IA´s dream diary....

[IA56]

In last night dream I have had such a good cleansing from my resentment and hurt what has also happened in my relationships with men...in last night dream I saw my sister having a clear flirt with my man...I exposed them and went to the balcony to cool off....my sister come after me and did not admit what just happened...she just looked at me with a smurk on her face...that mad me so angry...so I said...I will go and hit him...(I never acted out like this in real life...I only ended the relationship pretty quickly, because if I asked they never admitted) ...I felt all the hurt and anger rusching through me...and I said...I will go hung myself...(this deep and hard I felt in real life..but of course I never acted on it) ..it was very cleansing to both feel and see my reaction this clearly...

[IA56]

In last night dream I see myself in a mirror...I am putting make up on my eye lasches...I am surprised to do this because I have not used make up in years and years...

[IA56]

In last night dreams a German Sheperd dog pushed his nose towards my face...I felt no fear but I froze a bit...I said to my father...please take the dog away from me...father pushed the dog and now the dog was frozen and fell to the floor and stayed down on the floor?

In this episode...I was having a conversation with a man...we where talking about how I most leave out details from my dreams..not seeing them as important...but he urges me to try to write down every little detail...

In this episode I was invited to a man to eat dinner...he asked me what I wanted to drink...I said water....he gave me strange drink ...it looked like youghurt with musrooms...I said ...interesting...and I tasted it and it tasted good like vanilla and the musrooms gave textur to it....to my surprise he put a whole sausepan with some kind of stuwe on my plate...I said...I can not eat from a sausepan...he smurked at me....

In this episode I was going to visit some people...I had a dark bottle with bear with me...the bottle had a red cork witch you could crew on...suddenly the cork disapeard...I gave the bear bottle to a man...and I said...I lost the cork...outside was a stream of water...I saw the cork floating on the water...but when I neared me the cork went under water and disapeared...soon I saw it again in the stream of water...and I again tryed to take the cork...but it went under water and after this I did not see the cork again...

[IA56]

Last night I was visiting my aunt..door bell rang..I went to open the door and mother is standing outside...I was totally surprised and just stared at her...she asks what`s the matter??..I said...I am just surprised to see you here...I was planning to come and visit you...okay she said...we go to my place...No I said...you are here ...come in....

[IA56]

In last night dream there was 2 dogs...Golden brown...and a black one....the black one was making a mess...so I put him on the balchony to cool off...the Golden brown dog wanted to go with the black dog I put to time off....I went to check on them and to see if he has calmed down....when I opened the balhony door the black dog tried to attack me...so I close the door again...after a while the black dog started to say...hey...let me in...so I opened the door little bit again...but no...he tried to jump on me...so here I awoke myself...

[IA56]

I took a nap...and I saw a image when I come out of the sleep...it was like someone blow air through my crown chakra...the image was...I saw a man building a pyramid...I did not see his face...the picture was taken so the pyramid was infront of him...the outlines was on place but there where missing pieces in the middle...the pyramid was made in colore deep Maroon red...

[IA56]

I just remember one thing from my dreams from this night...I circled my bear foot on the ground...it was light tanned ground with soil...no grass...when I circled my foot to the ground I made a sound...and this sound awake me from the dream...the surroundig was open and bright but only nature around..no houses ....

[IA56]

Hi Antares.

I will tell you my story...I met a man in 2001...who was powerful and whilst I was in contact with him...I was invaded by same sort of energies/entities as you describe ...interupting and making me lack of sleep and having episods of psyhosis....I had my own company so I could decide when to take time of...and when to work...so this went on for several years as you decribe about your life....I was taken advantage of and I was loosing much money...until one day I decided ...this is enough...I left the man`s guidance...and went bankcrupty...I was totally ruined...

I started to build up my life again...I gave me time to heal...and I started to have inner knowing why this happened...it was my own doings...I had to start to look how my emotions is and why the energies so successully blinding and keeping me from to see what was going on.../ at that thime I was not able to process my traumas and not to understand my feelings...about jelousy...grudges)..I have just now resently started to get words to what is what....difference between negs and elementals... everybody has elementals as a part of the level you develp to and to the bodies is part of our consiusness...I am just getting words to link to my experiences.

When I got some distance to this happening with the "negs, elementals"..I started to feel why they have lost their grip of me....was that I was able to rise abowe them...I am on a higher level and here is another support what is positive...I had a vision about vertical ...and horisontal....I have bean pondering on this and now it feels clear...I have to start to develop the knowledge about the plans ...how are they built both vertically and horisontally...


I did by my own will go to bancrupty...I am not that kind of person who cares about ranks and weath as many on this planet does...they can not let go of the hamsters wheel...they have to just work more to get more money to get more bigger cars etc...
I did see the "black hole" what will never be filled ...so I let go..and all those who had claimed to be my friends ..disapeared because I did not have money nor anything they could gain on me (their negs..what is their unfulfilled needs and wants)...but what I riped in knowledge and clarity was enormeous..it was very painful and shameful to see me and understand what and why things happen in my life..I was driven as the most of people on this plandt...to gain famous and fortune...It is nothing wrong to be rich and famous..so do not missunderstand me......it wasmy astral closet what was filled with all kind of non processed emotions...

Everything happens for a reason...the evelution is build in such way...and every plan is build in different "needs" to be met before you can enter a new plan...deep self knowledge...and the higher plans do not let you enter before you have done your home work...so do not let the energies on that plan you are on to lure you away from the Source and the light...Read the Multidimentiona Human...

I can see that my words is wonky but I am sure I get better in explaining what I have understood and gain in knowing.

Love
ia

[Antares]

Hi Antares.

I will tell you my story...I met a man in 2001...who was powerful and whilst I was in contact with him...I was invaded by same sort of energies/entities as you describe ...interupting and making me lack of sleep and having episods of psyhosis....I had my own company so I could decide when to take time of...and when to work...so this went on for several years as you decribe about your life....I was taken advantage of and I was loosing much money...until one day I decided ...this is enough...I left the man`s guidance...and went bankcrupty...I was totally ruined...

I started to build up my life again...I gave me time to heal...and I started to have inner knowing why this happened...it was my own doings...I had to start to look how my emotions is and why the energies so successully blinding and keeping me from to see what was going on.../ at that thime I was not able to process my traumas and not to understand my feelings...about jelousy...grudges)..I have just now resently started to get words to what is what....difference between negs and elementals... everybody has elementals as a part of the level you develp to and to the bodies is part of our consiusness...I am just getting words to link to my experiences.

When I got some distance to this happening with the "negs, elementals"..I started to feel why they have lost their grip of me....was that I was able to rise abowe them...I am on a higher level and here is another support what is positive...I had a vision about vertical ...and horisontal....I have bean pondering on this and now it feels clear...I have to start to develop the knowledge about the plans ...how are they built both vertically and horisontally...


I did by my own will go to bancrupty...I am not that kind of person who cares about ranks and weath as many on this planet does...they can not let go of the hamsters wheel...they have to just work more to get more money to get more bigger cars etc...
I did see the "black hole" what will never be filled ...so I let go..and all those who had claimed to be my friends ..disapeared because I did not have money nor anything they could gain on me (their negs..what is their unfulfilled needs and wants)...but what I riped in knowledge and clarity was enormeous..it was very painful and shameful to see me and understand what and why things happen in my life..I was driven as the most of people on this plandt...to gain famous and fortune...It is nothing wrong to be rich and famous..so do not missunderstand me......it wasmy astral closet what was filled with all kind of non processed emotions...

Everything happens for a reason...the evelution is build in such way...and every plan is build in different "needs" to be met before you can enter a new plan...deep self knowledge...and the higher plans do not let you enter before you have done your home work...so do not let the energies on that plan you are on to lure you away from the Source and the light...Read the Multidimentiona Human...

I can see that my words is wonky but I am sure I get better in explaining what I have understood and gain in knowing.

Love
ia

Thanks for sharing your story.

I think that the thing is way much more complicated than it seems from what I have written below. Remember that when I told you that it's hard to talk about matrix at the beginning of this talk, you advised me to talk about it anyway? So I did it here - and you see your reaction. People assume that something is incorrect with my thinking, not have open minds to listen that some direct experiences may show that we know actually nothing about the universe - except our assumptions...

I've read Carlos Castaneda's books, and I must say I have similar view on many things as Don Juan, a shaman from this book: that the world is totally different than we think. People don't perceive the world itself - they perceive their thoughts about the world.

[IA56]

Thanks for sharing your story.

I think that the thing is way much more complicated than it seems from what I have written below. Remember that when I told you that it's hard to talk about matrix at the beginning of this talk, you advised me to talk about it anyway? So I did it here - and you see your reaction. People assume that something is incorrect with my thinking, not have open minds to listen that some direct experiences may show that we know actually nothing about the universe - except our assumptions...

I've read Carlos Castaneda's books, and I must say I have similar view on many things as Don Juan, a shaman from this book: that the world is totally different than we think. People don't perceive the world itself - they perceive their thoughts about the world.

Hi Antare.
Yes I did encurage you to write on the site ..it was that maybe someone will respond who have the same worldview as you have...because I can not relate to it.
To have different oppinion ...everone have right to have own oppinion...even if it differs alot.

About the Castaneda and Don Juan...I googled ad wikipedia say that scolars think it is a fiction story with fiction karacters...go figure.

Love
ia