IA´s dream diary....

[IA56]

Last night in my Dream I was lost...I Went out from my house and I noticed I was dressen in a pyjamas, but I Went out ...and I thought I only go for a short walk and I tried to remember how the surroundings look like, but I lost my self and started to cry and said ..why is it like this that I do not find my way to navigate or to find back from where I started...I noticed houses as they are painted in fairytales and I couldn´t Believe my eye´s, and like saying...no way this is real.....Then I whitnessed a horse running like crazy and no one riding it...so I felt the horse will soon run my way...I find a building...high building...and like a corner to hid in..I took like a plank like hide behind...I put the pland in front of my face...the horse did sence me and did stop, I was so afraid, but did the best to master my fear, and talked calmly to the horse and I pet it too, the man who was the horse owner did Catch up and grabbed the horse, I noticed the man to bend the horses head like to fear it to obey him and not to dare to run from him...I did not feel good to see how he did put the element under his controll....I did try to find out if his way was the right and ulitmated way to Control the horse, it did not feel like right, but because I do not know what is the right way, it make´s me unsure and gives me low self esteem and low self confidence.

[IA56]

Last night was really strange...I was with my bf to a family who did run a spa or something likely...I did demostrate some Products....and I did like spray it on the air and it did fell on the womens face and she did be like a stiff doll...so I said...do smear it on your face it is good for the skin...and the the boy did have a bottle with very Little Cork and it did come like fogg from the bottle..and I did take the bottle and did pusch it upwards quickly so it made smoke rings....and I did several of them...and that did mean something what I do not remembern now....and then the man did massage one womens sholder with some kind of oil..and I said...yes it is neutral, it is not added any smell in it?? or color......Then I did instruct my bf how to sew inside of my nose...and he did like joke with the needle in his hand like to not show how unsure he is....that this is a piece of cake....but I do not know for what reason he should make stiches inside my nose??...so strange indeed....

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Last night I did dream that I was watching a little baby to throw up...and the mother did not bother to help the baby so I held her and I was so afraid it will choke but then it did throw up a whole slice of bread/toast...I was in chock....I did yell to the mother...you must help and learn the child how to eat...you can´t give this small child a slice of bread it can´t chew yet.....

In this episode I did meet the man from India I did be together with in 1983-85..he was so happy to meet me...but I had to say as it is...I have a bf now...he did see very sad...but what was strange was that I saw him having a hole in his trousers where his genitals are and it was round and I was thinking why it is this way...but I did not get to understand and somehow I was happy that I am not with him anymore, he did give me very unsafe feeling.

[IA56]

Last night I did meet new people, we did shake hand´s and said our first name´s but I do not remember more than that I said my own name...I do believe this means that it is new era starting in my life, exiting

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Last night my sister asked me if I am married....No I said...and looked at my left hand, and I see 2 rings on the ringfinger...now I did understand why she asked....and I hear me answering....I am training/practising to carry rings.....

[IA56]

Last night I did have a dream where my father did make me aware of my strength....it went like this.....I did press some kind of liquid from a holder and all did splash around us and father looked at me and asked...do you not understand how strong you are...and now I did be aware of it and I did ease the pressure and all did flow as it should and not splashing around us and all over us....

[IA56]

Last night in my dream I was walking with an old man with heart problems, I did support him and asked if he think he can walk to the doctors office, it is not far away, he said yes, but in a minut he said and I also felt that his heart are going to give up, so I asked if he thinks he can manage into the waiting hall and sit on a bench...he repeted my saying...sitting on a bench yes he said...and just as I was opening the door to the waiting hall I woke up and had to go to bathroom.....

[IA56]

Last night dream I was invited to a gay bar....I did look around and I see me bf sorounded by all people and they are celebrating, a man what did show to be my bf bf looked at me and to see my reaction, I nodded at him in acceptace and he did be relived that I really did like truth as I claim..he went with a plaket to my bf ..it was with the text....gay of the year 2013...they where photographed togeather...I was off course sad to be told in this way, I had appreaceated him to be truthful to me and tell me him self instead of his former bf inviting me to see this in this way...well this show me how hard people seam to feel about truth and to dare to be truthful, often they live double life´s.....

[IA56]

Oh, I now remember another of my last night dream.....I was outside of my body, and also me lie on the bed....my stomach has like a door, and I open it...and there is something black...I do take it out, and try to understand what it is...it is a dead dragon, black??..I try to awake it but it is total dead...I embrace it to try to give it energy, but no...it is dead...then I start to draw out the intestines to see if they are okay, and as far as I can understand all is well....

[IA56]

I only remember one short seqence from last night...I did nearly drop one glass plate but I did just to awake to catch it in the dream off course