told me that there's basically no recipes for developing it "out there" (meaning books etc.) so people try to make do with astral body recipes, not even realising they're in the wrong context for them to work.

So, if you spot exit blindness, roll with it. If there's something to accomplish, it will become apparent. Take in what comes to you and work with that. If nothing much happens, try to move, try asking for help or inspiration, or simply feel that body. If there are guides or contact/touch, roll with that.

It's almost cosmic irony - ideas like "this should work like this", "I should be able to do that" and "It would be best if I do this" are all typical mental body constructs. They can prevent going with the flow of what is really happening. While you cannot force the process, you can help it along by paying attention to any hints, going with what the experience presents to you, and so on.

I wanted to make a timeline comparison how long it took myself to activate chakras 1-4 of the mental body. I haven't had blindness in an experience since the heart chakra seems to have become functional. But I must have recorded my dream journal till then in the old forums, and so it seems like I've lost access to it. All I can say it took quite some time.

[CFTraveler]

It's almost cosmic irony - ideas like "this should work like this", "I should be able to do that" and "It would be best if I do this" are all typical mental body constructs. Amen to that. :D

[Sinera]

It's almost cosmic irony - ideas like "this should work like this", "I should be able to do that" and "It would be best if I do this" are all typical mental body constructs. Amen to that. :DI will later post my latest mind-boggling lucadventure from tonight. But let me anticipate that I can chime in with the two of you stating that one does not always get what one expects as a result from a certain action (in this case to overcome exit blindness). Still, I now believe that despite unexpected outcomes it can be a very 'interesting' (to say the least) learning experience. For me it might have been one tonight. More to come later on.

[Sinera]

06/Aug/2012
To Boldly Go ...

I'm a Startrek and science-fiction fan, therefore I chose this title instead of my first draft's heading labelled "Unexpected Encounter (In Focus 34?)" - which nevertheless would be very fitting, too.

In line with my healer path, I wanted to go to the "Temple Of Healing", especially the "Chamber Of Colours And Light", which I read about recently again. (M. Newton also wrote about it but I read this in another book). It is where souls can go to for recuperation after incarnations. However, it was said by a guide that this can also be used for incarnated humans if they happen to find their way to this place. Intent is everything, so I wanted to give this a try. I've been to the nearby library, so why not give it a shot. I assume it is located as well in the "human afterlife zone" on upper astral levels, and according to R. Monroe in Focus 27.

I had planned in advance to take Galantamine during sleep break, which I had not done for a long time. I decided against it again and instead did some exercises (slight meditation, affirmations, energy chakra work and tactile imaging of objects in my room) during half an hour of WB2B after 3-4 hours of sleep. This combination seems to have made the difference. It did not take me long to get into the lucid state and try to do exits. Altogether it were 3 or 4, almost all into my astral portal, but most of them again into blindness. I tried and even shouted this time the affirmations I had planned (e.g. "clarity now", "vision now"). I tried grabbing things, I tried to reach out for hands and ask guides. But it did not work too well.

At one time I managed to exit into a lighted portal or gained sight (don't remember). I remember I was not sure if I could fly out of the window and decided to do a test flight in the room. I lifted of the ground and even flew once through the wood-frame glass door of the room. It worked well and so I decided to fly out of the window into the city. I saw people from above and I almost thought it was the 'RTZ' (but it wasn't of course).

Then I saw a funny young woman who was also flying but by operating a kind of old-fashioned looking tricycle as a flying machine, pedalling along through the air, relaxed and reclined, smiling and in good mood. I found that funny so I decided to fly after her for a short chat. When I reached her she had turned into a very old lady with a wrinkled face. I do not remember any detailed conversation, maybe she also just gave me a "rote". She also touched me gently once. I learnt that she was born in the year 16-something (17th century). So I thought she was doing this for quite 'a while', it explained her 'age' to me and also the old-fashioned looking carriage-like tricycle.

During another exit, I was 'blind' again but felt that I was hovering 'outside' of the window of my portal already. I grabbed sth that felt like wooden posts, poles, planks or beams. Then I had the idea to use another Buhlman command but with a variation. I shouted while directing my 'eyes' down at my still not visible hands holding them before me.

"Higher Vibration Now! Increase Vibration Now! Higher Vibration Now! "

Then I even added:

"Much Higher!!!"

Then felt myself (my "body") becoming somehow warmer and more 'diffused'. Then I could see my hands shimmering orange-red through the darkness. It was still dark and murky around me, but when I 'looked up' from my hands I saw some white beings a few 'metres' off, mabye 3-5 or so. They were all white, still with 'form' but also a little shiny. The background and everything else was still in deep and murky darkness. They looked at me, observing. Not more. I recognised them by their contours and also 'faces'.

Greys.

I decided this was not where I initially had wanted to go (see above) or what I ever expected to encounter in the astral at all. I was not afraid or scared or anything. It wasn't a scary or threatening encounter at all. There even seemed a peaceful air about them. At least, it was neutral. All in all, it lasted not long enough for me to make a complete assessment. After about 3 seconds I decided to fade out again as it just wasn't what I was heading for.


Comments / Afterthoughts

Well, maybe I should have done without the "much higher" instead? ;)

Taking the TMI levels literally and considering the fact that I was neither 'being visited' nor 'being abducted' but rather went there by increasing my frequency, it could mean that I was on Focus Level 34 indeed.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Focus_level

As said, I was and am not scared at all. I am even a little optimistic as it shows that I might now be able to make it 'anywhere' in the non-physical with this technique. I just need to 'calibrate' (so leaving out the 'much higher' addition next time isn't just a joke). If I make it to F34 I certainly can make it to F27 by 'adjusting'. That's the positve insight. It would be like hopping off the bus a station or two earlier or like leaving the upward moving elevator on a lower floor, just to put it metaphorically.

It is fascinating how I experienced the vibrational shift. It felt warm, more spread out and maybe even 'light(er)' (in a double sense?). Still I was disappointed not to have reached the "Healing Temple" or any kind of lighted, sunny Park-like area hoped for. I wasn't focussing on a location when I did this. I was just focussed on my 'body' then. So this might be a thing to improve for next time I try it. And I will!

Actually I am also a little amused, too. Maybe I should have tried to communicate with them. The whole thing strikes me as funnny even. It was like s.o. opening a door in an office building in search of a team meeting, noticing it is the wrong group and conference room, saying 'oops, I'm sorry, wrong party' and closing the door again. Maybe I should have asked them "Ok, guys, how ye doin'? And where's Spock, by the way?" :mrgreen:

To give you a 'picture', I used google's pic search again. I want to still say that these examples do not really do it justice, but it is the closest I could find to show how they looked like. They were standing just more in a distance from me, not near me. I do not remember the (sterotypical) huge black eyes though.

http://t2.gstatic.com/images?q=tbn:ANd9GcRghimolxcE2ADo3_lfa-1LnGoU8mvPM5QApeKyQHlj54Xy6mCkVptesuc http://t0.gstatic.com/images?q=tbn:ANd9GcReh8WjDsa7VDday0vBA476JKz2y-yJdVO8UdODNuMmg23yArmf_b3B7N8

I also chose these two faces not just for the black background to reflect better what I perceived, but also to show that it all looked not too threatening at all. Many pictures of 'alien greys' are based on fearfully remembered (abduction) experiences, maybe even cultural horror-movie memes and projections. This is not what I saw or what it felt like. It was rather neutral.

Of course, there's yet another possibilty: Maybe I mistook these beings of light (and that's what they seemed to be after all: white light in black surroundings) for ETs/aliens? Maybe it was a visual translation error based on preformed cultural biases?

Be that as it may have been. I am on the 'path of the warrior' for 2-3 years now and I will stay on it, so nothing will divert me. Let the Larger Consciousness System throw at me what it wants to. If it is for my overall growth, fine, I 'm ready to accept it. No backing down. Whatever else may come now ... Bring it on!

[Pneumismatic]

I laud your progress, Volgerle, and thanks so much for posting this! The place you seek holds the very big rote of 'why' to love everyone unconditionally, it's an infinitely priceless attainment.

"If disciplined in the discipline of practice
Be one's mind, straying to no other object,
To the supreme divine Spirit,
He goes, son of Prtha, meditating thereon.

The ancient seer, the governor,
Finer than an atom - who meditates on Him,
The establisher of all, of unthinkable form,
Sun-colored, beyond darkness"

-Bhagavad Gita Ch VIII, Verses 8-9

[Korpo]

Of course, there's yet another possibilty: Maybe I mistook these beings of light (and that's what they seemed to be after all: white light in black surroundings) for ETs/aliens? Maybe it was a visual translation error based on preformed cultural biases?

Probably the case. "Alien" just means "alien organisation of consciousness." So, basically either non-human or beyond your understanding what humans can become. This could again mean either devas (who are not human) or high-level human beings (whose consciousness might seem alien to you). Your default for translation for "alien" (which just means "extremely different from what I know") is - the grey.

Remember how indistinct Monroe's initial descriptions of INSPEC were...

[Sinera]

07/Sep/2012
Raphaelian Green Energy

Recently, I asked Robert this here (http://www.astraldynamics.com.au/showthread.php?14370-The-Archangels) for a reason. Since Raphael (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Raphael_%28archangel%29) is said to be the Archangel of Healing I did affirmations and requests for his support. He is said to be there for healing yourself but also to support healers on their path to heal others. So I thought it couldn't do any damage to ask this guy for help. I asked to be filled with his green light energy, for 2-3 nights. Tonight sth happened.

Well it is not that a similar thing happened before to my because it did actually (http://www.astraldynamics.com.au/showthread.php?13235-Heart-Chakra-quot-spiral-galaxy-quot-in-mind-s-eye-trance). Actually it did so two times, once with a green and once with a red spiral / energy vortex / chakra energy visualisation.

This time, I was in the cellar or my parent's house where my former drumset had been when I was a teenager. In the dream I am putting up the drums again to play and practice. Then somehow I get lucid and ask to be taken to my Higher Self ("Higher Self Now"). However, since I had also done affirmations for the green light energy before sleep, this happened:

I saw a green swirl of energy again in my whole visual field. I was amazed and knew immediately that this time it was the requested healing (Raphaelian) energy. It looked similar to my first spiral galaxy vision (see link or entry in this log), but again different. The green was different this time. I also saw maybe little yellow symbols swirling around in this green energy vortex. I only remember sth that looked maybe like a Y.

I did some exclamations such as "wow" or "yipieh" or just "uh" and "ah" and then it ended.

Comments / Afterthoughts

Very unusual for me to "exit" into lucidity from a dream scene (leaving that scene for another one, normally I stay there when I get lucid). For normal 'exits' I am in bed (astral or physical).

The energy was nice. Regarding the symbol, sigil or letter "Y" I found some references to Raphael, but they do not resemble too much a Y. Some examples:

http://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/commons/thumb/4/40/Archangel_Raphael.svg/220px-Archangel_Raphael.svg.pnghttp://image.spreadshirt.com/image-server/image/design/11668573/type/png/width/130/height/130http://www.symbols.com/pics/big/41b/41b15.gif

I also checked the Sanskrit chakra letters, but they do not really seem to fit, still the Heart chakra (which is green also) seems to fit best, just looks like a U with a little tail on the left.

http://t0.gstatic.com/images?q=tbn:ANd9GcTW2B0etT3guoBgvAd83s14jTtyW1QeY ZDz48vOmGzicNOhggyZ

However, considering the colours it might have looked a little like an angel from afar with spread out and lifted wings. I found one referring to Raphael which also looks this way, even the colours almost seem to fit! Here it is, just imagine many small ones of these signs swirling around, then you have the picture:

http://www.mindbodyspiritonline.co.uk/ekmps/shops/lightawareness/images/archangel-raphael-healing-oracle-cards-by-doreen-virtue-%5B5%5D-3545-p%5Bekm%5D55x80%5Bekm%5D.jpg

Maybe that's what I saw? I do not believe that I really "met" this Angel, as Robert says we cannot even know if they really exist. But maybe some kinds of energies exist and are accessible for us if we only ASK for them (which I did) and/or maybe my Higher Self showed me that it is already 'in me' all the time, anyway.

[CFTraveler]

Anything like this?
http://t2.gstatic.com/images?q=tbn:ANd9GcQ5JJvbSf_skr9wONA4Sw0tDM4MTy5CZ SR8b7EQHbzfD-FP4gXq

[Sinera]

No, not quite. Cannot remember such a huge circle. The lower part was rather slimmer. (If round then it would have been more oval shaped and longer). Anyway what would this sign mean?

[CFTraveler]

Taurus. I'd check the other astrological signs.

[Sinera]

'kay, well, what most resembles a Y is Aries for me, but it would not be my sign (I'm Aquarius):

http://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/commons/thumb/5/5e/Aries.svg/20px-Aries.svg.png

found this site, but Raphael is linked to Virgo and Gemini

http://bodysoulmind.net/spirit/angels-of-the-zodiac

As I only saw the symbols 'from far away' (small) and moving, swirling around. So some might look like Y from afar but they might have been different. So if you do not make out enough, Gemini could be a possibilty because there's also a 'stem' and a bow form laid on top of it but not Virgo. (Pisces could be another candidate then, Taurus - as said above - would still have a too huge circle for me, I would have seen that).

http://www.etiketogidas.lt/wp-content/uploads/2010/11/dovanos-pagal-horoskopa.jpg

[CFTraveler]

I'd look for an 'angel' correspondence with Aries- I agree it's the one that most resembles your description.
Here you go.
http://www.archangels-and-angels.com/aa_pages/correspondences/angel_planet/archangel_samael.html
Samael- or Horus or Set. Very different aspects, if you ask me.
This is so interesting! :D

[Sinera]

http://t2.gstatic.com/images?q=tbn:ANd9GcRghimolxcE2ADo3_lfa-1LnGoU8mvPM5QApeKyQHlj54Xy6mCkVptesuc http://t0.gstatic.com/images?q=tbn:ANd9GcReh8WjDsa7VDday0vBA476JKz2y-yJdVO8UdODNuMmg23yArmf_b3B7N8 ... Bring it on!

Need to bring this up again (or bring it on ;)). In a dream tonight this happened: I'm walking along a road leading out of my home town. I am almost at the level of the place-name sign. Then I seemingly get a partial lucidity as it seems because I start to react to a picture I am shown not in the dream scene itself but in my mind and seem to remember this projection well. The picture is similar to the ones above. I then ask questions and get answers in my mind as I still walk along that path out of town. Here's the dialogue (IV = inner voice):

Me: "Oh no, not one of them again!"
IV: "It's a woman."
Me: "A woman? Oh. I thought they were sex-less."
IV: "No."
Me: "What else? What does 'she' do?"
IV: "She logs on to the net sometimes."
Me: "Does she also incarnate as a human being (woman) here? Or is she even right now also in human form?"

I don't know why I exactly asked this last question then. Maybe I thought of D. Cannon's books and all of that starseed stuff of ETs getting incarnated on a voluntary basis here, too.

I didn't get an answer or at least not one from the "IV" again. Instead a woman came towards me on the street (or catching up from behind, don't remember exactly). She then went with me on my way out of town and we talked. I know her as she is a famous singer here in my country. I've dreamt about her before although I am definitely NOT a fan. Strange.

She is not unattractive so I might have tried to 'date' her. I even remember that we walked hand in hand for a short moment. Nothing of the conversation is remembered, just the fact that she told me of 'another woman' she was to meet. (Then she was off again and I met some other friends farther out who were waiting at a bus station. One was an old buddy and he gave me his business card. I did not join them on the bus but instead I went to a kind of university (again..) for a physics lecture.)

Some thoughts:

Was the "other woman" the ET woman? Or was it even that singer? Or was it an unrelated event, just happening? I don't know. My "way out of town" might also indicate some kind of border crossing and maybe that explains the ET factor (symbolism?) again. But why does the ET-"she" get logged on (and out?) from time to time? I had the impression it really referred to a computer network (internet) or so. It's like s.o. logs in and you see the avatar (like in a chat?). Observation? Communcation attempt (chat?)? Food for thought again.

[Sinera]

This is so interesting! :D
but also confusing :|, thanks for the link, lots of info there, well, maybe I should try to re-do this visualisation and ask to be shown the sign again to verify how it looks exactly, or train myself to look harder next time ;)

[Sinera]

10/Sep/2012
Maya Hara

In dreamstate, I am in a mountain lift going uphill and discuss some rather petty issues with some people. Then I am actually deplaning into a kind of vacation location. It is a sunny (almost carribbean) area with a beach and palm trees, maybe an island. While still deboarding I also see a very happy old friend who died last year due to severe chronic sickness and probably a bunch of other private problems. I always see him when it's about my healer path and I know this in the dream. Maybe that's why I also get lucid then.

There is a beautiful woman in a (tourist?) guiding capacity and I ask her what this place is. She says:"It's Maya Hara." I might have asked again because later she also says it's the "Hara Islands". I ask her the name of the country or nation it belongs to. She gives a much more strange answer then: „It's Hallo-hallo“. (engl: hello, hello). :shock:

I (lucid!) then tell her that I know that "this is a dream" and want to test her reaction. She answers that everything is a dream around us (possibly also meaning it in a positive way to be dreamy, dream-like, sth always dreamt of, "a dream come true" etc.).

She then tells me to "smell the air around us" now. I try then making use of the smelling sense (never before done in dream or lucid state!) and it might be that I smelled the salty sea air which is to be expected of a beautyful island by the sea. Maybe I also smelt nothing and just "created" or even "hallucinated / imagined" the smell, cannot tell or remember exactly.

Comments / Afterthoughts

Maybe she was a guide and the smelling challenge was to let me experience (open, train) another (new) inner sense in the Astral?

I am certain that the mountain lift and the plane deboarding and arriving at a beautiful sunny beach island represents the trip to and arrival at a higher plane. I also imagined a sunny beach to be one of the places where to meet my HS (next to a mountain hut in the Alpes). So who knows?

The sick dead friend possibly indicates it was maybe another step upwards in my path as a healer (I also just finished another weekend seminar this weekend so I really did a little step forwards in the physical).

„Hallo-hallo“ was used by me as a quickly made-up password years ago and only once in a music group forum. So either it indicates that the country (name) is still secret (encrypted) and is not (yet) revealed for me or that I just used a password to get on a higher level now which was closed to me before. Maybe I arrived at an otherwise „protected area“ (more on this below!). As I „knew“ or was told the password I might „have access“ now. This is also the first time I was on a sunny island! I hardly can remember it from any dream or projection before.

How about the „Maya Hara Islands“?

Maya (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Maya_%28illusion%29) is the concept of „illusion“ and the nature of (god)mind's reality projection in Hinduism (and Buddhism). Most here will know it. Does this concept of holographically dreamt up reality then also tie in with the guide's description of everything being a dream, or everything being dreamy/dream-like?

Hara (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hara_%28Hinduism%29) is also one of the names for „Shiva (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Shiva)“, the greatest Hindu god, and also the female godess Shakti (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Shakti). So do I have another bunch of Hindu connections (see the visit to "Busaki" above). Wow. Did I live as an Indian / Hindu in a previous life?

Regarding a physical plane location for "Hara Islands" (excluding Maya now for simplicity's sake) I found several clues, the last one a really frightening actually. But one at a time:

There is a "Hara Island (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hara_Island)" near Estonia but it does not yield enough clues. It's small. People were removed from there for a Russian submarine base. Well, but maybe that is a clue indeed, see further below.

In the Bible Hara (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hara_%28Bible%29) is a place in Assyria for „exile“ but not an island although islands were often used for exiled people (e.g. Napoleon). It is however farther north from another place in Iran which yields a more sobering interpretation. But I don't want to spare anything, so here we go:

Hara Islands is part of an ecological zone in Iran. Google even names it „Protected Area (http://maps.google.de/maps?hl=de&q=Iran+Hara+Queshm&um=1&ie=UTF-8&sa=N&tab=wl)“, because it's an offical UNESCO Geopark. Here are some pics of "Hara Islands (http://www.panoramio.com/photo/51361295)", which is also a place near the bigger island Queshm where besides on the mainland lots of the "Hara Forests (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hara_forests)" are (being the reason for the ecological protection).

So on a more positive interpretation it is interesting to see how the notion of „protected area“ comes as a full circle now with the above password = country name clue.

There's of course a more negative outlook: This is exactly where Iran is active at the Straight of Hormuz which is also where the impending war between Iran and US/Israel could break loose, as Iran would close the Straight of Hormuz. It's a world hot spot indeed. Near Quemsh there is also a military submarine base (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Qeshm#Qeshm_Island_Underground_Military_Facility).

Is it a hint to the possibility of that coming war in the Middle East? And what is it about healing then? The many dead people - maybe it's about retrievals too? Was "mine" a higher level Haras Islands? Will it even be nuclear after all - with RB being right (http://www.astraldynamics.com.au/showthread.php?13250-2012-events&p=109230#post109230) with his prediction? Of course, healing of people, countries, society and the world on a long-term basis is needed if there's war. It is not the first time my healer path is connected to catastrophy and war in dreams. Once I dreamt to be a healer on an island surrounded by flooded cities. Maybe it's still metaphorical, anyway, it is also frightening. I don't like this aspect. :?

[Sinera]

22/Sep/2012
Card Validation Test 2: Close But No Cigar, Again!

Another close miss in a card validation test, though a little different than last time (http://www.astraldynamics.com.au/showthread.php?11852-Volgerle-s-Lucidiary&p=105964#post105964) (see entry 16 Dec 2011).

I have a Doppelkopf card stack. It looks exactly like this example from Wikipedia (http://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/commons/0/09/Doppelkopfblatt_franzoesisches_Bild.jpg). This deck of cards has 25 types = possibilties, including the Joker which is the only single card. Thus a success with only one trial could be rated with almost (but not quite due to the Joker being less likely) 4% probability of coincidence.

My method, which I will stick to with further attempts in the near future: I do affirmations and put with closed eyes one card on top of the deck and let it in the (transparent!) box and put it upright on a shelf to the wall with the face of the top card before a little red lamp at night for vision (this detailed description bears relevance to the analysis below!). However, RTZ projection or remote viewing is just one method. I also asked my HS/helpers to either be given info in dream-state or be told (or shown) this by the guide helping me out. So any method of info gathering would be acceptable.

Here's what happened. In dream-state, I'm with a woman (unknown) and she tells me sth about 'red love'. Then I get lucid and get out of this scene asking for a helper's hand first. Only after a while it comes and then I remember to ask to be shown the card. The card then comes into my view and it fluctuates. First I only see that it should be a black colour because I see little crosses or spades fluctuating. Then from the top right corner I clearly see a 9 Of Hearts. I ask to be shown again due to the fluctuations and I am again shown (partially) a 9 Of Hearts.

http://www.doskv.de/forum/wcf/images/cards/21.gif

Then I seem to phase back into the dream scene and have lost lucidity as I am then trying to check in that room on the card stack. Only to be disappointed: I see a stack on the table but it is a black colour card (either spades or clubs) and a male person card (either king or jack/knave), could have been an Ace (clubs, spade) too, however. I am disappointed (in the dream) that it's not a red 9 and then the woman (still present) also confirms to me that it is not the right card - presumably referring to my spotted (hoped for) 9 of hearts.

Then I wake up in the physical and do a check: Indeed it was not the right card: On top of the deck was a King of Clubs. However, and this is intriguing: The second card below the visible first card was indeed a Nine Of Hearts. Below that as a third card was another with Clubs: Ace of Clubs.

Comments / Afterthoughts

So when in the "dream" I first was shown the card with fluctuations, I saw little 'crosses' first which are clubs (in German card games we even call this card "Cross"). So in the physical, the second card was indeed the right one! The third another one with 'crosses' / clubs. Of course in the ensuing dream scene (false awakening) I came even closer to the 'right' top card. However, unfortunately I do not remember the exact card(s) I saw, just sth given by the description above.

It's a little intriguing despite the failure. Like the first time, it was just a little off the mark, a near miss. Maybe the larger consciousness system wants to tease me or tell me 'hey, you're close but not (yet) there'?

Or is there another reason I first mistook the 2nd for the 1st card? The woman told me of 'red love' before. Red is the suit colour of the Hearts cards in Germany and the heart is related to love and red anyway. Did the 'love' card shine through too strongly? :heart: Maybe it 'transpired' through the top card? Maybe also the red light I let shine on it from that red lamp helped to let it come through more than the others (resonance?)? Maybe the woman referred to the red lamp/light too?

This 2nd near miss really spurs me on. Being so close is frustrating. I will try again, maybe tonight.

[Sinera]

Maya Hara

In dreamstate, I am in a mountain lift going uphill and discuss some rather petty issues with some people. Then I am actually deplaning into a kind of vacation location. It is a sunny (almost carribbean) area with a beach and palm trees, maybe an island. While still deboarding I also see a very happy old friend who died last year due to severe chronic sickness and probably a bunch of other private problems. I always see him when it's about my healer path and I know this in the dream. Maybe that's why I also get lucid then.

There is a beautiful woman in a (tourist?) guiding capacity and I ask her what this place is. She says:"It's Maya Hara." I might have asked again because later she also says it's the "Hara Islands". I ask her the name of the country or nation it belongs to. She gives a much more strange answer then: „It's Hallo-hallo“. (engl: hello, hello). :shock:

I (lucid!) then tell her that I know that "this is a dream" and want to test her reaction. She answers that everything is a dream around us (possibly also meaning it in a positive way to be dreamy, dream-like, sth always dreamt of, "a dream come true" etc.).

She then tells me to "smell the air around us" now. I try then making use of the smelling sense (never before done in dream or lucid state!) and it might be that I smelled the salty sea air which is to be expected of a beautyful island by the sea. Maybe I also smelt nothing and just "created" or even "hallucinated / imagined" the smell, cannot tell or remember exactly.

On a meditation now I noticed what a beautiful and useful A-based Mantra this name yields. (Each A pronounced dark, like in the English word "heart" of course!):

MAYAHARA

One can even go chanting just the A (like you do it with O or Om or Aum) and intersperse the corresponding consonants in the succession occasionally. Very relaxing.

When meditating I now visualise and "put" myself lying there on a beautiful beach of this island. Maybe with my guide "Gálaca" by my side. And a late dog of ours to my right. Relaxing, sunbathing with a drink and some music, smelling (as recommended by the guide above) the salty air. I almost cured a headache alone with this. I remember that most chants that activate chakras or are used for manifestation(-meditation) use the A-sound, too.

Btw, Gálaca also has the recurring A as every other letter and only vowel. Coincidence?

GALACA

And maybe in physical life I should book my next vacation in PANAMA ? :)

[Sinera]

Maybe with my guide "Gálaca" by my side. And a late dog of ours to my right. :)
and it occurred to me only later, the late dog (a collie) I chose was a female one who we called "Anja"(=Anya)

ANYA

:wacky1:

[Sinera]

05/Oct/2012
Throath Chakra Activation Method For Sight?


20/Dec/2011
The Exit Blindness Healing Hand / Left Temple Vision Activation

Just a short one concentrating on one element I (might have) learnt, as most of yesterday's lucidventure was too inconclusive for me. I got out with helper's hands holding me on each side, this time I felt not only one hand but being grabbed at my arms with two hands on each side. So there were at least 2 helpers. I had exit blindness which I have often. I tried a lot with affirmations, but nothing worked.

Then a hand (by a third helper?) was pressed slightly what felt like with 2-3 fingers against my left temple (front side). Then, finally, there was a light spot in the middle and it expanded to the edges, so my vision came on. I saw the lighted room of what is my 'Portal 1'. Then flew (still with helpers holding me) out of the window for other experiences.

Comments / Afterthoughts

I need to check on future 'blind exits' if this is a technique I was 'taught' this way and if it then indeed works for me if I put 'my own (astral) hand' on my (left) front side.

Question: Does the left temple have any special mystic / energetic / chakra function? Is it possible to activate astral sight / the pineal gland by working on it?

Need to quote and add sth to this one from last December since it seems I learnt something new again from a helper. Exit bindness troubleshouting 2.0 if you will. :wink:

First time out: I was lifted by one helper who held me from behind (!) which was new. I was blind again. I did not like the helper holding me this way and so I went away from him/her stating that I will try it alone now. I had forgotten about my goal though by that time. As often, none of the affirmations to gain sight helped. So I stayed blind until I faded back into my bed, waking up. But shortly before that sth very decisive happened: The helper seemed to use his fingers to tap a few times on the back of my neck. I still felt the last knock when I was already opening my eyes in the physical bed. It was like a signal or a hint given.

Second time out: I was blind again, this time had just got out of bed but in an unknown room which I only 'mind-sensed'. Affirmations again seemed futile. Then I remembered the helper's tapping on the back of my neck. I swung my right arm up and around and put the hand of my astral body onto that spot and asked for vision. Immediately the light turned on and I could see everything VERY clearly !!
:idea: :cool:

Comments / Afterthoughts

So I was definitely given another technique this way. No doubt for me. It worked. It seems I am more of the somatic/tactile-type regarding astral interaction rather than purley relying on verbal affirmations. I am certain it was about activating the throath chakra (from behind). It was exactly the spot (see pic). The last time (see quote) I was given sth to activate the one above it (third eye) also to gain vision.

It is also striking that both times hands were not to be put the direct energy exit (the offical spot) but rather either from the side (temples) or from behind (nape). I will try to use chakra activation in the astral now more often to gain sight and maybe other capabilities (in case I hopefully manage to think of it and not forget).

The only question remaining: why is the 5th chakra now used for gaining sight instead of the 6th? I thought the 5th was for communication. Well, maybe my command got amplified and 'heard' now by the larger reality system and that caused the effect?

http://2.bp.blogspot.com/--2d0-yZ9QFg/T6JBDgTGSqI/AAAAAAAAAIc/6etOI1SOHYY/s1600/cks.jpg

[Sinera]

15/Oct/2012
Hello, I'm The Doctor, How Can I Help You?

After a dry period another exit. First I had exit blindness but felt ("mind-sensed") I was with my helper (female, hand in hand) standing before a familiar shop window in my city. Then I used my new chakra sight-gaining method and let go off the helper('s hand) and when sight came on I saw a wide tv (plasma) screen. I flew into the monitor and had several incoherent lucadventures not worth mentioning here but one.

I arrived at a hospital room with one patient, a man lying in bed and a lady (his wife?) at his side. They looked strange with e.g. bushy eyebrows and huge noses, but otherwise humanoid. As it was a hospital I acted impulsively, which is in hindsight very very funny for me: I shook his hand and said. "Hi, I'm Dr MyLastName, what can I do for you?". He told me he is suffering from tiredness. I got like naturally into amnesis mode (it's my healer training in the physical that has an effect now) and asked for other symptoms, such as headache. He told me that he only had the tiredness and no headache. I don't remember more.

Comments / Afterthoughts

I think I am prepared to become not only a physical but also an astral healer. This is consistent with my development. I need to remember next time that the astral is different and start with my 'hands on' healing procedure right away trying to channel Raphaelean or Reconnective healing energy, instead of trying anamnesis or diagnosis. I'm also very confident that I will reach the higher planes soon again for the Temple Of Healing / Healing Centre (in F27 or whereever), which is imminent and intended.

As regards the techniques for validations it looks promising. I'd been training myself before to remember the chakra method for visuals and I also had trained myself to then instantly produce a screen or window which I called the "RTZ validation window / screen" in order to access RTZ info. Moreover, I had also trained myself to use as an alterantive the hearing method (by listening to my guide's 'voice') while in blindness before that, also for RTZ card validation purpose. So here I had the opportunity for both strategies but in either case forgotten my original goal. :? I did only notice afterwards that I actually had my window (shopping window when blind) and screen (TV set), as pre-conditioned by me. Anyway, next time!

I also am using a promising timer method (3-1-1-1-1-1) now which helps me to phase more often (mostly in the 2nd or 3rd alarm break) and I might again add more lucidventures here again, but I'll try to be more concise in future.

[Sinera]

31/Oct/2012
The Cathedral

First I was in a dream with a buddy of mine as we were in a wild car chase where he is the driver. In one scene (the first I remember actually) he drives very very fast backwards through a street and I tell him it scares me as it is too fast. We somehow try to escape from a police car as it seems. Then we are somehow up above, jumping from roof to roof in a bigger city. We reach a more suburban area as it seems which then later turns into a lawn and garden area, but also with trash bins and fences or so. At one instance my buddy was riding a bike only and I was seated in a basket hanging from the handlebars in the front of him, with him smiling at me. When we finally arrive at the grassy suburban area I am almost alone but see from the corner of my eye, just for a short moment, a girl that looks very much like Gálaca (= my guide, supposedly). It's a sunny day, btw.

I then don't remember if there was a break or change of scene, but I am then on my own on this sunny day in a kind of castle garden area walking around in this park-like setting. I seem to be almost lucid, as I want to know where I 'landed' here. It does not take me long to find my way to a huge cathedral or temple. It resembles e.g. the Cologne Cathedral (see pic) a little, but with the two towers further apart. I look up to it and it is gigantic. There is a promenade before it (in this park-like area) leading towards it with fountains and flowerbeds by its side, and many people walking there, seemingly coming out of or going into this cathedral. I ask a man who walks there on the path towards me (out of the cathedral.) what this place is. But he does not give a direct answer and only looks at me and says: "It's all good." I try to ask another woman then but fade out of this lucidventure before being able to do so.


http://www.sacred-destinations.com/germany/images/cologne/cathedral/resized/IMG_6445.jpg http://www.gadotour.com/xe/files/attach/images/945/962/00afee96898c197af9577d21269faadd.jpg

Comments / Afterthoughts

I believe I was helped out of the astral or the dark(er) areas of my subconscious by a helper who first appeared to me as an old buddy. This old buddy was also very athletic and sportive, much more than me, so he fits well the requirements for the task of the "escape". The police chasing us might have been my own subconscious guard that wants to keep me 'on the ground' for other (lower?) matters (or any astral negative elements or guards?).

I had indeed done the affirmation to finally reach the "Temple Of Healing" (see my post above) this night before going to bed. I also had asked Archangel Raphael whose energy I believe to have 'encountered (http://www.astraldynamics.com.au/showthread.php?11852-Volgerle-s-Lucidiary&p=114394#post114394)' recently to assist me (yeah, folks, I've lost my marbles, so what?:mrgreen:).

Annotation: The Healing Centre is the 'institution' in the afterlife area for the healing/cleansing of the soul's energy. It's been described by many authors on astral projection or life-between-lives-regression, such as Moen, Leland, Monroe for the first and D. Cannon or M. Newton for the latter. Here's, for example, a fascinating account about the/a Healing Centre / Healing Temple (http://books.google.de/books?id=qTYKqCNSz-AC&pg=PA62&dq=Dolores+Cannon+%22Temple+Of+Healing%22&hl=de&sa=X&ei=kJiRUOwYisu0BvzjgcgD&ved=0CDkQ6AEwAQ#v=onepage&q=Dolores%20Cannon%20%22Temple%20Of%20Healing%22&f=false) in D. Cannon's book to be read online. It also says that projectors/incarnated persons can reach it too (quote: "The guardian says not many people afford themselves of this opportunity while in the astral traveling state. "But they should," he says. "We are here to also be of service to the souls that are still incarnated as well..."). That's why I want to get there! Here's another account from M. Newton about the/a Healing Centre (http://books.google.de/books?id=Psk6tJq1ybQC&pg=PA53&dq=Michael+Newton+%22a+space+of+healing%22&hl=de&sa=X&ei=XpqRUNb5Lc754QSZnoDYDw&ved=0CDYQ6AEwAA#v=onepage&q=Michael%20Newton%20%22a%20space%20of%20healing%2 2&f=false).

Maybe this place was the / a kind of temple for this? Maybe I just was brought there (by the helper, when still in dream-state) shortly to 'get a glimpse' or a taste of it, also in order to find it again on my own later? As told above, I did not find out what this place was exactly. Hope I get there again soon.

Still wonder what the guy meant by not answering directly but just stating the 'all good' sentence. Maybe he was healed (coming out of the temple) and therefore it was all good? Also I wonder what the fast backwards-speeding might mean in the beginning of the car chase.

[Korpo]

Hello, Volgerle.

Any time you saw your friend he was in the driver seat. This would mean he sustained your consciousness and directed you in your attempt to reach the desired state of consciousness. It would seem then that the purpose of this lucidventure was to expose you to this state of being to get you accustomed to it and also to activate the chakras of your energy body further.

The man saying "It's all good" seems to be a very rough description of a higher plane. It could have been the highest subplane of the astral plane, which is indeed "all good." The description is roughly matching, but strongly lacking in detail and therefore not telling you much. This again is quite probably due to the fact that you're still developing your non-verbal communication. Given how absurd some of your previous exchanges in other ACs were, this is clear progress. A usual progression is like this: Completely absurd, absurd but hitting a similar rough topic in terms of associations, not absurd but short, expansion into larger sentences and exchanges. As I said - I'd say progress is recognisable.

The purpose of the highest subplane of the astral plane is healing in many ways. For example for shades arriving at this level it is a place of wish-fulfillment, freeing them from the residues of desire that they still carried from their recent lives. The whole place radiates a closeness to Source and is often described as sunny, often referred to as Summerland. It also contains the astral ashram. See also here: http://www.kurtleland.com/astral-projection-log/2010/193-astral-ashram-orientation

[Sinera]

05/Nov/2012
Chakra-Column Of Light Leading To Past Life Data?

This one has actually three parts (yeah, sorry, it's a long one, go get a cup of tea and make yourselves comfortable...): The first was a lucidventure of its own. The second and third is one lucidventure, both are referred to in the header, but the first is 'connected' somehow, too. It's bizarre, friends, very bizarre.

1. Dancing Charleston in the 1930ies

I get vibrations and phase into the street outside where I live now. To my surprise it is not in the present but there are olden 'vintage' 1920/30ies cars parked outside. I then fly through a window into the living room which is rather a little dancehall or a private party.

There is a nice girl also with 'vintage' clothing, she's dancing in the middle of the room a kind of Charleston or swing style dance and I land there (seemingly half-lucid by then) and dance with her for having fun. Not more remembered but it is notable that the 20/30ies will play a role in the following lucidventure, too.

2. Chakra Column Of Light

I am lying again in my astral portal bed and am asking myself the very strange question (don't know why) if I will see again this moment now / projection also in my (after)life review for this incarnation. This idea produces the vibrations.

This time I am in darkness again. I forget my actual goal for that night (Temple Of Healing again) and only think of my chakra technique to gain sight. I put the arm behind my back on the 5. chakra and shout "chakra!" a few times. What happens then is fascinating.

I see rings of light in the darkness and my flying upwards (don't remember if through them or above them). I pass several of them. Then I stop before one light which is not necessarily a ring but a star of light. Then suddenly the top of my head (crown chakra area) feels warm, I feel it 'physically', and at the same time I start to hear a female voice talking to me.

First I do not understand what she says. Then she also laughs (but not at me, just a friendly social laugh). As usual I grab her hand as I do with my helpers. She seemed farther off first and rather reticent, as if waiting for me to grant her permission to approach me.

I then try to remember one of my goals and the past life research occurs to me. I wanted to test out getting information via voice (clairaudience) in the state, so I decide to give it a try and ask for "Sinera / Lady in Red" (see 3.).

3. Past Life In Denmark?

I still don't see her. It is not completely black but it seems I am kind of under a veil or so. I ask of her (assuming she has the data) my prepaired questions, the very basic details for a past life dataset: year of birth, place of birth and full name. She mentions "Denmark" and then says "in 33". I ask 1933 and she says "yes, 1933" as though it was a given and I should have kown naturally.

Then the name: she mentions sth I remember like "Do(r)sch(e)witz". Then she says the first name "Samantha". I ask again some of the data but she more or less confirms. Then I start to fade out and my last question is: "so this is 'Lady In Red then?". The last thing I hear is a rather higher pitched and hectic "No!!!" before I fade back into this reality waking up.

Comments / Afterthoughts

About past life and 1933:

Of course, my question for Lady In Red became unlogical when another first name was mentioned. Sinera was linked to "Lady In Red" for me here (http://www.astraldynamics.com.au/showthread.php?11852-Volgerle-s-Lucidiary&p=108249#post108249). So she was telling me about another past life (if at all), a third one next to Sinera (probably 1800s) and the "indio / indigenous" man in Punin/Ecuador around 1650.

If it is really 1933 then this indeed might be my 'previous' life. I assume she died young and it is not a parallel existence since I was born in '68 (or she's an old lady now). I once had a strange dream being very different from others that was indeed taking place in the 50ies or so, never before and never after. It's notable that this happened in a night where I also did pre-sleep affirmations for past life info in dreams. Make of it what you will. :?

It is also interesting that the highly meaningful number 33 again features here, as I come across it quite often (http://www.astraldynamics.com.au/showthread.php?14287-333-or-33-%28or-0-3333-as-from-6-divided-by-18%29). Unfortunately, no one else here seems to have since I did not receive any answer. Of course, here it still might be coincidental, but who knows? Maybe I 'chose' the 33 to be born in if it is imporatant for me?

The first lucidventure strangely seemed to herald what was coming my way then. Charleston dancing (still en vogue in the 30ies (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Charleston_%28dance%29#30s_and_40s_Partner_Charles ton)), the 30ies or (http://www.google.de/search?hl=de&q=20ie+car&um=1&ie=UTF-8&tbm=isch&source=og&sa=N&tab=wi&ei=__qXUN23OaX64QSY44GQDg&biw=1060&bih=725&sei=BfuXUOC8CKGE4ATX1IDQDg#um=1&hl=de&safe=off&tbm=isch&sa=1&q=Autos+30iger+Jahre&oq=Autos+30iger+Jahre&gs_l=img.3...10784.11412.22.11552.6.5.0.0.0.0.178. 766.0j5.5.0...0.0...1c.1.ZeAxzxViGbE&pbx=1&bav=on.2,or.r_gc.r_pw.r_qf.&fp=aa5ef1015d2ab3cf&bpcl=37189454&biw=1060&bih=725) 20ies cars (http://www.google.de/search?hl=de&q=20ie+car&um=1&ie=UTF-8&tbm=isch&source=og&sa=N&tab=wi&ei=__qXUN23OaX64QSY44GQDg&biw=1060&bih=725&sei=BfuXUOC8CKGE4ATX1IDQDg#um=1&hl=de&safe=off&tbm=isch&sa=1&q=Autos+20iger+Jahre&oq=Autos+20iger+Jahre&gs_l=img.3...6679073.6679241.24.6679732.2.2.0.0.0. 0.131.246.0j2.2.0...0.0...1c.1.L1VmFvJnZWo&pbx=1&bav=on.2,or.r_gc.r_pw.r_qf.&fp=aa5ef1015d2ab3cf&bpcl=37189454&biw=1060&bih=704). Very bizarre indeed.

I have no clue about Denmark. I do not have any connection to this country whatsoever in this life. Doesn't ring a bell. Even worse for the name, it's pretty disappointing: Samantha Do(r)sch(e)witz. Internet research does not yield me anything for this name and Denmark. It does not even sound Danish (rather German) at all, maybe she was immigrant, Dortewitz is a common German name and also a town, not more. I also tried lots of variants and combinations. Inconclusive, to say the least. Seems I need more data (again ...) :roll::?.

Denmark 1933 yields a ship (http://de.wikipedia.org/wiki/Danmark_%281933%29), but that does not lead to anywhere either.

About the chakra rings / the column of light:

I've seen chakra energy (http://www.astraldynamics.com.au/showthread.php?13235-Heart-Chakra-quot-spiral-galaxy-quot-in-mind-s-eye-trance) two times before. But this one was different again. I believe I was flying through my chakras somehow, from bottom to top. Reaching the top, my head warmed and I then had 'contact' to the helper (or whoever she was).

But it gets even more amazing! I need to mention one special thing: I used a special stone which was that night dangling from my headside, not far away from my crown chakra indeed (inches). Normally when I do this I use an Amethyst but this time I used the Astrophyllite for this. Well, maybe it has done its job as promised by some experts. I am really amazed and do not think it to be an accident. Before I bought the Astrophyllite I read this about it in the Book Of Stones which mentions its high capability to activate the "chakra column of light (http://books.google.de/books?id=-46X8VXHA_UC&pg=PA54&dq=Astrophyllite+%22activates+the+chakra+column%22&hl=de&sa=X&ei=uf6XUKS1OI_Msgbq8oHICg&ved=0CDEQ6AEwAA#v=onepage&q=Astrophyllite%20%22activates%20the%20chakra%20co lumn%22&f=false)", which I might have experienced visually indeed. The quote is from another website (citing it from the same book) with some obmissions and bolds (relevant for the topic / lucidventure above) mine:


Astrophyllite is a gemstone ally for navigating the twists and turns of travels beyond the body - in the astral realm and the next several levels above it. It can help one achieve the state of lucidity wherein one can make choices and take purposeful actions, even in the often-chaotic domain of dreams. It is both a spur to expanding consciousness into the higher realms and an anchor which can assist one in returning to home base, no matter the extent of ones wanderings.(...)

Astrophyllite is a powerful storm element stone that activates the chakra column to become a channel for high-frequency light energy. It activates and connects the soul star chakra above the head with the earthstar chakra below the feet. In connection of these two powerful etheric energy centers, all other chakras in the body are activated charged and aligned. Astrophyllite enables one to resonate with and radiate the full spectrum of electromagnetic energy that is the Light. From the highest-frequency energy to the lowest, Astrophyllite reminds us that the entire spectrum of light is necessary to our health and spiritual growth.

Astrophyllite carries an energy that helps walk-ins and ETs feel more at home on Earth. It stimulates the higher chakras and encourages intergalactic and interdimensional communication and telepathy with beings from these realms. It can enhance telepathic communications on the earth planes as well, allowing more exact interpretation of psychic information. It is an excellent ally to employ when one wishes to receive specific scientific or technical information from these other realms or from other times such as ones past lives in Atlantis or ancient Egypt. It can assist in psychic time travel or intergalactic travel.

- R. Simmons / N. Ashian (Book Of Stones)

A true 'miracle stone' for the astral projection student it seems. That's why I had bought it. I now can recommend it. Give this amazing stone a try if you like to experiment. Might give you a chakra or AP boost. Mine looks a little like this one:

http://www.steinreich-gmbh.at/img/lexikon/astrophylit_kl.jpg

I also remembered Korpo writing about this same (or similar) experience and maybe it was really the same. I found it, it's from my journal, too. I quote the relevant passage:


I seem to be travelling within an upward tunnel, and I "realise" it's my own spine. At certain heights are key junctures - tunnel exits - the chakras. Some have realities behind them, like a portal into another land (I can access the subplane associated with that individual chakra) but there's one behind which lies just an "energetic void." I see nothing, but this nothing seems to be alive like an electric cloud, if that makes sense. I concluded what I see was an energy I couldn't translate, as the energy was there (potential, electricity) but no forms to observe (information derived from the energy to construct a sensory environment). The spine-like tunnel seems to have been an expression of the capabilities of an energy body (the spine being the whole-body connection of all chakras).

So the question is what (reality?) did I arrive at when I reached the top (crown chakra)? It was still "veiled" from me but I saw specks of colours through this grey or black veil (not literally, just an artistic or metaphoric description). I did not want to gain sight then because I was concentrating on my clairaudient technique. So I don't know what would have happened if I had tried to gain my full vision again.

One thing is certain: my 'chakra' commands which I did before were understood and executed a little different this time. :) And I am certain I was (by help of the Astrophyllite?) driving a fast lane up towards my crown chakra this time, also proven to me by the short (physical) warming of my crown in the end, beyond a doubt. Update: I just noticed that the article mentions the "star chakra" as being out of the body above the head. The last I saw when I stopped (meeting the lady voice) wasn't a ring (or wheel) but rather a point of light which I even called a 'star' (not consciously thinking of this chakra/description) when I wrote it down above. Wow. I'm amazed even more now. Something was going on with this stone. Wow.

[Korpo]

I like it that you grabbed the hand of your helper, that probably stabilised the connection.

In the past I often identified going beyond my ability to see something and only have mental contact with someone with going beyond my usual capabilities. In my case I would go to a "non-space" where all that existed was me and the connection to the other, no dimension, no space, no vision, just a nothing. Don't imagine a void, because that's not what I mean. You cannot imagine it. There was nothing to be seen and no observer, but a form of undefined separation. Funnily enough I'd say it would have a color resembling an afterimage red/orange. ;)

In hindsight this could have been entering a body with not even the 1st chakra fully active - not feeling of having a body of your own - or the 2nd chakra - perceiving space. In my experience more activity in the 3rd and 4th chakras is required (in combination with the 6th) to even render a picture in any body. When I had the 1st, 2nd and 3rd chakras of that body online, I would feel a body, movement and space, and have a vision of electrical/interference patterns, but not a picture of my surroundings. As the 4th chakra came online I would suddenly have car dreams all... the... time. And with full vision. As the 4th chakra came fully online I would also be able to read signposts (or just know what they mean) or know what lay in what direction when I wondered about it.

This scheme Kurt presented for the development of energy body inner senses really helped me to gauge the progress of my own experiences and the development of that energy body. Your inner projection contains elements that may be similar pointers for yourself. If you didn't have more vision it was probably because the information you had, inner-sense-wise, was not clear enough to render a more detailed coherent picture from it, not because you didn't will it to happen. Details will come as more of your chakras come online and develop more.

An interesting experience, and that's really quite something with the star and your account of the stone. :)

[Sinera]

I like it that you grabbed the hand of your helper, that probably stabilised the connection.
I'm usually doing this. This time the hand felt 'weak', not fully rendered, so the tactile connection wasn't so strong. But the voice was clear. It is interesting that first I did not understand what she said (maybe also due to confusion when the crown chakra was felt warming up). However, when I asked for the data I understood what she said loud and clear, her voice wasn't familiar though, it wasn't 'whisper'lady, but another one.

Still, I am skeptical as to the data retrieved. I will soon try a card test with the voice(s) in order to check if they tell my verifiable data. Til then I cannot take the past life data as real past life data. It also would be a cool way to do validation(s).


An interesting experience, and that's really quite something with the star and your account of the stone. :)
It occurred to me that maybe because I commanded "chakra!" several times that the response was to experience more (than one) chakras of mine, since this was the way the system / energy interpreted my repeated command. :)

[Sinera]

28/Nov/2012
Astrophyllite Continued: The "Worm" Neg (Or Kundalini Again?)


The last I saw when I stopped (meeting the lady voice) wasn't a ring (or wheel) but rather a point of light which I even called a 'star' (not consciously thinking of this chakra/description) when I wrote it down above. Wow. I'm amazed even more now. Something was going on with this stone. Wow.

Not a clearly lucid experience, just an interesting follow-up on the Astrophyllite used on my chakra(s) and how it shows it is a double-edged sword somehow. Happened a few days ago actually when I had the Astrophyllite again dangling above my top chakra during sleep:

In a dream, I first seem to be in a brawl with a muscular guy who somehow provoked me on a kind of club or bar. I first seemed to wisely ignore him but then I somehow reacted also violently. Don't know if it relates to the following scene:

Later I am in the bathroom and I seem to 'feel' - just like in the best alien-horror movie - sth moving up my torso. I also felt this already a few times when lying in bed (mind split while dreaming). Before the mirror, I then try to remove it through my mouth and the right jaw somehow.

The creature is a mix of a VERY long tapeworm/caterpillar/millipede. It's really long, as I draw it out I still feel it moving down in my torso too, so it takes a while. It then somehow snaps off (or did I bite it off?). I throw it on the bathroom floor then and try to smash it with a nearby bucket. Then, to my dismay, I realise my fear came true and there is still some of it inside, it seems to grow back somehow.

Instead of trying to draw out more I run panicking into the living room (strangely now a foreign unfamiliar appartment while before I'd been in a familiar bathroom). I grab the phone and try to make an emergency call for paramedics. I immediately hear s.o. saying "hello, hello?" while I still try to remember / dial the emergency number (hence taking up the receiver would have been enough). I then somehow 'sense' a good buddy of mine on the outside of the building and seconds later I also see my parents materialised in this (still foreign) flat. I run to my father to tell him this is very serious and I need help. They seem not to grasp the seriousness of the situation.

To my great surprise, my "father" does not seem to be concerned about me at all. Instead he smiles and puts out a warm, loving and reassuring expression on his face. He's maybe not my father anymore then but rather resembles the Blue Monk. All he says is this while he's smiling:

"You've been playing around again, have you?"

Dream/projection ends.

Comments / Afterthoughts

In short, two hypotheses:

1.) I do not believe it was a 'real' neg experience. The Astrophyllite combined with my affirmations (column of light activation) caused the energy movements in my body at night. This is of course not the first time I feel energy in my sleep. The negative interpretation of an 'alien worm' might (or might not) have been caused by the aggression dream I had before. (The guy might have been an aspect of myself though). However, it could have been an unrelated dream, too.

2.) I met my guide, the Blue Monk (http://www.astraldynamics.com.au/showthread.php?11852-Volgerle-s-Lucidiary&p=101588#post101588), again. I see him sometimes now in dreams too and as it seems in different forms (skin colour as well as age) during projections. I assume he could be my main guide. I would not have seen him as my 'father' first. Or he's a close second to Gálaca (http://www.astraldynamics.com.au/showthread.php?11852-Volgerle-s-Lucidiary&p=100388#post100388)? Or they are both one, just two different aspects (male-father /female-girlfriend) shown to me according to the situation?
Anyway, he seems to have some fun with me now, too. But he also warned me not to play/fool/mess around (with that stone or energy work in general) too much? Or maybe it all wasn't as threatening as I thought it was? At least it's good to know there's always help nearby (buddy, phone, father-guide), And yes, I "played around" a lot with crystals and energy already. I need to take more care maybe.

[Korpo]

Negativity exists inside the human being. Don't be too surprised to see it as a low-level consciousness. The "regrowing" might just mean you're not done cleaning it out.

[Sinera]

Negativity exists inside the human being. Don't be too surprised to see it as a low-level consciousness. The "regrowing" might just mean you're not done cleaning it out.
That's probably very true. I had also some emotional issues recently. Moreover, and amazingly so, the Book Of Stones (quoting again from an above link (a quote of a quote (http://indigosociety.com/showthread.php?1219-Rock-Mineral-uses-and-correspondences&p=16441&viewfull=1#post16441)), just another section) says this, bolds mine:


Astrophyllite has the ability to direct light into the darkest recesses of ones being and experience. It can help one perceive and understand ones most buried and unacknowledged thoughts and feelings. By bringing these shadow aspects of the self to conscious awareness, wholeness, self-acceptance and self-forgiveness can be achieved. Astrophyllite is excellent for those who believe they are beyond redemption or salvation due to their ego investment in the shadow self. It can help these individuals to perceive their inherent divinity, fully accepting and loving themselves, deciding to live their full potential. For this reason, Astrophyllite can offer excellent support for counseling those who have been institutionalized in our criminal justice system or mental health system. It is also useful in exorcism and entity removal work.

(...)

Spiritual : Astrophyllite enhances the ability to communicate with ET's, interdimensional beings and other civilizations from past or future. It activates the entire chakra column and assists the body in resonating with full spectrum of Light energy. It can assist exorcisms and entity removal and in turning dark entities towards the light.

Emotional : Astrophyllite can help one accept ones shadow self and feel more whole and accepting of oneself. It can give hope to those who fear judgment of others or the Divine. It assists one in finding light in the darkest corners and in deciding to express ones full light in the world. Astrophyllite allows one to face ones darkest fears and reclaim ones full power.

Also:

Astrophyllite and Moldavite work together exceptionally well, especially in regards to activating ones higher purpose in life and in assisting one in following that path. The acceleration they provide sometimes necessitates a rather intense burning of old karma, but for those who are ready, this is an immense blessing.

So maybe it is a kind of inner cleansing, even "inner neg removal", and I should do more? Bring it to light with light, so to speak? I'll definitely use the Astrophyllite (on my spiritual chakra) again. But not every night. It's a real hardcore stone and one needs some time-off from working (hard) with and through it.

I also recognised already that it is hardly possible to wear it for a longer duration around your neck on your breast during the day. It starts to somehow 'burn' after a while, and exactly this was written somewhere else on the internet too (don't find it right now but I remember I read it somewhere).

My goodness, yeah, what a powerful stone!

[Sinera]

15/Dec/2012
UFO Sighting And The Dreamers Class

Still in dream state, I am in a school class and we see UFOs outside, looking outside the window still seated in our chairs at the desks in class. Then some of them come down and they don't look like UFOs anymore. I however spot another point at the sky that is shimmering with some light blue dots in it and say this is a 'real' UFO. Then it comes down and I immediately get lucid and know I'm dreaming! Strangely, I do no longer care for the "UFO" and turn to the class to explore it.

I see some students sitting at their tables and I assume they are other dreamers (people). I address one girl and ask her if she knows she's dreaming or what she thinks of dreaming. She shortly closes her eyes then as if she was reflecting deeply on my question, then after a few seconds opens them again and answers "I would rather be sleeping alone".

This kind of rebuff doesn't offend me (as she was also beautiful maybe she thought it was sexual?) and I just give here a friendly tap on the shoulder and leave by saying "It wasn't about sleeping but dreaming, my dear."

Then I go outside into the hall/corridor and there's a woman that looks at me as if she's a kind of guard. I ignore her and instead walk into the opposite room, and there is a normal office with some ladies sitting at desks working on computers.

I walk up to one office clerk girl at her desk and ask here what she's doing or what her job is or what 'this company' does. I also look at her screen but it seems to be compartmentalised into several windows and shows different calculations, logarythms, data entries and some pics or icons too. I do not understand anything of it, neither much of the communication. She just tells me sth about 'photons' and mentions some numbers, that's all I remember before I wake up or lose lucidity and memory again.

Comments / Afterthoughts

Maybe it was indeed a dreamers' class and I am a student in it that got lucid? Maybe the office was the maintenance clerks of this educational institution in the astral or mental area of NPMR?

The UFO seems to work to make me lucid now. I have seen other UFOs (also as beings of light / angels) in the sky lately in dreams and said to myself that whenever I see one again I get lucid. Maybe it works and is a new method for me to be cultivated now! It is also interesting to note how my attention seemed to switch to the surroundings and situation I was in instead of the „UFO“ , as if I subconsciously understood that this sighting was just a signal to get me lucid. (?) Once I asked an angel to help me to become lucid. That same night I saw a UFO in the dream but when it approached me (came further down) it turned out to be a being of light with wings looking like a butterfly (or angel!?) then. Maybe this was the answer or assistance given to me? I will make affirmations now like "I see a UFO. I know I'm dreaming" or similar. Maybe also ask an angel / helper to play this role for me. Maybe it really works for me.

[Korpo]

I think her answer had something to do with the fact that establishing dream contact with you would have felt unsafe to her - like something her belief system does not allow. The translations are a bit off in general but getting much better - usually sensible short sentences now.

The readout on the screen suggests "abstractness" about the information - and you bring back your impression that it was "complex." Probably the same reason you didn't back any of the explanation. You did not have the (dream) vocabulary to translate it. "Photons" are a unit of energy and light, so any sort of directly working with energy might have been the subject of her explanation.

[Sinera]

19/Dec/2012
Throat Chakra Activation For Overcoming Speech-Paralysis

Seems this one was repeated again, just for another purpose.


05/Oct/2012
Throath Chakra Activation Method For Sight?
(...)
I was blind again, this time had just got out of bed but in an unknown room which I only 'mind-sensed'. Affirmations again seemed futile. Then I remembered the helper's tapping on the back of my neck. I swung my right arm up and around and put the hand of my astral body onto that spot and asked for vision. Immediately the light turned on and I could see everything VERY clearly !!(..)So I was definitely given another technique this way. No doubt for me. It worked. It seems I am more of the somatic/tactile-type regarding astral interaction rather than purley relying on verbal affirmations. I am certain it was about activating the throath chakra (from behind). It was exactly the spot (see pic). The last time (see quote) I was given sth to activate the one above it (third eye) also to gain vision.
(...)
The only question remaining: why is the 5th chakra now used for gaining sight instead of the 6th? I thought the 5th was for communication. Well, maybe my command got amplified and 'heard' now by the larger reality system and that caused the effect?
I get into the vibrational trance state and affirm I am looking forward to the Lightportal with joy. I get vibrations and wait til they are stronger and then try an exit. As usual recently, I have difficulties as I experience inertia and even tiredness (!) of my (physical?) body when trying to exit. Strange, I did not have this before. Never.

I am out blind again (or not blind, actually I cannot even say what I saw, maybe it was again mindsight). But that is okay for my purpose as I had planned to work on my clairaudient technique again and thus concentrate on my hearing and 'speaking' to a helper. I might have grabbed for a hand but not sure if I really felt one, still I was sure of a helper being present (also since I asked for one the whole day in preparation).

I try (not telepathcally but really by articulating) but I cannot get out a word. Maybe a whisper or a soft croak, but not a voice. I can speak mentally but I want to move my speech organs and use my vocal chords, but it seems I have a paralysis or apraxia of my speech organs (not aphasia as I mentally could still understand and speak language).

Then it happens again: A helper taps with a finger 3-4 times on the back of my neck. I am reminded of this technique and immediately put my hand on this spot myself saying "chakra" once. I can speak immediately! I do not remember what I said then. I think I tried to activate also the chakra above for gaining sight, which means I had by then unfortunatly lost memory of my original goal - to try the astral hearing approach again. Then I lost lucidity again.

Comments / Afterthoughts

Interesting. Lesson repeated, only this time to overcome a dysfunction that made even more sense for the fifth chakra - being able to speak!

Still, it's rather obvious: I seem to have a problem with carrying over my belief to use my astral like my physical body. Or it seems I was not 'loosened' enough from the physical. First there's the paralysis and tiredness of the whole body and moreover it appears that secondly I had somehow 'carried over' the inert (asleep!) voice/speaking organs of my physical body into the astral. Strangely, the weariness I felt is really by far outweighing the paralysis / inertia aspect. I was just so very very tired. :shock:

Be that as it may, luckily the 're-taught' lesson to re-gain (astral?) abilities worked! :D

[Korpo]

You probably wouldn't experience "exit blindness" in your astral body. By now it should be rather well-developed. If you can see in your dreams, "astral blindness" may not be what's occuring. Especially if you had lucid dreams in the past.

The third eye also is not so much about sight, but about coordinating your inner sense impressions from all chakras into a coherent mind picture. I believe for example that I had an experience pertaining to this where the 1st, 2nd, 3rd and 6th chakra were active - I could not see, but I had a sort of "touch vision." I knew how far things were away from me (impression of having a body, 1st chakra), where they were in space (2nd chakra - awareness of space) and I could move (3rd chakra). All that information compiled together (6th chakra) gave me a coherent picture of my surroundings, just not one like I would have expected it.

As for "exit blindness" - the "lights went on" for me around the time the 4th chakra would have come on in the energy body where I was aware of this developmental process unfolding. The heart chakra is about function, and that's why I think it has a lot to do with sight. Knowing what a thing or energy is is part of translating it into a picture. Before that I knew I moved, a relation to other things around me, but I did not know what these things were (their function) and could therefore not render them into images in my mind. (Imagine a world where you could not see a table if you did not understand what a table is...)

Knowing the function of an entity or thing means knowing its purpose. What is it for? What can it do? How does it relate to myself? How does it relate to other things? These impressions started to happen. I would find sign posts regarding my whereabouts and could read them (at least I thought I've read them - maybe I just knew what was on them and did not question that). The pictures my mind would render of places I could bring back and interpret to get a clearer understanding of where I had been. The important thing is that this translation process picks your brain for the closest physical thing to approximate the nonphysical experience. This process gets more accurate over time. It yields more information and gets closer to the energetic truth behind the picture. The picture is just for your own understanding - and also shows the limits of that understanding. How the world looks like in an AC is a reflection of what's in your mind and on your mind and what you know. It's as much a glance without as within.

Regarding the neck - all chakras are interconnected. A blockage in one might limit their overall interaction. Just a thought.

[Sinera]

You probably wouldn't experience "exit blindness" in your astral body. By now it should be rather well-developed.
I have a theory: It's the Etheric Body. That's also why it felt so 'weary' which is normally the case for the EB (according to many authors!). I also know a guy from another forum who uses the etheric body to produce raps and other kinetic effects (and validations) and does deliberately without sight because he says then it works no more when sight comes on. He claims that in the EB sight is not possible.

But maybe physical-like hearing? If it is close to the physical body, which is the EB as the 'next' body, then it would make sense that I am able to 'hear' but still be in trance / projecting. I wanted to concentrate on my clairaudient ability discovered. So I can then 'hear' into the spiritual world already with this sense (connected to my EB or even the physical ears?). It always takes a while for the helpers to respond though. Seems they have trouble lowering their vibration in turn accordingly. Makes sense?


Regarding the neck - all chakras are interconnected. A blockage in one might limit their overall interaction. Just a thought.
Yeah, we already had spoken about it a weeks ago: It is my weak spot. So I think the natural flow 'stops' there.

When I had the Astrophyllite experience on Nov 5th I might have gone 'through" them all the way up to the Star Chakra or 7th chakra at least. That's why I believe I spoke to a part or aspect of my HS, as I it is my constant intent to view past lifes - or maybe it even was the incarnation 'Samantha' itself.

On the other hand, this does then not explain the 'physical hearing' I also did with her because according to my new theory it should have been the Etheric body's sense then? *confused*
:shrug:

[Sinera]

21/Dec/2012
Dr Walker

I produce my vibrations with my timer/laughing method in a kind of high building appartment. I first do a test flight in the flat then outside and fly above high over an unknown city. I land in a kind of suburban neighbourhood. I try to remember my goals but to my annoyment have forgotten everything. I try hard but it really is a shame. Then I decide to make the best of it and explore. I then am around a kind of scrap yard (for cars as it seems). I hear a child shout 'Dr Walker, Dr Walker' and decide to go there.

Then memory is blurred and I only remember bits of it. This doctor Walker seems to be a long-haired young shaman or whatever. In one scene in a kind of modest hut where he lives or has his 'practice' he holds my hand for a while, feeling 'inside' me maybe, while critically analysing / looking at me as it seems. Don't know if healing or examination was going on. Don't remember what he did then.

Later I ask a woman (his assistant or another client waiting?) about this address. She says it's "Einstein 3" and also mentions sth with "path" in it. I then go back to the 'doctor' / shaman to ask him his full name again. He tells me it's "Burnson Walker" (or Benson as this makes more sense as a first name?). I repeat it twice ("burn" ... "sen") in order to memorise and he says jokingly that now (finally) I would "sound Irish". I tell him that I need to do this memorisation and ask twice for names as he might surely now that I am currently projecting and have problems with memorising things. He seems to understand in an amused way. Then I discover a crystal with a leather band on a kind of display or shelf. It looks like my own, a Cyanite/Disthen, which I recognise immediately. Mine looks very similar to this one:

http://www.edelsteine.de/shop/images/product_images/info_images/6554_2-disthen-rechteckig-steinanhaenger.jpg

I say "Oh, that's mine, can I take it again?" which he confirms. Then I see another one (saying "oh, you've also got one") but it is only a picture on a kind of carousel display of more gemstone pendant pics, as if he would advertise, sell or offer them for free.

Comments / Afterthoughts

I'm using the Cyanite on my throat (chakra) during daytime for weeks now. I think that all my throat problems have become better. Maybe this was a hint to further use it and/or also apply (my) other crystals. Maybe I should also wear this Cyanite by night. It might aid in NV communications and with AP in general (it is said to do so).

I have no clue about this shaman / doctor. Burnson/Benson or Walker or Ireland or "Einstein 3" so far make not much sense to me. The scrapyard for cars might be related to recycling / renewing / refreshing / healing of energy bodies (=cars) maybe?

[Korpo]

I have a theory: It's the Etheric Body. That's also why it felt so 'weary' which is normally the case for the EB (according to many authors!). I also know a guy from another forum who uses the etheric body to produce raps and other kinetic effects (and validations) and does deliberately without sight because he says then it works no more when sight comes on. He claims that in the EB sight is not possible.

He might be on to something. I remember some etheric body experiences without sight, and with both physical and nonphysical sense impressions going on. I think if you affirm sight you might actually switch to the (more capable) astral body and "the lights come on." At least that's a possibility.


But maybe physical-like hearing? If it is close to the physical body, which is the EB as the 'next' body, then it would make sense that I am able to 'hear' but still be in trance / projecting.

Happened to me several times in connection with the etheric body. Once I would have trouble detaching it at the head, so I would have the feeling rotating around a fixed point - the feeling of movement and position was in the etheric body. But I still heard with my physical body I think.

Similarly I would drift through the room in my etheric body but the sounds would get farther and farther away - as I drifted away from my physical body, I would hear what it hears, but as if from a distance! This also happened during a Monroe tape session where I was somewhere - not "in my head" - and could hear what my ears hear while being aware of not being close to them, so it was as if the sound came into my ears, but was far away from where I was.


I wanted to concentrate on my clairaudient ability discovered. So I can then 'hear' into the spiritual world already with this sense (connected to my EB or even the physical ears?). It always takes a while for the helpers to respond though. Seems they have trouble lowering their vibration in turn accordingly. Makes sense?

Yes, but I think the etheric body is not necessarily a good vehicle for communicating with high-level spirits (as guides and invisible helpers are). I think Bruce Moen does it right - he has established an ability to go to higher focusses and still bring that immediately back to physical reality.

[Sinera]

18/Jan/2013
First Aid For Car Crash Victim (A Test)

This one mainly is a dream with some semi-lucid insight and a 'false awakening' in it, so I can put it here. It is also highly significant (see analysis below).

First I dream that I am in a kind of workshop or sales depot for wooden furniture and I am looking for a new chair. But no chair really fits me. I then decide on one but am not really convinced. One of the sales persons of this sales depot is a former boss of mine, but he's somehow not interested in me. When I finally make up my mind which chair to take (still not really convinced) they all seem to be out on their lunch break or so.

Then there's a scene change and I am either driving or walking on the street where the university library is where I am going for learning for my Heilpraktiker (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Heilpraktiker) studies a few times per week. (Btw: Fingers crossed: Two months only to go til the exam!). Before me I hear a short crash and then I see that a car (which acutally looks like my own!) has crashed somehow although there is no other car involved and one does not see with what it collided as it only stands half on the street and half on the lawn (of the university campus).

I get there without hesitation to help (I am alone) and see that the front side is crashed and there is a tyre broken, so maybe this was the reason. I open the driver's door but do not see anyone, it is also dark inside. Then I go around and open the passenger door and I then see a young guy with long hair and (iirc) a white shirt somehow lying across the two seats. I do not remember if he was jammed between steering wheel and seats in this wreckage.

I decide to pull him out first in order to then apply the usual first-aid chain of measures. But first, I address him. He seems conscious but 'groggy' and (of course) in distress as he is lying there on the front bench. So I ask him if he understands me and if he's injured and hurts somewhere. I then grab him and at this moment it changes: He smiles at me and grabs a doctor's reflex hammer from the dashboard and gives it to me.

I am then laughing too and - also a bit relieved - say: "Oh, this was not real!". As we both are laughing I take the tendon hammer from him while I wake up. But it is a false awakening and I am lying somhow in the sales depot again where I bought the chair, as if I had fallen asleep and been dreaming there about this crash. All that remains from the car crash scene is the reflex hammer which I still hold in my hand. But it starts to crumble into little tiny mechanic-metallic pieces then, such as washers, balls, screws, bolts. They then seem to turn to grey dust and disappear thus rinsing out of my hands. I put the rest of a few remaining metallic tiny pieces on a kind of bed stand next to my "bed" (or whatever I lie on) then, knowing well then that 'by morning' it all will have disappeared. Then I really woke up.

Comments / Afterthoughts

"Not real" meant it was a test. Definitely. I was called to help and had to react and I did it. Maybe my Higher Self tested me because I had decided the night before that meeting "it" will be my only target from now on (until I have success). I now finally want to meet my other incarnations on a NPMR destination I created for myself in the Astral. It's a beautiful place. So I went to bed with the constant intent to get there (visualising it) and affirmation of "Higher Self Now!". I also applied the Amethyst dangling above my head chakra, which always connects me to my HS (at least in dreams to get messages).

And indeed, not just the car looked like mine, but also the guy looked a little like the "young philosopher", one of the persons I met and assume to be parts of me. I 'met' him shortly in my "Puncture (http://www.astraldynamics.com.au/showthread.php?11852-Volgerle-s-Lucidiary&p=104672#post104672)" vision and also in dreams. He was the guy that said the strange words "Humanity still lags so much behind in its development. It has not even reached 60 points of its potential on a scale of 700-800." to me before he vanished again.

It is also amazing that this dream used so many recent incidents and develpments in my physical life. I had indeed bought a new chair and was not satisfied with it recently. But here, maybe the chair(s) that did not fit anymore was about my old life / job, this would at least explain the presence of a previous boss who was indifferent towards me.

Moreover, I really bookmarked (on ebay) a reflex hammer only days ago for me online since I am now gradually beginning to gather equipment for my practice. Probably this symbolic act was a kind of encouragement to show me I am on my right path and will succeed (hopefully).

And indeed, there was also a car crash in front of the university I witnessed, not quite at the same location where it was in the dream but just another street around the corner. 2 weeks ago or so I was just going back from the refectory to the library when I heard a loud bang on the nearby street. I could not see it first due to some grassy hills, but as also a car-alarm went off I knew it had to be a crash. I then got there to see. Concededly I was a little afraid despite my training that I could do mistakes if there were injured and first-aid was needed. Fortunately there were no inuries, just property damage, and also other people already standing - not in any agitation at all. So I was a little relieved. Maybe even this was already a test for me in physical life? I could have chosen not do go at all but of course that was out of question, especially as I am trained now. Maybe the dream repeated this test now for me and I passed it and was given a message by being given the reflex hammer.

Another (additional) message could be that I could also choose (and I am considering this) to also become a first aid instructor which is another possibilty of self-employed work for me. There is an offer by a company looking for trained healing practicioners to work for them as freelancers.

Last not least, coincidentally (or not), I had a doctor's appointment today in order to get an attestation of health for my Heilpraktiker exam. Of course, during his routine checks he also used a reflex hammer on me then. I somehow had to stare at it and laugh when he performed his tests with it then.

I think I should buy one now. It's about high time anyway.

http://www.smiliesuche.de/smileys/hammer/hammer-smilies-0002.gif;)

[Sinera]

26/Jan/2013
Katja (Assistant Guide)

I come up to lucidity from a dream and am in sleep paralysis lying in my bed. My visuals however are a room I lived in when I was student in a shared flat with friends. It is dark or dim, at night.

I might have exchanged more words with her but what I remember of the talk is the following sentences. The voice is familiar. It is the whispering soft female voice I already know. So this is the conversation while I lay in this bed of the room of my past, as well as in SP in my bed:

She: "You can see me!" (repeated) "You can see me."
Me: "Yeah? I'll try. Ok."
(Stretching my head I see her then)
Me (difficulties): "What is your name?"
She: "Katja."
Me: "Are you one of the Reconnective healer teachers?"

Two very notable phenomena during this conversation:

First, I simultaneously feel in my physical body a goosebump / shiver crawling up the skin (or spine) of my lower to the middle back. More on this below as this is VERY significant - literally.

Second, in order to see her, I lift my head with difficulty and see a woman's shape sitting in the half-dark at a few steps away from my bed. First I do not see her face because it is so dark (and a little 'spooky' too, concededly). Then for a short blip of a second, I recognize her face out of the dark room smiling at me. I try to articulate another question but I have a hard time speaking as my speech organs seem paralysed.

Then I wake up and cannot get / await an answer.

Comments / Afterthoughts

I think I have met her before. Her face was familiar, too, so I believe. She is the one I have already been flying outside my portal over the city (hand in hand), e.g. in this lucidventure here (http://www.astraldynamics.com.au/showthread.php?11852-Volgerle-s-Lucidiary&p=110693#post110693), where both fit: first the voice and later the flight over the city. Funny how she told me then she'd been "on vacation" for a while.


I get out with a helper's hand but first see nothing again. I then hear her familiar voice. It is the same whispering soft female voice of the same helper I heard before. I did, however, this time not understand what she told me.
Then it seems I managed the exit again and the next I remember is that we were flying (as usual hand in hand) over the city. I look at the brunette girl and ask her if she is Gálaca, although I am sure it is another one. She says (as expected) "no". I then ask her for her name. A surprising answer comes:

"Nonsense." :whatthe: I guess that wasn't her name but rather referred to my question.

She then also tells me that she had not been 'on duty' for a while as she was 'on sick leave'. :whatthe::whatthe::whatthe: Okay... aha, I see... sick leave ... in the non-physical you get sick (leave)???

(...)

I don't remember if it was another projection (semi-lucid) or just a dream. Anyway, there is coherence since it was immediately after Part1 and this same 'nonsense'-helper girl that was flying with me was now sitting next to me while I was lying in the bed in a hospital room. She smiles. (...) Somehow, 'nurse 1' (the brunette, 'nonsense') is the one whose whispering voice I heard many times before in 'blind exits' but it is not Gálaca. Her 'sick leave' - could it have been a leave from her job where she is attending to the sick (as a nurse?). Or did she just have a vacation in order to concentrate on other projects? Something like that, I guess. Definitely, there was again a lot of miscommunication and misinterpretation from my side.

My helpers (some of them appear as nurses and monks ...) are consistent, but they keep taking turns, it's like they're working in shifts.

And yes, it was indeed again the woman I called "Whisper-Lady" whose nice whispery voice I could actually 'hear' a lot (with my ears / brain / acoustic nerve) during many blind exits. It is still hard to differentiate her from Gálaca, as they might look a little alike. Katja's hair is darker, Gálaca is more fair or brown-haired. Or maybe I mis"heard" Kaja for Gálaca? Still a possibilty. Anyway, if they are different, both are quite pretty alike.
:heart::P

Don't know why I asked for for Reconnetion healing teacher this time. Maybe I had done this before, but this time I had asked yesterday to be constantly sent a kind of assistant guide, but not my main guide necessarily. Rather s.o. to be "delegated" for some basic or 'dirty work' who would be willing to assist me in my data gathering attempts - e.g. for remote viewing (see thread) and past life or any other Akashic data. And this also by making use of the clairaudient etheric method I am currently trying to develop.

When I asked for the assistant during meditation the day before I also was asking to be given a body sign (e.g. a touch, or sting, or twitch) to recognise this specific guide. I then felt exactly what I felt during the sleep paralysis: the goosebump / shiver crawling up the skin of my lower to the middle back.

My voice organ not working was of course due to my mind-split and felt sleep paralysis. I heard with my ears (or brain) and thus it seems I wanted to speak with my physical organs of speech (mouth, vocal chord, larynx) too - which of course did not work due to the SP. Not the first time this happens in the obvious borderline state between "etheric" and "physical" for me. But I need this state as I want to use it for my new technique.

Wow, this is amazing. So it's several corroborating confirmations for me that it's the same person once again:
1. the specific (agreed upon?) goosebumps as a 'recognition signal' given by her,
2. her face/looks,
3. the "in-ear" voice which is very very unique and recognisable,
4. the coming together of 2. and 3. e.g. as in the quoted lucidventure above (first hearing / then seeing her).

I consider Katja now being a specific guide (probably an apprentice?) assigned to me for helping me developing any of my projection capabilities. It seems that she was the one who most often helped me out anyway already in the past. I'll address her more directly from now on.

[Korpo]

Nice. :)

[Sinera]

17/Apr/2013
Card Validation!

I get vibrations and am in my 'astral bed' experiencing blindness again. I immediately shout out to my helper(s) to be shown the card I had put 'blind' on a shelf two days ago in front of a little nightlight (for night view should I do the unlikely case of a "real" RTZ projection).

First I remain in darkness, maybe holding a helpers hand or not (don't remember exactly) as I do usually when communicating with my helpers and do not see anything.

I shout again "The card! Show me the card!" Then I see a card approaching me from far away. The background is still black. There is just this little card, still far away, a little to the right (Btw, it's also to the right in my physical room). I zoom in on it so it gets nearer. I recognise it and shout it out as an aid for memorising it: "It's a Nine Of Spades!". Then ask for confirmation: "Yes?". A guide answers telepathically (no in-ear-voice this time) "yes".

Then vision comes on and I am in my "lightportal" (for those who don't remember my previous entries: it's the name I gave to my childhood bedroom into which I phase quite often, sometimes almost automatically) and the same card is on a shelf next to the bed there visible for me.

The guide who answered is a woman. But if I remember correctly it is not Katja (see last post above) this time. I don't know or remember her. I look at the card again and it still is the Nine Of Spades. Then however I seem to lose focus and lucidity. It starts to fluctuate and the black Spades turn also into black Crosses/Clubs, the number unchanged. So it might also have been a Nine Of Clubs. The lack of lucidity also leads me then to defocus from the card validation and engage in a kind of semi-sexual encounter with the guide. But it seems to lead to nowhere and I wake up.

Being annoyed at my loss of lucidity and (again) indulgence in my astral sexual urge I expected a failure for the card validation. I did not look up the card immediately but went to sleep after I wrote the result on a piece of paper in case I should forget which card I saw. This morning, I went to the shelf and turned the stack around: Shock! A Nine Of Spades!

:whatthe:

This is the picture I took this morning. I know this does not prove anything to anyone (except me), it is just a little act of celebration and remembrance of this success for me.
It shows what I noted on paper that night and the turned around stack in its box with the 'astrally remote viewed' card on top: "pik 9" means "Nine of Spades". I also noted down the second "unsure" card which is "kreuz 9" (Nine of Clubs), but the call I made for this attempt was the first and "stable" one, of course:
http://s14.directupload.net/images/130417/e57qic8k.jpg

I did it !!!

:clap::party::D

Comments / Afterthoughts

Preliminaries:
I've made a "deal" with my Higher Self two days ago. Maybe THIS is what made it happen. I asked my HS to help me or send me helpers that would help me get the card validation done. Part of the deal was some things I would do in future and some I would no longer do. I will not reveal it all here for personal reasons, but one thing was that I would not try a validation again but use my projection attempts instead for 'higher' and less selfish purposes, such as retrievals and healings, but also to get to know ("meet") my HS (also past lives etc.).

Thus it was a last 'desperate' act. I really asked my HS "give me this one success and I will let it be for good". I had not tried a lot of card validations since the last time (see link below) when I had a second (!) "near miss" (see link in quote) in September 2012, which then made me speculate on the following:


It's a little intriguing despite the failure. Like the first time, it was just a little off the mark, a near miss. Maybe the larger consciousness system wants to tease me or tell me 'hey, you're close but not (yet) there'?

From entry: 22/Sep/2012 - Card Validation Test 2: Close But No Cigar, Again!
http://www.astraldynamics.com.au/showthread.php?11852-Volgerle-s-Lucidiary&p=114794#post114794


Maybe this was true. Maybe the "deal" was now making me hit the mark with one shot, at last.

After that attempt in September, I only did one or two more card tests last year, but always with fluctuations where I saw many cards, so I could not make a definite call, which is why they didn't count as a failed run in the statistics. Only if I could settle on a definite card I would make a call and thus determine on hit or miss.

Then, I also saw a few months ago (in October) a Jack Of Clubs in hypnagogic state. However it turned out to be the wrong card when I looked it up later. This was all. I did not do anything for months then.

The other thing regarding verifications was the RV experiments in eyeoneblack's thread very recently. This failed miserably for me because I used the AHM approach (astral hearing method) but did never understand what Katja told me as I could somehow not translate her words, they sounded "foreign" to me. There's not entry here for these attempts, I was just too plain disappointed. So I had become quite despondent regarding any verified perception attempts.

This was a last shot now, taking up the card challenge again. Yesterday night I tried this already but I did not get out of body (despite a short vibrational stage). Tonight it worked, however. And how!
:D

Again: I am skeptical enough and I believe I am not deluding myself by counting and disregarding many wrong calls before it. I swear: There were none! This new attempt with help of my HS and/or my helpers worked the first time. It was the first trial and the only and first call I made. And a clear hit! Wow! I know it's not a "RTZ validation" since I was not in my physical bedroom perception-wise, but that does not take away anything from me. Call it clairvoyant or astral remote viewing or whatever: the right card is the right card, true?

Epilogue (if you will):
Later this same night, I had a dream which is also part of the "deal" I suppose. One of my 'promises' was to try to work as a healer in or from NPMR too. Quite a few of my past dreams and projections already were going in this direction before anyway.
This time, I had the idea to try healing children or animals, which I though might be easier for me to do as to human adults due to affectional reasons. Moreover I am a state-certified naturopath (a "HP" = "Heilpraktiker (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Heilpraktiker)") now and will treat only human adults in the physical - that will do ;).

The dream was as this: I was called out into our garden where a child or toddler was lying on the garden pathway, crying with severe problems. First (medical) aid was asked for in this situation. Other people were around but I don't remember if I knew some of them. One of them told me the child had been given tea before and maybe it did not agree with him. I started to speculate on too high histamine levels in the tea. This maybe reflects the topics I deal with in physical life right now. I checked if I remembered correctly in the dream: some teas indeed have high histamine levels and are not good for people with intolerance towards it. Anyway, I guess the dream was a sign from my HS that it's good to try working as an 'astral' as well as 'physical / HP' healer soon.

Summary: It's all good. :thumbsup:

[Sinera]

I'm still so happy. I also added my own validation now to my own little webpage about anecdotal evidence from OBEs/APs. Just as a reminder, here it is again:

http://da-lai.lima-city.de/OBE/index.html

Being able to rely on my HS and/or helpers for 'reliable' info lends for me also more credibilty to other data / info I get from or via my HS, e.g. regarding past lives (Samantha, Sinera, the Indio, etc.), depite the fact that most of it will of course never be verifiable otherwise, by the nature of it.

Of course I had other verifications before, mostly as precognition and telepathy in dreams and projections. Some can be found here in posts, some not since they occurred in dreams. Don't want to devalue them at all!

Still, I feel I've made a huge leap forward now! I just wanted this so badly and also to be done and over with. (Darn! ... my ego has gotten hold of me again ... :wink:)

Off to new shores now...

[Sinera]

22/Apr/2013
"Besh" And The Castle

I use my new High Speed Induction method (HISIM) to phase into my astral bed. I grab a helpers hand and am 'blind' again (as usual). I ask the helper's name as I don't see him/her. It's a female and communication is in the usual "in-ear-voice" mode (my term: GIEV-Method, "Guide's In-Ear-Voice"). This time it again takes a few seconds for each answer. The sound is strange, a more 'mature' female voice but with crackles in the background, like static sounds or a sound made by an old scratched record (you know ... vinyl - for the young people among us :mrgreen:).

Me: "What's your name?"
H: ... "Besh." (or Beige? pronounce -e- as in bet)
Me: "Besh?"
H: ... "Yes, Besh."
Me: "Yet another one. How many helpers do I have altogether after all?"
H: ... "Ten."
Me: "Ten?"
H: ... "Yes. Ten."
(I then think about what to do as I have forgotten my target)
H (responding to my insecurity?): "For infants (?) (taking) the hand is indispensable.":confused:

Not much time to think about this cryptic remark. I somehow seem to be able to see and am in my Lightportal. I see her and she is indeed a middle-aged spectacled lady. I might know her as "the teacher" from some classroom dreams (not sure).

She then makes another proposal by showing me a gesture that points at the window. She takes both of her arms with the palms up, curves them a little (not straight, like holding a huge basket) while she makes the move with them from her belly to her head movement upwards she says: "Or: For Egypt. Like this."

I interpret this to be advice to fly to (ancient?) Egypt to view the Giseh Plateau. I fly out of the window trying her technique holding the arms before me and swinging them upwards. I indeed seem to change to another (higher?) plane and it is a beautiful one, but not Egypt. I see it's a sunny day and we fly above parks, woods pastures. People enjoying themselves, it's peaceful. Afar, I see a medieval castle. It looks beautiful, too. It is like you imagine a medieval or fairy tale castle, with towers, drawbridges, etc. Beautiful vista. We fly towards it.

We are however just passing over it. My guide still is flying next to me and I seem not to know what to do next. I know I failed to go to Egypt. So I ask her for another target that occurs to me then: How to reach my Higher Self. While I ask this we somehow fly though a kind of gallery with veils and some people (looks like a Haarem actually). Then we somehow fly back in the other direction and the guide has changed, it is a middle-aged man now and he says sth in reply to my request which I cannot remember. Then I lose it and wake up.

Comments / Afterthoughts

I asked and received confirmation two times for both "Besh" and "10 helpers". So this is rather 'certain data' for me. I also have more trust regarding interpreting data given to me (visual, audio) by helpful sources since my successful card validation (see post above).

10 helpers! My goodness, Do I have an entire legion around me?! :shock:

The crackles / static together with the time gap might show the difficulties of direct communication with my guides when doing GIEV.

My hypothesis explaining the delay and sounds of the replies:


Guide: recording "linear audio" --> encoding, zipping ---> transfer ---> Me: decoding, unzipping --> "listening" to audio ---> interpreting


The "record crackles" as by-effect could be a metaphor for it beeing a pre-'recording' of a message. I remember also it had a bit of echo in it. Very strange, but a little funny, too.

The meaning? Well, it could indeed all make sense. Maybe "Besh" was actually reminding me of two of my targets? One was to help (heal/retrieve) children, hence the "infants". Should I grab the helpers' hands in order to let me guide to where help is needed? Or maybe she meant that I am the infant (translation error: newbie, beginner) and should keep using the "hands" method, although it is not clear which one: grabbing the helpers hand or looking at my hands for gaining vision or even the one she showed me with regard to "Egypt".

Egypt was indeed yet another set future astral endeavour of mine since I wanted to explore ancient (prehistoric) Egypt by time travel / Akashic record lookup in order to find out who built the pyramids and the Sphinx (and how). Just the day before I watched a talk by Robert Bauval (fascinating!).

The raised arms could mean just a technique of travel or be a reference to Egypt too. Some hieroglyphs have people with raised arms, it's a common motif actually:

Egyptian hieroglyph: Man with arms raised: determinative be elevated; height; enjoy oneself; mourn; bald.
http://commons.wikimedia.org/wiki/Category:Man_with_arms_raised_%28hieroglyph%29

http://bits.wikimedia.org/static-1.22wmf1/extensions/wikihiero/img/hiero_A28.png

Last not least, my research showed from a rare and old scientific resource that there was indeed a "King Besh" in predynastic Egypt (approx. (long?) before 3100 BC: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Prehistoric_Egypt) who was from Southern Egypt but then conquered and ruled the Upper Kingdom. But this might be accidental. Anyway:


"huge vases of alabaster and granite, which were dedicated by a certain king Besh in the year when he conquered the people of Northern Egypt. On the other hand, on a stela now at Palermo a list is given of kings who seem to have reigned over Northern Egypt while the Pharaohs of Nekhen were reigning in the south or how many centuries the two kingdoms existed side by side, sometimes in peaceful intercourse, sometimes in hostile collision, it is impossible to say. The fact that Egypt had once been divided into two kingdoms was never forgotten; down to the last days of the Egyptian monarchs the Pharaoh bore the title of “lord of the two lands,” and on his head was placed the twofold crown of Upper and Lower Egypt. Nekhen was under the protection not only of Horus, the god of the Pharaonic Egyptians, but also of Nekheb, the tutelary goddess of the whole of the southern land. From the Cataract northward her dominion extended, but it was [pg 040] at El-Kab opposite Nekhen, where the road from the Red Sea and the mines of the desert reached the Nile, that her special sanctuary stood. Besh calls himself on his vases “the son of Nekheb”; and even as late as the time of the Sixth Dynasty the eldest son of the king was entitled “the royal son of Nekheb.”Source:The Religions ofAncient Egypt and Babylonia The Gifford Lectures on the Ancient Egyptian and Babylonian Conception of the Divine /Delivered in AberdeenBy Archibald Henry Sayce, D.D., LL.D.Professor of Assyriology, Oxford
http://www.gutenberg.org/files/35856/35856-h/35856-h.html (http://www.gutenberg.org/files/35856/35856-h/35856-h.html)

[Sinera]

26/Apr/2013
Bibi Blocksberg

I use my fast method and this time wait for the vibrations to come and fade. Then I roll out, as ususal from side to supine position, then I'm in the void and grab the helper's hand. My original intent for this projection was to establish a kind of 'permanent connection' to the School Of Homeopathy which I had visited (http://www.astraldynamics.com.au/showthread.php?11852-Volgerle-s-Lucidiary&p=97390#post97390) on a higher plane back in November 2010. I wanted to ask (channel if you will) a remedy and its dilution/potency for a friend of mine suffering from Atopic Dermatitis / Neurodermitis. Kind of like Edgar Cayce did, yeah, I know that's crazy, but the best ideas are sometimes the crazy ones.

But I do not get the answer I want. A girl's voice answers (unkown, not Katja or Besh) and I do not remember all of what is said. I have a kind of pressure feeling at my right thumb and ask what's nagging at it. She says it is a little mouse that is harmless and wants to play. Then I ask again for the remedy but no straight answer is given. She then says "Bibi Blocksberg" and "kleiner Wicht" ("little Wight") before I fade out again and wake up.

Comments / Afterthoughts

This is another "kind of" validation!

I have heard the name Bibi Blocksberg (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bibi_Blocksberg) before but only knew it was a kind of children's audiobook here in Germany. I did not know more, neither did I ever listen to this radio play in my childhood. My first thought now was that it was maybe the character of a mouse due to the first remark about a mouse. A mouse also was once a hint to a job I should take and maybe still is, hence it could make some sense. However, my research shows that it was not a cartoon mouse, but rather a blonde girl who is a witch (a German H. Potter, so to speak).

The "little Wight / Imp / Dwarf" is part of a rhyme spell she uses, but only once (!!) in meanwhile 107 radio plays (http://translate.google.com/translate?langpair=de|en&u=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.hoerspiel-forum.bplaced.net%2Ffilemanager%2Fboard.php%3Fboar did%3D5%26daysprune%3D1000%26sortfield%3Dtopic%26s ortorder%3DASC%26page%3D2) (the Wiki entry of 98 is not up-to-date). This specific tiny detail I clearly could not have known before at all since I did not even know the play or the character before. And as said it is not a repeated spell, but Bibi uses it only once in this episode where she and a friend are trapped in a dark castle (http://translate.google.com/translate?langpair=de|en&u=http%3A%2F%2Fbibi-und-tina.wikia.com%2Fwiki%2FAllein_im_Schloss) without light and it goes like this (nicely it rhymes also in English):

"Ene Mene kleiner Wicht, wir haben jetzt Laternenlicht"
---> engl: "Eenie Meenie little Wight, we now have lantern light!"

The most straightforward interpretation was that she told me to use it to switch on the light in order to gain vision, since I was still blind. Maybe I really should try this spell next time in the astral? :cool::lol:

Otherwise I don't know what this spell could mean. The Wight (Wicht) is originally a benign creature in German and Nordic folklore, so it is, like the kid witch, not really scary for me at all. No negs involved.


"The Wicht, Wichtel or Wichtelchen of Germanic folklore is most commonly translated into English as an imp (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Imp), a small, shy character who often does helpful domestic chores when nobody is looking (as in the Tale of the Cobbler's Shoes)."
- http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Wight

By the way. I found out that the pressure on my thumb was my physical body. I had kind of stuck my thumb between the pillow and my head when lying on the right side (my astral was rolling out on my back only). Since I often have full body awareness during these GIEV (void?) experiences it kind of bleeds through into the experience. Her "mouse" comment was thus a kind of joke or really a hint given.

[Sinera]

Another idea: the Blocksberg episode could be a hint to do child retrievals, given the story of children getting lost in the castle and in need of light and guidance?

[IA56]

Another idea: the Blocksberg episode could be a hint to do child retrievals, given the story of children getting lost in the castle and in need of light and guidance?

This feel´s very true, and I count my self to the cathegory "children" because I am lost in the astral and in the "higher" knowing so to speak :-)...I need truly guidance :-)

[Sinera]

This feel´s very true, and I count my self to the cathegory "children" because I am lost in the astral and in the "higher" knowing so to speak :-)...I need truly guidance :-)
That's a possibilty of course. As I wrote in the previous lucidventure, the guide could have meant me as a beginner when she talked about "infants" to be taken by the hand. But it is only one interpretation. The other could be that she meant another hand-technique and it was me supposed to be doing child retrievals. As always, so many possibilties of interpretation and I am afterwards more confused than before. ;) :? :shrug:

[eyeoneblack]

Hi, Sinera! Would you say Shakespear's Puck would be an 'imp'? Could shed some light? :)

[Sinera]

Hi, Sinera! Would you say Shakespear's Puck would be an 'imp'? Could shed some light? :)Don't know. I've read this work when I had English literature as a subject, but I'm no expert in mythological races. ;)

[Sinera]

10/May/2013
The Grid

There was more to this lucidventure but I cut it short. It's just to mention a known phenomenon I encountered for the first time in the astral and can put it on my list of 'haves' now.

I am in my garden and try to lift off from the ground. As many times before, 'astral gravity' holds me down and I can only fly until up to the houses' roof tops or a little higher. I then decide to fly horizontally over the city. I make it a little higher and am right under what seems to be a cloud cover.

I had the idea to test out if I can now get a little higher and indeed I make it into the clouds. Suddenly the vista changes dramatically. I see lines, pixels, some symbols all swirling around me. It does not last long, maybe about 2 seconds or so, and I dive down again into the astral realm. I did not try it a second time.

Comments / Afterthoughts

Are we all really living in The Matrix? Bodies and minds? Seems this way to me.

It was funny how it seemed like I emerged from under water for felt 2-3 seconds, saw the "real" world behind it all, and then dived down again into the simulation of my astral / lucid dreamscape. The "water" experience was pretty malleable and dream-like, that's why I assume that it was my own creational space within the astral, or a dream simulation set up for me?

In this space, there was - amongst other things - also a test where I helped a child who had a flat tyre on her bike. It was also a kind of healing situation supposedly. But due to the instability and malleability of the environment I assume it was a simulation as a training for the 'real thing'. It seems Besh and "Bibi", two of my helpers, are somehow waiting for me to become fit and help them with child retrievals.

And maybe this kind of "simulation" was not intended to be broken free from unexpectedly, even if only for a short moment. I might kind of 'tricked' the creators of this mini-matrix simulation space set up to test me. It seemed like a glitch in the matrix somehow, a crack to escape from the training space. When I dived back down (like going under water) everything was normal again, like before, which I find amazing.

[Sinera]

29/May/2013
"For Us Everything Is Information"

I get vibrations and two helpers help me out each one grabbing me at one of my wrists left and right (not the first time), I laugh a little at the turmoil created, since it then needs readjustments for me to stand upright in the Lightportal. I do not see my two helpers, but always feel their grip around my wrists during the whole communication experience.

I focus on the acoustics to perform again my CAVE-Method (see below for explanation). So I am standing there, literally cocking my (astral body's) ears and am asking their names. First left. I do not have to wait long and "Michael" is the answer. It is a kind of boy's voice. Then an adult male on the right answers: "Claus", and then adds "Red Claus". (Hope he does not mean Santa?? ;)).

I then tell them that today's target it to get back to the Library (Department of Alternative Medicien) where I was 2.5 years ago. I ask them if and how they can help me or take me there. The answer is given by Claus to the right and it is surprising me:

"We don't know exactly how. For us everything is information."

Don't remember more. I might have faded out (disappointed) or fell into dream-state then.

Comments / Afterthoughts

It's a real conundrum with respect to how this sentence was meant. If it's more general it says that everything is data anyway (information = structured data with a meaning and/or for a purpose). So Mr Tom Campbell is maybe right with his theory that "all is data"?

Maybe it was also referring to the helpers' specialty. Kurt Leland calls helpers with specific functions or a specific field of expertise "facilitators". Maybe they were facilitators to help me download / retrieve INFORMATION. This is what I normally wanted to do indeed during my last lucidventures. This includes the validation but also other "data" ("information") pertaining to e.g. past life, pre-history (Egypt), homeopathic prescriptions, etc.

I wanted to use CAVE (formerly AHA) to retrieve info. I will now try to develop this technique even harder, maybe write sth up on how I do it and how it can be achieved. However, it surely isn't everybody's cup of tea and even might be boring to the average (experienced or unexperienced) APer who mostly desires to have full visual experiences. But I'm different. Really: I LOVE obtaining valid information and I find this technique is maybe a fascinating way to receive reliable (and sometimes, such as in the case of my card experiment, even verifiable) data.

To explain CAVE: It's my fresh acronym for the old AHA (astral hearing approach):

Clairaudient Astral Void Experience = CAVE-A

A variant of this is how I did the card validation. It is when I was in the Void too but then just the card popped up before the full visuals (of the Lightportal) set in. This is CAVE-2 or CAVE-V for me:

Clairvoyant Astral Void Experience = CAVE-V

This time I was NOT in the Void at all but in my Lightportal from the start. Still, the decisive fact is this: I did not at all FOCUS on the visuals despite receiving them, so I intentionally shut them off by putting FOCUS on the audio, giving me the same result as if I was in the void. I believe this is why it worked to "hear" the voices again.

And I repeat myself now: when I "hear" I really mean it. It is a hearing experience, no NVC, no thoughts implanted, no dream or astral telepathic communication. I hear their different voices, that's why it's clair-AUDIENT for me. The voices also feel 'real' to me, meaning: they are 'alien', a different (higher) consciousness and not necessarily my subconscious.

[Sinera]

10/June/2013
"The Displaced Girl" (Retrieval 4?)

My guides let me down this time. No CAVE method worked, I put out my hand in vain into the dark Void. Then in one experience (there were some exits who were confusing) I managed to get out myself and then I was flying towards a church or cathedral but faded out back to bed into darkness again before I could reach it. Then in the state I stretched out my hand again, but again no hand grabbed me. I shouted out my now usual affirmation: "helper!". Then I heard s.o. say sth like "don't wait for one, be a helper" or similar. This was maybe a reminder for retrievals. I agreed and shouted ok, put me there where I can help.

After a few seconds I was before a strange white-red house which then however turned into our own house. I saw an elderly lady outside, hanging out the laundry. First I thought it was my mother but her appearance changed then. I told mer my last name (telling her this was "our" premises). She repeated in shock while her eyes started to flicker strangely. She seemed not to be able to make sense of it. I then led her into our house and into the kitchen. We passed the living room and I saw people sitting there but recognised no one. Somehow I seemed to believe (and this is not the first time) that this was our future home when another family lived here with my family and me gone.

We talk in the kitchen and I do not remember much of the details, just that I tried to find out if this woman really was my retrieval subject. I then saw that she was a beautiful young girl now in her twens. I asked of her how she got here and she somehow took a small and dark-blue pointed object from the kitchen sink. It's plastic and has a needle. I then see it as a blue canula of a syringe or a diabetes lancet. I therefore interpret her to have been a drug addiction victim (or diabetes, in hindsight).

deep blue lancets:
http://www.ime-dc.de/images/stories/IME-DC/IME-DC%20%2831%29.jpghttp://img.answcdn.com/view:feature/getty/treatments/f53c6515/57307469.jpg?&w=300&h=250
deep-blue canula:
http://www.bilder-hochladen.net/files/13ha-1wc.jpg

I might have asked more of her but I don't remember it all. I remember then she told me that she was a 'stranger' here and she does not like to be in an "outlandish family". This give me the idea to look for an exit (always with the 'protocol' for retrievals in the back of my mind). I told her that I know s.o. who can bring her to her home (country?) and together again with her own family (or a family in her country). She agreed with a smile.

Then everything happens fast, also since I noted that I might start to fade out soon. I take her hand and we start to run through the corridor outside again (I might have had pretended that this person is waiting outside). Then just before we reach the front door again I note it might be too late and start the 'process' intuitively. The environment fades out. Everything gets hazy around us and dark, but I still see her and we hold both hands.

I tell her that I have to get one of my hands free now. She says smiling at me (almost complimenting me) that my grip is still very firm just with one hand. I see her a little below me now as if I was levitating. Then I stretch out my freed hand into the Void and try to reach the guide who is to take over. But no one grabs my hand! This seems to fail. However, I note that she is still with me smiling (while me hovering a little above her). Then, just before I fade out of the scene the darkness turns lighter. It's as if you close your eyes in a dark room and then switch on a light and (still with your eyes closed) you move your eyes to the bright light. I've had this before. And so we kind of "dissolve" into the light. I wake up.

Comments / Afterthoughts

I am short of time now and might add some more thoughts later and put in some corrections.

Just in short: I do not believe (again) this was a retrieval but just a simulation for me. Be that as it may, treating it as a retrieval my interpretation of some issues goes like this:

The old lady (who could have died of diabetes) was maybe kind of bringing her memories in order or working through some things. This might have been symbolised by the laundry (cleansing? some 'old dirty laundry' maybe?).

The dissolving into the light might have been the going home for her although I intuitively had it planned another way. But maybe I opened a kind of "portal" or did some phasing. I literally brought her "into the light" again.

Why "my" home if it was a retrieval? I had this before with Ronald. Maybe in the Astral we kind of meet other souls by merging our own environments too? That's why she did not 'recognise' my environment and also reacted stongly to my "outlandish" family name. Finally she wanted to go to her home country and not be 'abroad' anymore which might reflect here need to find home.

As said, I see it all metaphorically and not to be 'real'. Still, a nice experience worth sharing. The most imporant point for me is to see the value in putting out good and helping intentions in the Astral and it will bring back some good. I am happy about this experience despite its questionable 'realness'. As an exercise (designed by my helpers, tutors?) it was real enough anyway, like similar ones before.

[Sinera]

"Claus", and then adds "Red Claus". (Hope he does not mean Santa?? ;)).
No, I now know he did NOT refer to Santa Claus. After more than 3 weeks past, the penny has dropped! I know now what it could mean.

Klaus is a German first name, you should know. I was mulling over this "name" given to me and why this helper added a "red" then (and he almost seemed to say it in a joking tone already). It was a riddle of sorts and now I solved it by analogy.

Long ago, I had this funny (cartoon-like) guide encounter before with the BLUE Monk (here (http://www.astraldynamics.com.au/showthread.php?11852-Volgerle-s-Lucidiary&p=101588#post101588)). Blue Monk has since become for me a set expression, of course. "Klaus" might have alluded to this by way of analogy - giving himself the "red" title now. This I already suspected, but I had a hunch that there could be even more to this.

Today while having lunch, I was musing again over what all the colour titles for my guides meant. I jumbled them up in my mind saying: "BLUE Monk, RED Monk, RED Klaus, BLUE Klaus ... wait a moment! Blauer (=blue) Klaus? Rings a bell!"

Blauer Klaus = a cartoon figure (http://www.google.de/search?hl=de&q=Blauer+Klaus&um=1&ie=UTF-8&tbm=isch&source=og&sa=N&tab=wi&ei=M6bAUbGbO_CK4gTr-4CoCg&biw=988&bih=658&sei=NqbAUduSFumn4AT0mIGwAg) of a famous 70/80ies game show in my country!

http://www.tv-nostalgie.de/WumundWendelin/images/6b.jpg

And yes, you see it clearly: It's an ET with a Flying Saucer. They had a first version with green skin btw, then later they changed him, so he's a chameleon, so to speak. I have a red version now it seems (edited it and took it as my new ava now).

Is this another message regarding a possible ET origin (for me and my helpers)? Perhaps. Or maybe my guides have a bizarre sense of humour after all. Hasn't been the first time, I reckon.

[Sinera]

Just a short update: CAVE method does not work anymore reliably. I had "talks" with some people in the dark, some gave me names, some gave me information that seemed useless, some even said they don't know of need to "look up" the info I was seeking. Seems my "helpers" are none or left me alone.
Really had enough of it now. I will take a break now since most of my other "normal" projections weren't any better, confusing and resultless to say the least. I've had enough now of this crap. I might cease, maybe for good, or at least for a certain time.

[susan]

Sinera. CEASE???
Am slowly working my way through your journal and it's so inspiring I want to remind you what you posted on 6th August.
"BRING IT ON ". path of warrier for 2-3 years.!!!
Go and suck your thumb for a couple of weeks then get back out there.
Come to think of it,should your 'helpers' come to get you what will you say.
Not coming..go away.. .

[CFTraveler]

Take some time off..... and then come back. But really take that vacation.

[susan]

Just want to add, had to finish last post early as hubby came back from shopping ( so quickly posted.).
I take on board that I am learning , so when I post what I experience I am open to experienced person's interpretation whether on this board or from Authors.
There comes a time after so much that I feel I can take a decision that may not go with what may seem the common interpretation .
I am still open to what I experienced in my recent journal, but looked for an acceptable explanation as authors have understood to be their interpretation.
I am 50/50
So the more I read your journal the more I am seeing a resemblance.
I agree with the eyes of what you thought to be Aliens as not being so prominent as depicted in photographs.
In fact I perceived the jaw line to be a little wider than ours.
Dare I tell you about an experience I haven't dared post where they took the shape of their body in what looked like dark shiny suites as if defending an astral plane.
I'll stop there but can you see why you need to just take a break as CF Traveller suggests ,then get back out there.

[Tutor]

Really had enough of it now. I will take a break now since most of my other "normal" projections weren't any better, confusing and resultless to say the least. I've had enough now of this crap. I might cease, maybe for good, or at least for a certain time.

ditto with CFT. burnout! just means time for proper digestion. when you've outrun your helpers/teachers/guides then you've outrun the pupil that was being taught. when a "thing" by practice becomes 2nd nature then it no longer is a "thing" of practice, and to continue as if practicing conflicts with where it now rests. this happens before one might themself come to rest. that thou art

shifting the gears of transmission is up to the driver. but instead of gearing up, this calls for gearing down, stopping, getting out and away from the drive/practice, and walking until you realize that you are the vehicle that you are walking away from. sabbatical

resting in that which rests as you when you will. other wise the next step a-walkin does not arrise, or rather, goes as unseen opportunity right in front of you, even as you've steppedly walked without notice. this because it cannot be behind you rested.

any process/pratice is not about perfection, or such an individualist ideal of what perfection has to look like to suit the individual demands. demands will not allow rest when rest is called for. a practice takes on it's own rythym for that which is ever rythymless/centered and rested. if this is not so, then the practitioner is off-center, and, therefore, when rest is called for is not aware of it, just keeps on plying the practice toward the "ideal" of perfection.

there has to be spaces for love to grow. why is this about love? to love thyself, to be centered, rythymless, to see the rythyms round about, calling as opportunity to be seen by the rested eye. an old saying that comes with practice, which points to ideals of perfection, "that's not too hateful to accept". point just so, one is thrown within as examiner of self-acceptance, which cannot be unless one is centered/rythymless.

if music's rythym is round about me, it serves my self to realize that i am within and between my two ears...centered. from this placement alone may i rest, safely and securely. Ahyah (Asher) Ahyah

Asher, meaning, That, also meaning Joy; Joy being the realization of That, as thou and i oned as that being you as yours. that thou art well met with I am that...

thus is the art and the artist, or the creation and the creator. there is no art/creation without the artist/creator. yet, to be as that is to have practiced/grown a craft that crafted may be. simply put, give thyself permission to accept it as it is, "that aint too hateful to live with".

There is the Life, and there is THAT which Lives the Life. what does Spirit not already possess as potentiality potently resting [every"thing"] as the given potential potently Being as You presently given...are? no"thing"

a gardner best works with the daily nature given at hand, and the fruits of labor when arriving...just are. Zen. it cannot be but the best, for it has arrived from the best given forward, and not backward. a gardner doesnt give up when the fruit comes in, it is to be gathered in, then is rest. these seasons internal and personally perceptive, even as the fruit is to be impersonally received. however, of these fruits are the seeds/opportunities of the morrow. humans aint hybrids genetically disabled of seed bearing in due season.

and dont forget the bees and other pollenators, that have cross-affected the fruited possibilities. as R.B. has intimated, "follow the bees"...that have gone inside, perhaps to rest. i see he has a chair up there now. to sit, to rest, to chew the cud, to cogitate, to ponder, to contemplate, to listen to the natural given silence of your centered self being, to be...etc. a choice within chosen actions is choosing inaction, where assertiveness is restfully away from rythym's passive-aggressive musicality potentially jamming twixt one's ears. like a logger's log jam sometimes, yet the e-motional river still runs upunder such engorged nonsense/ideas. let your helpers worry about it, seeing as they've run out of "ideas" too. the log jam makes for a nice bridge to at first walk over and across. such is the handiness of log jams.

let the somewhere that love is...be within you for you. It all comes down to you to from within receive, other wise you cannot give from within what is not yours to give out.

I Don't Ever Give Up: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ktpTyT1Wj_I

peace to ya,

Tim

[Sinera]

Back again, but never been really away, actually.

I think I was misunderstood. I just wanted to take a break (or cease...) from AP - not from this forum necessarily. Since I was disappointed with my helpers I had deleted the avatar because it was related to one. The new pic now (also the other on my profile) come up when you pic-search for Sinera, so I found it nice and fitting. Sinera also looks like an angel a little, although from her looks alone of course I cannot tell if she was (is?) one.
:angelic::wink:

I'm still on a dry period AP-wise, but it's okay, that's life, I was never a good APer in the first place and might never become one. And I can always play with dream and dream programming in the meantime, of course.

[Sinera]

14/Aug/2013
Kisses

In order to break the dry spell I took sth (after a long time of abstinence) out of my 'special purpose supplements' stock of Galantamine + Choline + Lecithin/VitB last night after 2 hours of sleep.

After falling asleep again it normally works reliably after only a few minutes to get me into "the state", so it was this time again. What happens with Galantamine-induced trance is hard to put in words, I'll try:

When it 'sets in' you feel a wave of numbness that almost "brutally" sweeps over you body, there's no vibrations, just a kind of feeling like you're suddenly wrapped numb in cotton wool. The onset can also come with a kind of cracking sound, accompanied also by a rush of energy. Then you know you've reached the state where you can after seconds easily just get up from your bed out-of-body or also - in my special case - grab a hand and communicate. I've become fairly intrepid in the course of my practice since 2009/10, but I would never recommend this to any total newbie, it can be very disturbing. So whoever is a beginner and reads this: DON'T DO THIS AT HOME! Try some of the many traditional methods of induction please.

So, then I was half-blind or in a darkened room, probably in bed of even my 'real' room this time, and stretched out my hand calling out for my Higher Self, as planned. I wanted to talk to Sinera, after having seen (been shown) her so many times I wanted to hear her voice and also get the basic data from her (year/place/name of/at birth).

It seems the first thing kinda worked. The second not (again).

I felt two hands I held - assuming it's my Higher Self - but only heard a faint voice. I told the voice to speak up because I did not hear her good enough. It was a female voice, maybe teenage or twen girl, sometimes with giggles in-between, but nice and also a little reticent or shy. I do not remember much of the 'conversation'. I might have asked specifically for the year of birth. When I heard her say a year I did not believe it. Simply for the fact that it was my own year of birth, but I might also have "misheard" it.

Frustrated again, I let go after a while as I did not receive any more understandable answers as her voice became even more faint through the "interference noise". Then it happened. I might have asked my HS again what all this was about? Then I felt kisses over my forehead, lots of them, repeatedly. As always in this state when in bed, it was 'physical', like the voices, the touches, it is always felt like physical.

During the kisses, I was still holding the 'invisible' hands on each of my own hand left and right. Then when the kisses stopped and I saw the hands that then let loose of my own hands and I saw them disappearing into the walls next to my bed. This sight couldn't have been better done in any ghost movie. :shock:

Since Galantamine trance is like a roller coaster ride, it was far from over and I had several exits after that, always starting out from my bed again, then mostly by flying through the window and then trying something. But as so often, it was useless stuff not worth being reported here.

What's really memorable for me is of course this:

http://folien-aufkleber.org/motive/aufkleber-kissed-smiley-lucky-guy-kuss-auf-stirn-kiss-on-forehead-13929658


Comments / Afterthoughts

A message of love? Probably.

Crazy stuff. :redface:

[Korpo]

Kisses to the forehead usually represent platonic love and strong affection. Repeated kisses then would be an emphasis. :)

[Sinera]

16/Sep/2013
Gillighan

Prelude:
This is another 'validation of sorts' for me personally. And it proves to me the fact (more and more) that such a thing as fairies clearly and without doubt exists. It's Magick! :D

It also proves that the larger consciousness system "knows" that I do thorough (internet) research afterwards and gives me clues to find sth interesting which then is a 'message' of sorts. If you've read parts of my journal here you will know this is by far not the first time.

A seemingly unspectacular projection turns out to have been sth amazing in hindsight when I conclude my research, if only by entering the name or term into the google search field and see what comes up first. This is definitely a way of communication.

Lucidventure:

I get lucid and call out for "Roter Klaus (http://www.astraldynamics.com.au/showthread.php?11852-Sinera-s-Lucidiary&p=121669#post121669)" but it's not the helper I meet. It's a small little lady, her height maybe about 1 meter or less. She's one of the 'little people' I meet occasionally in dreams. I also ask for her name and she says "Gillighan". We are in my "Lightportal" and she leads me to a table where there are things placed on top of it to choose from or at least to be shown. Unfortunately I am too fixed (as always) on my pre-determined goal and do not concentrate on what's on the table but ask her directly where "Roter Klaus" is or if she knows him and knows what he's doing. She tells me with a smile that he is playing drums right now. Then I fade out of the scene and wake up.

Comments / Afterthoughts

I noted down "Gillighan" on a piece of paper and wrote it exactly like this. The name was unkown to me. English is not my mother tongue but I found this spelling to be natural (also compared to the spelling of "Gallagher" as it's known to me). I now found out there is also a version without an -h- after the g (Gilligan) but this is what comes up as first entry (https://www.google.de/search?hl=de&q=Gillighan) when I use "my" naturally chosen spelling:

http://www.gillighansworld.ie/


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=33NaV87PFnc


Located at Knocknashee, one of Irelands' ancient sacred hills, and traditionally known as "the Hill of The Fairies" you escape into a land of artistry and imagination. It is a magical place adults adore and children love. Miniature villages and delightful faerie habitats nestle in beautiful water and botannical gardens, with a stone tunnel entrance, dolmen and amphitheatre. Enchanted glade, secluded picnic areas, pet haven, water cave and spectacular panoramic views from the Celtic Faerie Fort. Gillighan's World is truly "the Field of Dreams".

:wacky1::party::P

It's a fairy. No doubt.

And I swear I did not know about this "mini"ature (mini people!) fairy park before. How could I? I'm not from Ireland, never been there and I do not believe it is a 'famous' place outside of the English speaking world. Even if I knew it subconsciously by cryptoamnesia, it would not take away anything from this amazing way of after-the-event-communication.

Another issue is the meaning of the "drumming" activity of Klaus (Claus). It might refer to my Higher Self as in the past in dreams it was symbolised to me as a former band of mine with "ME" being the drummer in a harmonious set of people, metaphorically. Is Red Claus just a part of my Higher Self?

Other meanings of him being busy with drumming might be that he has his own projects to pursue with eager- maybe as he is part of (= the drummer) of another Higher Self?

Dreammoods (http://dreammoods.com/cgibin/dreamdictionarysearch.pl?method=exact&header=dreamsymbol&search=drums)says:
"To dream that you are playing the drums indicate that you progress through life by your own terms. You are strong willed and stick by the decisions you make. The dream may also be a metaphor to indicate you are "drumming up" business. You need to be more aggressive with your new ideas."

Should it still refer to me instead of Klaus, it might indicate that I need to pursue my life goal with even more eager now and 'drum up' business for my envisaged naturopath practice. I will indeed tomorrow inspect a room which is for rent in a joint practice located within a naturopath school. I still plan to start my practice at January first although the situation looks rather bleak due to my shortage of money (to be honest: I am completely flat broke at the moment). However, due to manifestation techniques I try to touch the right 'resonance fields' and that's why I do the viewing anyway, even if it all then should turn out unaffordable (or Jan 1st too early) in the end. Maybe that is what was meant by it after all. Again, as always, just guessing, of course.

[Sinera]

Addendum: It occurred to me that I might have invoked them yesterday, provided that they are also nature spirits (which they are commonly said to be).

I was out for jogging in the forest yesterday. I normally do not pause, but as I did this already before with very interesting sensations you get I did it again. So I paused by the wayside of the forest path and touched a giant tree with my left hand, trying to 'feel' my way into it and unite. I did some affirmations and asked for help (with my practice and moneyfestation) by nature.

Well, as a NATURopath it is maybe a justified thing to do? ;)

When I do this normally I feel a vibration from the tree and also feel grounded ("rooted"?) somehow. I thank the tree and nature for their help and after a few seconds move on running.

So maybe this is what called a nature spirit?


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Rqbk-NEZc_A

[Sinera]

Doesn't work opening it in every browser. I remember D. Cannon's book on this and the past life regression transcript on "incarnations" as fairies:

http://books.google.de/books?id=qTYKqCNSz-AC&pg=PA91&dq=%22Some+people+come+back+as+fairies+and+leprech auns%22+Cannon&hl=de&sa=X&ei=Svs2Uu_oNcKn4ATZwIGgDQ&ved=0CDQQ6AEwAA#v=onepage&q=%22Some%20people%20come%20back%20as%20fairies%20 and%20leprechauns%22%20Cannon&f=false

[Sinera]

27/Sep/2013
Volume Adjustment (La-La-La)

This is another funny one. And it seems I'm not the only one who has fun. I wanted to try out CAVE (http://www.astraldynamics.com.au/showthread.php?11852-Sinera-s-Lucidiary&p=121293#post121293) (Clairaudient Astral Void Experience) again, including my helpers Claus & Michael (http://www.astraldynamics.com.au/showthread.php?11852-Sinera-s-Lucidiary&p=121293#post121293), so I called out for them in my mind all day long. CAVE not always works but sometimes yields at least 'interesting' results or experiences. This is what happened:

Getting the joy-vibes, I roll on my back with my energy body as usual and stretch out my hand and it is grabbed as expected. I have mind-sight or no sight as usual only, being in "the void". I call out for Claus. Someone speaks and it might have been Claus' voice, but much too low-voiced and "far-off" for me. I tell him to speak up as I cannot hear/understand a thing.

Then I hear him say or even sing "la-la-la-la..." all the time, most certainly for me to check and give feedback if/when the volume gets louder. It indeed does a little. I also feel s.o. then touching my head at several points while still doing the lalala-thing. I am sure it was on the middle of my forehead (= 6th chakra, 3rd eye), I've forgotten about the other points though, maybe top of the head or throat, or back.

When I understand the lalala better I ask one of the many questions I prepared (past life, medical prescriptions, past Earth civilisations, Mars, any possible (other) home planet system etc.). I only get to ask about Sinera's last name. I hear him or maybe another male voice and get some syllables, but they do not make sense to me or if it's a name is unknown to me. He repeats it and I somehow get the impression that his voice is almost laughing or cracking up a little on a joke.

I don't remember more. I might have faded out again before I got any sensible information.

Comments / Afterthoughts

Well, I am back in the "CAVE"-game. We're working it out, it seems, making progress step by step maybe. And meanwhile we're having a laugh, me and the helper 'team' on the 'other side'. What could be better?

:cool::mrgreen:

[Tutor]

maybe Sin-Era ought become Shin-Era, not a name, but a place in time, like NOW.

for example...etymology of era: http://en.wiktionary.org/wiki/era

scrolling down on that webpage you might notice "see ne". go further and check out "si". figure "it" out for the feel of what the whole word means based upon the sum of "it's" parts. then the word becomes real, as you so yearn for "it"...to be.

"it's" a riddle within a suggestive "name" for you to personally solve. like you've come to a check point, a guarded station, given a call sign that awaits the counter sign. then you may freely pass.

reflectively, i would allow this word/name it's mirroredness as...ha're-nis, as in "the're now" or "there now".

to say, that i'd let "the guard/it" know, "there...there now, I am coming through". to be bold, as in saying, "you have no right to hold Me, as a free human being, from passing through". but nicely, with manners, assertively, ya see? like, "Get thee behind Me!"...supportively. supposrtively, because "it" would/could no longer be "shining you on".

ya see, this is the pun upon the REAL [You being the only REAL within this "scenerio"], that the real would as a self-thoughted "it" allow an actualizing "it" which is not real to hold them~self back as if one being REAL is an "it". to be bold, to be YOU.

own your NOW won, kinda sorta as only you might...if YOU being bold...will...

This why the Lord Buddha said to His pupils, "If YOU see me on the road, slay me".

one joke deserves another, and jokes often "slay me" with laughter. the laughing Buddha, because He sees to read the rue~ach road.

foundationally, all of Creation is lifted up...out...and upon The Word. thus requiring language within which to manuever/navigate...through. Paul tells us to mind the laws of that land which within we are, or "when in rome, be as the romans".

He is alerting us to the properties of language, to comparatively relate what is heard/seen to what within one's self is understood. surely within rome, the romans are best at navigating rome's law/s. humans being are always and in all ways...as humans do. thus, "its" all relative.

Going To California: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7IZ-jATBq9A

i hesitate to get too long in the tooth, because I realize you don't like that in your thread here. so i will take this reply over to my bone's thread.

[Sinera]

Sept-Oct-Nov: Space Trips So Far

As I've read for months now about so many "outer space trips" here and on the Astral Pulse too, I wanted to do this to and have it ticked off on my list of targets achieved. My main strategy was/is actually simple and supposedly "easy": Just watch "Gaia" from above a little while, and then maybe the Moon (which I so often see in dreams) or then re-visit the Human Contact Zone (with Gálaca) which I believe to be a meeting point of ETs and human projectors "above or around" Earth.

So tonight was the third short trip. Time for a first interim résumé, but the quest will continue. However, I still am not sure what it all was, as it is never too clear to me if I'm in "physical" outer space or some astral equivalent or whatever. It gets clear from the reports below why this is so. This is from my journal with a few edits or deletions:

09/Sep/2013
Outer Space

I get lucid calling out for Red Claus and Michael. I have a hand then but no one answers. We are in the Lightportal. First we stay there. Then I am drawn with a hand holding mine up through the ceiling. We are then what seems to be outer space. I see galaxies and stars swirling around me.
Later it all turns more into a dreamscape again. In one dream I am examined at my abdomen (I have a „right side“ prob there) by a Doctor who resembled one I really had a few years ago.

Comment

Maybe the later memory is a dream camouflage of a physical/medical examination (for my benefit I suppose)?

27/Oct/2013
Space Flight Attempts

I get out in darkness with a helper's hand grabbed, then after a few seconds of being drawn upward through the void I try to gain vision. First I see stars indeed and we seem to be in outer space. But then I somehow seem to "take a turn downward" and we quickly land in our house again, where my family seems to be gathering around a table. It seems even my helper is surprised saying (female voice): "Oh, yes, this sometimes happens". During that meeting, my Mom complains telling me sth about "tribulations" (and some matters to be solved?).
In later dreams or lucid attempts to "rise" I was in our garden and demanding a rope or a ladder from the sky to climb it up. After a while one indeed got down but it got itself entangled in one of our large trees. Sh*t happens. :|:wink:
In another lucid dream a guide with black skin draws me out and I again try to fly up and he seems to encourage me to try it. At one point I see his face becoming a Moon in the sky but I do not manage to get up again and finally give up frustrated.

Comment

I believe I was "held down" by "emotional gravity". You cannot "rise up" and occupy yourself with nicer matters if problems are weighing you down. Maybe this was the case here. Even my helper was surprised as "she" wanted to help me to get into "space". Actually we did, but I fell back again due to my subconscious interfering due to trouble issues.

09/Nov/2013
Gaia After All (?)

I get lucid with some vibrations and call out for Gálaca to give me a hand. It is dark and at first there's no hand but I somehow feel lifted or lifting myself. I seem in the void and moving, Then there's maybe also an invisible hand. I then see from afar three white circles, like little plates and I move towards them. As if they were a portal to „outer“ (?) space I am again in the galaxies area and see galaxies around me.
Then I ask again to see Earth from above and we steer towards one of the stars which I assume was „the“ (our solar system) sun. Then I see a planet but it has different colours somehow, a bit darker, more brownish than the expected blue-white make-up of Earth. But it looks a little like Earth with its continents although I do not remember too well.

Comment

Was it outer space? Was it Gaia? I don't know. I'll keep trying.

[Sinera]

29/Dec/2013
Electrokinesis

Preliminaries:

I had quite a few exits recently, but could not bother to write them down here (lazy) and also keep a lot of it to myself anyway. But every now and then when sth "new" and extraordinary happens I will post it here like this time, when I had a 'result' far different from what I initially hoped for - but still interesting and "new" for me.

I put up a previously otherwise unused Computer monitor with TV-tuner on a table at the foot of my bed, a metre away. The reason was to re-inforce symbolically (or even kind of magically) my strong intent to create a kind of 'psychic screen'. It was supposed to 'materialise' on etheric/astral level and to help me communicating visually (and maybe audibly) with my Higher Self, the Akashic Records or the Larger Cosmic Consciousness in general. I wanted to try this as a kind of replacement for my mostly failed CAVE-method which I also used for data/information gathering.

So my plan is when I get lucid to call out for the screen to view the computer or video display (probably with audio) and find answers on it or view past lifes, etc. My card validation back then in April (see above) worked similarly, just without a screen display.

Although it was not planned at the outset, I put it also on electric current. So at a whim I plugged the monitor in and let it switched on. Since there's a cable TV tuner on that large monitor without it being attached to a source I had a picture which was mostly dark with a little message telling me „no signal“. I also had paper with questions 'of the day' and taped it onto the screen. Then I also put a little orgonite pyramid on the foot of the screen on the table (there's another one at the head side of my bed).

Lucidventure:

I get lucid at some point from sleep and 'find myself' in a quasi 'False Awakening' but strangely lying in my bed turned around with my head at the foot end. The bed is also a bit moved or elongated towards the direction of the foot end itself. Consequently, my head corresponded indeed to the point in (physical) space where the monitor and table were standing.

I hear a female voice from afar (more behind me where the door to my room is) and it calls my name. I somehow startle up by this (but no fear) a bit and raise my astral head getting up.

An instant later I really wake up in the „right“ position again because in the physical I hear a loud and clear electric blurp (a deep bleep, or crack, but sounding like an electronic wire overload?) coming from the monitor. The screen also might have flickered a bit (but this is not sure).

Comments:

It seems my 'astral head' was exactly on the position where the screen was, at least when I got up with my upper body alerted by the voice calling my name. So I was „in“ it? The literal „ghost in the machine“? I had wanted it to be used as an interface with/for my Higher Self, so it would even make sense that it 'became me' on an astral level?

Of course, we also hear sounds in the astral but I was sure I woke up by the physical sound that was coming to me. And most certainly it came from no other object than from the monitor while it was on with electric current flowing through it. Thus it could be „used“ because as said, it was switched on during the entire night with dark screen. I tested all the knobs and buttons but you cannot produce such a 'burp' or 'bleep' with any deliberate action. It does not have an automatic stand-by it seems, so it had nothing to do with booting up alive again (and if so for what reason since I could not touch it?).

The burp / darker bleep / crack sound was definitely unnatural. It also is not produced by this monitor otherwise, how could it? And moreover not exactly in the moment I have this experience and wake up from it.

Even more intriguing: There are small (but feeble) loudspeakers built into this TV-Tuner-monitor and thus they also were on. Could it have been that I „heard“ the voice even in the physical too, coming through the speakers? Wow. However, I still doubt it, but it is a possibility.

So next to Electrokinesis (http://psi.wikia.com/wiki/Electrokinesis) I could maybe even add EVP (http://www.victorzammit.com/book/4thedition/chapter04.html) as another phenomenon to my list of paranormal events experienced and 'done' now.
:cool:

[eyeoneblack]

You prob didn't see it, but somewhere on some thread I posited a computer programed to randomly draw thin lines on the screen in arbitrary colors. I didn't have a name for it, but electrokinesis is the idea. I wondered if a pattern might evolve over time that would describe a figure or idea from my dreaming. The brain really lights up when we're dreaming and perhaps the increased electrical activity would influence the 'randomness' of the program and produce, albeit abstractly, an image. Well, that's pretty far-out.

I don't program any longer (the code I used is obsolete now) so it was nothing but conjecture. Besides, true randomness is very hard to program.

Now, to your deal. I expect the blurp you heard was hypnopompic. It was just in that phase that I clearly heard the voice of a gf telling me not to worry one morning on waking up.

Wishing you success.

[Sinera]

02/Jan/2014
Spiderman

Lucidventure

I get lucid in a shopping street in a big city. I then enter a kind of backyard area of highrises. I decide on a whim to shape-shift into Spiderman

I shoot from my wrists (as "Spidey" does) a spider's web and then jump up the walls with it as a rope, jump between walls of highrises and skyscrapers and in backyards, make somersaults in the air, take a short rest by sticking myself at the walls without problems, jump from roof to roof, and at one point I even was hanging down from a ceiling in an enclosed area (hangar, tower, garage or whatever), like this:

http://starbaseatlanta.com/catalog/images/spidermanusidedownpatch0011%5B1%5D.jpg

At that point however I had already switched from the usual 'ego-shooter-mode' to the outside to watch myself in that costume hanging there by the spiderweb/rope. It was a lot of fun.

Comments

Of course, I also had seen some of these Hollywood flics of the past years, but the roots go deeper. As a child already, I was devouring Marvel comics. In contrast I never liked DC's Superman/Batman comics too much. Marvel was more 'natural' for me, also the personal stories and the abilities were more plausible for me, if one can say so about superhero comics. And out of all of them Spiderman was indeed the very "superhero" of my childhood days when this was by far my favourite comic book to read.

This whole experience was fun, and meant to be nothing else, sometimes we get carried away by the possibilities in the astral. But maybe it is still useful. It was a kind of 'astral training zone' that serves to get more adept at movements and tactical maneuvres of all kinds, and in producing or using tools, (regarding the shot out web-rope).

Next time' I'll choose DC's Superman nevertheless, so that I can fly again through a city, lift skyscrapers and even fly to the moon then.
;)

[Sinera]

17/Jan/2014
The Midnight Market & A 'Rhinohound-hybrid'

Preliminaries

Many recent lucadventures of the past months were by exit into my usual "Lightportal" (childhood bedroom on the 2nd floor of my parent's house) from where I then flew out of the window on a sunny day. Nice, but not eventful. Still it is good practice to get a routine starting point. This one was a starting point bit farther out in the same city at night but not happening the first time either.

Lucidventure

Using „out-of-body now!“ I re-phase into a scene where I was before in dream-state already: the market place and pedestrian area of my home town. It is at night. I repeat the affirmation even when I am already walking this street in the direction of the central market place fountain, although I hear it as a woman's voice from out of the sky (http://www.bilder-hochladen.net/files/jgtq-2-c81e.gif).

There's no crowd yet. My first encounter is an attractive woman walking a strange animal on a leash. It looks like a mix of a greyhound/dog and a unicorn or rhino and is almost as tall as the woman (she's maybe 1,60 metres, not a dwarf-being though). They stop and turn around so I look at it more exactly. I remember either the horn is on the snout or unicorn-like on the top of the head, but I tend to the dog's nose. So it is a kind of "rhino-greyhound". Very slim and tall, but with longer grey hair and not as "naked" as most greyhounds look. I searched a while and found this deerhound painting to be at least near to what I saw - just imagine a horn on the long nose and yet overall longer hair head/snout altogether:

http://chestofbooks.com/animals/dogs/British-Dogs-Work/images/The-Deerhound.jpg

I pause a while, wonder at the animal and comment to the lady how beautiful but also shy it is. It seems not to want to be touched, although in the end it approaches me again with more confidence and friendly "human" look, but I move on to the centre of the market place.

Suddenly there is a full crowd and it is a real market activity going on, still it's nighttime and everything has a nice and cozy X-mas market feeling. I seem to recognise some familiar faces (although don't remember who now) but only greet them, walking on through the path with stands to the left and right. Here's an impression:

http://farm6.staticflickr.com/5474/11195259693_3a8e6ec8bd.jpg

My next stop is the market place fountain and I decide to test my kinetic senses by putting my hands under the sprinkling, gushing water or in the gathering pool below. I feel the water indeed 'like physical' which is amazing. Then it gets even better.

The next 'other sense' test is even more astounding. I walk on and seem to remember another point on the 'lesson plan' which maybe is connected to what a projector wrote to me in another forum very recently (http://www.astralpulse.com/forums/welcome_to_spiritual_evolution/what_will_you_miss_about_earth_life-t43874.0.html;msg341943#msg341943). I see (or manifest?) a stand with chocolate cookies and mini cakes. I take in passing a mini-cake with chocolate icing from that counter.
The seller whom I only see from the corner of my eye starts telling me what's all in it saying „It is made with...“. However, I am still walking all the time and don't get the rest of it. I just took it with me in passing and did not stop to pay (not because I was getting immoral and a thief but because I was 100% lucid and knew it was the astral and I wasn't expecting to pay anything with money here).

I taste it in my mouth and it really is okay but not overly delicious. It has also a kind of artificial flavour to me in part. I can distinguish the chocolate and the rest. It tastes „real“ enough indeed, like in the physical. There is even a nut or almond in the middle which I taste of which maybe the seller told about. A truely sensory flavourful astral experience.

I then walk on but cannot hold myself there anylonger and fade back into bed and wake up, but this time with PREES (post reentry electricity sensations) again which I have not felt with re-entry for a very long time.

Comments

What an interesting experience of training of my other 'astral senses', first the water feeling and the eating/tasting test. Maybe the taste will get better next time with more practice? Perhaps I faded out of the lucidventure because i had learnt what I had to learn in this astral simulation. Applying other senses rather than just visual and telepathic („hearing“) is a good training exercise for the Astral Body. Therefore I also noticed my energy body with PREES when getting back (see my early experiences, the first pages on this Journal with entries on it).

About the "rhino-greyhound": It was the first almost-mythical hybrid creature I saw in a projection, let alone in dreamstate either. Although „my“ animals can often take on human face expressions like it was this time too.

Dreammoods (http://www.dreammoods.com/) about rhinos, greyhounds and unicorns:

To see a rhinoceros in your dream suggests that you need to forge ahead toward your goals. Do not take "no" for an answer or let any obstacles sidetrack you from your destination. You need to be more aggressive.
To see a unicorn in your dream symbolizes high ideals, hope and insight in a current situation. It also symbolizes power, gentleness, and purity.
To see a greyhound in your dream represents your quiet, calm and reserved side. Greyhounds are also often synonymous with grace, speed and agility. Perhaps you need to adopt some of these qualities into some waking situation.

Interpretation attempt: The calm and reserved side of the unicorn/greyhound-creature seems to confirm my own comment during the experience of how shy this animal was. The rhino-type however seems rather to be the opposite: outward and aggessive. Referring to me, maybe it tells me I need the best of both worlds to reach my (spiritual and physical) goals? Be gentle, polite and considerate but also press forward in a more determined manner at the same time.
On a sidenote: I was not keen on 'astral sex' during this experience or with that beautiful woman who owned this creature. That's why I do not understand the horn as an allegory for being „horny“ in the astral.
:mrgreen:

[Sinera]

26/Jan/2014
The Woman-Beggar

Preliminaries

I tried screen / tv monitor manifestation again but it was not there in the Lightportal. After my 4th exit I did sth else which is recorded here.

Lucidventure

At my last exit I decide to be a helper and am again in the Lightportal, but the vision is bad. I use the hands technique and the affirmation "Clarity Now!" and slowly the picture gets better and then even very good. I notice I phased into a big city's pedestrian/shopping zone (which I do fairly often!) that is somehow familiar and somehow not. I ask my guidance to meet s.o. who needs help (any help, no specifics such as retrievals or healing). It does not take long.

I meet an old lady who asks me for 6 cent for the bus. She needs to get to Copenhagen from Berlin (so this is Berlin?). I put out my wallet but I see it is the old and shabby one, and it is empty. I close it again, concentrate on my crown chakra while I ask God for help. I open it then again and there's a few cents in there indeed. When she sees it the lady grabs it herself out of the wallet and I let her do it. She then walks off to another old lady and gives it to her which makes me wonder. I also wonder that both wear rather the same colourful funny coat. I jokingly comment sth like 'ok, so at least it stays in the family then' and walk on looking for another person to be of assistance to. I then meet a guy but before I can speak to him I fade out and wake up.

Comments

Maybe this was „basic“ helper training although my original target (tv/computer screen communication) was missed.

Copenhagen does not make sense to me, except for the Copenhagen interpretation of Quantum Physics which I read about a few times (so it's about probable realities?). Don't have a clue about why it was 6 cents exactly, either.

Lessons learnt:

1. asking God (while concentrating on the upper chakra) helps manifesting „things“ in the Astral
2. „Clarity Now“ (Buhlman's famous affirmation) with a target or task in mind and looking at one's hand helps to get vision and/or phase to another astral place entirely since this time I also beamed out of the Lightportal into the scenery of the city where I had found a purpose.
3. offering to be a helper somehow always gets you results or at least to 'jump' to somewhere

Dreammoods on helping a beggar (http://dreammoods.com/cgibin/dreamdictionarysearch.pl?method=exact&header=dreamsymbol&search=beggar):
To dream that you are helping a beggar indicates that you will overcome your hardships and inadequacies.

Hope so.

[eyeoneblack]

Ref 17.1.14 (greyhound etc.)

Gosh, it's been too long since I've had a good AP like that. :( But I recently recorded here about a man putting his arm around me and stepping off a high ledge. It startled and annoyed me. Just as we were approaching the ground I said, "Get off me, I need to land." Once on solid ground I met two old people - not attractive to me.

I bring that up because you may have made the same mistake I did. The guy who took me off the ledge may have been a teacher. I get the same feeling about your guy with the cookies. He tried to talk to you but you wouldn't listen. The hybrid dog / unicorn/ rhino may represent a totem, but I don't know.

Marvelous dream. Thanks. :)

Concerning the cookie man: You might have honored him with a little astral money. Just because it's astral doesn't mean it's free. [you might have read my post when I squeezed a girl's buns Haha. Not moral here, not moral there.]

[eyeoneblack]

26.1.14

Market and money again. You manifest only a few cents but then you are concerned as to how your piddley offering will be spent. Oh well, it's 'in the family'. Seems you're window shopping with empty pockets. No intention to buy anything because you can't.

Not accusing you of 'bad character' or anything, but there seems to be a theme running through this. :-D

[Sinera]

Ref 17.1.14 (greyhound etc.)
(...) The guy who took me off the ledge may have been a teacher. I get the same feeling about your guy with the cookies. He tried to talk to you but you wouldn't listen. (...) You might have honored him with a little astral money. Just because it's astral doesn't mean it's free.
Hi, thanks, this is an interesting point and could be true. Helpers come in lots of 'disguises' and I had a share of that lesson in the past too. Maybe I should have rather talked to him or paid sth - if only attention.


26.1.14
Market and money again. You manifest only a few cents but then you are concerned as to how your piddley offering will be spent. Oh well, it's 'in the family'.
Well, I think this is a bit of a misinterpretation but maybe my own description wasn't very good above.

First of all I was already on a mission to help (although a request for "money" was a surprise). I also give money to beggars in the physical often. Moreover, the offering that then manifested the second time was exactly what the lady asked for. "Service-on-demand" ;).

'Stays in the family' was not a complaint at all. I was just wondering why she gave it away again immediately although it seemed then she gave it to a 'sibling' or lookalike. My comment referred to the money staying among these 'clones', not at all to the lady's character or behaviour (not meant like "runs in the family" as a negative trait). I was just a tad amused about the situation, also about the way they looked alike. Actually, it was really funny. Maybe her fancyful clothes weren't 'rags' at all? Colourfulness looks rather 'rich' in the Astral to me. Maye she even wasn't a beggar and rather a guide too? Don't want to blow my own ♥♥♥♥♥et to loudly now, but I still see it more as a successful manifestation (combined with a helping) exercise and don't have the feeling that I failed it somehow.

But I agree, it's notable how often money and markets play a role in my dreams/projections recently. Likewise they play a role in my physical life right now, maybe that is also a cause. I am hopefully about to manifest a job after a bleak period of 2 years, probably even next week. I had my second interview with the same company just this week. Fingers crossed!
Btw, two amazing precognitive and clairvoyant dreams about this company go along with this endeavour, one was 3,5 years ago! And if it 'really' works out now then I will definitely write a post on this in the Dreams forum. I am just waiting for the firm offer / contract being sent to me one of these days. I'm optimistic and give myself a 95% chance to get that job. :D.
Btw2, maybe this is why the Dreammoods interpretation (To dream that you are helping a beggar indicates that you will overcome your hardships and inadequacies.) could make a lot of sense too.

[eyeoneblack]

Yes, friend. My comment sounds a little harsh on the re-read!:( Sure hope you get that job :). Goodness you may be too smart - over qualified - which is almost as bad having a criminal record in the world today :lol:. I ran into something like that.

Thanks for your dreams. They teach well. :-D

[eyeoneblack]

Well, your dream spun one off for me.

This morning a dream where I and some old friends from a spiritual group I long abandoned went out of town. I realized a little too late that I had forgot to bring any money. I hated to, but I asked an old gf if she would loan me $100. She did, but did I ever feel awkward. :roll:

[Sinera]

11/Feb/2014
Akashic Screen Session Transcript #1

Preliminaries

This is about a lucidventure but also a kind of "where-do-I-go-from-here" statement.

I had this plan for a long time. It's to create the "Higher/Akashic Screen" in my Lightportal to communicate with my Higher Self and/or Akashic Records. I created the screen already during meditation-visualisation and with affirmations. It is put on a desk in my "Lightportal" - the 'save haven' where I communicate with helpers and my Higher Self as usual. I'm standing looking straight at it after 'exit' from my bed. To the left is a mirror for self-healing which I also put there by manifestation. To the right the window where I usually fly out of into the astral (the genuine "portal") in many experiences.

http://www.officialpsds.com/images/thumbs/tv-screen-1-psd29071.png

Below you will find the memory transcript of the first session. But a few more comments are due:

I simplified the process in the beginning now and it seemed to work. In my modest beginner's approach, I'm following the great advice given by Tom Campbell in one of his talks on YT. He suggested that talking to your guides to retrieve verifiable or valuable info might be easier (for a newbie) done by just using a binary communication mode with y/n-questions first. He also proposed to make it even easier the colours red = no and green = yes for answers since they are easy to recognise and to "transmit". This is a brilliant idea and a good starting point.
http://www.colorblindnessfacts.com/wp-content/uploads/2012/11/Red-Green-Colorblindness.jpg
I also want to try letters and numbers later, but as many of the more experienced projectors here already know they are more difficult to recognise due to reality fluctuations in the astral. So if you don't 'trust' numbers you see or they fluctuate, colour codes might be the best solution! I will also try to watch pictures and 'movies' of past lives or whatever then. But all in due course.

For the time being, I will use the "approximation" or "encircling"-technique in order to zero in on numerical data or other detailed info.
(Example 1: born in 1900s? yes - before 1950? yes - after 1920? no - after 1910? yes - after 1915? yes - 1916? no - 1917? yes // Example 2: born in Europe? no - in America? yes - North America? no - South America ? yes - Brazil? no - Peru ? yes, then try a city there etc ...)

I had already a recent try with a TV-set a few weeks ago 'by accident' when I became lucid in a pedestrian shopping area in a big city. I went to a window where tv screens were displayed. I asked one screen to relay to me info from my Higher Self. I asked for the year of birth of Sinera. It did not yet work. There was interference and then a male voice telling me to 'forget about Sinera' and 'come to us (names a city in my north)' in order to get trained as a helper and I will have a long career ahead of me as a (lit.) "juror de jure" (= judge by law), which made me really wonder what it meant.

Then a few days ago I had a healing/retrieving experience of an older lady in her appartment - not recorded here as I grow lazy of writing all of it down. Only after I beamed the person up into the light with her and some helpers hand-in-hand (which is my technique I used before) this time I saw instead of the light or instead of fading out a kind of tv-static (snow) and this showed me that the screen was accessible then to me. As a kind of reward perhaps? However I lost it and woke up before I could make use of it.

So this another try now, and my first direct one with nothing left to chance. This time it worked for a while and this is the first session from a few days ago with the answers (colours) as I remember them. I have prepared a list with tons of questions of personal or of a more general kind, the latter especially of my hobbyhorse, the 'alternative ancient prehistory of Earth'. I love this topic as some of you might also remember by some threads I made about it. It fascinates me and I read a lot about it or watch YT vids. Maybe the love of it will help me to finally gain some 'true' information about it. I read that 'love' of sth yields results. It has power to open doors.

How valuable is the non-personal and more general 'info' here, e.g. on past Earth's history? No clue, really. I offer the information or answers here without any guarantee for anyone who reads this or even myself. Make of it what you will, so to speak. As one member of this forum once put it in her signature: "Your reality may vary". Hence it might be my reality but not yours. ;)

However, I want to re-mention at least that I did a card validation in the Lightportal (http://www.astraldynamics.com.au/showthread.php?11852-Sinera-s-Lucidiary&p=120384#post120384) with help from my HS, although I did not use the screen directly. There is another kind of indirect personal 'validation' mentioned below in the Comments section of the first transcript.

So I naively believe the codes have some validity despite the fact that I do not ask verifiable questions with verifiable answers most of the time. I am beyond that point of having to get validations, as you might know when you read in my journal or other posts here before, I had my share with intended ones (as above) and not intended ones.
This is also a fun exercise mainly. Some personal questions might be more serious (and as I am anonymous here I have no problems sharing them as well) but I do not seek 'karmic' or whatever psychological solutions for any problems with this. Fortunately, I'm not in a dire life situation after all.

Once again, whoever will to read about my 'findings' from these sessions (I plan to do many!) take it with a grain of salt if you will.

Lucidventure / Transcript

Here we go with Session 1. In blue font I always only give the memory transcript as 'raw' as possible, without any further ado or what happened 'around it'. Screen colour codes put are in (...). This one is still very short. But it's a start, after all.



MEMO-TRANSCRIPT SESSION #1 (11 Feb 2014)

ME: Am I an autist?

SCREEN: No. (Red)

ME: Is Sinera an incarnation and past life of mine?

SCREEN: Yes. (Green)

ME: Is Sinera born in the 1800s (= 18something)?

SCREEN: No. (Red)



Comments

After this last question I made the mistake to ask for the date directly instead of progressing with y/n methodology trying the encircling (see above). I then somehow intuitively 'received' the number 1799. But I need to re-ask this question with the approximation-technique next time. I then asked further questions but the screen had vanished and I was teleported into a room with a group of people who gave partly contradictory, partly nonsensical answers. Apart from that, my own protocol dictates that I will only 'accept' and include into the transcripts the Akashic Screen's colour code answers (y/n) anyway.

In that scene I also saw a broom on the floor. A broom signifies to clean up that past (see Dreammoods (http://dreammoods.com/cgibin/dreamdictionarysearch.pl?method=exact&header=dreamsymbol&search=broom)). Another hint that my 'guidance' maybe wants me to do other things and leave the past alone. But I love knowledge and will try to carry on anway. I will also not only ask past-related questions.

Further validity that it might NOT be my conscious or subconscious expectation directing the answers (and thus a self-delusion) is that fact that I really did not at all expect the answer "not in the 1800s". This is a surprise! I firmly had her located somehow in the (mid-)1800s before from my data and deductive reasoning. However, according to the style of her hair and attire, 1799 would still make sense as it shows early 1800s fashion for a young lady then. You see, it's a detective's work. I will soon make a post here when I collate all the data and conclusions "so far" about Sinera as it is now scattered across so many posts here in this journal. But first I will ask more questions.

Note that I use the term "18something" to denote the 19th century, and so on. I hope and believe the Akashic Record (Screen) "understands" this way of asking semantically.

I don't know if I should be relieved about not being an autist. I might ask about introversion or mild Asperger's anyway next time. Also I want to know what went wrong (if so) during and after my birth (I'm cesarian and then had cradle cap / milk crust as baby). It seems I absolutely refused to come out into this cruel and strange world. :mrgreen:

Yeah, so many questions, so little time ...

[Sinera]

19/Apr/2014
Sinera In France & Egypt

Preliminaries

I did not record here for a long time. Since this one belongs to the Sinera / (other) past life research project I put it here again for consistency and the sake of adding more pictures to the confusing 'puzzle'. It's fascinating detective's work. I love it. :)
The most notable other projections in the last two months was that I had a healing experience with a rabid dog in the astral, holding my hands pointing to his head beaming light Reconnective Healing style. Maybe I should become an animal healer instead. Anyway, here we go on with Lady In Red / Sinera.

Lucidventure

I am somehow getting (a bit more) lucid while I fly through the window from my Lightportal. I fly through a daylight zone of different elements on the ground and land on a spot remembering one target. I ask for Sinera to appear and answer some questions to me directly (did not remember a screen).

She appears out of thin air. I was not sure from her looks it was her although she might have worn her red dress indeed. That's why I first ask her if it is her to be sure. She says "Yes". Then somehow the communication mode changes and question-answer is done in hand-writing on a paper or scroll. I see her answers written but not her anymore.

I ask if she is an incarnation of mine and I read on the paper a clear „Yes!“ again. I keep staring at the scroll and see some French names then that she wrote in her „female handwriting“ (not mine definitely) and it reads sth like „Antoinette“ and then „Francis“ or even „France / frances“, looking like a kind of signature.

Then comes a surprise turn of events. I'm suddenly holding a small stone tablet in my hand (wrapped in white cloth a bit, I have to unravel it) featuring a typical wall relief of walking Ancient Eyptians. It is a pair ('couple') who are walking hand in hand in the typical 2-D style of that time. A bit like this, just the two hand-in-hand, probably male and female:

http://s14.directupload.net/images/140419/temp/w3a6d5e5.jpg

There's a bit more in the picture, maybe pyramid or triangle shapes - one maybe indicating direction, maybe a sun or lightsource, but details escaped me. I made a rough drawing and uploaded it:

http://s1.directupload.net/images/140420/2xur4jxv.jpg

What she tells me is even more mind-blowing:

"We were a couple back then in 3775 (BC?) in Egypt. And we brought the 'cinema' to the people."
:shock:

(Later upon noting it down it could also have been 3750, it is the trouble with longer numbers in communication that we tend to forget them or mix them up. The way I understood it during the experience was that it indeed meant "B.C.".)

I then am given also a small light-blue pyramid gemstone. It is out of a collection of other gemstones, some are light blue and some are yellow. They seem to be on display on a table and I was given the light blue as a gift. The yellow ones each seem to have a golden little capstone on top. Here's an example similar to the small blue one I held in my hand, but the edges were not so sharp

http://www.crystalsrocksandgems.com/images3/angelitepyramids.jpg

So all in all it is two gifts, the walking Egyptions relief and the blue gemstone in pyramid shape. Both relating to our time together in Egypt, that's what she seems to convey telepathically to me. I do not remember more of the experience.

Comments

First on the French connection:

It's a leap, but anyway: Maybe Antoinette and Francis / France refer to the time zone when Sinera was born. It would fit the information (pre-1800 birth, probably 1799) from the transript above!
Marie Antoinette (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Marie_Antoinette) ruled as queen in France til around 1793 when she was executed, her father was indeed named „Francis I“ (I did not know this before) and it is of course all taking place in France during the time of the revolution. Francis could also have been „frances“ which means French or is another female name too. As numbers are difficult to download maybe this was a way to communicate / confirm it to me?

So Sinera is French born in the 1790ies? I remember in one experience when I hear her voice she also had a kind of French accent (http://www.astraldynamics.com.au/showthread.php?11852-Volgerle-s-Lucidiary&p=109362#post109362) when speaking German to me. This would corroborate it. I already was given the date pre-1800 (intuitively 1799, see last Transcript 1) for her birth date. So this would also corroborate it! (She being my incarnation is yet another point from the transcript #1 confirmed again). Does the puzzle come together piece by piece now?

On the Egypt connection:

If she's my incarnation but „we“ were a couple (as shown) back then in pre-dynastic Egypt ... what on Earth is going on here after all ?!? From several books on past life regression (e.g. D. Cannon) I know that parallel lives is a possility, although not done too often. Was it such a thing? A double incarnation of the same soul (Higher Self) with two soul parts (avatars) at one time? A split: One was more of the Sinera-part (female) one more of who I am now? The „WE“ might of course mean the entire Higher Self which spoke to me through her (another incarnation), but the 'couple' still remains. Or maybe we weren't in human bodies at all? :?

The gemstone was most likely an „Angelite“ piece (https://www.google.com/search?q=Angelit+pyramide&client=firefox-a&hs=JqV&rls=org.mozilla:de:official&channel=sb&tbm=isch&tbo=u&source=univ&sa=X&ei=R2hSU_vuCsLmswaVzoDYCQ&ved=0CCkQsAQ&biw=1053&bih=725#channel=sb&q=Angelite+pyramid&rls=org.mozilla:de:official&tbm=isch). It might refer also to contact with angels, and I tried to do this again lately asking for assistance and for help. I did not know a gemstone called "Angelite" before! My search results find this type most often for a light-blue pyramid gemstone (calcite is another option and it would also explain the yellow type). Still, it all also clearly refers to Egypt.

The year 3775 or 3750 BC does not yield a lot of results in orthodox Egyptology. It was predynastic and not much is known, there is a culture that is called Naquada-1/2 and they have some cultural artifacts (sculptures, pottery) associated to them. Or was it meant as 3750 years ago instead? Then it would be the Middle Kingdom and there was indeed a cultural and economic upswing.

References:

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Naqada_culture / http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Prehistoric_Egypt / http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Middle_Kingdom_of_Egypt#Height_of_the_Middle_Kingd om

And then there was the reference to an Egyptian ruler called „Besh“ in another projection (http://www.astraldynamics.com.au/showthread.php?11852-Sinera-s-Lucidiary&p=120463#post120463) of mine. This was also prehistoric Egypt long before 3100 BC (and the Narmer palette (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Narmer_Palette) which marks the unification of the two kingdoms in that era). Probably 3775 BC, so is there a link?

„Bringing cinema to the people“ is certainly the most puzzling riddle to solve here. Taking it as a dream symbol is maybe not useful since „cinema“ was only mentioned but I was not in it in the dream/projection. Most symbol dictionaries give meanings when you experienced it and thus it seems not to fit the context, at least imv. Here's just one interpretation that could fit:


Long before television, cinema was the means for news dispersal and letting people know what existed in the world. To exit the cinema asks you to share what you know with others – bring it out onto the street.

http://www.dream-analysis.com/dictionary/page21.htm

So, it is about bringing knowledge? So could cinema have been a metaphor for theatre and culture in general maybe? Maybe it was a secret mystery school or sth and „we“ taught sth there? Cinema is also a huge lightsource where everyone looks at to get the movie, maybe it was some kind of (cultural, spiritual, technological) en“light“enment? Also, the word cinema could relate to film-making in general, maybe it wasn't 'film' but sth about data storage and documentation? Or did it even have to do with pyramid building (hence the gemstone shapes)? Always I end up with more questions than answers received it seems.

THE QUEST CONTINUES !!!
:cool:

[Sinera]

My "Vintage" APs (Without Knowing They Were)

Introduction

Since recently I've been on a dry period again, I thought I'd do a different kind of "update", a nostalgic backdate, so to speak. This excerpt is an unedited copy from a "normal" diary I had back then. Yes, should you wonder, I had done it in English indeed like my OBE journal later because the 'foreign' language allowed my the inner distance to do the personal writings I would not have done otherwise (not even started one in the first place).

So this is the original which I remembered and re-discovered recently. I wonder why I did not recall it when I started this diary to talk about my 'first' AP/OBEs.

It is funny to see how the Larger Consciousness System (to borrow TC's term this time) gave me a nudge in the right direction already back then.

2009 was the year I had started on my active spiritual journey altogether. The beginning was however not so good when in spring that year I had tried a regression hypnosis that failed, so I was a bit frustrated. Still I read some books about reincarnation and one also about Buddhism, iirc. This was the same year from where this journal record started - see first page in this journal.

However, this entry here was a few months before my NDE in the hospital of September the same year (see my first account in this journal) or the first intended OBE later. Back then in mid-2009 I did know and experiment a bit about dream programming (asking questions and waiting for an interpretable answer) and had just learnt about lucid dreaming (see text!). But I did not even really know what Astral Projection meant! Can you imagine? ;) And I only knew the term OBE in connection with NDEs and did not really know how and that you could do it without being in a life threatening situation. I also had started a beginner's Yoga class the day before which I saw right now in the column to the right (not copied here), maybe that also had an influence?

There is reference to another "strange dream" from Feb 2003. It was on a trip to London for a training with my company. This is not from the diary as nothing was recorded but I give an account of it below, too, because it was another AP in the form of a False Awakening due to stressful alertness - which is what I today 'know', but of course did not back then in 2003, it was just a very, very very strange dream :mrgreen:.

It is also funny to note how both of them have to do with the checking of electric appliances. But I assume that is just a(nother) coincidence. :wacky1: (The '3' in the orange field is a day rating I gave each day, 1-5 with 3 as the usual middle value. The "confirmation" refers to a dream question I put each night, I had a result from a night before that I wanted to have confirmed.).

17/Jul/2009
First "Lucid Dream": Electric Failures







17


Fr


3


dreams are strange sometimes


well first of all I did not dream any confirmation, but this night was nevertheless interesting


yesterday night had my first dream research on the internet, ordered a book and CD by Stephen Laberge, the most famous dream researcher and got other info about „LUCID DREAMING“ whcih means gaining active control and better memory from you dreams


I already read about „false awakening“ and the fact that in dreams light switches don't work.


http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/False_awakening


I experienced both this night/ morning!


the same thing that was even clearer to me in Feb 03 when in London in the hotel


but also this time... I „woke up“ in „my bed“ as usual, pushed the light switched, noticed it does not work, tried a few times, looked around the corner and saw that the light of the electric cable adapter was flickering again, but I had replaced it by a new one a few months ago, then I laid back and was a bit angry that I had to exchange the light bulbs over my bed again..


then I woke up


so it was both, switches not working and false awakening at once


funny and strange


I also took notes of a strange dream I rememberd, so it it really an exercise thing as I could read, I might start a dream diary now




11/Feb/2003
First "False Awakening": London Hotel (The Plug)

(As said above, this is a memory transcript I do right now the first since it has not been recorded yet, just referenced as in the 2009-entry above.)

I had just checked in late that day in a London hotel on my company's account. I was very nervous and had my alarm clock set several times. I did not want to miss the start and to be too late in the office the next morning. It was my first time in our English subsidiary then. I somehow had a feeling or anxiety that I might miss it by oversleeping because I would not hear the alarm clock or it would have been forgotten to be set.

During the night in that bed I woke up (for real) several times and checked if the alarm clock really was set with the little button pulled out. It was. So I went to sleep again.

The next mornig the alarm clock went off and I was happy that I did not miss it. I got up and was busy immediately. I put on my clothes. I reflected a bit on the day ahead. I might have eaten sth (not sure). I went to the bathroom. I brushed my teeth. I washed myself. Then I decided to have an electric shave. I fetched my electric razor from my bag and went back to the bathroom. All was business as usual. I might also have checked the clock again to make sure I was not too late. In the bathroom I was about to put the cable and plug into the socket. It was a European socket. Like this:
http://www.stylepark.com/db-images/cms/berker/img/p198027_488_336-1.jpg


Wait a minute! This is not possible. Why is that? I'm in England, they have three slots, not two holes like we have, and the plug's form is different. Why is it European/German? And I have bought an adapter even.

This is what was to be expected actually:
http://www.24hourmuseum.org.uk/content/images/2007_1969.jpg

That woke me up. I glanced at the alarm clock, afraid that I might have missed the right time. But it was just a few minutes early, a few minutes (or even one? not sure anymore) before the alarm would have gone off to awake me. Another possibility is that the timer indeed DID go off an this awoke me (I do not remember this clearly), but my realisation that sth wasn't right was definitely the thing that woke me up anyway in the dream.

[Sinera]

24/May/2014
Gaia

I am in the blind state (the void) as so often and direct my 'gaze' at my hands in order to start my phasing technique that helps me to gain vision or change planes (or both).

I demand to be taken into outer space to see Gaia from above again, for the second time (http://www.astraldynamics.com.au/showthread.php?11852-Sinera-s-Lucidiary&p=125123#post125123).

After a while it works indeed and I get on my vision: I hover seemingly in outer space and am looking at the Earth from a distance. The watery areas look much darker blue than you normally expect from photos, but they also vary as we all know.

Here's a similar example of how I saw it:

http://www.ithaka-journal.net/ithaka/wpForschung1/uploads//2009/02/fotolia_6547305_xs.jpg

I do not stay 'up there' long and dive down again. As I am 'diving down' I start to feel my body again but am still experiencing the visuals of outer space or darkness (void again). It's the usual mind-split experience (more on that later!).

Then for a while I see parts of the Earth still, as if I would leaf through an atlas book with different maps being shown to me or a kind of click-through on a computer software or tv program showing the different maps in rapid succession. Then I am back on (astral) Earth again.

Comments

She's beautiful.

[Sinera]

24/May/2014
Chakra Singing

I had several exits that night. This is another short one. I am again in blind state / the void but feel like I am in the Lightportal again and feel like singing a song again, it's a song of my own with stupid lyrics as no common tune occurred to me that moment (rather strange for a former musician).

The void / black background remains but I see again a 'chakra spiral galaxy' moving before the dark background. The 'wheel' / galaxy is also turning all the time and giving off sparks in all directions.

Here's just an example. I only see one spiral all the time but each has several colour sparks going off from them, but there's also always one dominant colour each time.

http://www.dailygalaxy.com/.a/6a00d8341bf7f753ef016765d7898c970b-500wi

The astounding thing is that it changes colour according to which chakra I concentrate on. I can do this since I still am in a mind-split situation where I still feel my body.

So it is e.g. green when I concentrate on my breast/heart area, or gets blue/violet when I concentrate on the head area or reddish-orange when I go low.

Comments

This isn't the first time, see here (http://www.astraldynamics.com.au/showthread.php?13235-Heart-Chakra-quot-spiral-galaxy-quot-in-mind-s-eye-trance), but it is alway a nice and "different" experience again. The singing really causes the chakras to be visualised - one at a time though. Interesting.

Of course, I might have done it subconsciously, but on the other hand it is still cool how I did NOT consciously will the colours to appear (e.g. "I want a green one now") according to the body part focussed on, but rather it was the other way round.

http://dominicanewsonline.com/news/wp-content/uploads/2012/09/image_chakras-221x300.jpg

I did the energy work or focussing only and waited and observed how the moving spiral colours turned out to be. They turned out 'right' most of the time. Amazing.

:D

[eyeoneblack]

Hi, Sinera. I was talking to a friend yesterday and related to him a dream from long ago that may be similar to your mind/split experience. The gist of which is that at first I was looking at the floor of a garage with building materials and tools in view. I attempted to step over the 2-by-fours and square but I was frozen in place - couldn't mover at all, not even my eyes. Next I was in the hall of my parents' house. I knew where I was, but I couldn't see a thing - totally dark. I could switch from the garage to the hall and back, but with the same consequence. I felt my way through the hall toward the kitchen where I knew there was a phone so I could call a friend and tell him what happened.

Telling my buddy yesterday, I arrived at a psychological interpretation; that I was experiencing a situation in life that I could see clearly but there was nothing I could DO about it, and conversely, if I were to do something about it I couldn't see clearly what to do.

Is this at similar to your experience of 'mind/split'?

[Sinera]

Is this at similar to your experience of 'mind/split'?
It could well be related to it but I don't know. It might be similar. You had a dream and another dream so to speak and you switched to and fro.

The 'mind-split' that I talk about and experience quite often is that you feel your physical body lying in bed but at the same time you are also "in" your Astral Body out and experiencing a lucid dream/projection. You are at two places simultaneously. Sometimes you also experience double visions.

Some (Monroe?) also call it 'focus overlay'. As we are all multidimensional beings it does not make me wonder too much that we can experience this since I believe we exist on multiple planes at the same time anyway, we're just not aware of it from the physical mind perspective.

I remember Robert Bruce wrote a lot on the topic of a mind split 'effect' too but cannot exactly remember it now and if it is the same way how I mean it.

[eyeoneblack]

I understand what you're saying, Sinera. I recently read a book, Hallucinations, by Oliver Sacks which described physiological and psychological processes that were very similar to what we adventurers in Otherwhere experience. I began to wonder if we should ignore, as we do, the possible psychological nature of say, LDreaming. In other words, recasting my split/mind dream in psychological terms was another dimension I hadn't considered before.

So you are aware simultaneously of being in bed and being in the dreamscape. I'm just asking, might there be a psychological aspect to that experience?

[Sinera]

So you are aware simultaneously of being in bed and being in the dreamscape. I'm just asking, might there be a psychological aspect to that experience?
In my view, no, I don't think so, provided that I understand right what you mean by 'psychological' here, e.g. sth like dream symbol interpretation? I do that a lot for normal dreams, but also for lucid dreams/projections (we had discussions about it above, e.g. the greyhound, etc.).

The 'mind-split' is a phenomenon of a projection for me and it also occurs to many other people (e.g. Robert Bruce and CFTraveler, as far as I know and remember). So it is a general "symptom" that can occur, just like energetic symptoms that occur then, e.g. vibrations, kundalini energy (rare), re-entry electric goosebumps (my specialty), the astral cord and gravity (tugging) or all of the usual kinetic effects such as raps and telekinesis which e.g. Sylvan Muldoon wrote a lot about.

Are these occurrences 'psychological' in nature? I don't think so either. You see, for me it's rather a 'technical' issue than a 'psychological'. ;)

[CFTraveler]

The 'mind-split' is a phenomenon of a projection for me and it also occurs to many other people (e.g. Robert Bruce and CFTraveler, as far as I know and remember). So it is a general "symptom" that can occur, just like energetic symptoms that occur then,Yep. I just call it bilocation, but I do agree I think it's a version of what Robert calls the mind split.

As for psychological, I do think there's a psychological aspect to it (but not pathological) and that is that the mind is now accepting and parallel-processing both experiences instead of reinterpreting and serializing them, due to preconceived notions of what is possible.
.02.

[Sinera]

This being a work in progress it can only represent another step along the way for me. Besides, sometimes I just like to think and write and while away the morning. Your thoughts are most welcome.

May I please suggest that I express my thoughts then to this in a separate thread which you could make? I would suggest you make one maybe in one of the dreams or AP forums or the spiritual development or philosophy subforum. I'm afraid that this is now steering away too far from the scope of a personal OBE journal. I promise I will read there and try to voice my thoughts on your thoughts there. No offence meant, I just think this is getting way too offtopic here since you seem to muse about the nature of our (dream...) reality in general here and that this would perhaps best be done in a separate thread where it also gets more attention it deserves by other readers and thinkers of this forum who could then maybe contribute more, too. :-)

[Sinera]

Yep. I just call it bilocation, but I do agree I think it's a version of what Robert calls the mind split.

As for psychological, I do think there's a psychological aspect to it (but not pathological) and that is that the mind is now accepting and parallel-processing both experiences instead of reinterpreting and serializing them, due to preconceived notions of what is possible. .02.
Indeed I agree. The psychological development might be a (subconscious) trigger for this mode of experience in a way. And yes, 'bilocation' is a very good word for this, too.

[eyeoneblack]

I'm afraid that this is now steering away too far from the scope of a personal OBE journal.

You're right. I'll set it up tomorrow.

[eyeoneblack]

I put it on Psychic/Spiritual board under Random Musings.

[Sinera]

20/Sep/2014
Meeting Granny

Preliminaries / Background

Granny Anna died in late 1989. (My Mom who helped to care for her on her death bed back then told me recently it was exactly on the day the Berlin wall fell. When she had died they turned on the TV just so and found out that people were cheering all over Berlin and Germany, what an irony.). I have fond memories of her. She was my Dad's mom and visited us 2-3 times per year to live with us from time to time for a few weeks at our home, because she lived in a town further away (2 hours drive).

Currently, I asked a lot of helpers, my HS, God and who/whatever to help me find a job to get out of my financial misery. But also to finance my path/training as an alternative healer. Since I remembered that Granny Anna was a great fan of complementary nature medicine (she kept herself healthy and died at old age over 90, she'd reached almost 100.) I also asked her for help. I also visualised her banging with her walking stick on the table of some of the staff managers forcing them in her local native German dialect to "Now, listen, mate, you give my grandson a job now, for God's sake!" (humour is important for me when I do this).

Strangely, the days around doing this I found a job by some "lucky coincidences". Her work? Who knows. She was a very energetic, determined and resolute person. I could imagine her (HS) having a hand in it indeed. That's just the way she was.

Lucidventure

I project to a kind of hall or lobby which resembles part my old university part the visualised naturopath practice lobby/house I try to manifest. I talk there to a helper who is moving upstairs but stops to give me an answer. I asked him before how to recognise real helpers but do not remember the answer. Then I ask him how to contact my Gran (who also is a chosen 'helper' see above) and know it is her 'for real'.

He says that I should (literally!) speak enough prayers and it will happen. At the same time I look to the entrance (glass) door and outside I see a woman approaching.

She is in 'vintage' clothing. Somehow maybe 1900s or 1800s style, maybe rural, she has a long country dress. She wears a flat lady's hat with a ribbon.

Then there's a strange time jump. I am still with the helper but am also hearing the lady's voice talking to me while I still see her at the door or as she's approaching me. I 'decide' then to fully phase into the conversation and this is then where I am, standing face-to-face to her. But not her alone!

I now recognise that she wears a baby in her arms. She tells me it's my Dad. She's Gran.

:whatthe:

I caress the baby's cheek while she seemingly thereby shows me that this is how they both looked back then when she had just conceived him. I do not remember more of the experience (unfortunately) and fade back.

Wow. :shrug:

Comments

I don't know. Strange. I'm skeptical. I want to be. All my own thought forms? However, it's intriguing.

Foremost I need to say that my Dad is still alive at old age today. Okay, she might have 'projected' the image in her arms and I think that once incarnated friend souls can 'appear' to us however (and how old) they want to. Normally they choose sth we recognise them by, or appear at the age when we knew them best. Maybe she 'projected' the image of the baby to show what she wanted to show: the (genetic, emotional, family, blood) lineage. Maybe that's why she did not appear as the familiar "Granny" to me.

I mean, we know our older family members often only as 'old' and sometimes forget that they lead a full life, including childhood, adolescence, adulthood with family life, job, etc, don't we?

Unfortunately, I cannot verify her appearance since the oldest photographs of her are already as an old lady. No vintage stuff exists. This is no trace to follow. I do not want to ask my Dad about it in specific (maybe about old pics though...). I don't tell any things like this to my family.

Two things that intrigue me most: 1. Her face. 2. Her hat.

I remember her face 'somewhat' and I can say the young lady could (could!) indeed be the young version of my Gran. There is some facial character expressions and similarity (when I run the aging/morphing mode in my mind's eye) that could really be her. It could fit.

Her overall age could fit too with the 'baby'. I reckon that she must have been around her 30ies when she conceived my Dad (in 1930). This is possible, although at first glance I would have said she was maybe in her (late) twens. But hey, there is a range. I have a lot of aunts and uncles. She was a 'busy' mother with 7 children altogether, my Dad being the youngest but one. So a lady in her 30ies with child is possible. The stern, self-assured and energetic look on her face was there too, plus the possible facial 'similarity'.

And then there's this 1930ies hat. This was one of the fashioned hats back then indeed (besides that 20ies-'helmet'-like thingy). I googled some as an example that are similar to it (see example pics). So this would fit too and I cannot fathom why I should have made THAT one up now.

http://hats.1930s-fashions.co.uk/hat/lady-with-retro-hat.jpghttp://astimesgobye.com/wp-content/uploads/2013/09/1930s-ladies-hats.jpghttp://hats.1930s-fashions.co.uk/hat/lady-with-vintage-hat.jpg

Last not least: another strange coincidence that occurred to me just now. September 19th is my Dad's birthday! This lucidventure happened in the night from the 19th to 20th!. Maybe another reason why I was shown the newborn in his mother's arms?
:confused::whatthe:

Maybe I'll try a re-contact soon. Could be interesting.

(Note: I will post a lucadventure from today soon here, because this is what I wanted to write down here today in the first place, but then thought this one from a few days ago would be a worthy post, too. More to follow soon.)

[Sinera]

26/Sep/2014
The God Field & The Planetary Library

Preliminaries

My exit strategy has changed again. Although first avoided like the plague, I now deliberately "jump" (better: roll) into that dark "The Void". This is the name it is called by many APers, in books and forums. I think I remember Monroe called it the 3D-(velvety)-blackness. There are other names. Some confuse it with 'exit blindness' but probably it is the "same" thing. I don't know. In my case it has some 'static' and oscillation to it (grey-black, other colours), that is why I called it the "grey Flicker-Field" first.

Now I call it "The God Field". It's because I now believe we can create from there or/and access lots of different planes of reality. I also remember one account of a regressed person in a Dolores Cannon's book where she talked about this place which is close to Source (or maybe it IS?). It need not be "light-filled" to be godly, it is still a very cozy and familiar place that we love. No fear is attached to "THIS" kind of darkness. It is not the angst-ridden thing we normally connect with the absence of light / the dark. And it's not completely dark anyway. It flickers and moves ("3D-blackness").

The God Field

So this is it and I am there quite often now. This time I first tried to do some energy (healing) work. But it did not work, I did not feel too much. Maybe I even still felt my physical body although I'm not sure because that one was lying on the side and what I felt was on the back (the way I do the "roll-out").

These two, by example are just approximation, and still does not give an exact rendering of the God Field / Void:

http://www.channelsfestival.net.au/wp-content/uploads/2013/03/Static_GIF.gif http://mattjwelch.com/blog/wp-content/uploads/2011/12/static.gif

After a while I got bored and then I do one of my usual things: 1. Stretch out a hand for a helper or 2. Rub my hands and shout an affirmation of where I want to go.

I did the second thing. As usual it works fine for me now (my exit blindness problem is solved for good) and I see first patches of light which then open up more and more to allow me to "phase / jump / teleport" into the scene where I want to go.

I do not always end up the way I like to though. I wanted to go to the library again, the one I visited in end 2010, that School of Alternative Medicine.

So I shouted (while still rubbing my hands) "The Library! The Library!"

I missed it. However, I might have entered a kind of "library" indeed. This is where I got to instead:

The Planetarium

http://www.wall321.com/thumbnails/detail/20121109/planets%20space%20art%201920x1080%20wallpaper_www. wall321.com_60.jpg

It is like a library of globes and you fly past them like you were in outer space. It is still relatively dark, yet I it is not outer space of the physical universe as we know it. Around each of these globes I saw letters, signs, graphics, glyphs, maybe some of them looked like index cars or short descriptions?

Comments

Love my new God-Field-technique. I'm going places. :mrgreen::thumbsup:

The pic is the closest I could find with a quick image search, but by far not resembling it, the "globes" were also further apart.

As regards the "planetary" or "spheres" library: I've been to a similar place before. Some have. Frank Aardema also wrote about it in his book.

I can only speculate about its origin and purpose of course. It seemed to me like an akashic planetary record indeed but I might be wrong and it could be sth completely different. I don't remember if the globes really looked like planets or if they were just dark. The glyphs around each of them made it look like a kind of information system ("library"). So I got what I wanted but differently. I need to be more specific next time with my affirmations / commands.

The last time I was there in this sphere field they had a grid and I flew down into one of the globes and did a kind of retrieval. So I am not yet sure what it 'really' represents.

More research needed. I am sure I will make it back to there. I desperately need to make my lucidventures longer again in order to get more info out of them. The "places" are interesting but it is teasing me when I cannot make/get the best out of it. :|

[susan]

I'm so envious, and yes .. Teasing seems to be how it works. Someone else is pulling the upper strings but we put all we have into it.

[dontco]

An odd fact: today I go OOB into complete darkness, I want to move away from the body so that I would be able to see but to no avail, I seem to try to move and yet I don't move anywhere. Maybe it's because there is no space? was this the void you were talking about? if so, you gave me answer num. 1.
Secondly, I wondered for a very long time (and today)- how the heck do you get from place to place in the astral?! and then I get the urge to read this post today. You gave me answer num 2. Genius! I love reading your posts. Thanx so much :heart:

[CFTraveler]

About the place-to place attention is enough for me.

[Sinera]

17/Mar/2015
Akashic Screen Session Transcript #2

I made this long self-quote from over a year ago now for reference and explanation of what this is about. I will keep further posts on this short. For the update see below.


11/Feb/2014 Akashic Screen Session Transcript #1

Preliminaries

This is about a lucidventure but also a kind of "where-do-I-go-from-here" statement.

I had this plan for a long time. It's to create the "Higher/Akashic Screen" in my Lightportal to communicate with my Higher Self and/or Akashic Records. I created the screen already during meditation-visualisation and with affirmations. It is put on a desk in my "Lightportal" - the 'save haven' where I communicate with helpers and my Higher Self as usual. I'm standing looking straight at it after 'exit' from my bed. To the left is a mirror for self-healing which I also put there by manifestation. To the right the window where I usually fly out of into the astral (the genuine "portal") in many experiences.

http://www.officialpsds.com/images/thumbs/tv-screen-1-psd29071.png

Below you will find the memory transcript of the first session. But a few more comments are due:

I simplified the process in the beginning now and it seemed to work. In my modest beginner's approach, I'm following the great advice given by Tom Campbell in one of his talks on YT. He suggested that talking to your guides to retrieve verifiable or valuable info might be easier (for a newbie) done by just using a binary communication mode with y/n-questions first. He also proposed to make it even easier the colours red = no and green = yes for answers since they are easy to recognise and to "transmit". This is a brilliant idea and a good starting point.
http://www.colorblindnessfacts.com/wp-content/uploads/2012/11/Red-Green-Colorblindness.jpg
I also want to try letters and numbers later, but as many of the more experienced projectors here already know they are more difficult to recognise due to reality fluctuations in the astral. So if you don't 'trust' numbers you see or they fluctuate, colour codes might be the best solution! I will also try to watch pictures and 'movies' of past lives or whatever then. But all in due course.

For the time being, I will use the "approximation" or "encircling"-technique in order to zero in on numerical data or other detailed info.
(Example 1: born in 1900s? yes - before 1950? yes - after 1920? no - after 1910? yes - after 1915? yes - 1916? no - 1917? yes // Example 2: born in Europe? no - in America? yes - North America? no - South America ? yes - Brazil? no - Peru ? yes, then try a city there etc ...)

I had already a recent try with a TV-set a few weeks ago 'by accident' when I became lucid in a pedestrian shopping area in a big city. I went to a window where tv screens were displayed. I asked one screen to relay to me info from my Higher Self. I asked for the year of birth of Sinera. It did not yet work. There was interference and then a male voice telling me to 'forget about Sinera' and 'come to us (names a city in my north)' in order to get trained as a helper and I will have a long career ahead of me as a (lit.) "juror de jure" (= judge by law), which made me really wonder what it meant.

Then a few days ago I had a healing/retrieving experience of an older lady in her appartment - not recorded here as I grow lazy of writing all of it down. Only after I beamed the person up into the light with her and some helpers hand-in-hand (which is my technique I used before) this time I saw instead of the light or instead of fading out a kind of tv-static (snow) and this showed me that the screen was accessible then to me. As a kind of reward perhaps? However I lost it and woke up before I could make use of it.

So this another try now, and my first direct one with nothing left to chance. This time it worked for a while and this is the first session from a few days ago with the answers (colours) as I remember them. I have prepared a list with tons of questions of personal or of a more general kind, the latter especially of my hobbyhorse, the 'alternative ancient prehistory of Earth'. I love this topic as some of you might also remember by some threads I made about it. It fascinates me and I read a lot about it or watch YT vids. Maybe the love of it will help me to finally gain some 'true' information about it. I read that 'love' of sth yields results. It has power to open doors.

How valuable is the non-personal and more general 'info' here, e.g. on past Earth's history? No clue, really. I offer the information or answers here without any guarantee for anyone who reads this or even myself. Make of it what you will, so to speak. As one member of this forum once put it in her signature: "Your reality may vary". Hence it might be my reality but not yours. ;)

However, I want to re-mention at least that I did a card validation in the Lightportal (http://www.astraldynamics.com.au/showthread.php?11852-Sinera-s-Lucidiary&p=120384#post120384) with help from my HS, although I did not use the screen directly. There is another kind of indirect personal 'validation' mentioned below in the Comments section of the first transcript.

So I naively believe the codes have some validity despite the fact that I do not ask verifiable questions with verifiable answers most of the time. I am beyond that point of having to get validations, as you might know when you read in my journal or other posts here before, I had my share with intended ones (as above) and not intended ones.
This is also a fun exercise mainly. Some personal questions might be more serious (and as I am anonymous here I have no problems sharing them as well) but I do not seek 'karmic' or whatever psychological solutions for any problems with this. Fortunately, I'm not in a dire life situation after all.

Once again, whoever will to read about my 'findings' from these sessions (I plan to do many!) take it with a grain of salt if you will.

Lucidventure / Transcript

Here we go with Session 1. In blue font I always only give the memory transcript as 'raw' as possible, without any further ado or what happened 'around it'. Screen colour codes put are in (...). This one is still very short. But it's a start, after all.



HIGHER-SCREEN MEMO-TRANSCRIPT SESSION #1 (11 Feb 2014)

ME: Am I an autist?

SCREEN: No. (Red)

ME: Is Sinera an incarnation and past life of mine?

SCREEN: Yes. (Green)

ME: Is Sinera born in the 1800s (= 18something)?

SCREEN: No. (Red)



Comments

After this last question I made the mistake to ask for the date directly instead of progressing with y/n methodology trying the encircling (see above). I then somehow intuitively 'received' the number 1799. But I need to re-ask this question with the approximation-technique next time. I then asked further questions but the screen had vanished and I was teleported into a room with a group of people who gave partly contradictory, partly nonsensical answers. Apart from that, my own protocol dictates that I will only 'accept' and include into the transcripts the Akashic Screen's colour code answers (y/n) anyway.

In that scene I also saw a broom on the floor. A broom signifies to clean up that past (see Dreammoods (http://dreammoods.com/cgibin/dreamdictionarysearch.pl?method=exact&header=dreamsymbol&search=broom)). Another hint that my 'guidance' maybe wants me to do other things and leave the past alone. But I love knowledge and will try to carry on anway. I will also not only ask past-related questions.

Further validity that it might NOT be my conscious or subconscious expectation directing the answers (and thus a self-delusion) is that fact that I really did not at all expect the answer "not in the 1800s". This is a surprise! I firmly had her located somehow in the (mid-)1800s before from my data and deductive reasoning. However, according to the style of her hair and attire, 1799 would still make sense as it shows early 1800s fashion for a young lady then. You see, it's a detective's work. I will soon make a post here when I collate all the data and conclusions "so far" about Sinera as it is now scattered across so many posts here in this journal. But first I will ask more questions.

Note that I use the term "18something" to denote the 19th century, and so on. I hope and believe the Akashic Record (Screen) "understands" this way of asking semantically.

I don't know if I should be relieved about not being an autist. I might ask about introversion or mild Asperger's anyway next time. Also I want to know what went wrong (if so) during and after my birth (I'm cesarian and then had cradle cap / milk crust as baby). It seems I absolutely refused to come out into this cruel and strange world. :mrgreen:

Yeah, so many questions, so little time ...

So here's the 2nd memo-transcript. In future this 'box' might be the only thing I post here, but due to this reference post above you might still know what it's about:



HIGHER-SCREEN MEMO-TRANSCRIPT SESSION #2 (17 Mar 2015)

ME: Was Sinera married?

SCREEN: Yes. (black snow swirl turns green)

ME: Am I Starseed?

SCREEN: Yes 75%. (black swirl turns first redd-ish/pink, then green, but still with a quarter of pink)

ME: How old is mankind? Is it more than a few thousand years old?

SCREEN: No clear answer. (yellowish or black swirl, means: question should probably be rephrased in future sessions)



Comments

Another little piece about Sinera. I might have expected the married part, but the 3/4 starseed gives food for thought now. http://www.bilder-hochladen.net/files/jgtq-2-c81e.gif

A shame that I still cannot remember my most important questions. I have so many prepared! Personal and general ones. But in the astral/etheric world, memory capabilties remain feeble and fragile.

Still, this simple and stripped down info gathering is fun for me, so I have taken it up again and will carry on with it. I understand it might be boring for many others reading this now, those who rather explore fantastic astral worlds and realms (not that I did that too) - but hey, so am I - I like to be boring.
;)

I feel like I'm a kind of observer/watcher, info gatherer, archivist, chronicler, librarian, data analyst - probably for more than one life I guess. That's why I will keep it up here.

I am asking my Higher Self these questions assuming it has access to akashic knowledge or even "is" akashic knowledge in a way. I call the "screen" "Higher Screen" (or "Akashic screen"), and that's my affirmation too.

But actually I am using the Void now, not a visualised screen. The Void is there naturally when I project in almost 50% of the times, it just comes up, like for many others. It is NOT what is termed exit blindness. This (for me) does not exist anymore. It has ALWAYS been "the Void" - the state/place where you can go from to "anywhere". Chakra activity might be involved though in perception and travel (for Korpo should you read this one day ... ).

So I do not have to do the visualisation 'work' anymore, I'm not too good at it anyway. Because yet the colours (assigned y/n-meaning) still seem to work! The Void itself shows the colour then, it blends it in as an answer, fascinating. However it resembles a tv screen with darker static anyway since it shows grey-black snowy swirling / static.

For those who've been to the Void - I assume quite a few here - know what I mean. Anyway, for those who don't, here's just a googled example for similarity, same as above (post 26/Sep/2014):

http://mattjwelch.com/blog/wp-content/uploads/2011/12/static.gif

Promise: it's my last long post here. From now on only transcript boxes and a few comments if I feel like it. :cool:

[Sinera]

29/Apr/2015
Akashic Void Session Transcript #3

Lucidventure / Transcript



AKASHIC VOID MEMO-TRANSCRIPT SESSION #3 (29 Apr 2015)

ME: Did Sinera live in Spain?

VOID: No. (former green-red mix swirl turns almost entirely red)

ME: Germany?

VOID: No. (remains red)

ME: France?

VOID: Yes. (turns almost entirely green)




After that I gained 'sight' and saw Earth like from space, but it looked rather synthetic or 'digital', like a computer game. I dived down into that digital globe and saw a big city. First a giant Mickey Mouse figure (not the first time during AP) and then the Eiffel tower but only after I said I would expect it.

Comments

The 'normal' AP with sight is worthless, I might have created or received by request what I wanted. But the transcript is - again - very valid for me. It corroborates the 'French connection'. See here (http://www.astraldynamics.com.au/showthread.php?11852-Volgerle-s-Lucidiary&p=109362#post109362) and here (http://www.astraldynamics.com.au/showthread.php?11852-Sinera-s-Lucidiary&p=128354#post128354). I still had hoped for a Spanish-speaking country, but there's still Ecuador to be investigated then. As a last name it is indeed the most common in France (http://www.namespedia.com/details/Sinera), but as a first it seems it's Albania (http://www.namepedia.org/en/firstname/Sinera/). Strange.

I found a method to get into the Akashic-Void more often now and might add more updates here from now on again. It's fun.
:-)

[Sinera]

14/May/2015
Akashic Void Session Transcript #4

Lucidventure / Transcript



AKASHIC VOID MEMO-TRANSCRIPT SESSION #4 (14 May 2015)

ME: Is Sinera her forename?

SCREEN: Yes. (swirl turns green)

ME: Control question, Is Sinera her last name?

SCREEN: No. (swirl turns red)




Comments

Again a little piece only. I then tried to get near the year of birth again but the 'screen' (void) remained in a yellowish or just 'light colour' tone, it seems difficult to 'encircle' dates.

After that I gained normal sight and was active in some usual astral sceneries and situations, not worth talking about here further.

The question was necessary, because of rising doubs if my natural assumption for years now (!) of it being her first name was right due to name statistics of France for this name as last name - see post above. (Thank goodness, seems no need now to ask an admin to change my nick to "Mrs Sinera" :mrgreen: )

[dontco]

Promise: it's my last long post here. From now on only transcript boxes and a few comments if I feel like it. :cool:

It's a shame, I like your long posts :-) but your short ones are great, too.

[Sinera]

Lucidventure / Transcript

After half a year I break my abstinence from public journaling since I have yet another Sinera research entry to make. :-)



AKASHIC VOID MEMO-TRANSCRIPT SESSION #5 (9 Nov 2015)

ME: Is Sinera born in the 1800s?

Void: No. (swirl turns red)

ME: Is Sinera born in the 1700s?

Void: No. (swirl turns red)

ME: Before 1700?

Void: Yes. (swirl turns green)

ME: Before 1600?

Void: No. (swirl turns red)

ME: In the 1600s?

Void: Yes. (swirl turns green)

ME: Hmm. Surprising. Is she born after 1650?

Void: No. (swirl turns red)

ME: So it's before 1650?

Void: Yes. (swirl turns green)

ME: Before 1640?

Void: No. (swirl turns red)

ME: Okay, so it's in the 1640ies?

Void: Yes. (swirl turns green)

ME: 1645?

Void: Undecided, split! (The colour field gets very interesting like never before: the left side is red and the right side is green)




After that I "lost it" and did not get another answer (the field stayed black and did not swirl anymore). I woke up soon after that. (Note that each longer transcript like this one is of course not 100% literal as I do not remember every single word correctly. But it's a good approximation and the content or meaning is not changed.)

Comments

This outcome has been quite a surprise! I was so fixed on the 19th century now. However, the women's clothing style and hairdo could still fit. Here's some women of that time: http://people.ucalgary.ca/~mamaes/17a.html

As one can see in the paintings, some of them also wear long/large elaborate dresses with a wider/lower decollete / cleavage. See for example Elizabeth the Bohemia, The younger (1618-1680). I remember that from Sineras red dress, if I do so correctly. But I'm not sure anymore. So it's France in the mid-1600s (17. century)? Wow. I did not expect that at all. My (un)conscious could not have influenced that. And I was so fixated on the period 1700-1800 or so. (However: see below, in another transcript session the 1800s had already been negated, I just remembered this now).

The very interesting last view of the Void with left red and green right is intriguing, too: Did the consciousness system or the 'records' tell me that the right number would have been in the upper part of the decade? So it is 1646-49 or so? Interesting interpretation. I could not make anything out of it during the experience. But now this is what makes the most sense to me. It was as if the Akashic Void wanted to help me zooming in on it in the 'right direction' from 1645 on (left: past, right, future, like the usual arrow of time: --->).
:wacky1:

However, I'll leave it at that and won't ask again, the decade will be enough. Instead I will now concentrate on her last (full) birth name for the next session. If lucky I get also the marriage name.

After that I plan to try the full regression as announced below.

But that's not even all. ;)

Another different approach is also in the pipeline: I am right now in another metaphysical forum on the waiting list for a free past life reading!

This gifted psychic lady who does it seems to deliver good results, since I noted that other members who already got one seem to be quite convinced since a lot of resonates with them and some things even seem to confirm earlier info. So I am looking forward to that. I asked this woman already (via pm) to focus on a lady in France if possible - not giving too much more info, not even the name. But she might also see other lives because she communicates via her Higher Self with the HS of the person (permission must be given) and the person's HS who gets the reading decides on what is being shown.

I will keep you updated and see what the outcome is, I expect to get the reading via pm this or next week and might share some of it on here.

I will then also make a short profile in order to update and summarise on what I "found out" so far about Lady In Red / Sinera. This sould normally include a portrait of her face (and I know even her voice!). It's so unfortunate that I cannot draw portraits of people because I would have made a sketch of her already. But I'm a lousy painter/drawer. :(

Sorry that this has become a "Sinera-past-life-only" journal by now. I'm getting carried away with it. It's maybe boring for you readers, but not for me. And what's still to come this will all be very interesting and exciting for me. I'm thrilled.
:D

[dontco]

Ohhh exciting! :-) hope she gets it right.
About the drawing- you can try to draw shapes, like a two circles for the eyes and then make them look more like Sinera's eyes, search for shapes in the face :-) you can also look on the internet for photos of women who look like her and use them as sort of a guideline... there are excellent guides for drawing on deviantart, if you'd like I can send you some I really like (they're for drawing a photo actually but I'm sure you could find some for drawing from imagination...). Do tell about your past life reading when you get it! :-) Just don't get dissapointed if she doesn't tell you about Sinera, because it's also possible she will tell you about someone else if you didn't tell her about her...

[Sinera]

Ohhh exciting! :-) hope she gets it right.
About the drawing- you can try to draw shapes, like a two circles for the eyes and then make them look more like Sinera's eyes, search for shapes in the face :-) you can also look on the internet for photos of women who look like her and use them as sort of a guideline... there are excellent guides for drawing on deviantart, if you'd like I can send you some I really like (they're for drawing a photo actually but I'm sure you could find some for drawing from imagination...).
Or maybe I will play around a little with this nice and funny tool: http://flashface.ctapt.de/
:cool:;)


Do tell about your past life reading when you get it! :-) Just don't get dissapointed if she doesn't tell you about Sinera, because it's also possible she will tell you about someone else if you didn't tell her about her...
Yes, this might well happen. But I will be as happy with any reading. Could be interesting anyway. Could also be an ET life since this is a starseed-related forum. I only told her to go for a lady in France. Not more. Speaking of France, this will be my next focus session then. I learnt the map with the biggest cities by heart, most of them if not all already existed in the 1640s too. I will ask the "Akashic Void" for her place of living or birth there: North, South, etc. or ask for the cities directly or the nearest big one.

I must admit I am still awestruck by this 'intelligence' that communicates with me and helps me in this way. It is definitely outside of me. I could not have made this up. I mean, yes the method was my own device (based on a tip from Tom Campbell, see post from 11 Feb 2014 explaining how I developed it). But the playful and creative way that "it/they" adjusted and customised it for me now for this purpose, that's amazing.

What I saw was not a 'swirl' anymore - or at least not much of it. But two clear fields of light. One red one green. The parting in the middle was almost perfectly straight and centred. I made a simple graphic now, see below. I added that arrow of time with the years concerned as my interpretation (no, did not see that!). As said, the 'green field' possibly indicated the remaining options. The year 1650 and after, as well as 1639 and before were already ruled out by my questions then. Maybe it was 1645 still (not clear to me) or one to the left until '49. No doubt it's the 2nd half of the 1640s. This type of signalling and communicating, so simple and beautiful, truly amazes me.
:wacky1::D

http://fs5.directupload.net/images/151111/icia5tns.jpg

[Sinera]

06/Aug/2012
To Boldly Go ...

(...)
Then I saw a funny young woman who was also flying but by operating a kind of old-fashioned looking tricycle as a flying machine, pedalling along through the air, relaxed and reclined, smiling and in good mood. I found that funny so I decided to fly after her for a short chat. When I reached her she had turned into a very old lady with a wrinkled face. I do not remember any detailed conversation, maybe she also just gave me a "rote". She also touched me gently once. I learnt that she was born in the year 16-something (17th century). So I thought she was doing this for quite 'a while', it explained her 'age' to me and also the old-fashioned looking carriage-like tricycle.
(...)


Short addendum: I searched on Google with the terms in quotation marks to combine the strings "17th century" and "Sinera" and this brought up my own journal here ... but a different post from Aug 2012.:shock:

Question: was it her? No mention of Sinera in that post (http://www.astraldynamics.com.au/showthread.php?11852-Sinera-s-Lucidiary&p=113486#post113486) but I had asked for her year of birth on August 1st 2012 (http://www.astraldynamics.com.au/showthread.php?11852-Sinera-s-Lucidiary&p=113419#post113419) (5 days earlier).. Was that the answer: first the young Sinera and then how old she got, maybe she lived to see the year 1700 after all. This lady clearly indicated the 16xx as her year of birth to me, unfortunately NOT her name.

Could just be coincidence - but it leaves me with another intriguing conundrum once again.

http://www.bilder-hochladen.net/files/jgtq-2-c81e.gif

[Sinera]

Lucidventure / Transcript

This is from a few days ago, the night from Saturday to Sunday.



AKASHIC VOID MEMO-TRANSCRIPT SESSION #6 (15 Nov 2015)

Me: I know already she was married. Was she also a mother?

Void: Yes. (swirl turns green)

Me: Did she have one child?

Void: Yes. (swirl remains green)

(I decide on a control question and to exclude 'dumb literality' because you can still say correctly to have 1 child when you also have 2 children)

Me: Did she have two children?

Void: No. (swirl turns red)

Me: Control question: Did she have three children?

Void: Yes, kind of. (swirl turns more greenish again.)

(Of course, I get confused now. I break my own protocol and demand acoustic communication instead. I am still in "The Void" and as usual after a while a voice appears. First I hear that of a woman from far and she seems upset or panicked but I do not understand a word. Then a sober and reasonable male voice starts talking to me.)

Me: Ok. I'm waiting for acoustic communication still. ... How many children did she have? The conflicting info I got is confusing me right now!

Male Voice (from what I got): .... poisoning .... there was a problem with (the) banana bottles. ....

(I do not get more when I ask for clarification and fade out.)





Comments

Of course I later wished I had not done the control question. All was so fine and clear-cut after the second green light.
:banghead:

Still. I wanted to check my own methodical questioning and the entire communication mode system.

First I was disappointed, of course. The word "banana bottle" did not make sense to me. I translate it here directly from the German version "Bananenflasche" (literally: bananas-bottle). I did not even want to make a research as I believed this term to be complete nonsense.

I am now happy I changed my mind and did the research. Then I did the poll here (http://www.astraldynamics.com.au/showthread.php?18510-Survey-about-a-term-word-%28poll%29) online to check if it was also unknown to others and in the English-speaking world. As of this date 7 answers give 100% confirmation that this "historic" term was not known at all, probably not even to today's mothers? Thanks here to everyone who participated!

Of course one can easily imagine a bottle in banana shape as a gimmick product - but still .... where's the relation to children born? And poisoning? It was nonsense for me but then found out to my very surprise: There was a connection. Even a strong one.

In a nutshell: Banana bottles were invented to help lower the rate of infant deaths by feeding them with this more hygienic tool. Infants died very often due to 'germs' (poisoning) in the food/milk etc. due to the not so well easily cleanable vessels used before it.

The only problem for me now is that banana bottles were invented in the late 19th century. But maybe there is a way to interpret it still: Possibly the guy meant the "non-existence" of these bottles back then? The poisoning was caused by the vessels that were used back then in 16xx?

Below I post some links for information that contain also pictures of a banana bottles of the 19/20th century and as contrast a bottle that was typically used in the 17th century.

Maybe he also used THIS word for me to do the research and get some 'kind of' verification of his communication to me. Also, time is different on the other side, therefore his reference to a tool still under way to be invented?

Poor Sinera!
:(

So were 1 or 2 (hence green at 3) of her children early deaths? And one got through to a higher age (green at 1)? Was the upset voice an expression of her being upset about losing her child/children? Of course it's all a loose interpretation and I will re-question this thing again on the next occasion arising.

Below the links and pics for who's interested on the 19th century banana baby bottle and the typical 16th century bottle:

http://www.ealimentarium.ch/en/object-cbox/964

(http://www.ealimentarium.ch/en/object-cbox/964)http://www.ealimentarium.ch/en/object-cbox/1224

http://www.objectlessons.org/health-and-beauty-20th-century-to-present/baby-bottle-victorian-edwardian-original/s72/a960/

http://babyflaschen.jimdo.com/

http://breastfeeding-mom.com/baby-bottles/

http://twinpossible.com/wp-content/uploads/2013/01/baby-smiley.png

[Sinera]

02/Sep/2016
Real Heaven Is: The Higher Self

It's been a while since November 2015 .. so let's do another new one with a more philosphical touch (hence the longer comments-section which happens not the first time either ;)), but still related to deeper spiritual (Higher-)Self-searching by OBE. So here we go again ...

Due to a lot of life problems again I had already the intent to meet my Higher Self for answers and support again before going to sleep. Later in a dream I get lucid maybe in a city and shout the famous Buhlman-command 'Higher Self Now!' and rise up into the sky.

I realise soon that am not soaring alone but helped by s.o. but do not see them. I can feel the helper holding my left arm somehow and flying with me (they often flew with me to astral landscapes years ago, but as my projections got fewer this stopped).

It is a 'she' when I ask the being. while we still fly upwards to some kind of light tunnel in white and greyish colours. Here's the remembered dialogue with a surprising information and twist, giving me intriguing thoughts at first but maybe only re-confirming what I already knew (once again):

Me: „What is your name?“
Helper: „Tina.“
Me: „Did you help me before in this life?“
Helper: „No.“
Me: „Ahaa, again a new one. So there are really many of you who sometimes come to my help when I need it?“
Helper: „Yes. You've got many friends in Heaven. We are about 2000.“


When we arrived in a kind of city I somehow lost lucidity and the memory of the rest. Maybe I also had a false awakening trying to remember this dialogue with the helper.

Comments / Afterthoughts

Years ago in another experience I was told by Besh (one of my guides) that I had constantly 10 helpers / guides around me. This might be a confusing and contradicting information due to the difference of approximately 1990 helpers. :mrgreen:

At first look yes, but I have another theory. The first information were 'traditional guides' (from other HS?), this one with the "2000 friends" were aspects / incarnations / avatars / expressions / forms of my Higher Self.

This can be assumed because as mentioned I did the command to meet my Higher Self before sleep and during the experience. The 2000 friends might thus be the number of incarnations or aspects of my Higher Self - not necessarily all Earth lives, I do not believe I have that much here, but all kinds of life experiences „anywhere“.

There's reason to believe that these personalities somehow keep their existence as another expression of and a part inside our Higher Self, just like an avatar or a role we played, or - as the wonderful Mr. Monroe put it - a kind of flower in that carpet that is actually a huge family - called „friends“ by Tina in my case.


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EJ0QQ9612yg

And by this I now received another hint in the aftermath. As I rewatched this YT video now I was surprised that Mr Monroe even literally says „it is somewhere about/above 2000“ (see at 2:20) speaking about his own HS - so he gave the same number for his own HS (which he had different names for such as I There Cluster or Total Self).

:whatthe:

I of course had seen this vid years ago but did not consciously remember that he said this number (or mis-remembered it because I actually thought he might have given a higher estimated number like in the 10.000s of lives or even 100.000?). This is no coinicidence for me. I've been given these hints when doing research with videos or dream symbols so often. It is amazing and great!

So with „Tina“ I again met one life experience package (as Tom Campbell calls them in his theory) of mySELF - my HS - and was told there are maybe 2000 or more „flowers“ in that carpet (as Monroe saw it).

I often met Sinera because I asked for it in my research as I believe her to be one of my most recent (previous) incarnations, born in 1650-17xx. She even once kissed me on my head like a mother does to her child when I was in Sleep Paralysis, giving me a sign of unconditional love from my HS. So they are even more than just "friends" I believe.

What is also interesting is her use of the word „Heaven“ which for me stands out. I personally never use this expression because for me the traditional concept of heaven is a Belief System Territory (BST) where some people of certain beliefs might meet after death.

However, since the HS is for me a part of God/Source this makes total sense to me and only confirmed what I maybe already believed to be 'really' heaven. Heaven is not the astral cities or any lower or higher BST that we might go to after death temporarily. No, it is ourSELF !!!

I will want to go there maybe even directly and no where else when I pass over. Hope I remember to demand it like I sometimes do in OBEs like this, but chances are good I might since during APs I am practicing for it right now.

William Buhlman talks about this topic in this wonderful and in part a bit humorous speech. I bookmarked the part where he starts about the importance of reaching out to and reuniting with the Higher Self, especially after death:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZlZNmwCD1pA&t=57m23s

I recommend both videos of the Monroe Institute, Monroe's and Buhlman's, because it is the greatest explanation and exploration of „us“, of the HS that I can think of.

[Sinera]

02/Oct/2016
Akashic Void On Standby

Just a short but interesting one. I phase into the Void. I wanted to get a picture from a code for a Remote Viewing experiment in another forum.

When I entered the Void from SP as usual, a nice voice greets me with a nice and very friendly "Hallo." (engl: Hello). It sounded like a young woman/girl or a child to me.

This is not the only 'ready-for-service'-sign: There is again the screen split and I see on one side the green nebula ('yes'-element) and on the other side the red swirl ('no'-element). I do not remember this time which was on which side. Here's a slight approximation (not really what I saw) I made in a graphic program in 4 minutes or so, just to give an idea:

http://www.astraldynamics.com.au/attachment.php?attachmentid=1357&stc=1 (edit: see thumbnail below)

It seems somehow as if the Void was waiting for my first y/n-question or any instruction. Standby mode.

I give instruction but somehow it does not work. I demand the picture as it is about remote 'viewing' sth. But somehow it does not react and change. Then I phase somewhere else into an astral darker scenery but do not get ahead somehow and memory also escapes me as well as lucidity.

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It worked years ago when I was shown the card for my card validation. Need to figure out still how to get imagery from it. So far it is only trained to give red swirl, green swirl or both. Work in progress. But the standby mode is cool.
:cool:

[Sinera]

04/Oct/2016
Don't Roll For The Void!

Another technical short one, but for what it's worth...

Again I get lucid and somehow seem to be in the Void. I am lying as usual on my side - the right one where I also was yesterday when I saw the standby screen.

This time however I realise I am being hold down by hands on my shoulder and arm to be prevented from moving it seems, it's a firm grip. Apparently, a helper wants to keep me from doing a typical „roll-out-“action.

I seem to ignore it however - a mistake. When I moments later somehow decided to move and get out into an astral (darker) room and other astral scenery I do not remember anymore my target despite trying hard to remember, the usual exit amnesia happened to me ... again, as so often.
:-(

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This kind of assistance in hindsight for me makes perfect sense. Actually I believe that the (best, only?) way to reach the Void is by phasing and not by any „exit“ manoeuvre. I cannot remember ever that I 'rolled' or floated or 'got up' into the Void. You have to use Sleep Paralasis as a launch pad and then just switch, phase, teleport, jump ... get lucid and 'be there'.

This is what I was shown or taught. It seems I am really being helped. The day before with the greeting and standby mode and now with 'manual' help. S.o. tries to teach me how to use the Void and be there more often to ask my questions and get more information. I asked for this a lot and now it seems I am being heard at last.

It is vital to prevent ANY "movement" because as soon as you have done that you are 'out of the Void' because you manifested an astral environment. At least that is what it is for me it is hard or impossible then to get back to the Void-state .

In the thought responsive and chaotic astral it is almost impossible to get verifiable and 'stable' data streams. So the best way to get RV and other validation information is The Void and by communicating with it. This is what I tried to do many months ago. And now again. After a long break I am at it again and I'll keep trying!

If only they could also help me to remember things which is almost the hardest thing for me. Often I am 'out' and stop to remember „what the ... did I wanna do after all?“. This sucks. A common problem for many projectors. And so for me.
But it seems when it happens there is no real cure for that, except doing manifestations and trying to re-affirm the target next to the intent to go out of body during pre-projection preparations.

That will be my next task to improve, next to not moving and just 'phasing', then meeting the Void for information. I will ask it if imagery is possible, if not (red) I will have to go without it and keep doing 'remote asking' instead of 'remote viewing' with my meanwhile infamous
red:angry:green:mrgreen:-technique-thingy.

Keep yah posted. :cool:

[Sinera]

Lucidventure / Transcript

Can't believe that it's almost a year from my last Void communication transcript posting, after all I love to bore my dear readers (if any left) so much with it! :mrgreen:

Here we go with a short one showing that even failures can provide valueable insights and motivation.

I get lucid from a WBTB method and remember not to move or wait for vibrations. I just phase into the Void and am indeed there although I'm only partly lucid and amnesic again (a common problem of mine!):



AKASHIC VOID MEMO-TRANSCRIPT SESSION #7 (30 Oct 2016)

(Struggling to remember one of my set topics I settle on a recent dream motif I had, 'playing tennis')

Me: A.N. is one of the best professional tennis players in the world?

Void: No. (swirl turns red or pinkish red)

Me: C'mon! She is. Or at least we can agree that she is very beautiful!

Void: Yes. (swirl turns green)

(I do get annoyed and panicky to find quickly my predefined topics but fail to do so before I fade out again.)




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What a nice meaningless "chitchat" huh? :wink:

And another epic failure by amnesia again. On a positive note, pior to failing I did well on a technical level by remembering to "not roll" or "cause vibrations" but instead doing "phasing" with intent. As I was taught recently! I just need s.o. to teach me how to take my memory with me. This is getting very annoying.

Anyway. So why is this still a valuable insight again?

Simply: I was wrong. The Void was right. I messed up completely due to leaving half of my reason and mind behind: Ms A.N. is not the best tennis player of the world. She is not a tennis player at all!

She is a professional drummer and at least there I was right again: she's certainly one of the best if not the very best in her field. I am a former drummer and watched her brilliant drum/music videos lately again, so this explains the mix-up with the tennis dream before it. (Btw, although beauty always is in the eye of the beholder according to some common standards at least of your western society I believe most would say she is a beautiful woman, hence the green colour...).

The valuable insight: This all shows that there is an independent 'intelligence' at work that is communicating with me. Whatever it is, an akashic field / database /records, guides, the higher self or the subconscious I cannot tell. But it is 'real' and I can use it to retrieve info that seem valuable, plus I get a lot of help from it.

So this one is another verification! Like before with the playing card validation from the Void, the unasked assistance by holding me down to avoid rolling, the stand-by mode, the visual reply with the split field ('take the middle'), or the audio info with the banana bottles unknown to me and others in this forum before (http://www.astraldynamics.com.au/poll.php?pollid=92&do=showresults).

In this case it was kind of correcting my own failing subconscious amnesic mind by 'disagreeing' to a kind of 'rhetorical' question where I expected the answer to be 'yes'.

Although you might think you know sth consciously (even if nonlucid), your body/mind system and 'real' subconscious or (your/a) higher consciousness shows you differently. Maybe we can compare it to other methods of channelling, or any method of 'divination' such as drowsing, pendulum swinging, tarot. Also the kinesiologic muscle test comes to my mind.

And it could be right! At least this is my conclusion now.

Therefore I will go on with this project because I seem to be 'on to something' here. That's why I forgo normal projections now. Many might ask why shouldn't I fly through beautiful astral or mental higher realms again like most projectors want to do instead of playing around with green and red fields?

As said. I'm an information nerd. Nothing wrong with that. At least for me. :cool: