IA´s dream diary....

[IA56]

In my dream last night I went into stable with a young man, there was a very ill horse, the young man did hadle the horse very gentle and with very slowly gestures, he did not talk, and I felt that I must be so quiet and not make one sound...I felt that the horses nervous system was broken and if the movements was to quick or hars the horse will fall to the ground. The young man had to hand feed the horse to keep it alive and it will hopfully heal.....

If this is me on one level then I understand how injured I did become from the big beating in 1981.

[IA56]

Last night in my dream I entered a class-room or likely, I had an air-inhalator in my hand, and that did caught everyones eyes, it was reportered to the prinsipla or likely,
he did come to take a peak of me, he did look at me and turned around, I felt that "someone" had lied about me, that I was total healthy, but now they did get the evidence
that I had bean telling truth all along....I felt that do it has to be dragged this far to be heard....or to be believed in my word´s?

[IA56]

I have nearly not had any Dreams after my parents passing....some nights ago I did Dream that my aunt (fathers sister) was sitting on my mother coucth in lila clothings and his husband (mothers brother) sitting on the floor and shuffle a deck of cards and he said...I am shuffling....he used this English word ....shuffling.

Last night I had a dream that I did see all kind of energy forms...I was so surprised because I only see if I focus, but now in the dream I did see with open eyes and not focusing, but what I notices
was that I was not able to communicate with them, they did do what they was doing without them seeing me??I did try very hard to catch their attention without any success.

[IA56]

In last night dream I was again back to my old stress dream´s??
I was with my sisters husband and there was a threat against us, so we found a cave beneath the surface of ground,
the one who was "hunting" us did put his head into the cave and tried to locate us, but to my surprise I noticed that
there was a enterance into the cave further down, and he did come and caught us. He did put a net over my sisters
husband and did take me with him, I tried to lighten him up and I asked if he can dance with me, he was surprised
and he did dance with me, he did melt a bit and was not that threatening or angry anymore.
He did take me to a place where he lived and left me there, he went out.
I did put more clothings on me it was winter out, I walked on a road with much snow, further down I did see him coming
back, I started to look for a escape way, his friends did come in big trucks and tried to hit me so I would die.
But I was lucky and found a house where a window was open, Indoors was an old women, I told her my dilemma and
asked for help, she said she will help me, she gave me money and called for a man to help me and take me away.
He had a big boat, and I was very suspicoius of him, I was afraid he would take me back to the one who hijacked me,
The fear in me in the dream made me to wake me up....

[IA56]

In last night dream I was again kidnapped....I was with a femal (no clue who she was) I was overpowered by an American African man, I could feel his chest-hair, and also see it was grey.
I was so afraid, OMG....is he naked??...I could not at all "feel" his body from the waist down??
The women did do something so his grip of me loosened and I took off.....I run into the bathroom and was able to lock the door....I did hold the turnable lock (you can open this kind of lock if you use a knife or something likely from the outside, but if you hold the turnable lock what is inside you can not force the lock open) and I felt he grabbed a knife and here the dream did become so intence so I awoke myself from it....

[IA56]

In last night dream I was with a women, very beautiful and stable, I had in mind that I´d like to have an relationship with her but she did not want. She said she had a gf, I suggested that we
could be friends, but no she said...I did clearly feel that she was afraid her gf will see us together and that will make trouble for her....She went to meet her gf, now she did introduce me to her
like we just bumped into each others....I did play along to save her....the gf and me was waiting for her she went home to hers because I had forgotten my cellphone there, so we where
waiting for her and now a man did approache us, I did feel my heart make a big jump....he was so gourgeous.....I at once did go further away to look for some painting, the gf did come to me
and asked what happened to me...I was not able to tell her, that the man did make so deep impression in me that I bluched....aaah the gf said...did you fell in love with him...I denied...
but she did tease me for this...and now she come and gave my cellphone discrealy to me....and the gf told her what happened......

In this dream I could very clearly feel the difference what I like....

[IA56]

In last night dream my cousin J told me that if certain things will happen then he will give his old car for free to me.....

[IA56]

In last night dream I was with someone I can not say who it was, we where traveling by car everyday and took a ferry or a boat, but one day we did not be in time even we have not digressed from time, and not heard or got any information that the boat have changed time-table??
I was worried what has happened, so I said we have to go the the stop before our regular harbor, and yes this did solve it, we did make it to come ombord the boat. One day the one whom I have travelled with was sitting around a table and staring into something and was not contactable, I tapped on it´s shoulder (I say it becasue I can not say if it was a she or a he) No reaction, I tapped again and now it said, I had just one thought of my own, I was confused first but did understand that this was huge for it, this was a real revelation, to see the differece of own thought, this will make all difference from now on, I said, I have had it for a long time, now it become very angry with me, and said, I do not care how long you have had own thoughts, but mine has just started.

[IA56]

In last night dream I was wrapped in a blanket and wearing my night dress?? I went out to visit my cousin P but did all the time be disturbed
and ending up in situation of various happening, like when I went into the house to take the staires up a book-schelf was blocking my way,
so I turned around to take the elevator but in the elvevator was a women moving out of the building and she was sitting in a Wheel-chair,
telling me that she have got to know a place with much lower rent than this flat she has in this house, and she was going into the garage,
I helped her with her bag´s out of the building.
I took the elevator and reached my cousins door, someone unknown opened the door, her appartament was in disaray and I was wondering
what has happened, she told me that one of her friends with several children has moved to live with her. I appologixed me not being dressed
properly and that I felt such a urge to visit her quickly and therefore I was not dressed and was wearing my night dress.
To my surprise she was knitting a jumper with many details, I tried to ask her how much did it cost her the material and how much does she
sell it out, she did not want to tell me?? But she said, I have already sold one. It was so much work with one jumper that I was thinking that
it is not cheep the yarn to it and it will take such a long time to knit it, I tried to help her but I am so much worse in my hands that I was so
dissapointed that my knitting was so bad that it did not have the quality what it has had before.

I am sad today......

[IA56]

In last night dream I was helping my mother at her work, she was a cleaner whole her working life. I was reprimanded by her because I did clean on a area what did belong to one other cleaner, mother was so irritated and told me to stop, I did not feel it was that big matter as she did see it.
I did work very long time with a mirror what was full of poop from flies, it was hard to get real clean.