IA´s dream diary....

[IA56]

Thank you Neophos

I did be born to this Life with my Eyes closed and total fear/terror about where I did be born into...I felt total alone....and longed after my real family??...This feeling of fear I was born with...it must come from pre Lifes too....so it feels like it is so Deep and compact and in many layers and dimentions....I have really pondered about this in many many years, but have not found the real root yet...I have a hunch that when I find the real root I will be liberated and the bound energy will be free and I am huge then...

Love
ia

[IA56]

Last night Dream is only one I want to mention.....I was looking at persons who did weight Babies....with a old scale....the baby on one end and weight on the other and balancing to know the weight of the baby....

[Neophos]

So the baby was being "weighed" with a pair of old scales, was there a physical weight on the other side?

What other details can you provide, try and remember just before and after, or any other detail.

What was your emotional state in the dream?

You tend to dream a lot at night, and you have good recall. A lot of symbolism in your dreams.

[Neophos]

Alright i will make an "attempt" on this one

the scales weighing the baby indicates that your are trying to examine an aspect of yourself. In your daily life lately, you are observing a part of yourself that you deem inmature (the baby) and you are weighing this inmaturity up. So this means, you are "self observing" this does not mean by anyway that your inmature. It means "an aspect" of yourself may need attention. It could be anything, from spending money unessascarily to a weakness of a certain temptation (all us humans have this) its called spiritual growth.

I will leave this for you to decide, also the fact that your father used to use those could indicate something (or not) you know yourself, so you decide and "think" carefully, about what you have been examining about yourself lately. peace, neophos.

[IA56]

Alright i will make an "attempt" on this one

the scales weighing the baby indicates that your are trying to examine an aspect of yourself. In your daily life lately, you are observing a part of yourself that you deem inmature (the baby) and you are weighing this inmaturity up. So this means, you are "self observing" this does not mean by anyway that your inmature. It means "an aspect" of yourself may need attention. It could be anything, from spending money unessascarily to a weakness of a certain temptation (all us humans have this) its called spiritual growth.

I will leave this for you to decide, also the fact that your father used to use those could indicate something (or not) you know yourself, so you decide and "think" carefully, about what you have been examining about yourself lately. peace, neophos.

Thank you Neophos,

I have alwasy things in my dreams from this Life like here I was weighded with this kind of scale when I was born at my grand-fathers house where my parents lived on my birthday...countryside and born home....and you are right about the self aspect...what need to grow....and the valley Dream is a good Dream to show my growth when comparing the older valley Dreams....what has to develop or grow out of me is fear.....and I am happy to see my fear is much lesser then Before....and that now Days I do notice soothingness when it is apointed at me and a dare to listen and take in so to speak....if this makes any sense to you....it does a lot to me......thank God.

I have bean self observing my self since 1981....not to say much have happened but enought for me to notice the difference.....and that is enough good for me...I am growin.

Love
ia

[IA56]

Yes it was an old scale....my grandfather used one to weight fish and stuff with....it has a weight on the other end and a hook on the other and in middle scale to see how much more than the end weight.....I do not know what this scale is called but in Finnish language it is....puntari.....the baby was very healthy and robust...strong and blooming.....

Love
ia

[IA56]

Last night dream was those ...valley...dreams ..I have not had them for years so I am little bit compelled....

I was walking with a big group in the valley...it was very calm and joyful atmosphere...I was front walkers when I suddenly turned around and spotted wild horses...the first one I saw was big white horse....I started to run ...I saw a lodge and started to run towards it to get some kind of protection...I hear a soothing song and I suddenly realise that my panic will make all go amok....so I stop running and turned around and see one driving a horse with carriage...and have a lot of hay on a carriage and I realise that they are feeding these wild horses....and I feel rediqulious for feeling such a fear of the wild horses.....

For several years when I had these valley Dream in them I was a look out on the hills to warn the valley people when wild horses was incomming....I shouted horses incomming...

[Neophos]

Who was feeding the wild horses?

And what colour was the other horses and how many?

[IA56]

Who was feeding the wild horses?

And what colour was the other horses and how many?

I am not sure who the feeder was, but I Think it was the people of the valley...or I accepted that the valley had accepted the wild horses and helped them to survive....my first notice was the White colore it did not do any difference first to me....it was still a wild horse no matter what colore they have.....and the others was White with light Brown specks....It was a big Group I did not see all but felt them to be many....
when the hay vagen pulled by the horse...I thought it had bean a wild horse from the beginning but was tamed.....so I was so surprised how my fear had blinded me Before....but the soothing song did open my Eyes and made my fear leave me to see more cleare.....

Thank you again Neophos for making me Think deeper....

Love
ia

[IA56]

Last night Dream all was about my lower back...I was worried about me lying on my stomach and feeling that on my left hand 3 fingers gone numb...I hear myself saying to me....do not worry I am here.....

the part where I did say to myself ...do not worry I am here...the sayer was more real than my body....it was interesting experience...never felt it that way.