IA´s dream diary....

[IA56]

Thank you Korpo...I was not clear I can now see that...I was not afraid of the Alsatian so here my fear is under control...but I fear that the man did put the dog to sit in the same spot I just have left...and I felt...am I under some kind of sorsery influence...and this episod with the dog is trying to tell it to me...The man did have total contro over the dog...and made him sit on his butt in the chaire I just have bean sitting in.....This still awakes my fear...fear that be controlled against my will so to speak....(I have bean as an obedian dog and still fear this, I was brainwashed in 1980)

The cat is as I have bean...with a pouting eye because of thyredea gland went poisoning and was removed by surgery...my eyes is now only 1 mm difference to the other eye....so here I did tell that I am in hospital but no animals are not allowed..and it made me feel that there is nothing more to do ...the astral body is destroyed....can this happen??

I do not need to go therapy..because I have done that very much previous years...now is to put in place and understand what I have had to deny...that we are more than our flesh bodies...that we are mulidimensional beings....Still there is old belief or what I hade to create survival strategies what I must tear down....to dare to be me who I am...and not be what others want or try to make me to be...because of there own fear.....and I can tell....whole my life I have hade to invent so many caracters to fit in...now when I am more me....there is time to time turbulence trying me to go back to one old way of my being...because the real me do awake fear or someting likely...and also it is not easy to after 55 years know or feel who I am...but I am determined to not give in....I am so happy to be here because I know in time I will be what I am truly and in truth.

Fear is ...that maybe all the abuse have destroyed some of my bodies totally....this make´s me cry deeply....so thank you for your input and support....it help´s....Thank you.

Love

[CFTraveler]

Dear IA:
There are a few ways to interpret the energy bodies- one is energetically (mechanically) and the other is metaphorically.
Energy cannot be destroyed, only transformed- the Hermeticists would say transmuted, which is even more narrow (and I think I agree with them)- so you can transmute a type of energy (from sadness to joy, from uncertainty to contentment) but you cannot destroy it.
If you look at the energy bodies metaphorically, the astral body is the body of emotion- interesting that this is part of what you see your problem as being, isn't it? So no, it cannot be destroyed, because you always will have emotion- the emotion might change or be transmuted, and it can even be hidden (repressed or only suppressed) but you still feel it, and it drives you, at least sometimes.
So there are ways (and you already have explored some, I know) to transmute your feelings to something that works for you, but your vehicle cannot be destroyed, so don't add that to your worries, please.
And,
((((a big hug)))).

[Korpo]

Hello, IA.

Again - I see no hint to any foul thing going on with that Alsatian dream. First of all, the man is having his elemental under control, not yours. It looks more like he's showing to you what an under-control elemental looks like. As I said, I know the Alsatian as a shepherd dog. The role it is bred and trained for is to be useful to man.

There remains the question of why your response is fear and worry. You gave the explanation yourself - you referenced the events in the past. It doesn't seem like the dream pertains to those events in your past, rather that you have still some fearful reactions because of them.

[IA56]

Thank you CFT for your input and support...The hug I did need, thank you ...and I hug back.

Yes Korpo you are so right I have still fearful reactions because of past event´s, thank you again, you are so wise.

[IA56]

I have noticed that to have old fear to lean on is better than let go of it because I do not know what will re-place it??!!...So in clearens...I am afraid of my self what I am truly....better keep what I know rather than jump into the unknown....hah!!

My new affirmation: I am the unknow....I am okay...I love myself.

[thedevil]

I have noticed that to have old fear to lean on is better than let go of it because I do not know what will re-place it??!!...So in clearens...I am afraid of my self what I am truly....better keep what I know rather than jump into the unknown....hah!!

My new affirmation: I am the unknow....I am okay...I love myself.

i think it's pretty amazing you came to this conclusion because I feel pretty well exactly the same and am also afraid of myself.

[IA56]

[IA56]

Last night in my dream that a man did show me where the stuff to make bed´s..linen, quilt and so on was. in a small house or stook, he was continueing his task´s and left me in peace to decide where and what I will start with....

In this episod a man did show me a receipt for a goulden ring...but did not give it to me even it was mine, I started to think what ring did I buy in that store, did not be sure that I remembered....

In this episode I was to a baths with pool and sauna...I said...please let me know if you are coming in...so I have a change to put something on me, I do not want to stand here naked (it was men) I wanted to have my integrity...they where smiling in a joke way....

[thedevil]

do you ever dream about snakes IA?

[IA56]

do you ever dream about snakes IA?

Snakes are not a common theam in my dreams, I know I have had some dreams about snakes but can´t recall any of them just now...As a child I alway dreamt about horses and cows chasing me and be agressiv agaist me...or to be shot by gun and I felt the bullits pears my body but I never died??...as an teen I starte to dream about dog´s....but as adult I have rescued cows and ride horses...so I have solved that problem ...I still dream about dog´s but usually I do not feel fear anymore but more what the dog is supposed to represent....

So why do you ask?? Now you made me courious...haha...